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Date: Saturday, February 6, 2021
Meditation Opportunities
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Verse of the Day
Proverbs 21:21 (MSG)
21 Whoever goes hunting for what is right and kind
finds life itself—glorious life!
Proverbs 21:21 (NIRV)
21 Anyone who wants to be godly and loving finds
life, success and honor.
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
Matthew 11:28-29
“Come to me, all you who are weary
and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in
heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”
1 Timothy 2:8
I want men everywhere to lift up
holy hands in prayer, without anger, or disputing.
Zechariah 1:3
Therefore tell the people:
This is what the LORD Almighty says:
“Return to me,” declares the LORD Almighty, : and I will return to you,”
says the LORD Almighty.
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com
Yesterday Is
Gone @Drew K @mtpowerranger
Maybe It's Okay @ We Are Messengers
Cry Out To
Jesus @Third Day
There Was Jesus
@Zach Williams ft. Dolly Parton
To The Table @Zach
Williams
You Never
Change @Austin Stone Worship Live
Clean @Natalie
Grant
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Still thinking about the question
presented on Thoughts with Pastor Al: What
is the most difficult part when we finally decide to leave our baggage behind? My reply: Knowing when you’re in that spiritual tug of
war and knowing what you need to do. But
allow yourself to be paralyzed by not repeating what caused the baggage in the
first place, because you don’t want to risk or repeat what made it baggage
being tossed to start with. It’s all
about the delusion of control in those brief moments we forget God always and
already won.
There is always a message in what
we consider to be messy or really a mess in our day to day.
No matter what we tend to worry
ourselves over, strive for or even do things to achieve what we think we must
do, must have and later be disgruntle, disheartened, or even disillusioned because
we thought it, they would be what makes and takes us to the next level.
Hurt, pain, anger that we take out
on ourselves, or others because we believed in the illusion that we really had full
control over what is or will be in our lives.
Don’t get me wrong; I absolutely
believe we are the makers of our destiny.
However, I also believe just because we get somewhere, we intended does
not mean it is what we envisioned in our minds or hearts.
How else do we get the most
beautiful romance novels and movies where someone is truly in love and souls
are connected; yet they never see that person again. Due to time travel, happenstance, or death.
Happenstance could be wrong time,
wrong place or just we were never meant to be in the first place but because
our hearts want something so bad, we look past all that should have been and
try to make it what we think it should be.
Bonnie and Clyde connected, bound
and crazy together until the end no matter what the cost.
I do not think God intended for
that love and romance to become so violent or the harm that took place in the
end.
Our unique but twisted mind maze
we think, make choices or not that we are given.
So much baggage created by what we
think, what we do. But even more lasting
collateral damage for the world to mock, see in history.
What about the right now? Sure, we can go back in time and learn from
it. Retrospect is an important process
no matter what we apply it to. But yesterday is gone! There is no getting back the time or do over
what has already been set into motion.
No matter how many times we go back and get stuck there.
Tomorrow is never promised; yet we
rob ourselves of our todays because of the choices we make or ignore to make.
Balance is so ridiculously hard to
find on our own. Yet God has made the
way for us to always cling and turn to Him through His son Jesus.
Yet I know myself no matter how
many years I grow forward learning of my blessings and who I am. I still play that spiritual tug of
war. Taking my eyes off eternity, clinging
to yesterday, driving myself crazy even when I have it all together in everyone
else’s vision.
If only we all could live like with
that child like faith and vision. Where we
just live, we just love, we just laugh. That
we are those resilient souls that when something bad happens it just rolls off
our backs and we keep moving onward following the light ahead. Learning to become the reflection of light
for those by, side-by-side or behind us.
Forgetting or never believing God
has already won, He already knows the ending to the movie and story. We forget that if something did not work
out there is a reason. It is not our
job to chase and waste time trying to deep dive in and try to get a different
ending.
No one especially me wants to lose
anything. I have grown up in the shadow
of rejection my entire life.
Growing up on my own feeling like
a throw away kid later to know we are all human and kids having kids well it is
what it is. To find out the man that I
grew up knowing as my biological father pretty much hated me to learn at age 50,
I was never his child to start with.
That the father I never met died
that same year I found out and I not only have the siblings I only know but an
entire slew in my bloodline.
That the man who was a decorated
veteran, worked in law enforcement and served to protect children actually abandoned
his own and only openly acknowledged those that the women who stuck by him for all
his married life.
That the marriage of my mother and
father was thrown away because I was a product of rape. Or so it was said to be. Some things I will never know.
However, no matter what the
generations before us went through or caused.
We have the abilities to let go of that spiritual tug of war and make a
difference. We can create and be the
change. We can be the reflection of
light.
My entire youth spent feeling
unwanted and discarded unless it was at the hands of predators.
Staying numb to survive. I am not the only soul in this world that life
was what it should not have been. I am
not the only kid being woke out of a sound sleep being raped by a fat nasty
drunk that is supposed to be a family friend to look after you.
Nor would I have ever been a kid
that stayed drugged up from 10-14 just because that was all I new back
then. I can assure you trying to kill
myself as a teenager was the best thing I could have done. Not caring and being tough and taking the
pain and danger to an entirely different level and learning to survive even if
I never knew why. Was everything and I
am not the only one that has their own stories.
Everyone of us have someone going
through so much the same even when different.
If there is one thing I can not shout loud enough. It is okay to not be okay!
We all have a story, we all have
happiness, pain. Everyone of us if we
are back up again this day have been blessed to call out to Jesus and dig deep
and fight forward to grow forward.
Taking all that was and know if we
are on this side of it; we are blessed and if we are still in it. Seek guidance, protection and that God Lead
me, lead you.
I have story after story that
layers up the scars from brokenness and fighting on my own. From playing tug of war with the world and
with giving it to God at the foot of the cross and sometimes still finding
myself going back and trying to pick it back up and make a different result.
Everything I am everything you are
created in the image of God. Worth more
than anything temporal in this world and day to day we get into.
From the so close that you can
feel someone breathing thousands of miles away.
To the distant buried under some mound on the side of the mountain you
will never think twice to go climb.
So, what you were never harmed,
never did any drugs, or bad things in your childhood. Yet you still just feel so off, lost or so
sad you just can’t. Everyone has demons in their closet that they
are trying to bury. Some trying to mask,
some trying to eliminate, some just not even sure what, when or why. We
all got stuff. We all got a story. We all have our own baggage.
Perhaps it is that we call it life
and do the best we can in the ways of the world with everything the world has
to give. Sometimes we just numb ourselves anyway we
can. Sometimes we let those who have
all the answers direct us. Sometimes we
just keep trying or putting all our faith into others and when we are let down enough,
we just collapse and remain paralyzed.
Or not! Perhaps we take on the
world, avoid dealing with our immediate relationship with the creator by taking
life from others.
Until that one day we finally have
that Ah Ha moment. There was
Jesus! I have always prayed to God; I have always worked hard to survive and
when I had my children young. I worked
every day. I choose for me to never
let others look at me as just another piece of meat making a living. I also because of being scarred so young. Never opened me up to trust when people were
genuinely no agenda friends and cared. At least not until I met Jesus right where I
was.
Many won’t understand or want to
even consider what I say when it comes to the love, the abundance of great
peace and joy in the depths of this soul.
It is because of God’s love that
he sent his son to die so we could live.
It is because of Jesus I; You, still get back up each day.
It is because of our choices which
direction we add layers to any given mountain we have in front of us.
We are not alone in any of
it.
I chased my entire young adult
life just wanting someone to really show me I mattered. Exposing myself to physical, verbal, and
emotional strife. It took me to have
children and want them to have more to understand there was something different
transpiring.
Along the way, we will always make
mistakes or choices that seem to be offensive to those to or around us.
There will be sacrifices we give
for all that is temporary. You are and never will be alone unless you
choose to be. God is with you always;
call upon his son Jesus!
No matter what we do or have done. Bring it all to the table. Face down, in the corner of the room you stand
or sit right now. Let his life seep
into your veins and know there is so much greater and higher power than
anything we are or ever will be.
Let go of the baggage that has us
trapped, suffocating, or doing so much that just can never be enough. Especially when those you do it for, never
intended to show up or just be for you the way you dreamed.
Life in this world is what it is
until it is not. None of us truly ever
wanted harm, chaos, or any type of brokenness.
Sometimes we are seeking, sometime are broken long before and our
circumstances get the best of us.
Change will come; good bad or
indifferent!
We can when we want to and put
effort forth!
It happens! However, God never does!
Finding myself is something I am
doing every day. While doing my best
with what I am given to work with.
Doing my best to stop playing tug of war. Doing my best to know who I belong to. So, on those days I put all I am into those who
really never intended anything more past their own intentions. Or those days those I really genuinely care
for suffer because that is just sometimes happens in this world. Doing my best to keep getting back up.
One thing is absolutely beyond
anything this world could ever be or do.
God’s love is what keeps this
heart from turning to stone. God’s love
and power is what ultimately wins. It
is His love that allows me each day to get back up. It is His love and sacrifice that allows us
to not need a reason to love others and care about them. Without any agenda but to just be.
It is his gift of sacrifice that
is our gift of life. Nothing more or
less.
He always is, was and will
be. Jesus has already overcome. Jesus has already won. Lay it down and stop playing with what we
cannot win.
Father God thank you for this new
day; for all these thoughts that flowed so freely this day. Thank you for your healing of me, of those
given to me. Of those who are yet to
come.
Protect and guide your children
Jesus. May the reflect your light and when
they cannot see it; may they just be one.
Thank you for your army of angels in
ministry in this world that just is what it is until it’s not.
Protect and guide us. May the love you allow us to fill up with
be the sweetness that you alone my Forever Sweet Soul King continue to pour out
and into all I am connected. Love beyond
time and space through out eternity.
Forever yours freely given to all who believe.
Help us Lord believe, restore each
and every soul I am connected. Your
blood has washed us clean. Nothing is
too much of anything for you Lord. May
we know who we are in you, with you and most importantly for you!
