Lord you know my heart, you know my life start So I beg for continued mercy and grace. Allowing every day to reflect your place.
There are many words that will never come to view; many you already know because you are you.
The many while on my knees; or just the conversations in those moments. Jesus whatever will be will be. But I ask for you to hear these prayers as I will post and show those in need immediately the most. When I am stuck in the grey zone. May I be on my knees in time with you alone. For humanity fails daily but you never will.
Although I can't Lord go back and pull all I have written off of Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or anywhere else please intercede for all that be. I lift them high lord as the day grows long. You know my history on this matter of prayer from day one. I wish to start today father and continue this journey. Please Hear each and every soul and the needs of the heart. Please give them the miracle.
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10/31/2018
Lord
thank you for this day; thank you for the focus. Jesus, you know I am transparent and wear my heart on my sleeve; And when I have in my head something will never come to be; I pretty much shut down and sometimes become offensive to that of what I care about the most. I first ask for forgiveness Lord if I have done this lately. I would or could never purposely issue contempt or harm knowingly to anyone or anything I care about. These days even if it is something I detest it takes much to get to that point. Lord it was Pandora's box opened as a game and I had the ability to what I thought was controlling how things were going. Even the simplest actions and openness with such disbelief. Oh father, please guide me and keep me in your will; there is not a day that doesn't go by that my will is trying to take over. When I do I become reckless, uncertain and just all around feeling foolishness. Father I was okay in the desert, I know it is not my choice when you say it is time to move. But Lord almighty. How could one ever belief such a thing! I will always be okay for I have you Jesus; I am good at shutting down, dodging or making a fool diving right in.
I ask please father; you know my heart and my hearts desires. Your will be done father. It is not about the world; it is about serving your kingdom. It is about staying in you safely until you move me to where it is I should be. It is about me not being able to do it on my own. I can't! I am strong, but for whatever has come to light in these recent months; whatever the triggers of insecurity, need and YOU. Please hold me in your will with You're strength and mercy. Lord I ask for protection and guidance of all being consumed by the things unseen, of what is not you and your kingdom. Guide us all; protect us and please never stop showing your children guidance mercy and grace. Protect us from all the false witness all the impersonators be it being impersonated or receiving lies and disruptions to your will.
10/31/2018 (fb)
Jesus thank you for getting us all through the month of October. Lord you know every single thing all of your children have been going through. The great and happy moments, those filled with unknown filled with sorrow or anxiety for some. Or for those who have to say goodbye to loved ones. Those trying to help and fix family and friends. It has been bitter sweet for so many. Yet Lord if we remember all you went through and still feel every day when your children lose hope and faith. Please forgive me, please forgive us. Lord when are feeling weak. May we dive in directly to you and surround ourselves with your warriors. Lord I may say we but I speak for me and pray for all the needs and desires for our family in Christ and all those that are coming to faith because of the good works of TobyMac and all other messengers singing to our souls. Keep them safe and filled up with and for you Lord. Thank you for all you give us. If you wake us another day. May we give it all to you. In Jesus precious name. Amen
10/30/2018 evening
Lord thank you for this day. Thank you for humbling me and thank you for continue to work on me. It is not about me father. Yet like everyone at times, I get caught up and I make so. Lord I know forgiveness in all things is a journey; I pray father for forgiveness of all I have showed contempt or harm; As I forgive all who have harmed me or offended me in someway. Lord I would like to think that there are none; But that would be my human self and untrue. Please Lord guide me and keep my heart pure. You washed it clean long ago; Please father guide me and keep it pure no matter what the pursuit is I should follow. Lord you know I never want to be that Catch and Release person. My entire life I have lived and seen how others build relationships just to let them go or throw them away. I try to keep my circle of close personal souls lord of what some refer to as keepers. Lord although I fail miserably; I try to be open, transparent and loving. Forgive me when I should allow someone in and I cannot without physical tangible evidence. While I thank you Lord for allowing me to survive. Lord I want to be the Love you reflect; Show me how to give and receive this father. While keeping me from the bottom feeders and dwellers. I don't want to give up on this world; Yet it is hard Jesus. Then I remember all you did trying to make a difference. And even then humanity did not get it. Lord I ask for your favor; may I continue to be blessed, grown up and protected by your angels of mercy and grace. May I never become the receiver or taker of a catch and release relationship that jeopardizes all you are to me and my life. No matter how significant I ever feel Lord when it comes to those you put on my path; Please hear my prayers to lift all my brothers and sisters up to you in Christ for healing, protection and guidance with special mercies for the missions you have them on. I lift my biological family and friends up to you for salvation and peace to come to know your blessings. In Jesus Mighty Lord; I am yours there is nothing that can ever change this. Be it interference or choices of what I think at times. You flow through my veins. Always as I was Always As I can be Always Just Me~ Kelly
10/30/2018
There can always be so much said, so many opinions, so much good and even more bad.
I will never have it perfect; EVER. I can dwell on the what if's or why. I can reach out and occasionally I do. Most often I keep to myself. I in the past 20 years have learned to give it to God in Prayer. Then work hard staying busy. So yes those that know me; I talk to God all the time, and am never still. I am blessed to have those I am very close with and be it in our Small group time or one on one in prayer and petition we gather do uplifting bible based study and remind each other; the burdens we carry are not ours to keep. It is hard, give away pull it back. Sometimes all day every day. Did I say, I will never have it perfect; EVER! I will never understand life, never understand the hurt and the pain that so many face. Never understand why some really innocent, good souls suffer and others walk all day in the valley at the expense of others. I have trust issues, I am a show me person. Usually it takes one time until something happens to where I can't trust again. Even then if we connected I still love that person but from a distance. Perhaps it is the blessing God gave me for survival. Do I go through things. Oh yeah; Daily. I have my ups, my downs, my self image, insecurities. My pity party as to why me or why not me. Then I am reminded of all I have been given, not what I have lost or given away. I have been reminded of keeping it simple you can't take it with you. I get the can't take it; but simple for crying out loud. I was a software Quality Assurance tester for 29 years. How do you turn off just keep it simple; My nature is to dig deep in and show proof. Even though I currently am not in that field; It still comes out in life. It has to make sense, it has to flow. I have to pray on it. Yes I do get signs when I am hanging close to the word. Then there are times things just happen and those that they don't. I really try not to stress over any of it anymore. My point with all of this; We all need a relationship with God. Be it you want to believe in Him or not. Your life will change forever. You have to start by prayer, every day and sometimes all day long. You have to believe that He will show you the way and the reasons, In His own time not ours. We all need relationships; Find someone who believes in Jesus even if you don't. Find someone you know you can trust and ask them into your circle and start sharing your world with them, and ask them to prayerfully share their Jesus with you. Things will never be the same. There is an indescribably peace that fills you and stays with you through all storms. The storms will always come; you will lose loved one's, you will face suffering, you will be lonely more in life then not. Things will continue to happen that you don't understand. But with the peace and surrounding of souls that Love and seek the beauty that is left on this earth. You will be a light for those that are at the mercy of evil and you will help get them to safety. I am who I am; Always as I was, Always as I can be, Always Me Just Kelly! I a child of God, filled with more Mercy and Grace than I will ever deserve. It is not my place to judge you, It is not my place to turn my head. It is my place to do whatever I can to lead the way in positive ambitions, and seek fellow believers to lift me up as I am sinking; As I will always be here for those who call upon me.
10/30/2018 (fb) Jeremiah 29:12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. John 10:14 I am the good Shepard; I know my own sheep and they know me.
(Father as each soul awakes this day, with so much on their minds; fill them with your peace. Let someone who believes shine a light of hope into the world they are struggling with. Father protect those who will travel, give healing to those in a crises or going into a crises, Guide us all, and for all who are weary, Father please lift them up, in love, mercy so they may rest their head upon you and be filled with new grace and wisdom. We call your presence Lord to come! Be with us, save us from ourselves. Fill your people to shine brightly for all those who are in the dark. Unify us Father; Let us be the change of Peace and love in Harmony. Amen)
10/29/2018 (fb)
Thank you Lord for another day. With all the distractions of this world, I ask for guidance to make it count. As It’s not about me.
Set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. 1 Peter 1:13 NIV
Lord thank you please continue to protect us from the darkness in this world. With so many gamers, users and abuses out there. Father guide and protect our youth our children and grandchildren. Our future.
Even wen I walk through the darkest valley, I shall not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. Psalm 3:4 NLT
10/28/2018 5:30am (fb)
As I lay here feeling the coolness that has come. Thinking of the days events. I am blessed and thankful for another day. Reminded there have been good and bad in this journey yet I am here to decide how will I choose today. We see the world shaking and crumbling before us. Humanity gone mad. Innocent harmless creatures of God discarded or snatched right before our eyes. Yet we look the other way bury our heads. Just keep keeping on. We complain about all we disagree with and fight if triggered yet never step out in positive faith and action in unity to make a lasting change. Stop the hate. None of us deserve anything even if we have kind hearts. Be thankful for where you are in this moment. You want change dare to be different and be positive be proactive be love. Let some you know you care. ❤️❤️
10/27/2018 11:46am
Dear Lord you know each and every hair on all the human race. I lift up or road warriors, missionaries, Men and Women of God out being messengers for your kingdom. Lord the ones I find as go to and those I have not yet heard. Please Lord guide them, lift them up protecting and loving on them as they do you work. Father keep them close and let nothing but your will transpire changing souls and hearts. For now into eternity Lord. You will be done.
10/27/2018 7:19 am (twitter)
Thank you Lord for this awakening. AS I spend time with you waiting for daylight. Thank you for loving me. Lord whatever it takes help me make and keep it about you. Thank you for all the beautiful souls I cross paths with along this journey.
10/27/2018 5:30am (FB)
Have a blessed Saturday. Say a prayer of thankfulness you are alive because some else’s sacrifices. Jesus 1st then our military men and women who die daily so you can live!
10/26/2018 (FB & Instagram)
Prayer request to make the final words coming out on paper for Blonde By Choice be about the blessings of GOD and not what was.
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Off Guard
10/25/2018
Only the Lord knows my deepest desires. He knows what this life journey has put me through; and what he pulled me out of. He knows I have to have to be close to anyone not just someone who loves Jesus. But all of my expectations, someone that is true, Someone that has a mission heart and wants to be side by side while leading the way. Someone that values and respects and grows through the pain, not adds to or runs. And if that is not meant to be; That the Lord pull me back together and place me where I need to be.
I know this is not over yet; I have grown more comfortable and the turmoil is subsiding.
I am not settling ever, but I have to trust God has a purpose for all that is exposed in my world.
I will remain in love with my dream my sweet soul. When the day comes to life; I know God has a plan greater than anything I am. Until then I will continue to do my best connecting Him through prayer.
If tomorrow never comes for a moment time I experienced promise of a sweet friend of Jesus, the sweetest of souls; Agape Love, freedom no holds. I will wait until I don't. I am not looking; I wasn't when this occurred.
For now I ask for forgiveness in my child like spirit; please lift me up for all I do I pray;; I am all in for Jesus; not me or ever again in this life to waste and feel shame.
If I dream, I try not to; but some day, one day I will lie close again; be able to share love and laughter and work concerns through together. Ride on holding tight; or chilling, cooking or go out fishing before daylight. For now the keeper of my soul will forever be the lover of my soul and the dream of my unknown destiny for my sweet soul and me. For I am always me, who will forever dream and love you for you!
Forever I am and will be a Jesus girl. As I daily pray I may serve His kingdom. Always as I have been, Always as I will be, always just me Kelly~
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I need You
10/24/2018
In this world of nothingness
Where you can dream big
Chase the good Chase the bad
Where you can choose to be happy or Choose to remain sad
Without Christ what would I be
Just another insignificant spec on the universe
Alone and weary
The heart is controlled
you can keep it open or shut down
But you never really know where it is at until the truth comes around
When you realize being in Love with Jesus you have substantial known proof
Yet when you start slipping for someone in humanity that you will never touch
All because you got a little too chatty and such
Was this another test
Was this Gods test to see if I am done with this rest
Imagine when that spark is lit into the glowing flame
You try to play along with the game
Realizing there is no way you are qualified
Then you realize it is burning to close to the soul
You need to hurry and put out the flame.
So you panic before you confirm the truth
The hustle so real. Only God really knows what to say, see, look and feel.
Then what if
What if it really was you
Will my God really allow such thing, Why is this life so cruel?
Thirteen plus years You survive for years
Managing with Gods team and maybe a few tears
So why this, why now
You know you want to; but absolutely don't know how.
How did this ever come to be.
All because you stumbled upon Everything~
What sense of humor our God has
Not saying it is good or bad.
Just know deep in side was fine when all was in reality and closed.
Now what; what do I say, what do I do.
Oh Lord I really need you.
In love
Jesus I need you and your love so much.
Jesus I need your Godly touch.
Father when we think we have it all figured out
Then someone reminds us of the loss, the pain and so much doubt.
Your heart just beats out of your chest and you want to scream and shout.
Jesus I need you and your love so much
Please bless me with your Agape love, spirit, mercy and grace
Please give me the courage, the blessings face to face
Please if it is your will; may my voice be heard in harmony of your messenger
A gift from far above
Jesus I need you and your AGAPE love
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10/24/2018
May whatever comes through my path or I through it's this day. May the spirit of God be deep within me, may the obedience of love and grace outpour. May I be a reflection of hope and what is good. On those moments I cannot; Please surround me and all I am blessed with those pure hearts you have placed in my journeys path.
There is so much brokenness and pain for so many. Those I don't even know and those that share the same blood flows through my veins
Loss and confusion, anger and bitterness, suffering
Lord so much is being wasted so much life that is out there now
As I go through my devotionals and study this morning, I find myself digging deep.
Digging in seeking something that will touch the broken hearted. Something that makes clear sense and will change how one feels about God.
I have never been a theologian never will be. I look and depend on others to lead me there; and then dig in to see what or where it is coming from.
I have always been able to speak with people, feel what they feel hurt for what they hurt for but always hated I could not fix what was broken for them.
Then again I was reminded, I could never fix myself that it was the seed of God that got planted in me over time that one day it sprouted and I thirsted to know more and I grew
There are still days that my brokenness just as everyone else's shines through.
Be it with my career, with my home, with my children
With the losses of loved ones that took place, or ending up in places and loving on people that most would consider the least of these and unworthy to be around
The suddenness of the unexpected that triggers a new kind of normal every single day, sometimes even within each day
I don't know where I am going, I know where I have been
My prayers are pure, my heart is wide open and my soul is cleansed.
Lord for all I am blessed to be part of; May they feel the spirit of God and get to know you
May they be filled up with healing and comfort, may they come to know all that is good in this worldly path and may they stopped being robbed from all that is broken.
May the FAITH of Daniel fill them, the HOPE of Moses guide them and the strength of David push them through to you
May they live and love for the days they have looking out over the horizon and see the beauty that is placed before them. If in dark places may the a light so bright lead them to peace and tranquility giving them the new day and new normal to love where they are at
Heal the brokenness, fill the lonely, May we all give thanks back to you Lord for the sacrifice of you son Jesus Christ and all the suffering and pain that took place to allow humanity in relation with you.
As we have failed you miserably on this earth, may you forgive us. In Jesus precious name Thank you for this day Amen
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God waking thoughts
10/22/2018
My God has a funny sense of humor with me most days
But I will never doubt the Love he carried through his journey on this earth
Nor will I ever want anything more but the Real Love in Christ for my life
My journey on this land since the day I have been placed here, has been!
There are twists and turns I will never know how I survived as they were taking place.
There are reasons I will never know
Sure there are days when I wonder, more than I should
Those days I cry wondering why things go down the way they would
Those days when I think I know I should, All those if only's
I never Picked where I would be in this destiny; In fact so far from it. One thing that was always the same. I always wanted that forever. Forever one true love, forever together someone, forever through anything.
I never got what that really meant Until I met Jesus
Sure my human side goes through emotions
But one thing is for sure
The day My God got through to me
The day My God washed away all the stains that burned in my soul
The day My God shows me time and time again He has this not me
Those will be the days I will forever need
I speak about my soul bleeding on the floor
I am torn at times when I long for that deep physical relationship in Christ
Not lust or sex, yes that comes with being human
Love, honor, respect with that deep oneness mind body and soul
The torment knowing for whatever the reason
I before Christ learned all about the demons of this world
Yet my God pulled me out and holds me dear
I can sit and feel ripped off
But when I look back during the days of chasing the void
There is no great peace I have with Jesus Christ
Some may get it, some may not
I can again testify everything with Christ, He is all I want.
As I get ready to start my days and pray out; Lord your will be done.
For you know the desires of my heart of my soul
Protect me from the enemies who know I am your servant
Guide me through what will be; I am I always will be forever yours In Christ.
Thank you father. for all you have given me. Good, bad and so very unknown. Without you; there is nothing.
always as I was, always as I am always just me Kelly
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Soul---------------
10/20/2018
As my soul
bleeds on the floor before you
There is nothing more to be done.
For this war that is spiritual is far from over
Even though ours has just begun
For this world has no hold on me
In Jesus I am forever free
Though no matter how many seeds are planted
There will also be the weeds
The fight and struggles are so very real
Always trying to surround oneself
With the love unconditionally
Never allowing hate or doubt to prevail
Players of this world
With all their Chaos and turmoil
As my soul bleeds on the floor
Who can I trust in this lonely cruel world
My spirit cries out on this journey
My spirit of Tierney
Knowing where I have been
Knowing how far I have come in Him
For there must be a bigger plan
Everything is far beyond anything that I am
As
For this war that is spiritual is far from over
Even though ours has just begun
For this world has no hold on me
In Jesus I am forever free
Though no matter how many seeds are planted
There will also be the weeds
The fight and struggles are so very real
Strangulating if not grounded deep within
Always trying to surround oneself
With the love unconditionally
Always trying to never allowing hate or doubt to prevail
Please have mercy on me Jesus Mercy in this world
As my soul bleeds on the floor before you
There is nothing more to be done
For you have sacrificed your only begotten son
What is human agape love father please tell me this
Jesus show me what is to be done, what should it be next
For my soul bleeds on the floor before you, All I can do is hold tight and try not to run
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
There is nothing more to be done.
For this war that is spiritual is far from over
Even though ours has just begun
For this world has no hold on me
In Jesus I am forever free
Though no matter how many seeds are planted
There will also be the weeds
The fight and struggles are so very real
Always trying to surround oneself
With the love unconditionally
Never allowing hate or doubt to prevail
Players of this world
With all their Chaos and turmoil
As my soul bleeds on the floor
Who can I trust in this lonely cruel world
My spirit cries out on this journey
My spirit of Tierney
Knowing where I have been
Knowing how far I have come in Him
For there must be a bigger plan
Everything is far beyond anything that I am
As
For this war that is spiritual is far from over
Even though ours has just begun
For this world has no hold on me
In Jesus I am forever free
Though no matter how many seeds are planted
There will also be the weeds
The fight and struggles are so very real
Strangulating if not grounded deep within
Always trying to surround oneself
With the love unconditionally
Always trying to never allowing hate or doubt to prevail
Please have mercy on me Jesus Mercy in this world
As my soul bleeds on the floor before you
There is nothing more to be done
For you have sacrificed your only begotten son
What is human agape love father please tell me this
Jesus show me what is to be done, what should it be next
For my soul bleeds on the floor before you, All I can do is hold tight and try not to run
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
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10/18/2018
Have you ever had the day where your mind is on a roller coaster
I have had a few the past several days; wondering what is going on with me, this mind hardly ever shuts down. If I am lucky I will only have one dream. Some nights I know I am dreaming waking exhausted yet can't remember what is
Others I dream so real it scares me. I remember the dreams I had in my youth that as time went on I was walking into a rewind. Sometimes everything makes sense, others I think I am going crazy.
I am thankful for the dreams when I would wake screaming and fighting to breath are very rare. Although at times I sometimes still jump up.
I am blessed and I no longer wonder why my past was the way it flowed, I am blessed and thankful I have been given a strong spirit. I am thankful I did not burn up too many brain cells and was able to fight my way through. Not a physical fight; but that of not giving up to be like everyone else with an excuse.
I am thankful my God got through to me and I know where all my blessings come from.
Even on the days I am worn out and frustrated; wishing I could keep up. Praying someday it will be my turn. I have been working since I was 14, I have supported myself and my children, and everyone else that had needed help along the way, or those I was trying to fix.
I am thankful I finally learned even though it is hard, it is not my job to fix anyone. I am learning how to push the baby bird out of the nest and just pray fast and furious she flies high with the angels and stays out of Satan’s playground.
That is hard when she has baby birds of her own. I have been blessed 17 years to help guide the way even when it was not what it should have been. Maybe that is what the inability to sleep and feeling it these days. It won't be long that the 17 year old will be on her own; And the 7 year old will need guidance. I know what it was like when my grandmother died at age 9 and I had no one.
So how do I get those images out of my mind and just let go and let God. Every time we are so close there is something. These are God's children not mine. I know the time is getting near; I don't move unless he moves me. When I got this home so stability had a place it was His doing. Yet anymore I wonder when can I feel rest, will I ever feel half of what I put out.
Then I feel guilty for making it about me; It is not about me, It never has been.
I wonder how long I can keep going, My prayers are constant for Jesus to never let me go; He has been holding me up and close all my life and closer when I finally met him where he was at.
I am blessed spending time with these kids the little one learning to read the bible with me. The older one has such a great head on her shoulders. Yet I cry inside knowing, at some point they will be gone as well.
That brings flashbacks from long ago, how I would cry when everything I ever got close to; ended up dying or leaving. I became a master at loving from a distance. It has worked, it has been my safety net for years. Never having any issues even if sometimes I got the blues.
Yet lately feeling things so differently; I ask you Jesus as I say you have such a funny sense of humor. I ask you, What do you want from me? What should I be doing? Show me Lord; Send someone to teach me your ways for this world.
Father, I can laugh, cry, scream out, sing out. I need you Jesus. I need you on the outside; I need you through my veins. Lord I need to learn how to trust, Not over think and worry what if's.
I thank you I have been blessed with my son, with my daughter with my grandchildren. With all the material things and all those that matter most. When looking up in your sky father, I need love looking back at the same exact time. You placed every star, the sun and the moon. Your beauty is beyond explanation. How I melt as I look off into the distance. It is all about you. Yet when I am unable to look away. Please help me to stop being consumed; Please help me do your will and move forward and not feel like I am frozen in retreat. calling out every single flaw.
Jesus as what will become some of the most famous and memorable lyrics go. "I see you in everything". Please may I never stop feeling or remembering this.
I know what will be will be. Keep me focused Lord I pray; until you reveal what next.
Thank you Lord for the strength you have given me through out time. Please guide me through the doubtful moments. Reveal your love Jesus. You know my heart, You know my desires. I am broken. Please keep me from running away. Please guide me deeper into your arms. Your will; your mission, your message.
Thank you Lord for the power of prayer; for the blessing of messages you give me to share. Please hear my raw emotion. Me from the inside out.
In your mighty precious name. I love you Lord. With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
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10/13/2018
I can look back and find a million things that can justify the faults I have today and feel justified.
I can look ahead and find the same million why what some think am frozen.
There is a fine line between good and evil. Sometimes we must get stuck in that gray matter face down to realize only God is the one true thing in this world. Then and only then may we gain the confidence to let it go. Those things that torment our heart and soul and find peace in HIS presence
Yet, I can say quickly brief reference why I fell in love with God and His Son Jesus.
SACRAFICE
John 3:16 New International Version (NIV)
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
HONOR
Deuteronomy 5:16 Honor your father and your mother, as the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the Lord your God is giving you.
HUMANITY
Hebrews 2:14 Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might break the power of him who holds the power of death—that is, the devil—
LOVE
Psalm6:4 Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.
John 3:16 New International Version (NIV)
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
BEAUTY
1Peter 3:3-4Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.
Isaiah 33:17 Your eyes will see the king in his beauty and view a land that stretches afar.
PEACE
Psalm 4:8 In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.
ABUNDANCE
Genesis 27:28 May God give you heaven’s dew and earth’s richness— an abundance of grain and new wine.
Jeremiah 2:22Although you wash yourself with soap and use an abundance of cleansing powder, the stain of your guilt is still before me,” declares the Sovereign Lord.
GRACE
Ephesians 2:8-9 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.
PROTECTION
Psalm 91 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. …
HOPE
Job11:18 You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety.
FAITHFULNESS
Genesis 24:27 saying, “Praise be to the Lord, the God of my master Abraham, who has not abandoned his kindness and faithfulness to my master. As for me, the Lord has led me on the journey to the house of my master’s relatives.”
Palm 40:11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord; may your love and faithfulness always protect me.
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With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
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10/10/2019
Dear Lord
Lord we know it is written all these things will come to be; yet none of us know when the end time will be. I pray Lord that your Mercy and Grace send your angels Lord to Lift us up, Hold us up and give us the courage and strength to fight all of the elements coming at us. We do all matter Lord; Each and every soul has a mission and need for and with you. It doesn’t mean we all go out stand on corners yelling the world is coming to the end. Or become vigilantes. But Lord; Dear Jesus, you know where each and every soul stands. Your will be done father, not our own. May humanity come together before, during and after all storms for whatever life is left while we are in this world!
Lord
We praise you for allowing your chosen one’s to come together. Allowing us like minded brothers and sisters in Christ to keep us strong, aware and allow us to know we are and never have been alone. We know as time goes on we will need you and all of your soldiers, angels and messengers more than ever.
I pray a special thanks that eyes are opening and ears are hearing how your works are alive and breathing. Lifting up special prayers of protection and thanks in acknowledgment for the leadership with and for your people and the creativity bringing relevant impacting messages with his music. For the talent you have imposed on this soul and the heart he carries for you and your people, out into this world. Thanks of praise and abundant prayers of protections, physical, emotional, spiritual nourishment for all our Prayer warriors and partners in your Name. For those who feel everything they are praying for and those walking in the trenches blessing in your Name. May you’re will Jesus fill us each day.
As I see no greater alignment at this time Lord that you are showing us what you say is true; As we in the world watch the news listen to the radio. If we look around in our own families and friends and people we know. All they are being impacted by. So many people father giving up, struggling. So many good souls experiencing tragic devastation. We must believe Lord in you and all you lived and died for. That no pain is greater than that of which you were pierced, beat, broken and hung on a cross. So we could live. May we never forget; May we continue to fight in and with you through the Elements. May you continue to use us; those as Toby Mac and all who have been called forward! The Elements have never been seen so openly painful and chaotic as they are these days.
Environmentally the world that you created, that we in humanity truly do not really appreciate the way you intended. This world is going through so much destruction and pain, from the volcanic eruptions in beautiful Hawaii to the continuous earth quakes, and storms. Lord we know you have your hand on all things. From the environmental storms straight to the storms we carry deep within.
Lord please give us the strength and the right message at the right time to keep us focused on you. Year over Year there is so much heartbreak around us, death, destruction, physically, emotionally, environmentally. How discouraging and angry we can become watching beauty and innocence destroyed without reason. Humanity so much Humanity lost for no reason.
Lord I love You, I thank you. I know there are so many more out there that get you even more then I ever could; please guide us; and allow us to shine the light and as ours is dimming our brothers and sisters align with us for your mission. May all on the front lines have you're special blessing!
In Jesus name AMEN
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
----------CREEPS UP
10/08/2018
Even those of us with the best of intentions daily; wake up some mornings feeling a little off.
Feeling like you don't want to motivate
Thinking how nice would it be to:
Just stay snuggled in bed
Just have that special person to chill with all day
Do something worthy and memorable with someone special with no expectations
Not often do these moments catch me off guard
I guess knowing I have dedicated my last several years to my girls and to serving the Lord
Knowing I was leading them so close keeps me accountable
I will never stop serving
As I have far to much to be grateful for and no way do I ever want to lose my blessings because of stupid dishonoring actions
But I know there will be an emptiness outside of my working and serving.
I never planned to be where I am today. Absolutely never expected to be so blessed.
The Lord has walked with me in all my life; For all the evil I have seen, all the struggles I have battled through. All the wrong choices and lessons learned.
I dove in head first to try and make sure my kids were not impacted; When they were grown and I could no more. I took over to protect the granddaughters.
Knowing once I lost my own grandmother at age 9 never having anyone else to look out for me.
Even though I am young, I am feeling it with the oldest grand just turned 17 and the youngest 10
I am finally seeing the blessings that I did not screw my kids up to terribly.
We all get there in our own time. I certainly did once I got past all the hate, and hurt.
all the chasing everything trying to fill the lifetime of voids.
And now here I am years later with a career, healthy, blessed single as it gets for the past 13.5 years.
and about to go through another round of empty nesting.
So even in my best intentions when you least expect it. Some mornings you wake up wondering about the would of should could of. The moments of if ever?
I have always been good moving forward when I can dedicate to someone or something else. I don't handle me well at all.
I do know if ever the day comes where I am given a companion; I want the love I feel towards JC.
Nothing more Nothing less. If it never happens at that level. I just want to serve and surround myself with those who get it and those who love all that Christ lived and died for without all that domination bs, hateful agendas.
But me independent as all get out; in the school of life hard knocks and by the wolves of this world. Trusting is the balance when it comes to others agenda's why they would want to connect.
Needing but not needy. In fact so self sufficient, that now I think why would I need a honey for my do list, that thought makes me think crazy. I have had it all, lost it, had it stolen, gave it away. I take nothing without giving more. I never want anyone to try to control me. Only that of equality and trust, Agape Love! No expectations. Deep unconditional Love.
Until that day comes; I will continue to admire those who walk the walk, those who serve.
those who create the harmonies that sing to my soul. Music is the passion that nothing can replace.
I will be here; until I see Jesus face to face~
Crazy thoughts I woke with this day. In Him my life is possible
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
