Friday, October 22, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Friday October 22, 2021

Meditation Opportunities

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Proverbs 15:23 (NIV) New International Version

23 A person finds joy in giving an apt reply—  and how good is a timely word!

Proverbs 15:23 (MSG) The Message Bible

23 Congenial conversation—what a pleasure!
    The right word at the right time—beautiful!

Proverbs 15:23 (AMP) Amplified Bible

23 
A man has joy in giving an appropriate answer,
And how good and delightful is a word spoken at the right moment—how good it is!

Movers Motivations & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

JOHNNY LEE ~ LOOKING FOR LOVE

#OfficialLive #TeddySwims #TennesseeWhiskey

Kygo - Love Me Now ft. Zoe Wees

In The Name // Lakewood Music Ft. Kim Walker-Smith // New Song Cafe

TobyMac ft Lecrae - Forgiveness

NEEDTOBREATHE - "I Am Yours" (Acoustic) [Dark Horse Sessions]

Phil Wickham - Where I'm Standing Now (Official Music Video) ft. Brandon Lake

Riley Clemmons - Healing

 


 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Looking back on time and where I was and where I am now.    No doubt life and those in it, those I engaged, those I believed in, those I fell hard were smooth as Tennessee whiskey in all the game they were good and may still be of playing. 

But one thing is for sure; it is all good.   They are who they are, I am who I am and FORGIVNESS is abundant.

I don’t have to judge even if I need to know and maintain boundaries and learn from what was, what is and what can still be.

God is my creator, my witness and my judge and jury in the end.

No doubt in my youth I looked for love in all the wrong places and man was that my theme song.   Nope none of those one night stands just to put a notch or say I did it.   Those I eventually let in and connected for weeks, months even years only to find life was not what I thought it was going to be.

Man, how music speaks to us and reflects so many people’s realities, dreams, wants, regrets, hopes or just speaking life.

Talking through last nights group and still never understanding how a kid doomed by how they were brought into the world and had so much happen long before they even knew what life was.  Became me and years later blessed and given so many opportunities through so much suffering personally and all around. 

 

The hardest part even still today watching the news and seeing so much that did not make it to speak out and try to make a difference today brings me to tears at times.   So not worthy of the gift of life but despite it all; and all those choices I made to play along or just do.   You Lord allowed me up again!

 

Thank you.

This huge chess game of life where somedays I feel like the queen and others playing the huge roll of the ultimate pawn.    Yet somehow you allow me to get back up on that balance beam and even when I do not want to let go you show me how to move forward.

You Jesus Love Me Now!     You loved me/us then, you will love me even when I fall.  Nothing can or will ever change that.

It was you Jesus that set me free as I was choked out, broken beyond repair and so desperate to not feel, not care.   It is, it was, it will always be you Jesus.   I wish at times I understand why or could blend my human desires with who you want me to be.   Yet knowingly for all time will receive, will be, will do all that you call to be finished even if it is not yet started.

Be it right here now or 100 more years from now.   For this I am grateful to at least have a glimpse and know you are and always will be.

 

All the temporal rushing waters flooding this place, surrounding all I can be, all I want to be, all I am.   You are the life raft as I float at times in the middle of no where even when I am with and surrounded by everyone.

Thank you for choosing me.    I truly would have been long gone.   Even when I see the world so dark it is and always has been.   It is just instant like microwaved popcorn.   Leaving some perfect to be chased and others so undone.

 

Always and forever yours Jesus… there was no way I could not fall in love with all you lived, suffered, died, and rose again for.     I will never fully understand it all.   But one thing I know is you who are mine.   To share that with the world and speak even the smallest words of life.   As I am just a spec waiting to be returned to dust and soul forever with all the love you allow to come back to you.

 

Look where I was and where I stand now with you.    Imperfectly placed perfectly where you say my colors will blend and add some sort of beauty even in the grey areas.

Thank you for never giving up on me.

Thank you for this new day.

Thank you for allowing me to let go and give it all back to you.

Thank you for the forgiveness you gave me.

Thank you for allowing me to forgive.   What was, is not what will be!   What is not what the future holds.

May we breathe you in and never stop looking up even if tears stream through the brokenness and pain that never goes away.    May we shine bright in acknowledgement of who you are and who I/we are in and with you!

 

May this world feel your healing Christ?

 

Thursday, October 21, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Thursday October 21, 2021

Meditation Opportunities

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Psalm 40:8 (NIV) New International Version

I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.”

Psalm 40:8 (MSG) The Message Bible

7-8 So I answered, “I’m coming.
    I read in your letter what you wrote about me, And I’m coming to the party
    you’re throwing for me.”   That’s when God’s Word entered my life,
    became part of my very being.

 

Movers Motivations & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Start with why -- how great leaders inspire action | Simon Sinek | TEDxPugetSound

Son of Suffering - David Funk, feat. Matt Redman

Keith Urban and BRELAND “Stand By Me” Grand Ole Opry Loretta Lynn & Friends 9/13/21

Keith Urban - You'll Think Of Me

Kane Brown, H.E.R. - Blessed & Free

Arms that Hold the Universe - 33Miles

Exhale - Mercy Me

TobyMac and Cochren & Co. - Edge Of My Seat

Lauren Duski - I Would For You

Micah Tyler - Different


Priceless by For King and Country

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

No matter what is up ahead always look up and always know there are physically, emotionally, and spiritual opportunities that await you.   Good, Bad, or indifferent… We all get to choose what we will consume, what we will give away.  Into or of ourselves, every single day we are allowed back up.   That is the blessing of freedom of will and choice.

 

So, if things are not feeling the way you want them to feel, not that we should be doing life by feelings alone if at all.   If things are robbing you from health and wellbeing.   You own the ability to change them, it!!!

 

I speak often of wanting to really feel that love from the outside in that God has allowed me to come to know when I met and fell in love with Jesus from the inside out.    Perhaps we have always known who we are; I have always known who I am.  Just rarely do we understand it and really make choices based on everlasting growth opportunities.

It can be our fault, but it does not start out that way when every soul given a day to get back up also has abundant choices and opportunities and we can in our mind, in our heart and in our physical being choose to not be like or dive in to grow more and more towards.

All so the same but different.   All of us bleeding red; all of us must have a heartbeat to reflect life.   Even if what my life may seem so dreary, or ecstatic compared to another.

 

The thing is we spend far too much time trying to prove to gain people, places, and things.  We give too much away trying to get others to love us.   We do mad crazy things and put up with mad crazy sadness and dark scars that are left on us.    All for something that may be for a long haul or only just long enough for others to take the pieces of me, pieces of us away when they leave as they never intended on staying.

 

What are we chasing the result, or eternal, everlasting growth and those people, places, or things that we smile at just the thought and memory?

Not everything that turns out not the way we planned is in error.   God allows us to grow through the fire for refinement and many will never understand it; but he is with us always!

We choose to dig in and learn what that means, and the first step is to seek who Jesus openly, purposefully is and call upon Him 24/7.

 

Yes, my perspective.  We all have them, and we all get to choose.    I have always believed in God, but I never really knew who he was until I met Jesus and openly called upon him years ago.   Not long enough ago.  However, even those born into the church and raised up in what we deem Christian families sometimes never really know who Jesus is for their own choosing.

Many people go through the motions because that is what it is said must happen.    Like being raised up Irish Catholic and knowing you go to church on holidays and Sundays, and you learn about God but not very often ever really dive in and meet Jesus.

 

I am not here to pick apart different religions; far am I from being a theologian or educated much less have the energy to debate any of it.

 

Same goes for politics although I can tell you I think the way the government body in office right  now and all they are choosing to make laws to benefit themselves and not the people and the future.  Well, my perspective. SUCKS!

 

We all get to choose what and how we are going to react, and I have never liked drama and was one that had to fight my way through life emotionally for all I never could understand, physically for all the situations I ended up in by the hands of others as a child, as my own choices as I was growing up.   And really, I that sitting around a campfire singing kumbaya doesn’t sound so bad.     Hanging out in a forest and living with the beautiful wildflowers, butterflies, mountains, and streams.    Guess I could have been a really good hippie if I go back to what makes me smile.

Hopefully when people look back and think of me and there will be days, they do they will shake their heads and smile.   Even for myself, even through tears my heart smiles for all the moments I have been allowed to grow through.

Thinking this Keith song remembering the first time I heard it when it first came out; and even looking back now and knowing how much it means and just the fact I/ we are allowed another day to grow forward and climb up one more step to whatever that top we are seeking to get to.

Be it alone, be it with those we are obligated or be it with all that fulfills our souls.    Prayerfully always with Jesus living within us.  

How do we do that… Gosh being hungry to learn.   To never stop learning daily, moment by moment.   Learning of what the Bible is and means and to do so you have to study the scriptures.  Question over and over digging in what and who is within it, by learning how our choices can help us and so many we are allowed to connect.   To never stop wanting to learn and always sharing wherever we can.    Without expectations…

 

I don’t need anyone to point anything out where I am failing; I am fully aware of where my weaknesses are, and most days let everyone know.   One of the many gifts of being blessed and free to be able to know who I am and can be in the eyes of God and more so with Jesus deep within this soul.    

The whole world is in His hands as he is the potter and no matter if we believe or not it will never change who God the father, Jesus the Son who came in the image of man and the spirit that lives within all who call upon them.    

We can strive for many things, but what will be eternal is what matters in the end.

As long as you are given a new day; you get the choice to really believe in eternal heaven or eternal hell. 

  There is not an in-between.   Living for and in the world and whatever it gives or takes.   Or believing in the creator with everything for the greater good.  

Trying and live obediently in harmony with humanity and everything around and lending that helping hand be it to just hold or pray or give away whatever blessings you have been allowed.  At least until that day no longer comes and you no longer are allowed the breath to exhale, to get back up. 

  Forever will your soul be with Jesus or in hell and eternal condemnation of all that is wicked and dark.

 

Just because we choose Jesus does not mean we are perfect.  The only perfect being that ever was and will be is God himself.  Father, Son and Holy Spirit!      So no matter if you are a brand new believer, on the edge of your seat trying to choose, or someone that has walked in the kingdom your entire existence.   We will never be perfect.  Our imperfect sinful nature and judgmental persona’s even when we try our best not to be.    Will always depend on the creator of all things to redeem us.

I get it, many do not care.    Many used anything positive that others are trying to grow to feed the fires of hate and darkness they are trying to grow for whatever hurts, habits and hang-ups they grew up into or with.   Or maybe just hurt one good time and flipped a switch they cannot find to flip back.

I miss the mark often; focused in like a laser surgeon the hurts of words, actions or lack of others do directly or indirectly to me.   Leaving me to waste time trying to understand more of who I could have been if only.

Thing is if it’s not to be it will not be.   If it is meant to be things will come together.

I stay on the edge of my seat and have to purposely drive what and how I will manage my emotions, wants, hurts, habits, and hang-ups every single day I am given.  And I fail miserably most days while others I am like a kid at Christmas where all the glory of looking up consumes as a little kid in a huge Christmas store filled with bright colors and lights.

Me growing up as a kid was not about what I could get; heck I was lucky if I got a new pair of underwear or socks.   I remember one year I actually got a brand-new winter coat and that was everything in the middle of NY State winters.   I was a teen then and I remember how heart broken I was when one of my so-called friends was being a jerk and put it on and ripped it and I was right back to where I was before with nothing.   Why because I could not tell my mother what they did as I was not supposed to be hanging out with them and she was hardly ever available or had means to get me anything so it would have made her really mad at me.

 

Crazy how those little things matter, and you find out from your own behaviors and those of others who is really going to help you grow and who is just riding your wings because they can.  Because you let them.   Unfortunately, it also allows you to really know who you are to them and how they treat you in the end.

My first crush that person was.   Pauly the ultimate bad boy with a bad reputation all around the hood.  Started long before even being a teen, and thought I knew what love was.     Parents I can tell you to always stay engaged in your children’s life and never make your own friends a priority over your family.   I don’t care if you come from wealth or poverty.     Your children need you to know who they are, where they are and who they are engaging with.      Your children are your responsibilities and a gift of God to and for you.    Not everyone even thinks that way or believes that especially if they are going through stuff the world throws at them.

 

But they are.   They are not anyone of your friends, male or female; they are not your brothers, your sisters, your cousin, or those close friends that are like family at this point in your life.

Don’t leave your children for anyone else to raise up and think you have a right to whine and carry on about what they are learning or feel bad when something horrible happens to them at the hands of others.

 

Make your choices, live with them, and move on.     No excuses and absolutely no do overs when someone harms and takes the innocence of what you should have been protecting.

Squirrel sorry!

I was ten years old a flat chested little kid that just love playing with my friends when I was entrusted with a family friend who changed my life forever.   And although the scars and so much growth has taken place through out my journey.  What I can say is I don’t know what or where I would be if my journey did not take the path, it did.   But also, I would be who I am today if it were not for things out of my control that God allowed me to grow through.

 

Allot of years, allot of wrong way turns, allot of broken colorful pieces placed on his canvas and although I am imperfect to the world I am perfectly placed where I need to be for his artistic imprints of my own mind and many I am connected.

I would for you walk through the fires if you needed me to for truth and opportunity to really see you growing for God has created you to be.    All in and out of Love even though my purpose is not to rescue anyone.  Sometimes it just happens I grow more from stepping out in faith even in the end I find I was just in a spin to avoid a cliff to what could have been so different.

And I want to be different.

No matter what was, or what will be.   I dare to look up in hope, in awe and in love even if and when it hurts.    Prayerfully one day there will someone to help me balance before it is too late.  But until my God says make it so; Jesus is enough.    Dare to be different, dare to believe, dare to own your freedom of will and choice and be something more with Christ.     Break out of the labels and what the world predicts you must say, do or have to be of worth.   Because in Christ you are priceless as he created you to be. 

Thank you, Lord, for the growing pains and always no matter what funk spins around or within.  You allow me the freedom to look up and choose.   Thank you for another day given and so many opportunities even if I miss them; they are still given in this thing called life.   Be with all I am connected in your will, your love now and always.

Wednesday, October 20, 2021

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Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)


Date: Wednesday October 20, 2021

Meditation Opportunities

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Psalm 51:12 (NIV) New International Version

12 Let the joy of Your saving power return to me. And give me a willing spirit to obey you.

Psalm 51:12 (MSG) The Message Bible

Psalm 51:12-15 The Message

7-15 Soak me in your laundry and I’ll come out clean, scrub me and I’ll have a snow-white life.
Tune me in to foot-tapping songs,
set these once-broken bones to dancing.
Don’t look too close for blemishes,
give me a clean bill of health.
God, make a fresh start in me,
shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life.
Don’t throw me out with the trash,
fail to breathe holiness in me.
Bring me back from gray exile,
put a fresh wind in my sails!
Give me a job teaching rebels your ways
so the lost can find their way home.
Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God,
and I’ll sing anthems to your life-giving ways.   Unbutton my lips, dear God; I’ll let loose with your praise.

 

Movers Motivations & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Natalie Grant - Who Else

Son of Suffering - David Funk, feat. Matt Redman

Lean on Me - Bill Withers

No One - Alicia Keys

Maren Morris - The Bones

Way Maker and Cornerstone (Acoustic) - The McClures | Moment

Terrian - God With Us

TobyMac - On Your Own

Third Day - I Need A Miracle

Beckah Shae - Everlasting

 

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Seasons where work life balance really excel, and life keeps you floating. Then others that your all one way or the other.     No big secret I feel allot of what goes on around me; no secret that although I take very little personal from those I am not involved, I still start getting weighted down by all that is happening to them or around all of us in any given time or place.

 

The same goes for how my spirit soars when I get away and refresh and remind myself just how big our God truly is.    Spending a week in his majestic mountains and valleys, waterfalls, and streams.   Is a good not long enough but steppingstone.  Especially how freeing it has been.  Even if it was not enough.

 

Yet knowing God is with us always and knowing who else can you stand next to in the fires or whatever the storms may be.  And come out fully alive and still given a chance to get back up from what ever has knocked us off balance.

The roller coaster of life is what it is and sometimes it is much more painful and hard to get past while others you just keep flying higher wishing, hoping, praying nothing ever changes.

I am blessed to learn more and more about myself every day and how life really can be verses what it is.   Even if we make mistakes no matter what they were or are.

The world does not define you unless you let it.   So, no matter what my weakness may be I will always be someone true and gone to for others to lean on.

It just is what it is, and I am who I am.  No one but Christ himself who is God with us in human form and eternally in spirit when we believe and call upon in will ever be able to control our destiny.   Not even our own beings have full control.  But we are granted the will and freedom of choice to choose and believe.   

Don’t think for one minute that anyone who has done anything good, bad or indifferent to, for or with you has control over your life.    At least not unless you gave it to them.

Sadly, sometimes like that one that keeps going back to abusive situations, we lack the esteem and confidence within our own beings sadly.  As we were created in the image Christ and we take our self-back into harms way over and over until one day our life is taken from us completely by those who do not walk with God, know Jesus, or even acknowledge what being humane looks like.    A good example is those like the Gabby case and all those who are not talked about yet still broken or missing.

Every time a news flash comes across social media, I just want to cry wishing they would start showing how all the evil dwellers are caught one by one and made to pay the price for what they have done.   

We are including me are so lost at times and our mistakes in the hands of such evil dwellers are a bigger cost than we will ever recover.   Brokenness and loss is abundantly reflecting the darkness that the world is fighting so blindly through.

 

I know that God is in control for all things!  I know he is real just by all of the things he has done for and with me.    All the things I have seen praiseworthy for others.    

Yet, that human side of me just does not understand why darkness must be allowed to win as much as it does publicly so often.

 

What I do know is when we remain focused on all that is positive all that is good, all that is brighter.   Our bones stay good, our being shines bright and our health and well being reflect it.

When we are chasing the world or deflecting all the time the things of the world that make us feel anything but something better.    We slowly allow the negative to rob us of life and absolutely age quicker.

 

The world and life as we know it is far from balanced if it ever was, I cannot remember when.  When there was a time that here were not challenges or things happening be it by my choices or pulled into others.   Either way struggling in a sense of writing openly to God the past month is no secret.   

In love with all that he is beyond grateful even though I will never be worthy or able to repay anything quantifiable for all he has given me in this life.   Yet, filled with so much hope with the array of opportunities that are available every day He has allowed me up one more day.

 

There is a allot to be said for Let Go & Let God!    We all get to pick and choose.    I won’t back down for sure.   But I am not defined or following what anyone else in this world is or does.

How that looks?  Everyone has their impression on what is red, what is orange etc.…

 

I say go, you say wait or stop.   None of that matters.  What matters is the choices you make that you own them.    There is no right in any wrong you are partaking or creating in.

Just because many may do it; just because you have an agreement with some.  If its wrong, its wrong and if its right it right.    There is no in-between.

Just as I read today. There is no sitting on the fence to heave and hell.   Light is light, dark is dark and the mess you may be confused in the middle of.   Well, get over it and make your choice before it is made for you.

For all those awesome souls, out there giving it there best to be a light and shine on for those in need.   May God pluck you out of harms way and hold you tightly directing your steps and flowing through your veins.   

For all those lost or just plain evil may the light shine so bright your heart melt and you redeem your being and change while you have the moment.   Call out to Jesus!     Don’t wait.  Time is running out.

And I am not even talking about running to church and be something that you do not know anything about.

I am saying do what is right always; not just doing what you want to because you can; or you want something.

Yes, I pray that you choose to meet Jesus for yourself.  As it is written there is no way to the father but that of going through his son Jesus.    Yes, it is a fact that we are not promised tomorrow.   In fact, while you are whining and carrying on how bad things are; others who have been their best self in being a super good human.   Have been taken from this earth as a functioning human being.

Kids are in the hands of evil; people are starving in our own back yards.    All the while you may be doing your best to keep taking whatever it is you can get away with taking.    And for what.   Good parties, good drugs, flashy stuff that will end up broken, stolen, given away, left in a warehouse for the flood waters to come wash away.     If you think for one second that anything you have is ever lasting.   I will keep praying that when the world ends as you know it; God is with you…

 

Anyway, I am not an authority of anything.    Just a soul granted mercy and filled with love that ripples through all the rides I take along my journey.   On my own, with many I know, many more I do not.   Only one eternally true!

We all need His miracles here and now.    Time is going to be allot different for any of us left out here to keep going forward until we cannot.  No matter what the reason stopping us.

Anyway, thank you Jesus for allowing me another day to keep trying.   Thanks for the riddled mess that comes out of this mind maze as I work through.    Lead me Father!    I cannot ask for much more than that.   Just to be held by you and make a difference for those you have me lead by example. 

Beyond space and time, forever for me is the other side of eternity that I someday will be allowed.   Healing and protection for innocence and those serving you.   Father hear this heart as your will be done.

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