Tuesday, July 30, 2024

Tuesday July 30th 2024-PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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Tuesday July 30th, 2024

Motivational Reads / Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com - Daily Verse

Matthew 5:14,16 MSG The Message

^{14-16 “Here’s
another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in
the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as
public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m
going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now
that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house;
be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to
open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.}

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Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Okay, I have to say seeing today’s verse of the day and seeing the world of destruction and so much suffering of natural disasters where we are rescuing elderly off roofs of homes with pets in arms or babies. And just knowing how blessed they are; but still filled with sorrow of knowing how much innocence and precious souls are scared, alone and lost.

Though I never stop trying; I wonder how much more can this world endure and yet still keep trying.

So much loss, hate and even unnecessary violence.

No I don’t watch the news often at all. I live in an area that goes from June through November for Hurricane season, so I do try to stay aware. And God yes, I am beyond grateful it is not my area today dealing with mass flooding and storms.

Though I know what it is like to lose everything over and over. I am so grateful for now I don’t have to start again.

I am far from perfect and deserve nothing. Yet, over time I have been blessed and when I was able to hear Jesus calling, I thankfully heard.

I never want to live of the world and have all the drama and anxiety or constant recovering of wrong choices. Or worse yet loneliness and chasing love. Never realizing I never even knew my own value.

Falling in love with Jesus: well, I will never be the same!

These days as I stand out in the 90 degree weather watching kids or even playing with them on a Wednesday night seeing through the eyes of nothing I could have ever predicted. Or stepping up on Thursday nights and growing forward with other women to really dive deeper in learning who you are Jesus; and especially who I am.

Holding babies some Sunday’s and earning their trust while they snuggle in just a little closer. Or even those precious moments of just being present for family.

Sometimes it is overwhelming; after working long hours and trying to shake off the secular to just have some sort of balance. All the while wondering how I ever got to be the responsible one.

Not often but even sometimes wondering what will happen to me, when I cannot do it any longer?

Always trying to the best, I can with whatever I get to work with. However, not necessarily always wearing that smiley don’t worry it’ll be alright mask.

My eyes tell the story of years of life, my face carries my emotions and sometimes folks don’t know how to read me. My body well, I am not in Kansas anymore and absolutely not jumping up and do that 20 stuff even when my mind tries me.

Those days that I am mentally exhausted and wondering what I could do differently; yet remembering to stay in my emotional lane the day is not over and the last thing we need to do is let anything spill over on precious family members no matter how tired we get.

Although recently I found myself after 22 years saying out loud; it’s not my job and you are robbing me of being a grandparent. Next time you will need to step up and in. I can no longer be the buffer getting caught in the middle of unnecessary drama that is not mine to own.

As I think about what I can do next to maintain my blessings, live for whatever days I am given next and not go through struggling of what so many are dealing with. All the while remembering when you come from nothing, you leave with nothing so what is the issue in-between.

Stability matters: One of the reasons I stepped up years ago knowing I was raised without any. Losing my grandmother when I was 9 years old, not having a father until pop came into the picture for years and being raised by my big sis pretty much for a period. Well, it is what it is; until it’s not.

Anyway, thinking out loud is a good and bad habit I have as in some cases you just never know what may be crossing through this mind maze and flowing out.

Beyond grateful for all the life God has allowed me. All the messes that transformed into messages or the so many lessons each new day allows me to work through in whatever comes my way.

The one thing that I can say out of all of it. Without the same creator that hangs the moon and stars gives me breath in these lungs and I am nothing without His blessing.

Everything here and now is just on loan.

The times we see it coming, and all the in-between surprises.

Crazy is and is doing in this world we have today. Love those you are given and truly if they are not what you expect. Reevaluate why you expect anything at all.

So as the world turns and the daily everything transpires. Good, bad, and so much unknown especially in an election year. And NO, I won’t ever talk about our government. Only that we so need rescue, fresh morally sound new opportunities to maintain the land of the brave, land of the free. And not just the bullies, throwing dirt at each other.

I know myself so much has changed. The new decade hopefully not but since Covid came to life there has been so much. People are not the same; not even me. How I used to love hitting every concert and music event I could possibly see and hear. Now I have just one I always make sure I attend when they are in the area.

Blessed to work with our worship teams and just the feeling of all the voices praising in one voice. Nothing compares to the love pouring out.

I have to believe that He has me right where he wants me.

So as I take a quick break from work, try some new Yakasobi meal kit for lunch. Which could truly have more flavor; but hey instant is never the real deal.

And if it is, the flavor of life never lasts.

So I will just remember and appreciate my day given and all the currents flowing through this mind map maze for all that I have been blessed with.

I pray deeply for all those suffering, be it out loud or in silence.

Knowing aging is a gift and nothing lasts forever but God’s eternal promise and love.

Healing starts within. It can never be given by anyone else no matter how they make you feel to numb the pain and chase the demons we all have.

We truly have to ride the wave; holding on tight and thank God for all of it.

Through the pain on the other side, we find our purpose. Which is to be a light; big or small wherever we are in the storm.

Lord, wake us up and change our hearts and guide our minds, bodies and words to grow forward.

Protect and guide us from ourselves.

Shine brighter than we can ever possibly imagine.

Heal this nation. Allowing us to fully grasp wants and needs. And stop the madness of entitlement or would of, should of could of; but it did not fit my agenda.