07.04.2022 July (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday July 4th

Independence Day | History, Meaning, & Date | Britannica

 

This Day in History - What Happened Today - HISTORY

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Psalm 33:12 (ICB)

Happy is the nation whose God is the Lord.
    Happy are the people he chose for his very own.

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Weekend services @New Life Christian Church -Sprint Hill https://fb.watch/e2zvq9cN6X/

 

Independence Day (by Martina McBride)~Lyrics video

 

White Heart - Independence Day (1990, Enhanced)

 

Anna Richey - Stand (Original Patriotic Song)

 

TobyMac - Promised Land (Lyric Video)

 

Gratitude - Brandon Lake | Moment

 

Kari Jobe - The Blessing (ft. Cody Carnes) (Radio Version) (Lyric Video)

 

Sunset Listen Through - Hymn Of Heaven (Acoustic Sessions)

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Standing alone is far better than not standing alone or in the middle of someone else’s chaos and drama.  What do we fight for anyway?  Who are we fighting for?  Who are we fighting with?

Together or just against anyone we can?

A little nostalgic today being in about one hour from now 43 years ago an eighteen-year-old kid was giving birth to an amazingly talented awesome son that became the most handsome, logical, and independent God-fearing man.     One of my true blessings were the children the Lord of this universe allowed me to call part of my life story.

Never wondering what my life would have been without the gifts of pain, sorrow, struggle, and purpose for the little lives I was blessed.  Lord knew I could not find the purpose for my own.

Promise Land everything happens for a reason and ours is not to chase the spin trying to figure out what that reason should be.

Land of the free yet so many prisoners in their own hearts, minds, and spirit.  More so now than ever before.   Gone is the meaning of true independence day where sacrifice meant something.   Nothing will ever allow entitlement to be worth much than the darkness it generates.

Gratitude even for myself on those days that get really hard, or lonely or just overwhelming from all the layers of the cold world that comes in like a wave or snow drift trying to suffocate us.

Blessed beyond all measure where we never asked to be in this world and if we are still here.  We have purpose even just to listen, just to share kindness, even just to be our best selves as God created us to be.

My words few and far between these days.    Someday again I will be seen and heard.   Someday the dreams with our eyes wide open will live out and the blessings will never be questioned ever again.   The noise and nonsense of 15 minutes of fame or that nickel for every dime or dollar others manage to get in jest!    

What is your passion?

What does compassion mean to you?

It is not what we have.

Not what we can take.

What can you give back? 

A small moment of silence in that heated reaction to what no one really wins

Letting the fireworks be in the sky for all who have given their last breath, so we celebrate as others run for their very lives

Prayers we all stand together in humility and honesty protecting the very things that God called us to be.

Leading in love

Diving in and fighting for the future of all the tomorrows we have never been promised

 

Thank you, Jesus, for the ability to not only reminisce of that long scary lonely night I lay in a hospital to give birth to what would be a blessing I could never repay and all the journey and pain of that scared kid never understanding much.   Just always filled with fight.    For the beautiful life that I could have ruined so easily with my lack of everything.   Yet a mother’s love and heartbeat to who he turned out to be and love that overflow in all his passion.

Thank you for my children Thank you for my life even if.

 

For all the hope you give even when I did not understand I had any then.

Lord all I am is you.    The very blood that flowed from that cross pouring into humanity allowing them, me and all that will be in any future.  

May I never forget the gifts of life even in the darkest moments that surround us like a perfect storm.

You have and always will make a way.    The love if only humanity, all of humanity knew this love of you.

Our land needs you Father

Be with all of your chosen and as those fireworks light up the skies may you light up their passion and hearts to reflect all you are everywhere in every situation now and always.

Give peace to the souls we will never know who died in wars or at the hands of all evil.

Heal this land Jesus.

Show me and all I am connected what we are called to be, called to do.

06.30.2022 June (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday June 30th

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Zechariah 14:9 (ICB)

⁹ Then the Lord will be king over the whole world. At that time there will be only one Lord. And his name will be the only name.

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My next thirty years by Tim McGraw

 

for KING & COUNTRY - Burn the Ships (lyrics)

Blanca - Even at My Worst [Lyric Video]

Matthew West - Me on Your Mind (Official Lyric Video)

Jason Castro-Only A Mountain Lyrics

Chris Tomlin - Always (Lyrics)

TobyMac, Blessing Offor - The Goodness (Lyric Video)

 

Ben Rector - Thank You (Lyrics)

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

What a blessed and busy week it has been.    Summer Blast VBS with some amazing kids.  Lots of stress early on due to miscommunication or no communication and panic of taking my gigs too seriously.

Thankfully even though day to day remains me head doesn’t feel like it will explode off my shoulders because of flying by the seat of my pants and just being expected to turn off all I know to be.

Like I said last writing I am just too passionate about who and what I commit to.

 

All in all; at the end of the day, I didn’t lose any sleep.  Just really stressful moments at times while away.

Everything we have

Everything we do

Including the air in our lungs.  Belongs to God (I AM) Jesus Christ!

Actually, I generally don’t lose sleep over work or volunteer gigs.  People yes especially when they are going through it or have taken me through it.   But not related to trying to fulfill spaces and places with requests of anything I know or do.

 

My theory if it is not good enough; it never was meant to be. 

People though on the other hand when you let them in close enough to really care.  Well that sucks when they hurt or cause hurt.

I cannot imagine the pain and anguish Jesus went through .

I guess part of what keeps me holding on to hope.  Knowing all that we read about that Christ went through just so that we humans could have life.   Reminds me no matter what we are dealing with.  We are not alone and the unfortunate circumstances he went through so much more; but never stopped loving us.  Nor did he walk away saying not my problem let them deal with what they create.    Instead, he just keep reaffirming Gods will in obedience.

Dying to self is not easy or clear cut.    Yet here he died for billions that will never ever know him.

I cannot imagine the heart of Jesus.  I can only ask and hope he allows me to learn and live with a glimpse of who he intended me to be.  Seeing with his eyes, loving with

While today may be my Friday for work even though its Thursday.   My stuff!  Never shuts down.  When I take time from one, I move t something else. Either by necessity or freedom of will do so.   Actually, always by the blessing of freedom of will.  Being without it on purpose or accident without freedom of will choose we would be and do nothing.

 

Some days things fly by without even a glitch or glimpse of any negativity. Where you sit down at the end of the day and have to look around to see if you are really awake.

Cause let’s face it the world has so much going on in and around our lives that there is always something that pokes or sticks in us and leaves a heaviness of sorts.

Not necessarily negative sometimes filled with angst of what, who, where or why.  Sometimes it can be heavy if we are running on empty and our feelings are driving us.  Others it could just be we have been filled with so much doubt and beat down through out life that we don’t have the self-esteem needed.  When something we don’t understand creeps in or floods before we can catch our breath and acknowledge that.  Well, it instantly can flip us upside down and keep us spinning.

One thing is for sure.   We need not people please.  The only one we need to be driving to pleasing is the will of God.   With appreciation and obedience of the life we have been given at all.

Nope I have not always thought that way.   In my youth I was a reactor.   Feared nothing and had nothing to live for and fought to get ahead.   Right, wrong, or indifferent.   I learned in my adult life the difference.   kinda like @Toby Mac’s #Speak Life “Stop trying to make everybody happy you aren’t chocolate”     And for as many times as we allow ourselves to be chewed up and spit out left to feel like nothing putting all we are into people, places, and things.  

 Just as easily we could learn who Jesus created us to be.  And give appreciation for every single moment in time the blessings within given!

Life is crazy  we can allow the stigmatism to paralyze us from growing forward or we can fight forward with our brothers and sisters blood or not.     We need not fight against them in anything we need to fight with them.

 

Relationships even within our own split personalities be it truly some genetic thing or that which we pretend in the light and who we really are in the dark.

God knows all of it and we have to purpose to be our best selves no matter what that freedom of will we are driving towards.

 

 

Anyway, busy day with multiple conversations. Planning, resourcing, contributing to, adding unnecessarily.

Life is what we make it.  If you got back up today make it count and help others to grow forward around, you.

 

 

 

 

06.28.2022 June (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday June 28th

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2 Peter 3:9 (ICB)

⁹ The Lord is not slow in doing what he promised—the way some people understand slowness. But God is being patient with you. He does not want anyone to be lost. He wants everyone to change his heart and life.

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Horizon (A New Day) [Stereovision Remix] [feat. Aaron Cole]-tobyMac [Lyrics]

MercyMe - I Can Only Imagine (Video)

Nobody (lyrics) ~ Casting Crowns ~ Nobody (featuring Matthew West)

Cody Carnes ~ Nothing Else (Lyrics)

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

I realized when I am committed, I am too passionate about what I commit to.   When it comes to my respect and responsibility be it family, friends, volunteering, or work.   I realize head on everything belongs to God anyway so finding the boundaries while serving in God’s house and not be setup to fail is something only I can do.

Those who dearly love you for what you do without a doubt will always take the free help and leave the burdens to you.   As long as you are not invading their space or stepping on the toes that ride the edges of the arena.

Perhaps I am just now at that point where it is time to find new crafts, find new places to vibe and contribute and let the ship sail on.

Everything changes every day. We grow we get held up, held down, fight our way forward or just spin out of control but things in this life keep on keeping on.  No matter if we are riding that train with them or not.

 

One thing is for sure if you are not respectful and good stewards of even the slightest minuscule thing given you will never be granted the blessings in harmony for more.

I admit I try too hard as it is just me.   Dedicated to the cause but I also realize I need to get back to me.

For years I have dedicated all I am and all I have to the well being of others around me.   Forgetting or just not worrying about who I am.

And just like that I am reminded I am still that soul on the outside looking in.   

How those beautiful souls relevant to the moments they are called want what the want and use you up.  But whisper loudly the chatter of their age and respect as to why is she even here anyway.

 

No not overreacting.   Change has been flowing for decades and this mind maze and God fearing, loving, and abundantly serving heart is fully aware when we just don’t know and when things are crystal clear.

Christ has been on the move for a long time and allowed the blessings and growth beyond all we deserve to have.

Times have changed but God never will.   I move when he says move, time is upon to see what next is up ahead if anything.

Life is bittersweet and like that big ole sticky bun the sweetness that lays within; f we do not maintain and refresh and work towards all that is good all that is pure all that does not leave us acknowledging the whispers and little things that do not add up to fitting the molds of others.

Well!    Satan is always at work and doubters will always doubt, haters will always hate, and the next generations will be responsible to step up, step in and figure it out.

 

Every where we look those we have grown and fruitfully been blessed suddenly changing or is it us?

In any event, case, or situation what matters is your relationship and going all the way back remembering who created us and to whom the very breath we are given belongs to.   Leaving the questions to reflect What Would Jesus do if He were here right now?

Nope we will never be worthy to even think we are any form of God or have the power or rights to dictate the answers.   Although we know in this world there are many that impose their own selfish thoughts and ways of power, death, and destruction.

Yes, I get it, this mind maze leaves many to wonder.   Can you imagine if there were little beings in our brain wandering around trying to keep up with all our thoughts daily.     Running around with a butterfly net trying to capture those that get loose and get them back into place before we do too many crazy things.

If only we all really knew who we were and to whom we really belong.   Would it make things different?    What if everyone really did have a conscience.

What if we all really said what we mean, mean what we say and not just entertain what we think needs to be?

 

Life has me thinking maybe I have been single too long, maybe I am wrong.  Maybe maybe maybe!!!

Even with my relationship in Christ with Christ for Christ and just trying to be a good human and allowing my nature to care too much, give too much and occasionally stand back on the lines and hear the whispers.   The lessons and blessings remain the same when it comes to gratitude.

 

Sure, it makes me look the fool if I really shared what sometimes happens in this life and my ability to easily get sucked in.    Sure, I have let my self stay down far too long after the last blows that I gave myself for being too kind and could not get back up.

It will never stop hurting that people just cannot be who they pretend to be.   Physically, virtually life after death or death in life.   We need to know when to get off that hamster wheel, stop putting who we are into others and expecting anything less than who they are.

Sometimes that just means you can read people really well or not at all.   Either case does not matter in the end.   In the end what matters is who we are in Christ and what are we doing in the garden of life?

Are we just weeds tangling and growing thorns into everything we touch are we truly planting valuable seeds of opportunity for the future of our children?

 

Not what the world screams.   We know that telling babies they have a choice to change what God allowed them to come into this world as and be the best at everything as it.

Not as noise makers screaming its mine its mine you cannot do that.

Where are we planting and shining so brightly that in love we sow into the future.

 

If it does not meet our needs, are we just tolerating that or this because…

To be first we must be last.

To find the goodness sometimes we have to make the hardest climbs of all in life just to see the other side and decide is that what God really wanted for my life.

Nope not everyone will fight forward.

In fact, some are taking their very last breath because they never had a light shine bright enough to grasp on and grow.

There is more too life than keeping up with the  so called rich and famous or having name brand anything

If you cannot be good stewards in gratitude with even the smallest gifts than nothing else will ever matter.

The whispers and fighting for the accolades will cancel out the very good you are meant to be.

Got Jesus, know Jesus, want Jesus?    Once you meet him and really come to know him.   You will realize Prayer’s matter and your value is within who He says you are and not the nonsense of this world.

Thank you for another new day, Jesus with so many opportunities no matter how I feel.  I deserve nothing yet you give me everything in the nothingness.

Thank you

May I just sit here with you always!

 

 

06.26.2022 June (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 Sunday was a day of motivation big and small 

New Life Christian Church Spring Hill 

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06.24.2022 June (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Friday June 24th

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2 Thessalonians 3:3 (ICB)

³ But the Lord is faithful. He will give you strength and protect you from the Evil One.

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This Little Light of Mine - Addison Road

We The Kingdom - Child of Love

Phil Wickham - Battle Belongs (Official Lyric Video)

Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply (Lyrics)

Casting Crowns  - The well (lyrics)

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Funny how life works within the minds and hearts of humanity.  Waking up this morning with this little light of mine playing in my head.   And no  nothing outstanding, or even surprisingly good happening to trigger such peace.

Just blessed to be alive, I guess.   Just gonna keep getting back up and do my best to shine forward.

Even when sometimes I am so deep in thought sometimes about everything sometimes about nothing that I look so serious people think I am mad.

Rarely do I get mad.   Usually at the time of an event right here right now typically.

Never ending prayers and God knows all the who, what, where when and why it is on my heart to be.

Life is what we choose.  Ignorance is not bliss especially when you know but you choose to pretend that you do not.

So, closing out session 5 of John the Divinity of Christ three truths that you must read through the material to get it.   But three truths that stuck with me. 

1. Religion is not the best place to learn about Jesus Christ!  

2. Resistance is not a liability but an asset to our spiritual growth.

3. Regeneration is not a matter of having overwhelming evidence but a matter of having an encounter with Christ!

 

Maybe this is why I woke up even in the turmoil of day to day singing in my head.   Whatever the reason I am just glad I did.  The weight of the world has been really heavy for me these past several months.    Feeling everything that I see around me going on that is hateful, hurtful, and even tragic.   Watching family and friends go through it and not able to do a damn thing to make anything significantly lastingly better.   Not to mention the enabler in me that constantly steps out and should see gratitude from those closest and all they are is sometimes miserable if they just don’t keep receiving.

 

Watching so many being played out and yes over my lifetime even been caught up and played out as well.

I am not who I use to be.   I don’t chase anything.   And I love everyone and would give the shirt off my back.  Until you make so I cannot.    I am far from perfect but once you lie to me. Even if I stick by you don’t think I don’t know.

When I cannot any longer there is valid reasons.   But I never stop loving the souls that God has given me to love.

I will never be able to understand how or why some have come into my journey even for a split second or those that I have had for a long time and then they were taken back.

 

I just know that nothing is ever wasted.

Every single step we are given to take has a testimony, a message, and a blessing for our own beings and those we get to come in connection with.

Yes, the groupings or clicks that people get into forgetting that although we are all blessed to bleed the same but uniquely made to share our gifts of talent and abilities to anyone we are given in connection with.

But we forget ourselves getting uppity.  Walking around on the celebrity platform forgetting how far we will fall no matter how much money, talent or materialism lifts us up.     We see in our daily news just how real and broken no matter who we are humanity truly is.  Being stuck trapping ourselves with sex, drugs, rock n roll.  Or just emotionally unbalanced or broken and forgetting God has given us Jesus to lean in on to keep from falling into the abyss of addiction, depression, or all the doubt and anxiety we are consumed with.

I am thankful even in the storms and pain for my own and that of those I truly, madly, deeply care for as they fight forward or just stay stuck spinning throwing all their broken pieces into all who stick by them in love, hope and faith things will more than better sooner than later.

 

How funny it is that I can walk into any one else’s place and find so much beauty and admiration for what they have and wonder what if I did that at my place over here or there.    Yet, forgetting just how awesome I thought my own was when I first got it.   We are always looking for something more, something different.   I know I can freshen up, replace, renew and things are great for about a month then one day I walk out, and I just can’t feel it anymore.  So, I start planning again.    Sure, I painted my entire house inside and out over these past 7 years by hand myself.   2019-2020 I painted the entire outside by hand and since 2014-2021 have done various rooms inside.   Here looking around I see I need to refresh again and again.

It absolutely keeps me busy.   Keeps me occupied and out of the wrong places and away from the wrong people.   But it is who I am.  I always have to be doing something.

In our unique single moments of every breath, we are given what is it that we think we have control of or what is it that we feel we must justify.

Are we not just chasing all that is already gone?  Are we spinning like that hamster wheel?

Life is full of stuff none of which materialistically we can take with us when we leave this earth.  And often too much of what we weigh ourselves down with and allow to steal the very God given breath each day we are allowed back up.

No matter if we wake up singing crazy songs, any songs or screaming in pain due to life within.  Have gratitude for every second we are given with everything, everyone and/or anyone on those days we are allowed back up.

 

There is allot of beauty in this world, but true beauty is from the depths within the soul.   So no matter what we have or do.  Control is an illusion and the brief second, we have calls for owning the choices we make.   Not wasting, not worrying, not trying to be anyone else but the very being God created us to be in the image of his son Jesus Christ.

Anyway, I am blessed to have the ability to get back up and keep fighting forward.  Laughing, crying, and everything in between just being my best self even when I miss it.

I pray I never stop coming to the well of life with you Jesus.   The abundant peace, life and unexplainable spirituality lifted beyond anything I will ever be able to explain.  May all I am connected be held tightly by your will and your love not that of the world.    The depths of something so deep no one can every grasp it away.   Fill us up with your life, purpose and all the blessings in any or all storms we are caught within.   Thank you for allow me  and this crazy spirit to wake up singing any chance I am allowed.    Blessings, directions, and abundance for all those who walk with purpose, value and want all you are.

For me it does not matter who gets it or who does not. May I just keep growing in and towards the light.

06.21.2022 June (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday June 21st

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Psalm 91:1 (ICB)

Safe in the Lord

91 Those who go to God Most High for safety
    will be protected by God All-Powerful.

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24/7 Instrumental Soaking Worship | Holy Spirit Come

 

Thank You Lord (ft. Thomas Rhett & Florida Georgia Line)

 

Newsboys - STAND (Lyric Video)

 

BRANDON LAKE + CHANDLER MOORE - Fear Is Not My Future: Song Session

 

Send Me - Jenn Johnson feat. Chris Quilala

 

I Believe - Jonathan David Helser, Melissa Helser

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

If only those could stand tall when they are backed up against the world and their mind and all that the world has poured into it beats them down to their knees.

Watching those you love and care and want the best for in life no matter what that is for them as long as they are healthy and growing forward.   Yet, they are down for the count and giving up on everything around them because they gave up on themselves so long ago.

Watching your children suffer is bittersweet but so much better than ever turning your back on the gift of life that was given to you.

There is no greater love than that first touch of life and all that can never be replaced by anything in this world.    That first kiss saying hello love welcome to my world.  I will never be in control the uncertainty will for sure play me in the hardest game that will ever be in my competition line up.

Yet you Jesus YOU ARE!

Forget not where you come from but never live there in all the static noise.  Be it you must move geographically always know doing so will not change what chases you.  Only you can call upon the Lord and have the Holy Spirit come dwell within and conquer all things and if and when it does not.   It will bring you to the other side.

The Son will always come out when we call upon His name!

None of us are equal in the unique creation we were and are meant to be.

But we all bleed the same and we all have the ability to choose to be in relation with all that is light, growing towards the light or walk in the darkness.   All will see eternity and it is up to every choice we make for ourselves that will be that final destination.

I wish the choices I make to rescue, save, love, enable whatever you want to call it.  All those things I do for those I have been allowed to care about.  I wish it would have been the answer and helped those desperately burning up in depression, stuck in that proverbial rut unable to get out of their own way.   Giving them just a little bit of hope and life helping them feel the balance and worth for that brief second, they exhale.

Yet just like that their choices they act upon or do not and allow what was to consume them.   My heart is broken in a billion pieces.

For those that hurt so badly, and they cannot get past it.

For those caught in the crossfire and power struggles of the many

For those who just wanted to fit in and tried what they did not understand and left as prisoners

For those who seen all they thought was going to make them in this world be deceived, destroyed at the hands of what is called humanity.

My own heart that at times thought would never beat again.   Broken for what I thought was life yet awakened to the cruel intentions of all those whose hurt and heartbreaking scars must be given to anyone they come in contact.

Lord, I have never been anywhere you did not know about.    No matter the stranger who robs the very life of those they will never know.   Or even the mothers or fathers who you gave us to that never fully grasped what it was meant to be as a family.

None of this means anything without knowing you, Lord.

From the desperate hustlers trying their best to survive at the hands and means of anyone that allow them into their equation.   To those who stand on the platform proclaiming your mercy and grace while all the while never truly accepting your full mercy and grace while they take advantage and miss the moments meant for so much more.

Jesus, I have to believe in you.   Face down or hands held up high.  I am nothing any breath I am allowed to take without you allowing to be so.

Bittersweet loss of Pops gone on to be at final rest and bringing a mom who was lost for so long back.  Even if we no longer have our faculties to relive or change some of those steps once given.

You Lord have never turned your back on us.  How could we ever just quit what makes us grow weary or even more painful at times that we want to just run and never look back.

Prisoners of our own minds, our own hearts we refuse to let heal of all the scars that we or others have layered up throughout the journey we are allowed to make.

Jesus Hear the silent screams of all that is never spoken out loud.

Be with all who entangle the heart strings within humanity and blessings given.

I never knew you were there; but you were!

There will never be a love so deep as you give Jesus. As I sometimes laugh, joke and giggle with those who really know me.   When I say there is more to being in love or called a Jesus freak.   Even if sometimes the false, fake pretenders will show up.   He keeps me safe from what can be ultimate destruction and harm of all I am blessed.

As tears pour down into the waterfalls of beauty your blood poured out on that cross to flow within every living breathing creature of this universe.

You Jesus knows all things for all who have, will and are walking this universe.   Light us up Lord.   It is so lonely on that mountain or hard climbing out of those valleys.

You are with us no matter how badly the scars still hurt, or the physical pain is being inflicted.

Protect our children all that I am is yours!

I know you give and take away.  I just pray you allow me the strength and courage to keep getting back up every time my breath is taken away for what we call trying to make in life and the lack of understanding why brokenness and suffering of innocence must be part of the destined equation.    For all those I know, I am connected, or I will never ever come to really.    Your will, your breath, your direction, your voice pours into all of our spirits.    Make yourself known Jesus within all that is.     Your light burst through and the voice of all that is you pour into our future!

Save us from ourselves.    Free us from what we are trapped.   Release the demons back into the depths of hell and guide our spirits to pour freely into your garden Father God!

Jesus is, Was and forever will be!   Love beyond all time and space.  My ultimate sweet soul king.  Thankful for every chosen one you have put into my path to feed this spirit.  Exposing the realities of we are all just human.   Yet when we allow you to live freely, we are beyond blessed.   No matter what we think, or the world tells us we must be.

Mountain’s crumble and rivers redirect and prove even if it has been a million light years away.  Nothing controls what you control and, in the end, everything including our own being is temporarily placed on this earth to be our best selves and shine bright helping the growth of the unknown future that only you will see.

Nothing I have Jesus will ever be worthy enough to repay your mercy and grace given.

Thank you for loving me anyway.   With all that I can ever be.  Thank you!