5.15.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday May 15th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Ecclesiastes 11:5 NIV @Biblegateway.com

As you do not know the path of the wind,
    or how the body is formed^[a] in a mother’s womb,
so you cannot understand the work of God,
    the Maker of all things.

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Footnotes

1. Ecclesiastes 11:5 Or know how life (or the spirit) / enters the body being formed

Ecclesiastes 11:5 in all English translations

 

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship, or other public venues.

 

Koryn Hawthorne - Broken Pieces (Official Audio) Lyrics

 

Lauren Daigle -You Say

 

TobyMac -Found

 

Ever Be Live - Bethel Music/We Will Not Be Shaken (Lyric Video)

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Good morning and prayerfully a blessed week.  Happy is all relative!

Realizing this morning getting up thinking about my youngest I am reminded as soon as going to the daily devotional.  There will always be something in this world that will make you fail like a failure, but it is all lies.   We don’t know which way the wind will truly blow or give us life and we cannot control the lives of others no matter how much good you want for them.  They have to want it and more importantly believe in themselves first.

When your child or partner or spouse or anyone close to you is going through IT.   And they cannot see the light or reason to purpose changes within and for themselves.     No can change that but them.   No matter how much it hurts.

But that does not stop the lies stating it’s because you were not good enough as a person, as a spouse, as a parent.   We all learn early on watching babies and how stubborn they can be when you tell them no over and over until they finally get it.

As we progress through life sometimes, we never lose that baby like lost don’t understand until it hits us like  a rock hopefully; that we get it.

Sometimes we never get it.    Sometimes it is just easier to stay in the rut because we have no truth to know we are made for so much more.

I myself will never say I get it!   Not when it comes to why things happen the way they do or the whole thing how can that be that is not anything I did.  Or why good people suffer, and evil seems to flourish at times.

 

Father of all the universes you know my heart.   You are how and why I am able to just breathe.  Be with every connection and heart string I am entangled.

May you give your strength to those at their lowest right now.

May you give your healing to the sick and broken.

May you direct our steps and allow the vision we see the future ahead with your promise and hope.  Remove the scales from our hearts, the doubt and lies that the darkness trying to consume us screams.

May the purpose and plan be yours alone and drive the blinding light to all that is good.

We all get lost Lord.  

I know we all get there in our own time and along the way we are the biggest wreck it ralph we could ever be to ourselves, to our loved ones.

 

Lord you too suffered the loss of the one and only you sent to save this fallen world.  

If only we could be like the birds in the sky.  Beautifully floating amongst all the waves of uncertainty yet never stopping until it is your time to do so.

Not a care in the world or am I just dreaming.   Not that it matters Jesus.   I can sit and tap out all that breaks my heart, or all that sends me into such joy and excitement.    All that sends me into being no different than the rest of the world or all that fills this soul.

If only ever extension of me knew you as personally as God intended.  Even I sometimes forget.   Holding on loosely while clinging to all that can or ever will be even if we don’t know it.

Lord, may I stop seeing the fall and may it change the future.  But if I cannot, or if it is not meant to be.  Give me strength to get back up when that fall comes~

5.12.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Friday May 12th, 2023

 

Thought Daily Devotions from Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

 

Proverbs 31:10, 27-28 NIV @Biblegateway.com

Epilogue: The Wife of Noble Character

^10 [a]A wife of noble character who can find?
    She is worth far more than rubies.

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 Proverbs 31:10, 27-28 The Message (MSG) @Biblegateway.com

Hymn to a Good Wife

^10-31 A good woman is hard to find,
    and worth far more than diamonds.
Her husband trusts her without reserve,
    and never has reason to regret it.
Never spiteful, she treats him generously
    all her life long.
She shops around for the best yarns and cottons,
    and enjoys knitting and sewing.
She’s like a trading ship that sails to faraway places
    and brings back exotic surprises.
She’s up before dawn, preparing breakfast
    for her family and organizing her day.
She looks over a field and buys it,
    then, with money she’s put aside, plants a garden.
First thing in the morning, she dresses for work,
    rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started.
She senses the worth of her work,
    is in no hurry to call it quits for the day.
She’s skilled in the crafts of home and hearth,
    diligent in homemaking.
She’s quick to assist anyone in need,
    reaches out to help the poor.
She doesn’t worry about her family when it snows;
    their winter clothes are all mended and ready to wear.
She makes her own clothing,
    and dresses in colorful linens and silks.
Her husband is greatly respected
    when he deliberates with the city fathers.
She designs gowns and sells them,
    brings the sweaters she knits to the dress shops.
Her clothes are well-made and elegant,
    and she always faces tomorrow with a smile.
When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say,
    and she always says it kindly.
She keeps an eye on everyone in her household,
    and keeps them all busy and productive.
Her children respect and bless her;
    her husband joins in with words of praise:
“Many women have done wonderful things,
    but you’ve outclassed them all!”
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades.
    The woman to be admired and praised
    is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves!
    Adorn her life with praises!

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Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com / Facebook, Local Worship or other public venues

 

You Have To Fight For It! | Rhythm Night | Steven Furtick

 

FEAR IS NOT MY FUTURE BY Kirk Franklin and Maverick City Music

 

I Thank God - Maverick City Music x UPPERROOM (Lyrics)

 

Held -Natalie Grant

 

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) - HillSong United

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Well then, finally broke down and got a laptop and tonight I am trying it out while finally walking away from my desk and being able to do a little mind maze release and triggered who was really writing this information if we think with the 20^th century mindset.    Interpretation is everything and I thank God, he calls me his own, so I don’t drown in the lost expectations that are seen with this reading.

A good women or man is one filled with respect to oneself and others.  One that loves beyond all expectations and stay pure, true and committed even in the hardest felt storms.

This new basic laptop is okay gotta get used to I think its windows 11.   I know I went from serious to squirrel, as I have to laugh when I am calling myself out.   But yeah, been in IT for a very long time and always working off IOS driven windows PCs.   I work off Mac on the weekends I serve in the tech booth for audio and pro presentations.  I was just saying to someone I have old machines from window’s 95 up.   Work we are in windows 16 and my old desktop 8 upgraded to 10   and now 11.  

 

Yeah, now I have a chore to go through and finally wipe them and donate or sell them.   In any case my goal is to be more mobile and really start simplifying and making the ability to just live life and still be connected. 

Life is far to short to live in fear or stay paralyzed in a world that sees you as invisible unless you chase all that is meaningless after 5 minutes.

I so ran out of road a long time ago and with that beyond blessed to know to whom I belong.   Through all the rushing worlds and waters and all that has left me barely breathing.   There will always be an opportunity to look back and see the blessings and all that would of, should of, and could of and that which did.

No one is promised tomorrow so what is the legacy you will leave.   In all honesty I don’t really care what others think.    Do I love many? Oh yeah… some deep down the depths of this soul that I have been blessed to have held tightly by the king of kings, creator or all things.    But when it comes down to all the lessons and messages, I have been allowed to walk away with from infancy to now.  Many I am beyond blessed even on the days I cannot get back up.

Maybe this is what it means to acknowledge being held!   Watching others slow fade into a world they will never come back all the while for some reason God shows favor to you even when it might hurt.    Just drifting away or sitting on that static docking station in the mind-maze defending all the spliced wires while trying to remain alive and have enough spark to shine for others while the days you have come past just about took all you have.

Life Ain’t easy nor was it ever said it would be.  Old school or new innovative Big Gods there is not; only just one who was and always will be.   Jesus Christ son of God, Holy Spirit blood of blood, healer of all things and truth and way of eternity.

Nothing can stop you then or now.

So, as I slow drift in my own world and check out this new toy with a cat stretched across my legs and a dog at my side.   Kids in the other room and my heart strings wandering in the web of what should not be.   I know where I am and where I will be.   Thank you for all who feed this spirit.  May I someday return the blessing.

As for presentation, never judge a book by it’s cover and know interpretation is one of the many choices and freedoms we are blessed to have.   If you don’t understand dive in; ask, challenge and own those that you make.

 

Father God Thank you~

 

 

5.8.2023_May_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday May 8th, 2023

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Colossians 4:5-6 NIV @Biblegateway.com

⁵ Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. ⁶ Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.

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New Life Christian Church -Spring Hill 5-7-2023

 

 

Cody Carnes – Nothing Else (Live at Passion Conference)

 

Positioned For A Purpose | Steven Furtick

 

Rebecca Ferguson Teach me How to be Loved lyrics

 

Incubus - Drive (instrumental and lyrics by GoodLyrics)

 

Captain Official lyric Video - Hillsong UNITED

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Lord reading today’s verse of the day and realize without every paying attention just how often we violate the laws of love and speaking to everyone with grace.

 

Getting so caught up flying on assumption day by day until we are carried back to the throne and foot of the cross.   I am sorry Jesus for always just running on empty into the agenda that I think matters any day you allow me back up. 

 

I am Sorry and so very thankful for you and all you have given me every day I am allowed back up~

 

It is true, I do just want all of you which is why I guess I am who I am and where I am allowed to be.    May I be consumed by all you are inside out and outside in Jesus.    I cannot change that and would not if I could.   For the pain and sorrow of yesterday and the darkness up ahead; you alone shine brighter than ever before. 

 

It is written and never unchanged no matter what we erase out of the pages we write out daily.   Lord shine on down and if I am not seeing it; may I at least be reflective of your promise.

 

Tomorrow was never promised and yesterday is gone.   May I never forget just to live right here, right now in and with you.

 

Happy May, yes, I am late even though right on time.   Just not in the mood to just spawn unnecessary letters or anything that pours out of this mind maze just because I can.

 

I am not rushing anything even if I am that person that gets upset if I cannot be 15-minutes early.

Beyond grateful for the worship and messages all my brothers and sisters in Christ share on behalf of helping your kingdom grow or just teach what was written 2000 years plus ago.

 

We all get there in our own time you give Father.

We all have trials, tests, and all the good things.  May we live for the moment right here, right now and be thankful for all that has come to pass and all we are allowed to see up ahead not matter how much it may hurt.

 

Every single mess has a message to learn from and share for others to who may need the strength, courage and love your soul emanates.

 

Teach me how to be loved and shine your light, Jesus!

 

Time is fleeting and there is no hidden secrets about any of what was, or what will be.  It is just the in-betweens of reconciliations and abundance we miss.

 

Father watching all that is around me sometimes hurts beyond the ability to just breathe.  Yet your goodness is more than I deserve.    Thank you for allowing me to know you now and whatever tomorrow brings.   We are all just weeds in someone else’s garden.

 

May you be the gardener, Father God.   May you, the creator of all things potter of all beauty mold me and pull those which you wish to make a way as I am not skilled or equipped.   Father you are and always be. 

 

One more day, one more second, and billions of yesterday molecules trying its best to understand the purpose and plan you allow.

 

You are my very breath no matter who understands, or even cares kindly and as for those who do not.  Yours will be done!   I cannot, not then, not now.

 

All that I am, all that I can be.   Every connection you allow is yours Jesus.    Nothing more nothing less.      Breath into all of me, through me, for me to you…

4.25.2023_April_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday April 25th, 2023

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Colossians 1:27-28 Gods Word Translation Biblegateway.com

²⁷ God wanted his people throughout the world to know the glorious riches of this mystery—which is Christ living in you, giving you the hope of glory.

²⁸ We spread the message about Christ as we instruct and teach everyone with all the wisdom there is. We want to present everyone as mature Christian people.

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tobyMac - I just need U. (Lyrics)

 

King of Kings - Jenn Johnson | Moment

 

Graves Into Gardens ft. Brandon Lake | Live | Elevation Worship

 

I Thank God (feat. Maverick City Music & UPPERROOM) | TRIBL

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me to know you are my only hope.  There is no doubt that I just need you for the air I breathe and the beat to this heart is all because of you,  With all the close calls, all the fragments and shards of glass of my own and all those that knot up those heart strings of mine.

 

Funny how someone asked me today what my favorite TMac song was, and I could only say all of them.    Somehow, I can relate at some level to every song he has been blessed to preach your word Father.   For this for him and his talent and heart and all those filled with your glory  that you have allowed me to live, learn and laugh through the tears with.  Thank you.  Thank you for allowing me to know who I am in you.

 

You are and always be the one who allow these lungs to breathe in and exhale just at the right moments in these days at times can be so hard for me to see the other side.

 

For my family, for my just doing what needs to be done to take care of living another day and even on those days there is just not enough of me to go around.

 

WE ALL get there in our own time and I know when you say move I move and my time will be for all that you are reading through this heart father.

 

This world is a big ole sticky bun that we call life.   I won’t deny that as I look in the mirror, I realize how blessed I am and have been.   Even when it hurts to see I lost myself and hope before I was trying to climb up into that pedestal believing those false prophets.   Believe in those wolves in sheep’s clothing and not even being upset about all that can be meaningless.  But believing in lost hearts only harms the believer because then he walls are built and the quit button gets pushed.   For the imitators and false identity that deceives you does not know what it really means to love, to care for more than what is to be gained and taken away ten-fold.

 

It is never too late to get back up and knowing and seeing you Jesus.  Knowing all the pain and hurt this world gave to you did to you all long before I was ever anything more than another thought to live breathed out.

 

Please be with me to get it back and not quit.   For beyond everything may I never lose my purpose in you.  May I never lose your energy, your direction.

 

May I take that energy you give me to be wide awake and be used for all you have in store?

May this life take it back and get back before it started pouring out?

May your will consume all that I am and all that I am connected?

 

May your beauty and grace pour through this world boldly so there will never be anyone that has an excuse?

May humanity stop suffering with their addictions and the scales fall off their hearts and eyes.

 

Jesus Close don’t count!    You know what that means and thank you for allowing me too as well.

 

We seen you on the move this past week, so why do I feel so overwhelmed at times when I cannot just drop what I am doing and be able to do it all?

 

Anyway

I wish I could do it all but that is not the plans you have.

I wish I didn’t feel like an outsider at times with my own family, but yet because of my lifestyle in and with you when I take that once a month moment and treat myself out of everything else I give away.   Well sadly it is the only thing that helps me light the spark and know there is still  more to this life selfishly than given all I have or do for temporary needs or well whatever they classify it.

 

May this life that you allow me to put in front of anyone else leave the mark of all your spirit is to be Jesus.

 

But for now, as Thank you Jesus ~ No matter what. 

4.13.2023_April_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Thursday April 13th, 2023

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Romans 3:23-24 Gods Word Translation Biblegateway.com

²³ Because all people have sinned, they have fallen short of God’s glory. ²⁴ They receive God’s approval freely by an act of his kindness ^[a] through the price Christ Jesus paid to set us free ⌞from sin⌟.

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Footnotes

1. 3:24 Or “grace.”

 

 

MercyMe - Even If (lyrics)

 

Strong Enough -Matthew West

 

Matthew West - Hard Season (Official Music Video)

 

NEEDTOBREATHE - Survival (feat. Drew & Ellie Holcomb) Lyrics

 

Jeremy Camp - Anxious Heart (Lyric Video)

 

Jamie Kimmett - Prize Worth Fighting For (Live)

 

Rick Pino - The Altar Sessions (Volume 1) [Live Full Album]

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

 

10 steps closure to have one wrong attitude kicking you back in the progress being made 50!

With that you just cannot take watching what is happening and make the stupid out loud comment. Dear Jesus, I cannot just walk away from everything here to fix it; can you please just take me home.   I am so better off being out of this world and just dead.   It would fix so many things all around.

 

And the borderline manic hears you and all hell breaks loose causing more drama, more layers to the already overflowing life of what was being given by my stepping up and staying in.  Stability and opportunity to grow.   Into shattered pieces of lives that will never be mended.

 

How can you tell them yes you need help and so do I.   To learn how to help you grow without it always being something because of what you feel or do.

 

As a mom you either throw them in the deep or enable them to have the best opportunities in life so much you disable them.    Absolutely I handled my kids so much differently than my grands are being raised.    Yes, I am the 75% factor of their stability.   As the other 25% I am learning I am chasing wind trying to not enable but be stability to allow all the hurt, brokenness, and opportunities for parent(s) to do their best.    

 

No parent that  is all in wants to see any misfortune for their children.   Yet we all get to choose. Sometimes people cannot see past things and will always have room to blame, be so upset it disrupts everyone or take it all on themselves so badly they just want to make everyone around them suffer as they think they are at that very moment; even when they can see it.

 

After a long day at work, then volunteering and working with 25 elementary kids for 2 hours coming home ready for bed; and just exhausted.   Anything that drags out undisturbed rest is a blessing.   But nope, hours later listening to the fuss and finally jumping in and bam just like that.

 

I could sell out and disappear, but I would never do that to my  babies.    As long as He gets me back up it is a blessing and there are reasons I am placed where I am.  

 

But it doesn’t mean you don’t get tired of not being able to fix what is broken.  Nor that you just don’t want to fly high with Jesus and be done of all the responsibilities and constant issues or hearing kids upset because they just want what they want and parents demand without thought or reason what they want even if or when.

 

Kind of like when you show up to bring lunch to your young child and you have so much happen delaying your arrival from traffic jams to rain when you walk in your child is red faced and upset because they think you forgot about them.    Letting you feel so small and failing.  Though that was not me I got it!     So many ways we can easily be made to feel by our words, actions or that of others how much of a failure we can easily become.

 

If only!    Those moments of when things go wrong with or in our loving family that is your life.

 

It is not up to us to be perfect.  All we can do is our best with our God given love, time, and talents.    It is about calling upon the name of the Lord in our best selves in obedience to all that is morally productively good.

 

Mom, dad, aunt, uncle, foster, step in step up… none of it matters when we step in to own the responsibilities put before us even if they belong to anyone else.   It is our due diligence to keep getting back up or taking those deep breaths when all the air has been sucked out and life just does not work without feeling our heads are exploding, our hearts are breaking and all the in-betweens.

 

What wave are you riding on?   If none you will be for sure.   We are all either coming down off one or just starting.    We all have demons in the closets of our souls that either have been rectified with Jesus or they are beating the hell out of us from the inside out and we are reacting pouring out all over everything and every choice we make and most times not even realizing what we are doing until something even randomly close happens to us and knows the wind out of us.

 

It does not matter if it is your blood, your soul mate, or just a passing by connection.   Everything we think, everything we do matters.     Words will be the life and breath of all a child has to lead their future.   An adult from having enough of this world before they quit and are consumed by the darkness.

 

I cannot fix all that is broken, not for anyone including myself.   And even when it hurts, I can choose differently and not give in to the darkness.

 

For this I am beyond grateful to the Lord God,  Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit that lives within.

 

You Jesus are the ultimate prize worth fighting for.  Never will I or anything in this world be worth the value of all you are and forever will be.

 

Though the gifts of life you give and take away from all the people, places and things will forever drive us.   You Lord I pray never leave the depths of this soul.

 

Please give me the works and words to see no evil, say no evil and speak no evil to myself or anyone else in this world.

 

Please forgive me for allowing my weariness to leak out and bleed out around me sometimes.

 

All that I am, all that I was, always just me everything; every single bit from laughter to tears, work to play that dash.  Is all yours!    Every single connection, tie or whatever it is that linked me to it or them.   All yours, Jesus~   Show your way, through all it all!