9.13.2022 September (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

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Tuesday September 13th, 2022

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

1 Peter 3:8 (GNT) Good News Translation

8 To conclude: you must all have the same attitude and the same feelings; love one another and be kind and humble with one another.

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1 Peter 3:8 in all English translations

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

Thomas Rhett - Blessed (Lyrics)

 

Citizen Soldier - Still Breathing (Official Lyric Video)

 

Zach Williams - Lookin' for You (Official Lyric Video)

 

The Goodness by Toby Mac (Motion/Lyrics)

 

More Like Jesus (Lyric Video) Passion (featuring Kristian Stanfill)

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Wow

When you continually change what you’re doing for so many people, places and things. After awhile it can get heavy when you just do not have enough of anything left for self-care.

There is few and far between that I would ever change as it would change who I am and how I came to know Jesus.

But even the believer has days where things are just screaming ENOUGH already!

All the while smiling deep within looking at what I have been able to see the other side through on.

This year has been a ride for sure.   Ever since Pops died and Mom came down to live at families.

I get to visit in-between work and my service to the church.

Now brining Mom over here and there to spend the night but never at my opportunity but when family needs to do other things.

And yes, frustrating sometimes as I work 12 hours a day sometimes, I have to squeeze any and all appointments in after work which then get squeezed out.

Leaving me to feel selfish or is it because I work my tail off and pay for a home that I have gotten so my family will have stability and at times I give up more than I have to offer.

Or just once it would be nice to hear and see how grateful those are that live within how blessed they really are.

Ohhhhh,  this is not a gripe session

I get it as I read someone who has a six-month-old with three other kids talking about how some days they just want to quit.

Not knowing what their support system is or if it is just post-partum blues for them.  No matter it is as real for them as it is for me on the days, I have to push things that are scheduled out months.

Maybe the selfishness is kicked in if I think about it because I wonder where my support system at times is.

I have given myself away to so many and the only one’s that come back are those needing, wanting more.

Perhaps the rose-colored glasses needed to come off with those who took advantage and I let them drain the last bit of trust and the way I look at anyone.

Not that I judge, I just do not need to be in awe for anyone for anything that cannot be in awe for their own being and the greater good of any part of their future or that of paying it forward for others.

I am my own worse critic and can absolutely beat the daylights out of myself easily.

Forgetting to forgive my own mistakes as quick as I do others.

Still does not make me want to not get on a ship and just disappear at times into the sunset.

I can say the pressure of getting a 4-point inspection done with a wind mitigation for new homeowners’ insurance is as stressful as opening my homeowners annual renewal bill to see the increase of 43%.

Of course, after a new hot water heater because the other was on its way out and ancient and uncoverable by current laws.   And having an electrician go through this 1990 shack to confirm everything was really up to code. 

Then waiting for the results of what else has changed that I need to be investing in when buying someone else’s place some years back.

Think too much about what we have no control.  Heck yes!   

Feel too much for those disrespectful moments where you would like to teach today’s generation what respect is.  Heck yes!

Get weighted down when you put your car in the shop to check why a tire sensor came on and won’t go off to see that not one, but two tires are pealing apart.     Which thank God I was not out on the highway running 70 and it came apart.

Yet here I am just needing to figure out how to get back to my car to pick it up and move forward with blessed another day.

Maybe this is why I have not been writing.   Because unlike any romance novel life is hard and full of triggers that make or break any given day.

We lift our eyes and our hearts and prayerfully feed our spirit 24/7 but even then, no-where was it ever written to be easy.   And for me well I cannot do this on my own, but I absolutely hate being a complainer.

I so empathize with those going through the continual layer's day after day.  Be it work life balance, finance, relationships which by the way you must have in everything and anything you do to some degree.  As without them well as we see the world churning and burning.   The lack of relationship and communication is nothing but chaos, hurt and pain.

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me to release some of this mind maze as I try to keep it simple and not pour out just another want to be romance story of life.    The black and white is what it is until it is not. 

Without you I would be beyond lost.      I too would be the nasty mouthed responder when someone asks me for something.   Or even worse self-destructive ticking time bomb just waiting for the wrong trigger to be pushed and take whatever collateral damage is in the way.

I wish I could change the world, Father.  For my own and yes in reality somedays for myself so I didn’t have to see, hear, or experience reality as harsh as it can be. 

Reality as when things were so simple and now constantly ever working through day by day.   Some better some not.  All Blessed.

If only our tomorrows held our every priceless moment in front of us to know just how precious your creation really is, Jesus.

Until that day comes if it ever does.  May I never forget who I am in and with you.  May I never stop praying and shining any bit of light and hope even in all those things that will come to pass.

Thank you then, Thank you now!