02.24.2021_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Wednesday, February 24, 2021

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

Jeremiah 29:11-13 (NIV) 

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)

 

Ruins (feat. Joe L Barnes & Nate Moore) - Maverick City | TRIBL

Love @ We Are Messengers

East to West @Casting Crowns

Overflow @TobyMac, Bart Millard -(Willyecho Remix/Audio)

Amadeo (Still My God) @Ryan Stevenson

Out Of My Hands @Jeremy Camp

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

Faith in all that is good, all that is unseen comes in many shapes, sizes, and colors.

Hope, peace and the want for goodness and joy for all it touches sees no wrong.  When no agenda souls come together and absolutely allow Jesus to wash through them, knowing when they sing about His ability to wash away the ruins.   There is nothing that blocks the love, the care, the truth that is written and pours out of one’s spirit.  

For some this may be laughter at what they do not understand, some beautiful unseen sounds coming together of every voice, every musical instrument.   For some like being lifted and flowing through every beat and rhythm filled with energy, for when they land and look back they know it is only because the same God of the universe that has given them a new day allow them to feel a glimpse of what is yet to come.

Can you hear it?  Can you see? 

Have you laid your burdens down?

Have you stopped looking around, looking at everyone else? 

Have you looked into the depths of who Jesus Christ died so you would be allowed to really know who you are meant to be?  Who you are?

Not what you have!

Not what you do!

Who you are in the eyes of the creator, that same God who knows every hair on your head, knows your thoughts and what you are about to do; even what you have done that you cannot shake off.

Have you met His son Jesus right where you are?

We are all imperfect souls that sin against all that God the Father created us to be daily.   So what in the eyes of the world some sins of many are more heinous than any we could see our ever be caught up or do.

Yet a sin is a sin, so who are we to judge others for what they once did.   

Don’t get it twisted.    Those that do the crime me, you; everyone one; absolutely must pay for what we do.    Every action has a result.  Every action is someone’s choice and the tsunami wave of what washes out at the end of that choice has the effects of good, bad and everything in-between.

Yes, in a heartbeat I fight not to react to some choice others make that involve me or my family or even those I find myself caught up in.

 

However even when a criminal that is in prison and the crime, they commit robs a life, or puts others in permanent distress.  Though they will always be required to pay for their crimes, it is  up to God what the final judgement would be.   Yes, I struggle daily and often have to ask for forgiveness because I am that one that though I love everything about God the Father and in love with all Jesus Christ is.    I still say I will be the one to help line them up.    When it comes to harming children, elderly and those who cannot defend themselves for whatever the reasons.    Yes, I cast judgment too.

I can make excuses; I can say its because I know what it is like to watch those who have no regard for anything but their own personal demons to be fed.   Watching myself in the looking back glass.  Watching others.   

How easy it is to lose ourselves to what is already been and gone and here we are with a new day and new opportunity to grow up, and forward. Finding the best in all we are, all we are meant to be and most importantly with whom we belong.

The same soul that reveals beauty, promise, and hope from the East to West is the same Father of all things that wants our absolute best, for who we are despite how much we try to fit into this abstract world.

When you know every single thing about us. Most times we do not know our own self until we are figuring out how to get out of a mess.

 

   Sure, we know what we think we want, what our goals of who we want to be in the future, what we will tolerate or not.    But how many of us really take time to know who we really are in the eyes of God?  How many of us really meet Jesus where we are and seek the truth and the way?

Seek what may not make sense but fills us up we overflow with abundance even when we have nothing. 

We are the water that Jesus turns into wine.   Not to walk around drunk, lost, under the influence and stupid but that of what lifts our spirits so high we will never touch the earth ever again.   Even when the waves of day-to-day pound on us.

Death, destruction, let downs, surgeries, accidents, anger, volatility, crimes of delusion, crimes of passion.   Illness, cancers, pandemics,  mental, emotional, heart, head; that which is self-inflicted or the hands of others.     The list of all that can and will consume us at some points in our journey.    Lay it all at the foot of the cross.     Really get to know not just hear about Him, but dive in and find who Jesus was the, and is still now.

There are many ways to learn through Pod Casts, Youtube.com, Music, Music, Music,  Yes did I say Music.  Speakers, Movies, READ the BIBLE.  Start with daily devotionals, find no agenda Christ Centered friends that are on the journey with you.  Find a church that teaches what is in the Bible.  Challenge, ask, seek.    Do not just assume and take what someone gives you.    Dive in and know that the God of the Universe in the days of creation is still our God in everything all the time and nothing can change that. 

Giving it back and acknowledging it is out of hands and in the hands of the one who allows us life and breath in our lungs is far different that just turning our heads and hiding in what the world says it should be.

We all get to believe; we all get to share perspectives in this free world that is falling apart.  Maybe not openly for some.  But the blessing no matter how good or bad life surrounds me here and now.  Mine is to share the pieces of me and my ability to share that Jesus is still my God.

Lord, please teach me, teach us how to pray for those who are less than kind, those that offend us, those that at times purposely see we are easy targets and harm us for their own personal desires or what they think are needs.   Perhaps even those that have so much hurt, anger or untamed emotion that just comes out and anyone within reach is the collateral damage.    For when I harm or offend anyone Lord; please forgive me.

Lord, come down and heal this land.   There are so many needs that only you can fulfill.   May we fill up with the love that you intended and not get it twisted and confused for all that consumes us.

Guide and protect our children and any future that will come.  Jesus you are the light, the hope and all that is good.

Thank you for this day and all the opportunities that can come to be.

 

Meditation Opportunities

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

1 Corinthians 13:12 KJV  For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

 

Ephesians 3:16-19 I pray out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.  And I pray that you , being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep  is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of tall the fullness of 

02.23.2021_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Tuesday, February 23, 2021

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)

 

You Know Me Better @Stars Go Dim

Jesus Lover Of My Soul @Awakening Music (Lyrics)

Peace Be Still @Hope Darst

Be a Light ( lyrics ) @Thomas Rhett ft. Keith Urban, Chris Tomlin, Hillary Scott & Reba McEntire

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

Thank you, Lord, for this new day….

How hard it is to not hold onto that which sets us in motion?

How hard is it to each day set everything at the foot of the cross where you changed everything?  

 How hard it is to give all of that which makes us hurt, makes us angry, makes us distrust, makes us be and do what we were not intended and created to be?

To just believe in all that you are when we have grown and learned to believe in only what we can see.  

We were wired for more not that of what we know as self-pity and all the I can’t or daily fill of excuses of why we do what we do.

We are made for more than what we feel, what we touch, what we hear, what we see.

Yet here we are!  Here I am.

 

There will always be someone that does to best to one up you.  There will always be someone that sees you for something other that pure intentions that help you grow forward.  There will be those brief moments in time when you think you have that balance and have been blessed with that one that will walk, run, or lay beside you through and with all things.   

There will be those that you are that one for someone else.   Be it intentional or it just happens.   We all hurt and hurt others. 

We all purpose after life and that definition in our own minds eye reveals.

We all believe in something; we all believe in others.   We are all the same yet so vastly different as to who we lean in on; or how much we can take or choose to do, try or have done before we say enough.

There will always be judgment in this world.  We can be our own worse critics, or we can think we have the authority to judge everything about everyone and anyone we come in connection with.

Who knows why we do what we do to those we say we love, or how we just turn off compassion and heart felt love for life or humanity in general?

Not everyone wants to see the world in rose-colored glasses.    Some just have that natural ability to see it like the middle of a warzone and go out playing GI.  While those who really serve a country where I am guessing there are more ungratefulness for the sacrifices of life given for freedom than not.  Well, I guess that is an entirely different day to write about.

The saying you become what you hang with.   Is pretty much the same as you are having control over the steps your destiny path takes and it absolutely matters what you consume as nourishment for mind, body, and spirit.      What you allow to in through your eyes, your ears, eventually starts pouring out of your heart, mouth, and actions.

When we go to a gym to work out for physical fitness we get in shape.   Somethings change and can be seen immediately, while others are slow progress.    It can take years to get to what each one declares to be our happy place. 

 Looking good, feeling good and all the numbers add up and everyone notices.       Yet, it could take just brief moments in time when we stop our routine and in a matter of a few short months everything we worked to, seems to be disappearing.

Same thing I guess with what we work our minds out with.  What we consume or allow in sticks.    We can go to school, learn new trades be the top of our class in whatever the field.   Years and thousands of dollars later we stop putting what we learned to use and eventually we start forgetting.

Love and life and relationships take work too.    Life and becoming more willing to dive in and die to our own selfish whims, wants or even what we think are needs.  

 Yet we one day realize we have lived all these years thinking we needed and looking back and seeing the reflection we did not.    The only thing we really needed was that which sustains and grants peace deep down into the very fabric of every DNA vessel, tendon and bone that holds us together.  (Jesus)

If we have been there done that, if we are putting all we are into what is temporary, what does not last or what eventually really is not for or with us.   Something needs to change.    Not by sitting in the dark, letting the real depression, hurts and broken pieces drain our life.   Not settling and just hoping someday that it will change or those we really want to care about us show up to stay.   Not those who stay with us only for what we do for them. 

If we have numbed our pains yet they keep coming back what does that tell us.    Prayerfully that we get over ourselves, we get over what others think, and we dive into what has been in truth, and written the same for more than 2000 years.      Prayerfully one day we realize the only thing that has ever sustained us is the same being that created the earth and breathed life into existence.   

Your choice to believe in anything.  Our choice of colors, where we want to be in life, how we will get there even the drugs of choice that we become addicted to.  When we give all, we are to what is temporal and destructive and wonder why things will not change.   What do we do when the choices are our own?

When we get tired of the colors on our walls, times we buy new paint and change the color.  When we want to get away but just cannot because of pandemics, no money, circumstances that surround us.  We pick up a good book and read finding ourselves imagining lives vicariously through the storyline.    Or get sucked into movies where everything is an act.

We get to think out loud or keep it to ourselves.  Making me wonder what really goes on in a soul’s mind that has been acting all their lives and suddenly they believe they are greater or better than anyone else they ever cross paths with.    They have been lost to the scripts of the world and that that drives them to be whatever on screen because they like it when others watch.    Losing themselves or is it the audience of the world who was really lost thinking that a great romance scene is how love is supposed to be.

Yes, if you have not figured out my mind triggers so many different things from music, from thoughts.  Where here we get caught up in our own self pity even when sometimes we cannot recognize it.     And this is the moment where the phrase Mike Tyson flashes through this mind maze and I hear in his Tyson voice “I Pity The fool.”

But why pity, why not lessons of growth forward fast and furious with more strength and courage than ever before.   But we do even when we get it twisted.   When we put all, we are into that next great adventure, believe in that next great unseen love where all our desires pour out and we have met our match.  Or that next great rearrangement of any part of lives that allow us to forget what hurts and hangs us up.   Until it doesn’t.

Why in the belief of many does humanity fight to prove there is no God and Jesus is not real? If in fact that is true.    Because it is not.    God the Father, Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit that glue the trinity together are real today as they were the first day Jesus came up out of that grave on day three.

I am no theologian.   But I know many who are.   I have lived long enough to have been there, done that and yes wrote the book even if it wasn’t anyone’s choice to read life poetry.

I have been there done that and tried to be love, find love all my life.   Tried those magic potions of the moment and scene I was living in at the time; waking up to still have my own hurts and hang-ups strangling me.     It was not until I in my own time, in my own way called out to Jesus and fought with him, laughed with him and today am able to grow forward with him.

The same pains that rips our souls to pieces keep coming, yet the peace of God that poured out on that cross washes through those who purpose to know him.

Life is never easy; it was never said to be.  However, if we go back to the Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth. The BIBLE and do our best to learn and follow. I can tell you life changes for the better.   We all believe in something, and no, just because I believe does not mean I do not get pounded on.  But it does mean I keep trying each day the God of the universe allows me up.   I am thankful.  And filled with a greater peace and I cannot really tell you how or why.

It just is what it is; and I am more than okay with that.    The one being that has never let me down or turned their back when I have messed things up.  He is, He was, and He will always be.  My sustainer and the air I breathe.  

He allows me life even when I am a hot mess that really gets twisted trying to be my best self on any given day.    I never picked this, He picked me.  And if you have had God and Jesus and all that a lifetime or the Bible has to teach or any part of it.   He is already waiting for you to acknowledge him.

Life does not end walking with Christ in our souls; it just begins. 

 Do not think you cannot live life and have fun walking and breathing knowing who your really are created to be.     However, if you do know him and you are playing in the sandbox. 

Well, stop!  Do your best to do what is right with pure hearts and clean hands.   Without love for self, without actions for good without pulling it all together not thinking of our own being 24/7 when we invite Christ in life changes forever.

   We cannot just be with what we say, we cannot do and have it matter for what is supposed to without true passion, compassion, and truth, not just true. 

But truth.  Meaning what we say and saying what we mean and acting on it.  Not just talking a good game or talk because we can.  Not just walking around thinking because it is working and filling us up with what we want right here and right now is the right thing to do when we know it is not.   Not just avoiding our responsibilities and being our best self.   While knowing yeah it may sting really bad if and when it comes to light it did not work out or is not what we should be doing.  But we do our best anyway to be our best self.

Somewhere along the line we figure out that if it wasn’t enough, if it wasn’t good enough.  It was never intended to be.   Same goes for us when we pour into other humans.   If we are just not enough without having to jump through hoops, putting our mind, bodies, and souls at risk.  It is never meant to be. 

We get to choose if we play in the chess game of life and strategically do our best to live and move across the board.   Or just settle for that instant rush and take whatever is temporary whatever we can get at the moment.

We all have to live with the results of whatever the choices.    Even if many will carry them and destroy their lives trying to bury them or run from them.    

Anyway, I am thankful that no matter what the choices are our own.   More so that God allows us to learn, let it hurt, let it heal and let it go and gives us new horizons each day we get back up.

Good, bad, or indifferent.  He knows me best and He knows you and every single hair on your head, cell in your body.   He is for you as he has created all of us for abundant life.

God knows us and loves us, and He just wants a lasting relationship with Him and to do that it is through is son Jesus.    In John 14:21 (NIV) states the following:  “Whoever has my commands and keeps them is one who loves me.  The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”     ²⁶ A person’s body without their spirit is dead. In the same way, faith without good deeds is dead.

Be your best self, learn who you are and know who you are in the creator through Jesus Christ.  No matter if you choose to walk with Him that is up to you.   Just know He was the one who breathed us to life and will be the one on Judgement day that has the final say.    Be a good human, and love yourself enough to learn, grow and get back up in a world that constantly losses ground and pulls the rug out from under us.    

 

I could absolutely be writing that great romance novel I have buried with desires deep down within.  I could absolutely write out my life story; I have, although I just have not allowed it to come to black and white yet.    But I write whatever God allows to freely flow and sometimes its pieces of me along the way; others it is putting them back where they were once broken from.

 

In my youth I worshipped the sun laying out getting the warmth and color that nature gives us.  When I finally grew up, I learned there is nothing that can replace the warmth and color of the Son of God, Christ Jesus.     And for this I am blessed to have come to know so many on the no agenda journey and life path to worship him and shine even the slightest light that feeds and grows us within.

 

Prayerfully you will find that warmth and nourishment no matter what that looks like.  It is between you and the maker. 

 

Much love and peace in Christ Jesus.

Meditation Opportunities

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

Psalm 89:15  Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, O Lord.

 

Hebrews 12:1-2 Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

Proverbs 14:22 (NIRV) 

²² Those who plan evil go down the wrong path.  But those who plan good find love and truth.

James 2:14-26 (NIV)   Faith  and Deeds

¹⁴ What good is it, my brothers, and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? ¹⁵ Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. ¹⁶ If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? ¹⁷ In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

¹⁸ But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”

Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds. ¹⁹ You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

²⁰ You foolish person, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless^[a]? ²¹ Was not our father Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? ²² You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. 

²³ And the scripture was fulfilled that says, “Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,”^[b] and he was called God’s friend. ²⁴ You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.

 

²⁵ In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? ²⁶ As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.

02.22.2021_February(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Monday, February 22, 2021

 

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com)

 War Zone @Neena Rose (fan made lyric video)

Running @Land Of Color

Wildfire @Crowder

Hands @Jewel

Lost In Your Love @Brandon Lake (Lyrics) ft. Sarah Reeves

 

Meditation Opportunities

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

1 John 4:18(NIRV) 

¹⁸ There is no fear in love. Instead, perfect love drives away fear. That’s because fear has to do with being punished. The one who fears does not have perfect love.

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

So very thankful for the reminders of what is already known.    YOU NEED ME EVERY MOMENT.  Your awareness of your constant need for Me is your greatest strength.  Your neediness, properly handled, is a link to My Prescence.  However, there are pitfalls that you must be on guard against:  self-pity, self-preoccupation, giving up.  Your inadequacy presents you with a continual choice-deep dependence on Me or despair.  The emptiness you feel within will be filled either with problems or with My Presence.  Make me central in your consciousness by praying continually:  simple, short prayers flowing out of the present moment.  Use My Name liberally, to remind you of My Presence, Keep on asking and you will receive so that your gladness may be full and complete.

Psalm 86:7 In the day of my trouble, I will call to you, for you will answer me.

1 Thessalonians 5:17 Pray continually.

John 16:24 AMP “Up to this time you have not asked a [single] thing in My Name [as presenting all that I AM]; but now ask and keep on asking and you will receive, so that your joy (gladness, delight) may be full and complete.”

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives or feelings)

 

One of those mornings; blessed and thankful I am allowed back up.  Even up super early only to lay back down and wake up running behind. 

 

Thankful for the chime on my phone, even if it was the sound of one last time, I should receive messages from there.

 Busy day ahead and no time for goofing around or getting caught up in distracting schemes or doodling with real lifetime that we never get back.

 There is something to be said for Joyce Mayer and Battlefield of the mind.  Always something going on, always someone that our days can become like a warzone.  

    Me I want to believe the best intentions for all I am connected, and I do not condemn or condone anyone’s choices.   I have my own.    But Friendship and love real friendship and love is priceless.  Not just a conversation of different colors how one presents they are hustling for whatever funding they can get from you.    

When in true need, honesty always prevails, not mattering who you are or where you come from; to those ready and willing to help.

 True need does not mean paying a bill then they go buy their smokes or party because someone else picked up the tab!   Truth is not paying for a shipment that you will be reimbursed for.   Truth is not if you send me 1 Million dollars, I can come be with you forever.

 Okay so that was extreme, be it 1 dollar, or 50 thousand to a million; the bottom line is game cards, steam cards, cash transfers, all in the name of something being delivered, all in the name of one excuse after the other, all in the name or names of someone you say you are but never show up to stand face to face virtually or in person.   

   And even then; standing face to face and sharing such beautifully words many needs and what we all want to hear and then hustling anyone men or woman for anything that you should be working for yourself.

 Love is not what we can do or give.   Love is always, love is without question lifting others up without expectations.     

 My thoughts you all!   Life is not supposed to be a series full of constant fulfillment of everything someone presents as a need.   

Although we are called to be selfless, there is a big difference in doing what others won’t even try to be honest and do themselves, that they just keep playing the life chess game hustling and they are good at.     You can know someone all your life and never really know them by the actions.

 Saying what you mean and meaning what you say.   Such a fine line to balance especially when you want to believe the best and see the best in others.    But because we are all wired so very uniquely and different.   It just becomes part of the game until their play time in the world is up.

 It is what it is until it’s not.   At some point we have to shake off what we keep trying to make really happen and/or fix and let it go.

 Every day we get to choose.

 My ability to over the years to have believed in so many and some found growth, while others who knows where they ended up, and for those who left this planet before they fully make those amends or finish what they started on the path to righteousness and knowing just how beautiful and well they were.

 Life is the battlefield and our minds, letting our hearts lead and wanting to see the best in anyone is a war zone.

 Always pray for the best for everyone and hate the game don’t hate the player.    Sometimes we cannot turn that other cheek but never hate those you grow to love that have set themselves up to fall so hard and you realize you cannot fix, help or be the net to catch when they land.

 Give it to God!   Everything you are that is good belongs to him anyway.  Everything we think we own is on loan and can be taken back at any time.    Money, housing and all the material things of life that make us so called happy.

 In the blink of an eye a winter storm can come freeze out everything we have causing death and destruction just likes Texas in 2021.    Or a strong wind called a tornado or hurricane will wipe away all we ever known including loved one’s.      The ground opens up and swallows ups whole and everything we think that made us.

 Its great to have blessings and live life.   But what are we really doing, why are we doing it and who are we doing it for?     Are we walking around internalizing what we are trying to achieve and allowing it to destroy us from the inside out?   Or what about what we are trying to do outside of real need to help others.  

 If you cannot justify it, see it, and really prove it is a need,  it is real then why are you doing it?

 In the end does it really matter if you misjudged?  Hell yes!    Especially with what comes next.  

 I have done some crazy things in my journey in this life.   Yes, I in my best days have sent money off to perfect strangers and their needs and outreach.   Even believed that love was what we did for others.   And when the self-destruction and disrespect outweighed the good.    Begged for healing when I cut all ties.

 Really believed knowing no one owes me anything in life so it should be easy for people to be straight up in who they are and what their agenda’s even if they are not planned or written out really are.    

   Listened to the made-up stories that there are none; yet every day was a new need that I could do for them.

 Given everything and truly ended up when in need of just a simple run to a store because I was down for the count.   It could not be done.

 Listened to stories after stories, convinced myself they truly do have good hearts deep inside and if I just keep praying and/or sticking with them a little longer I can help make that change.

This is how I can say.   Even though I do try.   IT IS NOT OUR PLACE TO SAFE THE WORLD!   That is up to God, and if those you are connected do walk with God and play in Satan’s sandbox and play you out.   They will answer to God alone. 

  It is not up to us to fix what we never created or have the authority to fix.

 This is how I can defer to #LET IT GO #LET IT HURT #LET IT HEAL.

 It will heal and there will be forever pieces added to your abstract puzzle of life and many more missing or misplaced.   

     We do not need to live in a bubble or in fear over anything.  Unless of course our choice truly put us in the midst of a hardcore life with really bad choices.  

You know the kind where you did someone so wrong and their gang, their family,  their anything like the MOB will always collect payment.    Extreme crazy thoughts this morning.   Yeah!

I have done my time, and God allowed me to meet His son Jesus Christ long back.   Allowed me to know where and when my blessings really were.   

Allowed me to love people and even sometimes allowed me to let them in too close.      Allows me daily until He says no more to get back up.    Allows me like everyone at some point and time in this universe to choose what is next.  Until time runs out. 

He allows all of us to choose life.  Choose to know His son Jesus Christ and choose to purpose even when we do not get it right to try and be our best self.

 To know right from wrong but not live it;  well, we all get to pick our poisons of life.    God is the remedy for any snake bites.   He is the way if we choose to try and call upon Jesus.

 Yes, feel free to label me a Jesus freak.  It is okay.   I would rather be known for my kindness and the pains and let downs that come with it, than 15 minutes much less seconds of anything that purposes to take and harm others.      Love broke through and I pray it never lets me harden or leaves me. 

 Although if I had a dime for every loss I have taken because of kindness.   I could buy a happy meal for everyone in the world.   Or at least try.

Time is running out;  we are not promised tomorrow.    Stop buying into the schemes and stories that someone loves you, but you need to send them anything.   That giving them your banking info, or even accepting a check to deposit is helping anyone.   Especially if you have never met them.

 Take note when the someone new is wanting to know more about your own family members even wanting to see photos of them.    Don’t do it.  

 Loving can hurt big time.   Ask Jesus!

We love and think we love in so many different ways.   But really how can we love anyone if we do not understand how to love and protect ourselves.    And that is not even close to what we need to buy or do to keep up with the world around us or become what we think matters for everyone else.

There will always be critics.  

Worshipping the one true God is not a performance.    God cares and goes by what he sees in our hearts.   Our intentions and He alone will deal with us no matter how far we think we have come.

We can stuff things away or keep playing in the sandbox.   But if we are not calling upon the father to help us make the way.     If we really think we are in control, or we got this.    Just hold on to the aftershocks of all that is yet to come.

Thank you, Jesus, for allowing me to pour out what may or may not make sense to any.   Thank you for allowing me back up.

Life is real.  Good, bad, or indifferent.    May I and all I am connected dive into you and know how to make each day filled with imperfect pieces shine brightly in gratitude, love, life, protection, and guidance of you to lead those always watching by example.   Examples of good and growth forward.

 We are never alone even when we allow the distractions call us off the path.  You Father God are always waiting for us to come back.