Monday, August 30, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Monday - August 30, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Ephesians 2:19 (NLV)   

19 From now on you are not strangers and people who are not citizens. You are citizens together with those who belong to God. You belong in God’s family.

Ephesians 2:19 (MSG)   

19-22 That’s plain enough, isn’t it? You’re no longer wandering exiles. This kingdom of faith is now your home country. You’re no longer strangers or outsiders. You belong here, with as much right to the name Christian as anyone. God is building a home. He’s using us all—irrespective of how we got here—in what he is building. He used the apostles and prophets for the foundation. Now he’s using you, fitting you in brick by brick, stone by stone, with Christ Jesus as the cornerstone that holds all the parts together. We see it taking shape day after day—a holy temple built by God, all of us built into it, a temple in which God is quite at home.

Ephesians 2:19 (AMP)   

19 So then you are no longer strangers and aliens [outsiders without rights of citizenship], but you are fellow citizens with the saints (God’s people), and are [members] of God’s household,

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Lecrae ft. Taylor Hill - Cry For You

Kenny G - Alone

Mandy Moore, Zachary Levi - I See the Light (From "Tangled"/Sing-Along)

Willie Nelson - Just Breathe

Steven Curtis Chapman - Dive (feat. Ricky Skaggs)

Matt Redman - Gracefully Broken (Lyric Video) ft. Tasha Cobbs Leonard

Natalie Grant - Held

Rolling in the Deep ~ ADELE

Lecrae - I'll Find You  ft. Tori Kelly

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Great message this weekend from our guest speaker from Jericho Road Ministries https://youtu.be/XB4e8FXgKv0 Andrew Chamberlin @New Life Christian Church Spring Hill

 

There is no secrets when it comes to being engaged, I thrive and one of the best things that feed my spirit is the ability to learn new things and assist and help others get tapped in.    Blessed each day I am allowed back up far from perfect today like no other day I ask God and all the powers that be to guard my mouth and let nothing negative come out.

 

 I am sometimes quick to speak and sometimes because I run nonstop my weariness response with words is not always contributing positive.   I am very transparent and say what I mean and mean what I say but still each day I am allowed to get back up I am learning.  Sometimes it just best to speak to God directly from the heart and not let anything come out loud.

Seeking God to guard this heart, as I see so much good in so many beings that even reflect nothing but ugly bad behaviors.    And frustration that washes through when you are torn to kick them as far out of sight out of mind or just stay at arm’s length because maybe they are in need even if you will not be the one to fix them.    You just keep pounding the seeds in hoping one day the drought will stop and they will grow into all they were created to be.

What is that see  no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil.   Those three monkey’s cutest things ever.   But in life so true. 

Everything we see, everything we hear, everything we speak.    Gives and takes away and sometime that one syllable is the answer to life or death.

 

When children speak and sometimes cry before even becoming teens and saying they do not want to be in this world.  Or even be a kid any longer it is just too hard.   Well, my first reaction is smiling knowing just how brutal this world is and knowing they have not seen anything yet.   However, then my heart hurts for them to think we have robbed the future from all the generations to come.     It does not matter what you have materially, it does not matter where you think you come from or where you are going.   It is the life you carry in the depths of your soul and all that you want and need and do to keep growing forward.

Yet we are surrounded by so much devastation and hear so much corrupt foul day to day.   Our children have no hope.    We are more worried about making sure the are dressed neat and tidy and not allowing them to be kids.  We are so worried about what we need to have, or do we forget to engage with them for more than five minutes when or if it is convenient.

 

I know I worked my tale off raising my kids.  They lacked for nothing but parents and one on one more than a few times a month.  And I get it that in order to make in this world someone has to sacrifice and take on and be the worker, giver, and adult.   That was me, playing mom and dad and working 2-3 jobs putting myself through college.     Trying the marriage thing and it is working for a little while.    And having great family trips and memories to last a lifetime.   But when we stop working with each other or everything is one sided.   Or you step out and say I need some help here I would like to… or I need… and your partner quits you because they were along for the ride and not part of the drive.      Well, it is what it is.

 

Never stop trying to grow forward and never stop looking up even if through the tears and pains of what did not work.      When that little even if they are 30 opens up and releases what they are feeling.    Just be there, just hug them, just encourage them.    It is the only string that might hold them through the day and allow them to have a better tomorrow.

 

So how do I keep trying to grow.   Help where I can; be it helping others outside with yard work that I am too damn old to keep doing or filling in pushing buttons or even facilitate small groups and just collaboratively deal with life and do our best with what we are given.

Thankful on days like today where you can barely move because you lifted way too much too heavy in the exhausting heat.  

But fully aware the alternative is you are not  allowed to get back up at all.

Prayerfully with every being particle I am knitted together with we are going to see the eternal light of heaven.    Knowing even the smallest glimpse and peace here on earth that allows us to just breathe makes so much of a difference.    To be granted the blessing of going to the big house where no more sorrow, no more pain, all the music and dancing and love and laughter for eternity.     Meeting Jesus face to face and him really saying well done daughter of mine.   Is worth every bit of what others may think I give up by staying obedient and never stop wanting to believe.

 

Even in-between all of the fails, all of the good and purposed day to day or the hidden tears for everything that is so wrong in today’s world.      Never stop fighting forward for life of your own and when given the chance to plant seeds and help others or just hug on those who really need it.    Never stop.

Yeah, so hard right now with this pandemic and all the brokenness and reality of wars and death and darkness swallowing up more and more.     But if you are still with legs to stand, a voice to speak, ears to listen, a brain to learn, talent to share.  Love to give.    Just do it!!!

You in control of what drives you.    Everything is temporal, make it count. Do not grasp on to what will be washed away in the blink of a windstorm or flood coming.   And those floods they do not have to be of rivers, lakes, or oceans.     We are flooded every day by our actions and the tsunami waves of out come every day we get up and do something.

 

So, what if you get a little dirty along the way.    Do not think you are exempt from impacts of whatever happens around you.  Today you may be able to boast and brag about not sure what car you will drive or what flashy item you will put out there.    Prayerfully you will take all that blessing and share it with those in need.  And the world is overflowing with need right now.

We/I can search the world for answers, protection, love, guidance; but truly the only peace and truth that allows me to just breathe is diving into Jesus.  

Gracefully broken, well I have never been really graceful in fact its like if I don’t just get it I won’t have a chance so I fly through day to day sometimes like a steam roller and most days it works well and I reap the productive blessings.  Others I am just left with all those broken pieces be it mine or yours all over the place and just wishing I could really feel being held tightly like nothing in the world matters and never will I ever worry about anything again.

Then I remember maybe this is what it means to be held.   Gracefully broken with still a flicker and spark to want something better no matter how bad it leaves you empty and in hurting.

All that I am belongs to you Jesus and no matter who I want to yell out or what I want to just take over and get it done, or what pieces I need mended to still be strong enough for those needing me to stay strong.     Jesus here I am!   

All that is covered under the umbrella of being your child Lord protect and guide all we are.   Heal this land, teach every soul how to know you are here.     I need you in all that I will ever be.    All I will ever connect.

When we run may we run with and to you Father God.   Stop the madness, stop the evil, stop the inhumane.    Heal us Lord.    Show us how to love the unlovable and shine so bright that we plant seeds of change for the better.    Light us up Lord.

Prayers Lord for those living in the streets doing street life and not wanting to change and bring new lives into the world.

Prayers for the uneasy new relationships into family bless them through the angst.

Prayers for the lives trying to hold in flood waters.

Prayers for the innocence and babies not wanting to keep going

Prayers for those impacted by illness or life and they never did anything to deserve it.

Prayers for reconciliations and unity

Prayers for all those who are burying the mothers, the fathers, the brothers, sisters, sons and daughters’ aunts or uncles.   All those who put their lives on the line for what we will never understand.

May we fight with you Lord just a little longer for the greater good and shine bright.

Prayers for all those things we cannot openly talk about.

Prayers for all the unrest in this damaged political spin and world with all our leaders forgetting what truth and real power for the greater good would look like.

Prayers ever soul finds your word and dives in and just never stops until they find you Lord.

 

No matter what it sounds like, looks like, wants to be like.  May everything, we are reflect you Jesus.   Love without boundaries, unconditional, God fearing, growing forward in everything we do Agape love inside out and outside in.  

 

 

Saturday, August 28, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Saturday - August 28, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

John 6:29 (NLV)  

29 Jesus said to them, “This is the work of God, that you put your trust in the One He has sent.”

John 6:29 (MSG) 

29 Jesus said, “Sign on with the One that God has sent. That kind of a commitment gets you in on God’s works.”

John 6:29 (AMP) 

29 Jesus answered, “This is the work of God: that you believe [adhere to, trust in, rely on, and have faith] in the One whom He has sent.”

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

The Chainsmokers - Hope (Lyrics) ft. Winona Oak

The Chainsmokers & Coldplay - Something Just Like This

John Mayer - Wild Blue

TobyMac - Heart Of My Beat

Mallary Hope - Now

Elevation Worship, Tauren Wells - Echo

TobyMac - Til The Day I Die (Live From Hits Deep 2020, Denver, CO)

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

My Saturday waking up with the Tyson beast took over the entire bed, climbing out the other side to get a bottle of water and stepping in the darkness and a loud squeak echo throughout the house. Half asleep I jump back on the bed trying to be quiet, so the animals don’t come in to acknowledge I am up which then wakes the kids.

I make it to the garage refrigerator grab a bottle of ice-cold water, feeling so dehydrated from the little sleep I caught while fighting a 120plus lap dog that if my door is not latched sneaks in the night and takes the bed.    Funny not funny, knowing 2 weeks ago I had to get up and take the sofa being two dogs, two cats and a kid took over.

Finding my way back in trying to lay back down as it still dark and looking at the clock just barely  5am on a Saturday.      Way to early and no lights being outside leaves me time before I go out and start cleaning my side of the neighbor’s white vinyl fencing.   Long overdue but I am not planting anything up on that fence line and it is in desperate need of getting the barnacle looking things off it.  Spending the past several weekends running doing life with others that hold my heart strings and helping them either relocate or ready to move away.   It’s time I deal with my own.     Its slowly coming together, I need to start figuring out something for this back yard on a slight slope that this wonderful southern ground filled with sand and lime rock where I am located with all the rain earlier this year that came washed away what grass was there.   Now just patches in-between bare spots once the winter dry months come will drive me crazy.

Not enough time in the day just to work on turning my domain into a beautiful garden and don’t know any gardeners that wouldn’t want money for their time.

Not everyone gives themselves away in friendship. 

Anyway

This place has come a long way since I first come in seven years ago.   Starting to look good little pieces at a time just trying to protect the blessing of shelter I have been given.    In a month or so I will start painting the inside again.   For now, just keeping it clean and not falling apart with the one’s that live here are like a bunch of bulls in a China closet constantly leaving something to be fixed.

Reminded in the morning ODB.Com

The devotional makes it seem like all this is trivial me and my yard stuff; but taking care of or being the best stewards, we can with what we are given to work with matters.  In the end does it really matter.    Yes, how we manage ourselves and what we are given, and how we treat others matters.    Yes, would I like for Jesus to come back now and make it right, beautiful and stop all the suffering and wars, and hate, and darkness from all the lies and abuse we here and now take part in some way shape or form.    Righting every wrong, healing ever need and dancing in the streets for all who believe in him.      Knowing God is the beginning, and the end and Jesus is waiting to meet every one of us until we too go to that big house.  

Revelation 22: 12 (AMP)  Amplified Bible   Footnotes

a.     Revelation 22:12 I.e. the final judgment for the believer will occur when he stands before Christ to have his fidelity and service judged, and the appropriate reward determined.

b.     Revelation 22:12 Lit as his work is.

But yes, there goes that mind maze again.   As I am sipping on coffee made wide awake stepping on that noisy toy that if you look around my house the little girl now a little over a year who rules the house of late with the other fur kids has toys everywhere.    I generally find myself walking around just like when my kids were little, and at night picking up all the toys and putting them back in the toybox.     Last night was a lazy night.   Just tired from the week found me watching a very suspenseful miniseries Click-bait.    And then some kid movies snuggling with my sidekick for a little bit.

Feeling a little down as everything is changing again around me and where I use to serve, the smallest blessings that use to feed my spirit same but so different with things that weigh on me from time to time.

Looking around and seeing so many good souls stepping up and trying to do the jobs that were put on their hearts.   Fighting fires, search, and rescue, first responders, serving and protecting and laying down their lives for the so many more in humanity out there not caring, and some downright evil or stuck in that grey area and just stirring the pot causing so much drama and sorrow that is pulling this world apart.

Thirty years ago, I would find myself just going away for a weekend and spending at least a day burning up brain cells not thinking sitting on a beach or  somewhere drinking frozen drinks until I didn’t feel.    Even ten years ago getting on a cruise ship and just being absorbed by Gods great wide open.   Here these days everything is changed, where I just don’t find myself in the middle of a packed house feeling the music of any of my favorite creative artists.

So, as I listened to The Great Ending about Revelation 22:12 and the need for Jesus to come.   I have said this so often these past couple years where life and the roller coasters we ride that we get on and have control even if control is an illusion.   Well, is so much different when the unknown is closing in.

Danger has always been unseen until its too late.   Be it talking to those strangers, going where you should not, consumption of too much, or just the wrong things will leave you in places many cannot get out of.

 

I just need hope to surround this universe, to see more light than darkness, to hear more harmony than abrasive loud squelching or that static that leaves us living in delusional states of mind.

Go big or go home but know what the end result of what you think is big because sometimes it just robs you from ever finding home again.

 

Never looking for that fairy tale bliss caught up so often looking back realizing how true so much was a lie.  All I have is hope now, and those endless days where the tunes allow the beat of my heart in Christ Jesus to play out and feel that rush of almost and so real you can taste it but know what will be is what you see and what God says it is what it is and you are my forever so let it be.   Foolish games, endless dreams, live out those fantasy or dreams and know when it is real, it will show up and eternity will be.

Never knowing what tomorrow will be, just knowing life is what we allow it to be.   My peace, my harmony is all but lost.  For Jesus is my savior and Christ my King.     I did walk forward years ago; although this is not the visions my eyes once focused to see.    I am right where I am supposed to be.    

Sometimes burdened by what surrounds me, as I find my way in trying to maintain and manage the beauty within the real me.

Do I wish, do I want, do I dream?  Absolutely  I always have always will.   When its time we will all see.   Until then prayers, blessings, and any energy he allows me to get back up and keep growing forward wherever I can in every second I am given till the day I die.  Forever my Sweet Soul King; Love beyond all time and space.    Hands lifted high or face down.   You called me through the fire and here I am broken pieces superglued back together in your salvation, mercy, and grace.    Found in the depths of this soul. No matter what I allow given way forever is nothing compared to your eternal abundance consuming like walking through bombs just set off full of pain from the pepper sprayed realities stinging like mace.

 

Thank you for this day, but as this coffee is now empty, let me get it and enjoy some outside humidity, sun, and space.    

Lord never let the music stop playing the beats and life rhythms that make this spirit dance.   Every tune, rip, or chord with a message of life to dance to.    

Be with all who need the music Father, lead the way, and shine bright for me, for all I am connected.   You know all things all needs!

Friday, August 27, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Friday - August 27, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Isaiah 26:3 (NLV)  New Life Version

You will keep the man in perfect peace whose mind is kept on You, because he trusts in You.

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Jeremy Camp - Break Your Promises

Jeremy Camp - Steady Me

Lauren Daigle - Rescue

Captain Official lyric Video - Hillsong UNITED

Phil Wickham - His Name Is Jesus (Lyrics) Who is this King?

Whom Shall I Fear [The God of Angel Armies] By Chris Tomlin

Britt Nicole Be The Change

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Amazing how in my own life experience where I learn even though I have known someone all my life I never really knew them at all.    We put so much stock into how our life will be the best of everything by pouring our expectations into our human partners, friends, family, and connections. 

Yet more and more we reveal just how we never really know what and who someone is.

Saying what they mean or meaning what they say is left to a grand canyon of what is not being revealed.

Until one day you live through that one that you never thought would ever let you down leaves you broken and never to be the same.

 

You, Jesus, never break your promises.  Yet we never fully give you everything that we are first and always.

How beautiful for those who realize your timing is perfect.    Though we suffer in our wants and desires and misunderstood outcomes. 

Be it that husband that you have known all your life yet one day he is just gone leaving you in a broken mess to clean up and to find the setup living a double life setting up with his next.     Or what about that woman who married the man of her dreams and wanted that family and a family and children with him.   Yet, almost 50 years of marriage just kept beating herself up thinking it was her.   Then one day he revealed he did not want any children but never let her know he had surgery and the only reason she knows now because the love of his life almost died, and he could not live with what he kept from her any longer.

Lord, you steady me for sure.

Both scenarios are real, one of my own with the many I could tell.  The other just another beautiful soul who is learning who God really is and how He has been working in her life even though she realizes how much anger and disgrace for her own being she lived with far too long.

The stories in life do not necessarily have to be a man letting a woman down.  We know far to often it is an equal opportunity when it comes to what people do to each other or withhold just to get what they want.

Or taking the easy way out and never talking about what drives their need to keep moving.

Life is full of twists, turns and brightly colored story lines painted every day we are allowed back up.

One of the most heart wrenching things for me that crushes me every time is watching two people who have fought forward together all their lives and one of them leaves this planet and the other is left behind crushed.

The day I watch my brother say goodbye to my sister-in-law after 30 years of marriage and his six-foot two frame crumble.     Or how angry he was at a God he never really took time to meet through his son Jesus.     No fault of his own; by far growing up in Catholicism doesn’t always lead you to know who Jesus really is.

Knowing how loved we really are is not something everyone gets to understand.

 

I am not really sure when I finally grabbed onto that life raft of rescue through Jesus.   Well yes, I am sort of.    I have always believed in a God.    But it was when my kids were starting their lives that I really needed to breathe again.    And if it meant giving all I am to the one who died for me I was going to do it.      Even if what I do does not qualify for what they  think, say, or do.

 

We all have to choose and own the choices we make no matter what the results.    And that ripple effect of our choices wash over us for a lifetime.    Be it the death and sacrifice for our first responders giving all they are to protect, care and rescue any of us.    Or day to day in all the things that spin us or those we never talk about until one day 50 years later the truth finally comes out.

You Jesus have never been hidden yet we hide you.      You have never been silent, yet we choose to follow the static or disruptions of what we create and not what your peace and mercy bring.

It does not stop the pain from ripping or rippling through any one of us on any given day.  But Jesus you have taken on so much more than we ever will and never for a moment stopped wanting better for humanity.  

May we see with your eyes and learn to understand just who you are through your heart, mercy, and grace.   May we learn to be kind to ourselves, and all those we connect.  May we learn kindness matters but does not mean we become a sacrifice.

You have already made the ultimate sacrifice Jesus.  May we live for you and grow forward with you and all you lived, suffered, died, and came back for.

 

We can either lean in or lean back either way our choices matter to how we will handle any circumstance of any day given.    May I always be able to give thanks just to know the life I have been given and am still called to fight forward each day you allow me up.

 

Fighting can be just learning to breathe, just learning to let go, just learning to hold on, just all things that come our way and what or how we will do whatever is next.   Or even how we handle the outcomes when they do not transpire into what we have planned and the impacts ripple.    God be with us always, and may we always acknowledge He is through relationship with Christ Jesus.

Jesus no matter if we are in our own darkness or following your hope, purpose, and life into places that we may never return.   May you always be the keeper of our souls for all those who believe and sacrifice all things on behalf of humanity and your love.

The wars have always raged for generations before and generations to come.   Give comfort and life to those left behind for all those lost in the crossfire or pure evil.     Your will be done Father God.    For every child that is left for the demons and all innocence given life to fight without direction or hope.

We are not defined by this world!    What we choose matters and all the hate, all the hurt all that we take from the future matters more than that two second of power trips we ride or the truly lost bitter darkness that will torment us eternally.    Lord soften the hearts of the haters, light up the darkness and guide all our leaders to unity and prosperous opportunity in life, mercy, and grace that you give just by allowing life each new day.

 

My captain who drives the wheel of my soul through all my own rivers and rapids spinning within.   Forever missed, forever desire in truth pure abundant love in the depths of freedom and raging power flowing through the veins pumped forward by the beats of a heart that you control.      Resurrect all who even silently cry and think of you Jesus.    May your angel armies come alive and be the difference we all wish to see.

 

All that I am, all that I can be all that is your will.   Desperately in the corner of life abundance full of victories.   Mine, theirs, yours Jesus through that what makes our hearts smiles, or leaves us needing places to just regroup and hide.   May you never leave me or any I am connected.   No matter how twisted or derailed the ride.  We are and forever will be your creation and most precious prize.

Thank you for loving me enough to giving me each new day with so much to purpose and try.

Thursday, August 26, 2021

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 Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

 

Date: Thursday - August 26, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Romans 12:4-5 (NLV)  New Life Version

Our bodies are made up of many parts. None of these parts have the same use. There are many people who belong to Christ. And yet, we are one body which is Christ’s. We are all different but we depend on each other.

Read full chapter

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Micah Tyler & Matthew West - Walking Free

Vertical Worship - Strength of My Life

Who Are You When I'm Not Looking

(I Am Already Enough) Fearless Soul

#AustinFrench #FreedomHymn

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

What does it mean to you when you hear you are walking free in harmony with others?

Nothing binding you up, no one on your mind that crushes your spirit; all the while you never stop stepping out and paying even the slightest act of kindness for those who just need the comfort of a smile in today’s world.

Wait, you don’t care about anyone or anything else but the space you are in?

I know right; that boundary of minding your own business walking that fine line of always being ready and helping what the world sees the least of the these; or running for whatever, you can get yourself. 

So many I am sure that lost their lives daily who are shut in, shut off from the world physically, mentally,  or maybe trapped in the depths of their own pains all the while surrounded by people that are supposed to love them.   Yet, when it comes down to it they do not find out until later the secret life they led because they never really knew them at all.

Walking free, are you?

I am! 

 Free to choose, to serve and believe in a mighty God who with the wave of his mighty hands can change everything.

Free to choose, knowing even if it is wrong, He will always carry me when I cannot get back up.

Strength of my life the hope, passion, and life I am given through Jesus Christ.    Even when it hurts, even when it is so far fetched yet we try to make it come to life believing in what can never show up; because it is all just that façade in the imaginary dreams that sometimes break through and take you to the edge to forever be lost chasing demons or passions in the end do they not take you to the same end result?      When you allow the walk or running into the abyss of what never shows up ending up lost.

 

Darkness with Christ light, whatever will be, will be.    If that which you dream with and through him comes to be.  You have been blessed even more beyond measurable gratitude or any reciprocations that the world can give.   As all he wants is your time, your dedication to truth, your heart so he can save and live within the depths of your soul.

Who are you when no one is looking?   Me still that hot mess broken pieces put together in the good days and all over the place in the in-between.

 

Will we ever really taste and experience all life has to offer or do go straight to the father face down and hold on to heaven right on earth.  Experiencing love, life, through all the simplicity and beauty in everything no matter how glittery gold or jagged colorful edges.

There is not a day I do not feel the days reality how life is a gift.  As so many next to us are just dropping, fighting for life, fighting just to be.   You are enough; I am more than enough.   

Just because I do not take it to different levels or jump on that wagon to be like anyone that I connect, does not mean I am not alive and living.   It does not mean my desires, my heart, my wants and all the choices good bad or indifferent made along the way are any less or more than those who chase all that is in the world.

 

Believing in yourself starts with knowing who you are.  Never doubt dreams do not come true with hard work and dedication.   But always know that only you and the God that allows the air you breathe can make that happen with help along the way by motivation, pushing, and prodding or even the condemnation that so many will put in your path.

You can love anyone you wish but that will never mean you will be loved back.   Only you can love you for you but to really do so; you must know who you were created to be.

 

As I searched for some audio books to listen to in my travels, I find myself torn headed for what makes me laugh, or the depths of romance and the fine borderlines of what is really is love and romance and what is just lust and those moments that we should never publicly be talking about.

Needless today I downloaded a variety which always opens pandora’s box of taking me to the places I cannot go, in far away countries living the lives vicariously through those who have been there or the imagination that sometimes seems like my own.

 

Freedom to choose what you do with God given blessings, gifts, talents you have received.

Where does your freedom really set your free?  What does your freedom song look and sound like?

I can never be free anymore without the love, and purity of all that allows me back  up each new day my eyes open.   I will never be enough to repay the  blessings that I am given and even those that slipped through these little hands because they were too busy playing that spiritual tug of war with God himself.     Thinking we can do it on our own gets us into more than trouble.   However, knowing who ultimately allows you life to guide you through, in, around and over all things in this journey for the days unnumbered we take.

 

Well though there will always be that one missing.   The pit that I chased demons for in my days of youth or tried to mask because I did not understand the hurt or pains that came with where I was at that time.    Finally filled with hope and gratitude.    Standing on the edge no longer means there is only one way down.     Because now I can fly and never have to force, numb, or try to make happen what Jesus took so freely for me any day I believe in him for longer than a crisis or need.   He alone holds all my victories.    As without him I am just another soul wandering through the desert occasionally drinking the poison and living in those imaginary oases that suddenly crash back to realities of this world and just where my speck of life is and really means to anyone as it does to the creator himself.

 

Nobody really knows who you are or what you’re going through.   Many will do their best to convince you they do even managing portions or all of the life you have been given.   Just know you get to choose.     Choose wisely!   There are no do overs in this physical life and depending on what you choose will determine if you are living in and with peace and hope or within the depths of hell over and over throughout whatever eternity is.

God only knows!!!

I am okay with him being my everything first.   

 

Be it a story, be it a movie, be it a song.  Be it my life, or yours; may the Good Lord and all that he is promised for eternal beauty, peace, abundance in mercy, grace and true love fill your days guiding your spirit and opening the doors to all you can be as you and not anything you are known for doing.

 

Sunday 5-11-2025_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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