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Date: Tuesday, March 9,
2021
Meditation Opportunities
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)
When We Fall Apart @Ryan Stevenson ft. Amy Grant &
Vince Gill
Ruins @Joe L Barnes & Nate Moore @Maverick City
Just Wanna Be Happy @Kirk Franklin
Reckless Love (Live with story) @Cory Asbury
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)
I will be the first to admit I do not understand fully
how a God of the Universe allows innocence to be robbed, hate, and hurt to go
on and evil dwellers to suck the life out of so many beautiful souls.
How so many that never really even had a chance to
fully understand and accept the blessing of peace that making Jesus their one
and only; before they were taken out by means of addictions, self-inflictions
and even that at the hands and feet of those who just are who they are and do what
they do. Much less those that purposely
have become Satan’s soldiers and hunt and stalk to take whatever life from
anything or anyone they can at any time.
What I do know is we all get to choose how or if
we will cope with whatever is going on.
Certainly, a baby, a toddler or even an adolescent may not understand
the choices they make when they become that rebellious spirit but the make the
choice.
But as we get older, we get to know more and still
have that same blessing of freedom of will. We get to act and choose what we
will do and how we will react.
That same blessing or curse depending how reckless
our choices become is ours until we give it away. Give it away because we dabble in the
sandbox and played with drugs and now, we no longer can think for ourselves and
give our will away to the demons the drugs possess. Give it away because that once wild crazy
choice that would be the rush of a lifetime has put us in prisons and in the
hands of others to now tell us when we can and cannot do anything. Or even that one split second we thought we
had this. And our lives are over, not
even mattering how or why because now there is no more.
We get to choose if we want to dive deep and fight
forward and be our authentic self the best way we can and know; we all get to
believe in something, and goodness starts right within.
Knowing that the God of the universe even though
we cannot see Him we can touch and breathe in all the beauty that surrounds us.
There is a
sense of freedom knowing that everyone single person you connect with in this
world will have opinion and sometimes even a judgement. But even the captives of any prisoner have
no hold on the mind and what we truly allow to be.
It is extremely hard to explain but the day you
finally understand you are worth more to the creator and for who your authentic
self is than anything or anyone in a universe of beings that turn on each
other, toss out babies or sell them for their own sick twisted pleasures.
Mothers and Fathers choosing to pretend and
collect off the benefits of what is lies and temporal rather than dig in and teach
kindness, love and self-reliance or protection through moral values and who and
what it means to know choices matter.
Burning in our own luxury furnaces be it the evidence
of what should have never been or entire lives that are suffocating and
paralyzing those who do not want an image ruined.
I do not understand how a God so big that has
destroyed humanity once has promised never to be so again. Yet, how it must hurt over and over as if those
spikes are running through his own sons’ hands and feet again and again because
now, he must watch what he created for good destroy itself one soul at a time.
We say we love yet we easily turn our backs. Ready to point fingers and find fault as long
as we do not have it blamed on us. But
wait! What about those who proudly take ownership; what about those who really
do not care and always have something negative to say.
Is it really true that God will judge us at the gates? Is it true that everyone comes full circle
with their misdeeds and even when those that have hurt, broken even destroyed will
never see justice The God of all things
will direct our steps because we did not choose to even want to know who Jesus
really came for, suffered for, and relived the stripes of all injustices over
and over again?
Stepping up and stepping in; caring, sharing just
being even the smallest glimmer of hope, of peace when a loving arm wraps
around you and you cannot remember the last time someone really held you.
More that that 5 or 15 minutes of seductive pleasures
or even the drugs you allow to take over your body.
That deeper meaning that we do not fully
understand until that one day you just know something has changed.
No longer needing to prove anything to anyone;
fearful and never really knowing what next.
Just knowing that you are created in the image of a God who is jealous
for all our focus yet blesses us with even the willingness to meet His son
Christ Jesus and want more every day we are given air in our lungs.
Sure, we can go to seminary, or any other bible
teaching or secular college that teaches us what the bible is meant to be.
Yet no amount of knowledge will take the place of
truly knowing who you belong to, and who you really are and that your worth is
far more priceless than anything anyone can give, promise, or dress you up in.
Advocating for all that is good and authentic will
always have controversy. Those we love
will always feel the stick of the thorns; yet we remember the most beautiful
colors and flowers of the world sometimes have the sharpest thorns as they continue
to grow.
What is happiness?
I know for me I have many moments of heart felt bliss,
but I am not sure that temporary happiness of some of my favorite anything really
counts. That deep joy that flows
through our veins that is what is hard to balance.
I think having the peace and a love for the one
who tried so hard in the brief time He was allowed to walk the earth. Wanting everyone to know and have the best of
what was right within their own being.
That great peace that consumes me knowing if I
live or if I die; I finally know who I belong to and that it is not my fault
that the adults that were blessed to bring me in this world did not know
themselves or understand what the world would do because they were too busy fighting
their own demons trying to grow up.
Yes, my story allows me the right in my mind that
I could have hated people and those who were supposed to be for me my entire existence. Family oh yes, my immediate was a mom with
3 kids me one. But surrounded by a
dozen of her own brothers and sisters and not one of them having it together to
do anything but cast judgement as they went on to do their own lives. What about the on the other side of the
family 8 more relatives and although loving when we seen them. None stepping up.
Almost as if you were damned if you did and damned
if you did not. Never really knowing why
a man who was to be your father hated you so much. Never really having full attention of anyone
being who genuinely cared. But so many
judges to show how to do this or do that or chastise and never lead by example.
It all made so much sense the day on my 50th
birthday when I learned through AncestryDNA that the household of what I only
knew was just broken pieces of what really was.
Maybe that is why that same God that did love the
world so much and gave His only son; gave me a sister and brother by a mother who
was so lost and broken she struggled to just stay alive.
Everyone has a story; every single one of us. Good, bad, or colorful or sanctified and
thankful.
So, who am I to try and convince anyone of anything?
I am not, I can only suggest that when you feel so
alone, when you feel you do not know what next. Meet Jesus where you are. Under the influence, straight as a fine
line. It does not matter if you are face
down or screaming at him to show you what, why and how.
What matters is that you do.
Life is not easier without day-to-day layers. For sure!
Life does not stop with all the chaos and pain that flows through,
around or in us. But as you come to
know the one true King the Messiah of all that is good, all that is pure all
that is for others. This indescribable
lift and shift takes place within your own being.
I believe and what I believe may not matter or
maybe it does. We all get to choose.
But when it comes down to it. We all get to find ourselves and really know
our value when the world casts us out with such condemnation and contempt more
often than just seeing a soul and its worth for who they are and not what they
do or look like.
It all starts with me, all with you and we all
bleed the same. So, before you judge
and I have to stop myself sometimes as well, in keeping it real. Somethings and some people just have me
thinking way too much and believing there really must be something for what the
world says if we cannot justify what we cannot understand.
However, the truth is and always will be between
each and every soul and Christ Jesus sitting at the right hand of God.
Instead of celebrating and trying to prove who we
are trying to be. Why are we not just
celebrating life and being our best selves and lifting up anyone who is in need?
Trust me I am a parent and with my own hurts, habits,
and hang-ups I am sure I added to the layers of my beautiful children.
Yet blessed and hopeful they know right from
wrong, and the freedom of the choices they get to make also must be accountable
for the results and impacts of the choices.
Even if and especially when they do not go according to what we plan.
I love them unconditionally and all that I am
belongs back in the hands of the one that allowed me to come in this world to
start.
I have tried allot, I have been through allot believing
here, believing there. But nothing has
filled the gaps and voids and put me at ease as that of the son of man.
If there was a way to pour that into every single being,
I connect and give them the fullness and peace and vision to see the mercy,
grace and abundant love and need to get back up. I would over and over again.
Instead, I am given the love to just tap out
things I have never scripted even if sometimes I am kept awake at night
wondering if I should reach out to this one or that one.
We are all given our place in this world. We are all given talents and abilities. We are all given that which washes through
us with abundant peace and love that you want to explode.
That if anything in all that is good; all that is
pure; all that is lasting, is what I pray for every soul I have been blessed to
feel, touch, know, connect.
You are more beautiful and priceless than anything
in this world or anything that has ever been done to you or taken from
you. Never doubt the meaning and
purpose why you are here. Dive in and
even when your want, you desire, you feel.
Give it all and call upon His name to see you through. It will surprise you how life really just
begins.
It does not change the fact you could be a badass
anything. Or that you can talk or write
about something so beautiful, so powerful and sometimes use bad words all in
the same breath or even get up with great intentions and make pure hot messes
of any day given.
However, it does mean as time goes on; one day you
wake up and realize the same power that rose Jesus from the grave is the same
power you called upon when calling his name.
Now lives within you and all that you are. Give it back to God and ask him to lead you
then, now, and always.
Lord reck me and all I am connected with your
love. That which you leave the 99 and
come to show me my worth and love. Wash
through all I will ever come to know all I will ever connect. Fill us up Jesus!
Lord surround me with those who know you
best. May I listen, learn, respect, and
grow in you and all that is true. Protect and guide me and all I am connected
from those that are good at pretending.
May I live in truth and be as you call me to be. Not that will of my own. May I never stop loving, may I always try and
fight forward. Getting back up even if
only to crawl where every you send me.
Thank you for this day.
(Biblegateway.com) Bible
Verse of the Day
9 He has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we
have done but because of his own purpose and grace.
This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time,
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with
Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
1 Peter 1:3-4 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord
Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has
given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from
the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in
heaven for you.
Psalm 34:23-24 If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes
his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him
with his hand.
Psalm 18:30 As for God, his way is perfect; the word of
the Lord is flawless, He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.
Jesus Freaks @dc Talk and The Voice of
the Martyrs Revised and
updated addition True (Stories of Those
who Stood for Jesus, the Ultimate Jesus Freaks)
“I am no longer
my own, but Yours.
Put me to what You
will, rank me with whom You will; put me to doing, put me to suffering; let me
be employed for You, or laid aside for You, exalted for You, or brought low for
You; let me be full, let me be empty,
let me have all things, let me have nothing:
I freely and
whole heartedly yield all things to Your pleasure and disposal.
And now, glorious, and blessed God, Father,
Son and Holy Spirit, You are mine and I am Yours. So be it.
And the covenant now made on earth, let it be ratified in heaven. Amen. @Covenant
Prayer of John Wesley (1709-1791)
