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(Disclosure – I am grammatically incorrect most any day
these words flow as a release of this mind maze which gives me my sanity not to
impress the critics or English majors (said with much love and respect)
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Every day you are up - Every day you inhale. Every day you have something to complain or be ecstatic about. Every day is a day to be thankful for something; we are all a work in progress. Every day is an opportunity to write your story! What will yours be?
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September 7, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Colossians 1:28 (NIV) He is the one we proclaim, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone fully mature in Christ.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Isaiah 61:10 (NIV) 10 I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
Romans 8:1-2 (NIV) Life Through the Spirit 8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death.
1 Thessalonian 5:11(NIV) 11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe “If you treat an individual as he is, he will remain how he is. But if you treat him as if he were what he ought to be and could be, he will become what he ought to be and could be.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Lord, for this new day as I sit here listening to the birds call out and the air has changed. Feeling the calmness and blessings that have been and those still that are yet to come.
As I read through my devotionals before hitting the floor so much of what I have heard before, so much new; then switching over and doing prayer time and as I read through the many prayer needs that are flooding the networks. I am grateful Lord that I am not who I once was.
I lift all of your children and future up to you Jesus; as I know I would never want to be a child in today’s world and all that is far beyond storms and elements of this life
Lord, I did not change me; you changed me; and far better than I could have ever imagined. Do I still struggle with faith and why I am even here on this earth at times? I would be lying if I said no. However, despite what I think and even if many think I am too kindhearted or even sometimes just out there. I accept all of what will be as a blessing from you; rather than the alternative of what I could have been in this life.
How easily I was ready to fight and stand up for what I thought was it; because it is what I felt.
Even during my youth that period whereas a child running with those who had no value in life and the motto you were not living unless you lived dangerously. Not caring if I lived or died, and oh how many times did I recklessly try to have myself checked out.
How often I gave away all that, I was as I thought I knew what life was. Even as I grew out of my teens and through my early years of adulthood thinking, I needed someone by my side to survive and it was a requirement to take whatever verbal or physical garbage they spewed my way all the while they would take pieces of me. Along with my payroll directly deposited in their accounts and even on those times when the rules were more of a slave than that of a bride and groom.
How easily and for how long did I hold onto that hate that once filled me judging everyone and everything to be the same?
Sure I did not pick my youth or the family I was born into; or for that matter what bloodline I was part of.
Sure I could have held on to all the hurt and anger that ever triggered and flowed through these veins.
I learned long back Father with you not only did I need not just settle with crazy thoughts that I needed someone to mean something even if they made one feel less than. But I truly as much as I desired as all should; needed no one but you.
Do I desire; without a doubt; as you know all things Jesus! However, until they are perfect and pleasing to you this is who I am. Daily blessed in every new promise or mess. Free in the spirit of life you have given me each and every day I am allowed up.
I know this; just as I know so many get up daily begrudgingly and complaining about what is not working; what they do not have or cannot do. That was me at one time and I am sure at times I still find a flaw or fault that I vocalize on.
But I know for sure since I have fallen in love for all that you are; I have no room to hate even when sometimes I want to; I have no reason to hold onto what was even when I sometimes think I should; I am blessed to choose to move forward. I have millions of reasons like so many others in this world to just give up and give in. Run and bury myself in the temporal things that will mask the pain; however, when you are filled with the unexplainable peace even on the worse days there is a strength and motivation that pushes or pulls one through.
I may write about my Sweet Soul King to please come and save me from myself and from the depths of my soul Lord Jesus Christ you know what that means.
But it is the blessings of only the good Lord above that has allowed me this life and the abilities to be here today.
No matter what! No matter any failed employment opportunities; and what some may call a failed marriage, when some people just should never be together and others grow apart; no matter what brokenness, knowing if you have allowed them this far the beauty in the new creation and all the possibilities truly are screaming for us all.
Gone are the days of
self-loathing or any self-pity if they were ever part of my DNA. I
was more of a fighter from day one daring to be different and living life in my
definition to Romans 12:2(NIV) 2 Do not
conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your
mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good,
pleasing and perfect will. Never really
understanding what it meant in the terms written in the Bible or context of
Jesus until years later.
Blessed that has
allowed me independence and strength that has carried me through so many
journeys in this life. If going by the worlds standards I have achieved
and am in the running.
Even if I
still set myself up for failure often because I still care too much and see the
good in all in need even if I cannot see the end result until I am tied up in
something.
Willing to fight my
way through knowing I am not alone even when I do not have all the answers.
Even when feeling defeated because those I still care too much for; those who
sometimes barely stand on their own two feet and have not figured out their own
worth and priorities.
Standing up against
the elements in life all of what we cannot plan, see or really
know. As the lyrics in “The Elements by TobyMac” sing out “I got spirit, I got faith
I might bend but I
won't break I'll fight the elements” In and with you Christ may we all “Lace the boots up, it's straight to the door ‘Cause this,
is worth fighting for” Life and all the abundance that you bless us
with! May we all take that deep breath and exhale slow even when we
do not know what is waiting on the other side!
More importantly may
we all come to know who you really are and know it is you who changes us from
the inside out; reminding us it is okay to know we will still at times be weak
and some days more than others full of doubts for ourselves and everything we
have in reach with sadness of that which we cannot or have not yet
grasped. With the abundant blessing and glory knowing
when it is time it is you Lord that will give us more in this life than we ever
expected.
It is you that gives
and takes away. Everything in this world is temporary; and though the
losses sometime cripple us; that we may never stop holding even the smallest
thread of hope in you Jesus.
So thank you for this
day; and the blessings of what is in front of me and all that will come and
especially for all of the battles including those within my own being you have
allowed me to have won.
Lord no matter if it is lack of sleep because the family pet takes up the bed on one side and the grandchild takes the other; fixing and repairing things or just cleaning out an AC line because it needs to be done. No matter if my kids are blessed and prospering in all that is good or they have friends named is Chronic. Dear Lord you know all things deep within this soul; deep within this heart. The love you allow me to experience and feel is like no other. Those I hold close I never let go. I am thankful for every second of every day good; bad or indifferent. Be it me and my stuff or that of what others around me layer up or even the devastating losses of so many when storms, war and evil comes.
May everyone I care for be blessed with the love and peace you fill me with. May those playing the big game of world chess; know what it is like to be pawns and feel you. Please be with all those in need Lord; may we never settle when we know you are with us.
Please hear not
just mine but for all I am connected all that have come to pass and all that I
have not yet met; the prayers of healing, protection and guidance,
restoration, reconciliation, traveling mercies and much strength and
courage for all those who serve in the fields on behalf of you Jesus. May
all know and have abundant mercy, grace and love from the inside out.
May all who suffer in
loneliness be filled with your presence and in the right time those who you
have chosen is unified. May all who suffer with anxiety and depression Father
God find that peace and healing only you can give!
May those who are
called sons and daughters of you Jehovah-Rapha God or great healer be healed in
you to shine brightly for all who wishes to be saved by Jehovah-Yeshua our God
who saves!
Lord even if! I
am forever grateful and loved. May we all have the dreams and desires of
our hearts through you filled in abundance and the abilities to recognize even
the smallest glimpse of your gifts in life.
So Lord despite all my best intentions or thinking I have it and that tug of war that I give it all to you and take it back. You are “The King of the World” @Natalie Grant sings about https://youtu.be/1B60F5anrSo
Who no matter what version TobyMac and others sing about for reminders and strength to fight “The Elements” https://youtu.be/-hDJNGK0MiQ @TobyMac, Ledger (Neon Feather Remix/Audio)
I will forever know “It's You” https://youtu.be/cFvjpRyJU1o that @TobyMac, Matt Maher, Terrian sing together about on the (Tide Electric Remix/Audio)
My prayer for myself and all I am connected Spirit Lead Us, “Spirit Lead Me” https://youtu.be/1Ko4yroBP0A @Michael Ketterer - Influence Music
Thank you, Father, for all you have given me and sustained me through within this life and for all that I am and all that I ever will be.
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September 6, 2019
Verse of the Day:
John 14:23(NKJV)
Jesus answered and said to him, “If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our home with him.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
John 15:5 (NIV)
5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
Ephesians 6:10 (NIV) The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in
the Lord and in his mighty power.
Genesis 1:26-27 (NIV)
26 Then God said, “Let us
make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish
in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild
animals,[a]
and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he
created them; male
and female he created them.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you Lord for the ability to sleep in a bit even if I woke up after falling back into a deep sleep and as I opened my eyes for a minute not knowing where the heck I was.
How often sometimes life feels that way as well; Knowing what I want; yet in short doing what is needed to give stability within my family.
I do not begrudge my choices; sometimes I sneak out on the edge and try to reach and grab that what I think is what will be for me coming so very close and then realizing I really am no closer than I was before I foolishly believed I could ever.
I can dwell on every moment I spend with or for someone is worth more than any amount of money could ever be. Knowing just what it feels like to know when it means little to nothing to those you spent what you will never get back. From holidays to just middle of the night conversations; when you think you have that forever friend and you know you keep yourself at arm’s length because the loss of life is unbearable. Yet you believe and trust and one day that too is just gone.
Sometimes all you just want is moments; while you learn along the way the entire world wants is what they can take or get during those moments.
Fighting along the way not wanting to feel; and when it is all over you know who you belong to and try to figure out what the lesson is for; as you are an expert of not trusting anyone. I find myself scrambling to get back in my comfort zone or locked away in the desert, just to try and stay afloat when all the muck of life fills up the water ways and like a beautiful creation trapped in the worlds garbage in our oceans; I have entangled myself in feeling almost out of control.
Wondering when it will be my turn; for about five seconds. My standards will never change as I belong to you God. Why I have real dreams; why some are put in my vision and others just show up. I will not question. However, I am no fool even if every now and again I dream bigger than I can imagine I am no fool; when you put something or someone in front of me over and over. I stay put wait, listen and pray.
So, I have learned for what is to flow out naturally I must just release the valve from this mind maze before reading into you words.
Many times, I am blown away how your messages speak to me. I can go on and start describing the so many things I have prayed for that you have given. So when I am feeling something that does not go away; I know you have great things ahead.
I pray Lord all that is deep within this soul; within this heart. For that of my children; my grandchildren; friends and loved ones and the connections I have and those that are coming. Your will be done Jesus; protect and guide me and all I am connected with clean hands and pure hearts.
Forgive me and any indiscretions I have committed in word or deed. Show me Father what you want from me and please guide me out of the messes I get in. I am accountable for my own actions in all things. However, I forever need your guidance and protection.
Give me the strength and courage how to continue getting things done and getting to the next place I am supposed to be. Forgive those whom I am connected or will be that have their own motives to do harm or selfishly are not truthful to themselves or anyone around them. Protect the meek and trusting from their misdeeds. Protect and guide me Father for I need you more than I will ever know. Without you and the blessings and lessons in this life I am nothing.
Thank you for this day and all the opportunities that are waiting for even just one seed of positive love bearing fruit that will shine brightly in what can be a very cold, dark world. Make it so in your precious name. Amen
This song can be sung at least once a day for something when I forget to stay focused on you Jesus and purpose daily. We can never just assume we are covered without daily engagement of all you are. “Drifter” @ December Radio https://youtu.be/xihdayqBo0E
“You Never Let Go” @Jeremy Camp https://youtu.be/yRWDwIQFR1k You Lord never let go even when we; when I want to! Forever my King; Forever my everything~ “Changed Forever” https://youtu.be/Eu7uxYu755Y?t=118 @TobyMac: Changed Forever - Official Lyric Video
Lyrics
I'd heard your name,
but never seen your face
Been touched before but never your embrace
Had a soul to lose and the world to gain
But then you whispered my name
Been touched before but never your embrace
Had a soul to lose and the world to gain
But then you whispered my name
And I heard the
truth but never from your lips
Bought the lies of many counterfeits
Dreamed my dreams, but they were never in color
And I searched for you and many others
Bought the lies of many counterfeits
Dreamed my dreams, but they were never in color
And I searched for you and many others
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Dear Past
I wish I could hate you
But the good Lord says I am not allowed to
Dear Past
I wish I could hate you for the days that are harder than others
for the days I miss something’s terribly and others that just do not go away
But the good Lord says that is not what we are supposed to do
I really do not understand my life never had a plan
when I was old enough to make my own choices
It was about survival and making my own voice heard
Dear Past I wish I could hate you
But the good Lord says I am not allowed to
For it is the things that don't really work out
For those who believe also acquire strength on His promises
For all the tomorrows no matter if it is me or you
So Dear Past thank you for all you have done
All that is yet I may do
For you allowed me to digger deeper in my faith
Love from the inside out knowing it is far greater than any misdeeds that leave one feeling depressed or blue
The love I have is far beyond space and time
Forever I know who I belong to; I know who I am
Forever I pray that for you also will be allowed to share what was once broken and forever now beautiful
Someday to swap notes where you show me yours and I will show you mine
For in God's world life is a continuum with no beginning or end of time
I am not who I use to be anyone who knows me can see
Dear Past I wish I could hate you
For things I will never understand
But the good Lord says I am not allowed to
For as a bride of Christ; or any woman or man
I am to give it all to Him and in Him is where I stand
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September 5, 2019
09/05/2019 Cruising with Kelly https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2422088467883635/
Verse of the Day:
Matthew 28:18-20 (NIV)
Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely, I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
John 15:13-15 (NIV)
13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.
Isaiah 61:3 (NIV)
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.
2 Corinthians 6:10 (NIV)
10 sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Jesus; to have a best friend that is a King is beyond all hopes and dreams in love everlasting. To have nothing is to have everything in you!
Lord in if nothing else out of all my words that flow from this vessel; all my penned letters that are written. May the takeaway always be the blessings that you are; you can be; you will be whenever we allow you in to walk with and in us.
Thankful that I have always been able to write even what does not make sense and it be my release of anxieties or what flows through these veins.
Thankful even during times when I just pause; I am to seemingly able to always find my way back to my release. Blessed beyond any thanks I am able to openly acknowledge all that I am all that I can ever be is because of you Jesus Christ; son of the Living God who is the creator of all things and dwells within all who believe.
There is always so much to say; and this mind maze well it never lets me down; even on the days that are a bit tougher than most. Life is full of everything if you let it be. However, none of it matters if it is not filled with truth and the purpose of what is real.
I can dwell on what derails my psyche repeatedly when I am flowing in nonstop momentum. Then all of a sudden; BAM! Just like that; I did something that turned out not to be for what I thought it should have been or even those moments that really you cannot see what the good was from your end; I lost a connection that I really needed; I just start owning everyone else’s stuff.
Always ready to jump in, take on, and believing, until something changes. Then repeatedly I stop and reevaluate the meaning and purpose of the moment in time. Life is what it is until it is not correct. The key is life means nothing without purpose. We can love the spirit or the physical being of others and ourselves all day long. Nevertheless, until we realize none of us mean anything for any length of time without the blessings from and of the good Lord.
Everything in this world is temporary; the time we are given is precious so we should never (says the self who is their own worst critic and one of taken advise) put our happiness in anything temporary.
We should love all things as God meant for us to do so. Unconditionally forever no matter what. So, we do not have to like even a glimpse of what they do or do not do. Sure, we should acknowledge in gratitude all that leads us to harmony and back to our maker.
So how do we manage when the battles of our psyche are as real as any physical or spiritual battle out there? We must dig in; not give up; not give in. Work towards God always being the first and the last thing of every day. Love ourselves unconditionally and care for ourselves for eternal life. Not that of what others appreciate when they look at you.
Mind, body, soul health and well-being matters and should always be part of a daily plan. When God gets you up another day; when those little things keep coming back to the front of your mind’s eye that just do not go away. Always give it to God and ask him to show you what next.
Hold tight; and just breathe. Otherwise, from my life experiences, you will quickly drown in your own meism’s in this world full of selfishness; try to always be selfless.
No matter how many times you stand up to do so and find out it was for the wrong thing when someone else or something else seems to show that is more important. Fact is; there will always be someone out there needing or wanting something more important; there will always be judges and critics; there will always be those that just refuse to be a light and the only thing they shine is the volcanic eruptions of toxic response or pity.
Dare to be different; dare to dig in with Jesus and Love and respect all things. One of my life verses even if I never understood it in my youth.
Romans 12:2 (NIV) 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
So no matter how much I can ramble; no matter how much I could pen out here; talking about dreams and desires. Love or brokenness. The fact remains I am blessed to have been chosen and called a daughter of the highest King. I am imperfect and nothing actually without you Jesus. No matter what I have acquired; lost been through or yet to come. Life has no meaning without the author and gratitude for all that should be. Thank you!
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September 4, 2019
Verse of the Day:
2 Timothy 1:13-14 (NIV) What you heard from me, keep as the pattern of sound teaching, with faith and love in Christ Jesus. Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you—guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit who lives in us.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Psalms 32: 7 (NIV)
7 You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
Genesis 3:8-9 (NIV)
8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. 9 But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?”
John 8:12 (NIV)
Dispute Over Jesus’ Testimony
12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
Rewrite of MY Words from November 2018
My words are all I have; they sometimes float
around in this mind maze and often never really let on if I am happy or sad.
My words and thoughts of those I wish to be; such
as that forever Sweet Soul King of eternity.
I may joke and carry on for the future husband of
my next life is not so bad, even if the words may not make sense when they
finally land.
It does not really matter if you understand; my God
knows the meanings as they bleed out from these hands.
I so wish if only my words could truly heal; I know
the first places I would go for real.
My words not so elegant, soft or meaningful to you;
it is the living stories of this world and all stories of its pain; its
pleasures and all that we choose; that we can never undo.
My words, my dreams, my whispers touch; for a love
that is forever; for when my words become prayers that can never be enough.
My words of praise, no matter what in life always release the blame; my words of heartache trying to not go in crazy insane.
My words of praise, no matter what in life always release the blame; my words of heartache trying to not go in crazy insane.
My words coming out of me, who knew; my words of
the given mercy, grace and the love I will never really understand; yet blessed
I share with you.
My words of joyous moments, tragic pains; my words
since you have given me so much; abundant love from the inside out; A love
beyond all space in time with dreams of my , Sweet Soul King; is far beyond
some nursery story or bedtime rhyme.
A gift from somewhere out there somewhere
above; my words from the blessings of Jesus a one and only true
love.
Filled with dreams and desires, with all that is in
me; knowing I will never be the same.
Forever I will wait for your appearance; your
likeness; your spirit; while living in your mercy and grace.
There is no other; beyond whatever I have left in this time and
space. Dreams of long ago; promises of the entire
unknown.
It is you; not what you do. If never is
forever; forever I must hang on to. Just knowing a whispered promise
leaves me forever blessed; forever renewed; forever I am in love with you.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day; thank you for the daily protections through life’s storms.
Please hear the prayers and cries for all those that have lost hope; lost life and for all the loved ones who are left behind. Please heal the brokenness we find ourselves feeling trapped in.
Lord in 2nd Timothy it speaks of sound teaching; show us through those commissioned Lord your ways; your strength and your love. Let us see with your eyes and feel with your heart.
In Genesis, you make us aware you are always with us even when you raise questions that we do not always want to deal with and answer.
Moreover in John 8:12 you remind us there will always be non-believers, doubters, naysayers and those who refuse to believe. Yet you allow those who walk with you to see the light in love and peace.
It will never be easy to survive in this world; there will always be something or someone that cuts us like a knife. Robbing us from the peace and harmony, you intended. I pray on those days we cling tightly to you Jesus.
For the worse case if we are wrong in the end, we have lived with hope from the beginning of the days we first came to know you.
I personally would rather leave this place filled with hope and love in my heart and the depths of my soul then throughout life twisted and tormented by all that is unjust and filled with hate or anger. So Dear Jesus; thank you for all you were; all you are and all you ever will be.
In love; in Christ for all our days.
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September 3, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Isaiah 48:17 (NIV)
This is what the Lord says— your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: “I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Psalms 46:10 (NIV)
10 He says, “Be still, and
know that I am God; I will be exalted among the
nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Luke 10:39-41 (NIV)
39 She had a sister called
Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But
Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to
him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work
by myself? Tell her to help me!” 41 “Martha,
Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things,
1 Corinthians 14:33 (NKJV)
33 For God is not the author of [a]confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you Jesus for this new day; as I awake all I can think of as I rise this morning is the song “Raise A Hallelujah” @ Bethel https://youtu.be/FRo7kFl7hBw Perhaps this one sticks from this weekend’s worship services; maybe because seeing other family in Christ live proclaiming this in numbers has had a lasting impact. I have seen so many musical artists throughout my days. All have been telling their stories; but it has never been until I found where they tell your story Jesus that my life has been touched and truly meant so much.
No matter what the storms of life are that come at us Great is Your Faithfulness Lord as it calls out in “Do It Again” @ Elevation Worship https://youtu.be/jJGgAHOiL2E
Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to see you through all things each day presents in front of us. Thank you for allowing me to know where I have been, yet not be buried in the chaos and mistakes we make along the way.
Thank you for allowing me to see and connect with love from the inside out. Most importantly thank you for allowing me forgiveness of my selfishness and anger when like a small child I throw my temper tantrums because things are not going how I feel they should.
When I am jealous and envious of all I want and see others with or so close and I dream it could be me.
Forgiveness of the times that I am knocked down; knocked off my feet and you allow me to stand up deal with life and keep moving forward.
I often wonder if or when I will not be able to get back up; I often wonder when that time comes what I will do. As I have no one in this earthly life truly standing with me. Yes loved by so many and yes, absolutely someone would step up in your love to do their best. But my selfish side truly does not want to be alone in the world’s standards. Yet my selfless side that is filled with you; knows you will always be with me.
Who truly was and is with me Lord but you; no one! A lonely painful reminder of this world fills the air with bitter sweetness knowing I matter to you God.
Knowing the journey, I have had in this life; with all the things, you have done and saved me from. Not in a million years would I have ever guessed I would be alive now or writing to or for you and the depths of love, you have shown me.
Saving me from myself much less of the darkness throughout time; is a grace and love beyond all space and time. Prayerfully the world would come to know.
You have allowed me to see the compassion and love in others; you have allowed me to see and pray for those when things are not what they should be. You have allowed me the simple fact of air in these lungs. So I know Dear Jesus as the song “With All I Am” @ HillSong https://youtu.be/GYXJmnJCPG0
My life was never anything I planned; I learned very young to either become a statistic and be lost in the world or fight forward. I learned to become a survivor and never did it half right. It was not until I found you I learned what life really meant. I learned who I was and am. Even if I struggle with day to day at times; as the song “It’s You” @TobyMac no matter if it this remix version with Toby, Matt Maher, and Terrian on the (Tide Electric Remix/Audio)or his original https://youtu.be/cFvjpRyJU1o I can’t do this life without you Jesus.
For this I am thankful I awake each day knowing this.
So I pray that your will Father God be done in my life and all those I am connected. I pray all I am connected are as blessed as I am even in the storms. I pray for the hedge of protection around all the innocence and all your children. I pray for guidance. I pray all I know need you before events transpire as “ I Just Need U” when the wolves come around as the song tells the story https://youtu.be/NLpeqJg6Ubo @TobyMac, Cory Asbury in the (Tide Electric Remix/Audio)
Thank you Father for giving me words each day; ever since I can remember and many times they will have meaning; others it is just me allowed the finding my sanity getting everything out. Thank you for allowing me to know of the artists that are out singing your praises and giving people of this world hope. Allowing us various gifts and talents that connect in love, in harmony giving those who choose to see, and listen hope.
May all we do with your name upon our lips never be misguided; never become a show. Forgive us when we make those, we feel are beautiful in you something they are not. Lord without you we are nothing even with you we are vapors in the wind. So although I may ramble on and I may reflect and lean in towards beautiful songs such as “Who Am I” by @Casting Crowns https://youtu.be/mBcqria2wmg and at times I may reflect back to one or another more than the many you have out there Lord.
I pray with all that I am; for and with all who know and adore you. Your peace, your love comfort those in need sustaining us all through every storm and challenge faced. I will always and forever be in love; for this I am thankful for you Jesus; as I pray, I will always know and feel what it truly means to be loved from the inside out. No one else will do. I cannot when all I need is you. Today is a day where we must choose to block what will always be negative, falling incomplete, filled with false positives. To move forward into the new blessings of love and life that awaits us.
In your precious name Thank you for every second and moment in time we are given. Please be with the broken hearted; may we all shine for you Lord. Protect and guide us through what we must do to make it right and make it in this world.
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September 2, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Psalms 119:64 (NIV)
The earth is filled with your love, Lord; teach me your decrees.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (NIV)
9 But he said to me, “My
grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore,
I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power
may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I
delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in
difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Acts 17:28 (NIV)
28 ‘For in him we live and
move and have our being.’[a]
As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’[b]
Colossians 2:6-7 (NIV)
Spiritual Fullness in Christ
6 So then, just as you
received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, 7 rooted
and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and
overflowing with thankfulness.
John 14:20 (NIV)
20 On that day you will
realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
As I arise this morning thankful for another day. I before even doing devotionals reach for that phone and start scanning for news on where the current storm is; scanning for any updates hoping the devastation of those in the islands directly in the path have been spared.
Thinking how surreal life can be at times. Using yesterday in the tech booth as a crazy example. Everything is up and running; worship was beautiful and out of nowhere someone comes running in saying something is wrong with the live stream camera and it is not picking up our worship center but those of us running the booth.
Immediate corrections wondering what the heck happened and laughter as silently as possible not to disrupt services ensued.
I think about many things and all the next for myself; all the while I wonder, pray and sometimes even worry about the why and possible impacts of my children and grandchildren’s choices. So desperately wanting to blink my eyes and they are protected and living for all that is good.
Protecting them from all the storms in life; praying they are never washed out to the sea of no return because of their own choices or even the choices of the adults that have led by example before them.
Praying that the seed takes root and the roots grow so deep that nothing can wash them out of the hands of the father.
Yet the heartbreaking noise of this world is all we can hear; and all we can do is the best we can hoping, praying and leading the best possible way while waiting for the storms of life to pass.
Some days will be more beautiful and sunnier than others; while those others filled with so much unknown and overcast. As much as we sometimes fear the storms; hate the days that are not so sunny. The choices and steps we take for ourselves and leading others truly matter of what next.
Yes we have to own our journey and part of that journey is to train up or babies with pure hearts to acknowledge even the smallest blessings. All the while growing and appreciating every blessing and sharing love along the way.
In a world that is like a venomous snake latched on slowly poisoning our abilities and sight for all that meant for good.
The battles are real; the abilities to hold on through the storms are hard and sometimes as parents we hold on too tightly to shield our babies, we enable them to take so very long stand and hold on themselves.
Sometimes we do it because that nothingness of what was before they came to be haunts the pits of who we do not want to be.
If I were to add up every mistake, I have made in this life even after becoming an immersed believer in the Holy one. And turned those mistakes into money; I would still be in a world of nothingness only richer by the world’s standards than ever before.
What good is having luxury in life if you truly cannot meaningfully share it? Not in the sense of fancy anything shining diamonds or flashy outfits.
Sharing awe and wonder; finding the beauty in every second of every day. Knowing just how beautiful life is even in the storms. Even in the brokenness; even in the moments of uncontrollable laughter or the painful tears in the darkness of night.
Taking the masks off and being the real you not afraid to acknowledge the maker of heaven and earth; is the one and only that sustains all you are all you do.
If only life were that easy to live in the truth. To know the wives who stepped into adultery while the husbands are away; never take place. Or the husbands who almost destroy their ever being by getting even with those close to them and then become so entangled and try to cover their sin from the world because of how they too fell prey.
The lost loves; lost children lost relationships along the way. Leaves you one more chance if you are given air in those lungs to breathe right here right now today.
How many of us wanted to find all the good in the world saving it and helping those in need? For a brief glimpse as a child is what I wanted to be.
Life is so much different for a child at the hands of adults who grant their own special mercies. Sometimes I do not think they make their mistakes purposely.
Yet the fact remains when the adults of this world cannot get it together and they are caught up in only themselves. When those storms of life come our babies will be washed away into the hands of evil and the unknown where no one will ever help.
For this I pray; in fact, cry out. Dear Lord Jesus it is you that I have been saved; you that I am found. Please may your will be done for every single soul including those not even near heaven bounds.
Father for the spiritual storms; the elements formed; the tragedies of these worlds’ wars. Please may we see with your eyes; feel with your heart; love abundantly forever. May we come to you before troubled waters and have a new life and fresh start.
Father forgive me; towards my adversaries and misdeeds in anger or just to be selfishly pleased. May you be what is shining through and all I can ever am to be.
It is you, the Alpha and Omega; the light of all the darkness. It is you that when we come shall release and guide our desires; our needs. Be it in the middle of a war; as storm or just sitting looking out from that park bench.
I ask in Jesus name all going through it find your peace Father. Are surrounded in the protection and love only you give. Please shelter your children and all who need you. My prayers; in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen
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New normal everywhere at the hands of those who are selfish and just do not care
Jesus come please we need you now we need you to take over this world; we need you with everyone and everywhere.
Violence, hate, selfish greed adulteress fate
No different than 20 years before; only today its wide open and common not surprising anymore.
Waiting for the next chosen one to fall; seems to be the next big ordeal as they play in satins toy box behind closed walls.
What will the next new normal be Lord come and set those who love and adore you; live in obedience and need you set us free.
It does not matter if it is a personal storm or that of the elements
No one cares enough to know just how Sodom and Gamohora was so relevant
A new day; you say everything will be alright
Yet the spiritual battle is deep at war and so many souls are being lost day and night
What was this you placed deep down inside; leaving me to feel broken because they played me out full of lies
Twenty years; twenty days it is all the same; to know what it is like to fall for Satan's slave
Heart breaking, I can never look at that sweetest soul I thought I would ever know of ever again the same
Even if my dreams in the night lead me to places I sometimes hate later as they haunt my days.
Never give up; never give in. Never forget whose ultimate sacrifice allows us an end and when to begin.
Jesus PLEASE come! Show us the way; it is time for the new normal on every field; land mass and wide-open plains. Be it on the mountain or the valley; keeping it real no longer has been the same; unfortunately, this is nothing new; and it is a heartbreaking crying shame.
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September 1, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans 22:6 (NIV)
Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
John 8:12 (NIV)
Dispute Over Jesus’ Testimony
12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
Deuteronomy 4:29 (NIV)
29 But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.
Hebrews 10:23 (NIV)
23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.
Psalms 145:20 (NIV)
20 The Lord watches over all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy.
09/01/2019 New Life Christian Church – Spring Hill
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2414982285260920/
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Happy blessed Sunday everyone; Happy blessed September 1, 2019 already. Maybe it’s just me now that I am getting older day by day and it seems time is just flying by. I know in my youth I was always bored out of my wits and could never do anything that held my attention.
Crazy how in our youth we were all so full of energy just looking for that next thing; and at some point not everyone starts the same time; but at some point as we get older we just try to spend our time doing things that are meaningful and lasting. Or at least I hope we all do.
Whoever made up that saying that I never understood back then; to stop and smell the roses. I wonder if they just made that up from life experiences or if they had a relationship with God.
Yes, the crazy thoughts that this mind maze sparks sometimes. Thinking about today and all the things that people get into; and oh, my goodness the drug scene; or challenges that takes place.
I mean truly; I may have been exposed and done some things that I will never forget even if I wanted to from the ages 10-15; but eating laundry pods or other weird stuff that takes place. And doing drugs made out of rat poison. We so need God every second of every day in this world.
So where is that fine line the more I think of it; of leading healthy moral Godly lives and planting the seeds that others want to live and feel some of what you have; and where all we do is judge what is being done and talk about what is wrong.
Truly; yes, I am guilty at times of being judgmental without even paying attention. Seriously knowing most of the things I got into or had happen to me as child was because I had no supervision; no bonding; no one to look out for me and no as a child I knew nothing about going to a church or who God really was.
If anything, I grew up in a school of sledgehammer knocks not just the school of hard knocks. Times have changed and life is hard but never impossible. I can say so much differently now and even what I had written about it long back in my book Heart and Soul “What About The Children” (alwaysmekelly-1995)
What about the children, have enough people stopped to think?
Look at the future; like a giant ship that’s about to sink.
You ask what this is all about, as if you don’t know.
Tell me, have you taken the time to see which way even yours will go?
It’s not just today - it started long ago.
But as time progresses it worsens or goes by so very slow.
Babes on destruction, unleashed children everywhere.
What happened to those who do think of their mistakes and really did care?
It is not our children’s fault; truly it did not start there.
They are learning from the surroundings right here.
Think for a minute; let’s not push the blame.
Each generation passes it as quickly as a passing thunderous rain.
Let me now get to the point, to the bottom line!
It is your fault and yes, it is also mine.
Although as a child I did not have much of the best.
As a parent will always try not to forget and treat my children with anything less teaching them respect.
Oh, what a struggle it has been- lost loves, materials, and sometimes even my mind.
The only true destination and peace was to live for my children and keep them alive.
But most importantly, try to teach them the right way to survive.
No bitterness, hatred, blame or lies.
I don’t take pity on what in my past; that would only haunt me with memories I wish not to last.
You see, you never really forget the past; you just grow from it, try making only the future last.
So, I try to learn and teach as much as any woman or man.
But it’s so sad and scares me to think why so few others will or can
I am far from perfect, as so many of us are.
But perfection takes time, and you will see that distant journey is really not that far.
All it takes is the time to find out who you really are and where we want to be.
At that point, and only then, can you really see!
We should all be working together to stay alive, well and healthy. Let’s try to stop the devastation and destruction to all the children around.
It only takes a minute to forget our own self-pity and hear their wonderful sound.
Or for some just put those drinks or drugs down. Work with the children; listen, they have such incredible minds. And the best part is, they will also help you and me in time.
So, as I look around still so many years later thinking of our world and how many are not there for their children. Sure, they are buying them, putting them in the best schools, bailing them out of trouble when they are running wild and do something and the world judges and put them on trial.
That is not what Gods promise and beauty intended; even if when we finally turn back to Him we are blessed with mercy and grace.
But what if it is too late and so much is already lost; or even that of which no longer has life?
My perspective; my thoughts; my wires may be crossed. However, we should always be there to plant the seeds of love; and positive moral growth.
Still the world or humanity that continually calls out to take charge and just do whatever or be. We have the rights to own or do what should or should not be. Turning our eyes away changes everything for those who believe it does not matter if we just cannot see.
I know here I talk about judging and I find myself with thoughts gone wild.
However, “Only God Knows Why” https://youtu.be/pl5N48kt56k - @Kid Rock
This song; says so much true to many and their lives. While others just do not want to hear, see or do anything. And they will just keep doing what they do and for everyone to stay out of their business and they will be alright.
Yes, even my hard headed child at times; I want to just shake them and make them understand I am for them and the future. Not perfect or full of pride. Just want what is best morally grounded and acquiring strength to get through anything in this life. Do we not all want what is best for any child?
Doubtful as I had written about so many years back and then I remember; who am I? I may not be out here living dirty and playing in that wanna be gansta world. But in my time I have run with the best and worst of those that walked without that moral compass.
So, have I mellowed over the years? Heck yes! I used to be straight up hard rising up my kids. Not putting up with anything even if I sometimes was leading by the wrong examples.
In any case; even today I still mess up and make not so good choices and sometimes coming close to devastating everything I have worked over the years for.
At which point I can either quit give in to the world and crawl off somewhere and die. However, I choose to know who saved me from myself and taking a deep breath; praying harder knowing how blessed I. am
Looking up to the heavens; even when all I can do is asking why? I know my God is real; and Jesus is will wash every tear from every eye. I wish I could truly explain how I know this. I just know it is not a lie; for the peace through all the trials I face over time; is something beyond explanation and what I feel inside.
So where am I going today with all these words; some are rhymes. Thinking and watching the news already of the storms devastating so many lives.
Please find your moral compass; digging deep holding on tight to Jesus Christ. Pray first; choose wisely. Do not rush; and if you have to; it is okay to cry.
Pray for those who have lost sight; pray for those have taken advantage and purposely openly lie.
Everyone is going through something. What would Jesus do? Pray on it not just try to figure it out without holding him tight and things will work out; things will be all right.
Practice forgiveness for yourself and everyone you connect with day and night; set aside your pride. Eternity is not that far away being no one knows when their end of times will be.
Acts 2:38(NIV) Peter replied, “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. In addition, you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.
Acts 10:43 (NIV) All the prophets testify about him that everyone who believes in him receives forgiveness of sins through his name.”
Acts 13:38 (NIV) “Therefore, my friends, I want you to know that through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you.
Acts 26:18 (NIV) to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.’
