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(said with much love and respect)
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Date: October 14, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Romans 12:2 (NIV) Do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
James 1:2-4 (NIV) Trials and Temptations
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face
trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the
testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let
perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not
lacking anything.
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Psalm 107:21-22
(NIV) 21 Let them give
thanks to the Lord for his
unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind. 22 Let them sacrifice thank offerings and tell of his works with songs of joy.
and his wonderful deeds for mankind. 22 Let them sacrifice thank offerings and tell of his works with songs of joy.
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Isaiah 40:10 (NIV) 10 See, the Sovereign Lord
comes with power, and he rules with a mighty arm. See, his reward
is with him, and his recompense accompanies him.
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Romans 9:20 (NKJV) 20 But indeed, O man, who are you to reply against God? Will
the thing formed say to him who formed it, “Why have you made me like
this?”
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Psalm 100:4-5 (NIV) 4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name. 5 For the Lord is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you for this new day Lord, “Let It Rain” https://youtu.be/aIlw7BInVw0 @Crowder ft. Mandisa
Not my will but yours Lord!
Oh, how I can dwell on all the misfortune this soul has felt over the time I have been here in this earth; but you Lord the same God who hung that beautiful full moon, the stars and sun; that paints the sky canvas across the nations realm. Are the same one that knew all things of me before I was even a thought or tear in my mother’s heart.
Life here, well we know based on choices or the lack there of; no matter where we are. Those who have went before us leave doors opened that should be sealed forever or even those if we are blessed to know you early on crammed full of as many souls as we can help through as possible.
I pray we never let what is in the world disrupt the rhythm of your love God that feeds our souls.
No matter how badly love really hurts or that which will forever yearn in the depths of our souls; may it always be your will alone Father God.
May we all seek mercy and grace for all we connect; seeing through your eyes, feeling with your kindness and love.
Forgive no matter how hard it is; even when! We all have and ending to that sentence, may we learn from our mistakes and grow in you. None of us knows when tomorrows end is coming.
It is more than just living with moral values; stepping out in faith and serving; spreading the word for people to hear; so much more that singing a tune or writing words for others to read. The true depths of you Jesus! Is truly know between each individual and you alone.
That is not something anyone can choose for another, force upon or even do acts of kindness to make it happen.
When those of us who are in relationship with you come together; we should lovingly be the church for you shining brightly to allow others to just see that abundant peace and grace.
We in humanity get it wrong much of the time but we should never stop trying. We all fall short Father; for this reminder I thank you as with the encouragement and strength to just keep trying to grow forward whenever we miss that hurdle and face plant in the worlds vast mud pit.
Thank you for pulling me up and helping me clean off to start again. May I never lose your grip no matter what is or is not!
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Date: October 13, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Weekend Services: @New Life Christian Church 10/12/2019
awesome message speaker “Rami; gave an awesome message to remember!
He was visiting and during the message wandered off the camera so good to still hear his message
https://www.facebook.com/newlifeccspringhill/videos/3345290548875190/
Or
Here is last nights end to end service enjoy https://www.facebook.com/newlifeccspringhill/videos/755447834975645/
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Psalm 46:10 (NIV) 10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Numbers 6:25-26 (NIV) 25 the Lord make his face shine on you and
be gracious to you;
26 the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”’
26 the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”’
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Wow Lord, I think this powerful message from this weekend is truth on so many levels. Thank you for blessed pastor’s and speakers such as Rami that can bring it into real life.
Maybe I relate so closely for portions of the message; maybe because when he reminded me of one of my prayers and a song that speaks so deeply to my soul. “Hosanna” https://youtube/Ht5QvAMDMzE. @Hillsong
I often wonder why that particular song means so much in truth when I ask you to break my heart for what breaks yours only later to cry because I cannot withstand the pains and sorrows I feel so often seeing, hearing and experiencing as I walk in this life. Then I remember nothing compares to what you lived through, yet you still showed back up to be courage and strength for so many who believe and want you in their lives.
I pray Lord for all I am connected and myself; you continue to help us with the Healer and not the Healing. “More Than Anything” https://youtu.be/L5YMN3eTPC4 @Natalie Grant
Far from perfect but perfect in you Jesus and if this is what it means to be “Held” https://youtu.be/jJhsexd8Qqg @Natalie Grant
It is a sacrifice far less painful than that of what living without you will ever be. I will never understand how or why I was not a statistic, how or why even today things still transpire that you grow me forward and through. But I am forever blessed to know you do; as just as the reminders this past week of me coming down sick, with an almost fatal accident traveling the roads or even the fall and coming back up with only a bruised, scraped ego and leg. Each incident could be so much worse.
Though I lived in the valley most of my youth, I like no one no matter who we are where we come from or where we think we deserve to be. No one is exempt for reminders where we could be with just a whisper of your hand Jesus.
Thank you for loving me and allowing me to learn how to love myself.
As I continue to grow in you, Father and learning to be still every day; I know that we all go through waves of worldly misfortune. May we all come to hold on to you and your strength knowledge and power walking through it; may we have the endurance to be steadfast in you. May we take the same mercy and grace you give to us and share with those right next us in need.
Forgive me Father for the twisted and inner-twined directions I sometimes wander; forgive me for the sadness I go through when I feel let down for lack of truth and purity of others in you.
It should have never been in any of my thoughts. You know all things and will address all things as you see fit.
I pray for my own direction, visions and support through whatever is to be next in my life and all those I love. I thank you for all you have given me, just as all that you have prevented to come near. I am thankful for we are “No Longer Slaves” https://youtu.be/f8TkUMJtK5k @Bethel Music (Jonathan David and Melissa Helser”
All we must do Lord is believe and meet you daily right where are. So many I have known could not get past themselves, so many more will too be lost. I pray for all I am connected wash over us in your abundance; allowing so many more to see their vast worth and need in this world.
Please wash over all that I am with your will alone and not my own; please guard my good intentions and protect me from those who know how to play kindness out. Heal this brokenness within and physically. “Overflow” https://youtu.be/x1BA_jCHXP0 @TobyMac, Bart Millard - Overflow (Willyecho Remix/Audio)
Always trying to help others when they ask when here I am myself looking for a way out; Jesus
“It’s You” https://youtu.be/cFvjpRyJU1o @TobyMac, Matt Maher, Terrian - It's You (Tide Electric Remix/Audio)
Lord, everything I am is because of you; I have nothing of meaning without you. No matter what games, lies, plans or schemes I or anyone else has for my life. It is you alone that gives meaning. You alone Jesus are the
“Heart Of My Beat” https://youtu.be/HHaBCoXRzXc @TobyMac
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
For I know the plans I have for
you, “declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give
you hope and a future.”
Thank you!
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Date: October 12, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Proverbs 1:8-9 (NIV) [ Prologue: Exhortations to Embrace Wisdom] [ Warning Against the Invitation of Sinful Men ] Listen, my son, to your father’s instruction and do not forsake your mother’s teaching. They are a garland to grace your head and a chain to adorn your neck.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Hebrews 11:6 (NIV) 6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because
anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those
who earnestly seek him.
John 4:23-24 (NIV) 23 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true
worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24 God is spirit,
and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
“I Can See Clearly Now” https://youtu.be/FscIgtDJFXg @Johnny Nash
Jesus thank you for the knowledge and power and showing me the ego that reflects so much of you yet so lost to the things that truly do not matter in the end. The same ego that truly never really knows or cares who you are allowing me to be?
The same ego that gave an abundance of life is that same time was taking draining and confusing the very life within. That same ego that we find walking around taking advantage of those who desire to please others all the while they should be focused on you alone. It is no secret that when you are ready Father God you alone will reveal and put things together.
We think we are doing great things and we ignore more time with you God; by allowing our own ego to convince us, it is for everyone else. Yet when we are sucked into what the world can give us based on what they see on the outside. Alone we truly never really have hold of who you are deep within the depths. We cling only onto the surface but how do we really know, until we finally have reality of the world crush what we thought was hidden deep inside; only for shadows in the dark like a vampire suck the life out of us to make us realize it is only you that should have ever mattered.
Thankful for the lessons and prayerfully seeking redemption for losing the moments bordering and chasing idols of the world without even realizing how dangerous and foolish it is to do so.
As I found myself down this week looking around realizing no matter who I allow to come in and consume, use or think I am helping. There is no sitting on the fence while waiting for reciprocation of love, thanks and appreciation or that of respect.
For me, for what I have put myself accountable to allow them to be part of or even for themselves.
As so many things are clear in view now; the very same blessings I never want to lose from you God are the ones that if I do step up and manage right here right now. If I do not stop trying for everyone else there will be nothing in the end for me including me.
Yes, we can hear the laughter at the game table within this giant life game of chess. We seen and heard it for so long; yet our ego’s chasing what we thought to be something more beautiful and believing if we truly only make a difference their ego as well would hold meaning and connection in the end.
Sometimes even the least expect pawns get to shout out Checkmate and for this in you Jesus I am thankful.
For everything you Father God have allowed to come to be out of the depths of this soul is true; although we know the spiritual, physical and emotional beings of our souls change daily and within those tests of times and winds of change. Sometimes darkness steals the better pieces of oneself even for a moment.
It does not matter where we come from or who we think we are; even Goliath falls.
Lord I never want to chase idols, nor feed the same darkness you pulled me from so long ago. Please guide my steps, guard my heart and hold my tongue when you see me or any, I am connect getting ready to do something foolish that is not of you and for you or your kingdom.
I am always me; lost for you Jesus may nothing ever change this or come close to making me step even an inch away from who you are calling me to be.
Romans 12:12(NIV) Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer-
Thank you for this day and for the awakening. Please heal this body quickly of current circumstances; using me for your kingdom alone.
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Date: October 11, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Psalm 62:1 (NIV) [ For the director of music. For Jeduthun. A psalm of David.]
Truly, my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from him.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
I can share out so many truths that I cannot explain why are true only by what my history has allowed me to know from the depths of my journey and the peace in my soul.
That peace that has filled me since the day you made me see it does not matter what was or what could have, should have been.
That peace I was never alone; The fact remains you can never change what was; you can never change and give back all those moments just wanting someone to acknowledge you just belonged or were worth more than just another extension into a already dysfunctional family.
The love and peace that you alone are filled with when in the presence of the Lord, only you can experience when you are ready to come to really know Jesus.
This love and peace beyond all words, actions, people, places or things.
You are only able to share memories or the messes as journey messages that go as far back as a child through present day. Knowing even today there will be hurdles and hoops to jump through and over when you exist in this vast world filled with good and evil raging all around.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Revelation 14:7 (NKJV) 7 saying with a loud voice, “Fear God and give glory to Him, for the hour of His judgment has come; and worship Him who made heaven and earth, the sea and springs of water.”
Luke 12:22-26 (NKJV) Do Not Worry
22 Then He said to His disciples, “Therefore I say to you, do
not worry about your life, what you will eat; nor about the body, what you will
put on. 23 Life is more
than food, and the body is more than clothing. 24 Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap, which
have neither storehouse nor barn; and God feeds them. Of how much more value
are you than the birds? 25 And which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his
stature? 26 If you then
are not able to do the least, why [a]are you anxious for
the rest?
(my perspectives and/or
feelings):
Thank you for this new day Father; for I know I do not draw near enough, long enough to you ever; even though I know your love for me.
That fidgeting kid still unsettled in some ways who has been allowed peace and the lessons and knowledge of what patience truly means.
More importantly what it feels like when clinging to you and expressing full trust in every second of every day and the beauty knowing that is true worship.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Psalm 62:5-8 (NIV) 5 Yes,
my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.
6 Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
6 Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my
honor depend on God[a];
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all
times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
Revelation 1:8 (NIV)
8 “I am the Alpha and the
Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is, and who was, and who is to come, the
Almighty.”
1 Peter 2:9 (NKJV) 9 But
you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own
special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of
darkness into His marvelous light;
James 1:17 (NIV) 17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
I think there will always be broken moments throughout out time and journey in this world. For some they will be guarded well by those around them and others will be stuck wandering in the desert generation over generation.
Living what it feels like to be in the world and few-and-far between will actually learn they do not have to be of the world. Heartbreak and sorrows are inevitable although joy in healing is available for all who seek true peace in you alone Father.
So many things will never really matter even if they feel like they have ripped the very insides out at the time you are going through them.
Watching those you love entangled in slow conceptual death becomes true reality.
Be it the heartache of watching them give their souls away, or lose their physical being. In the end, the tragedy forever haunts those who really care.
The war rages on all around us; and even those of us grounded in you clinging with talons to never let go are battered by the constant rage for our souls. We fly high with you Jesus although it is unclear some days if we are holding to you or you are truly holding to us. In any event, as I sit at your feet, I thank you for never giving up on this soul.
I get it; if darkness cannot consume me directly, it will go through all that I have grown to love and care about. As I pray over and over all I am; all I am connected belongs to you Jesus; may your will alone be done.
Thank you for the moments of weakness and reminders how much I still need you. There is nothing else for me; that really matters or knows what is next in this life. You may allow us to receive many pleasures and blessings in this walk-of-life but not one of them is essential for life eternal.
How crazy to know we can achieve and have so much without you and even more meaningful everlasting with you. While at the same time, know everything of this world is temporary and really, if we do not have you in the end means nothing.
So much flows through the depths and thoughts of this soul that churns and pours out with many twists and turns like a waterfall on my favorite alpine slide. Racing to the finish line at great speeds filled with fright and excitement all at once when thinking of what life is and will be on the other side.
I Lord will never understand; I just know everything in life happens for a reason and we can either spend our time chasing why or keep trying to grow forward even after the scars heal.
I have accepted to live I must die to myself; just as to be first we must be last. That does not mean I do not fall off that journey at times and allow my human vulnerabilities to overwhelm me with desire and allow some hidden moments seep out thinking in this life while I walk I could have both.
Just as I accept the fact of accountability in life’s lessons when I know I am wrong yet progress in hope for what is of the world itself. Painful truths always bring me back to reality in you.
Yes, there can be both; but not until you, Lord allow it; be it here or on the other side. The soul does not lie, only humanity does. For this may all I am connected come to know the truth in you; allow the love and peace to flow through and fill them up daily no matter what is taking place.
Recently someone I knew from my teen years reached out. Realizing I always stay in touch with everyone even at arm’s length; I debated on allowing that door to be open. How funny when people are down and out, they try to cling to those who may be able to do something for them.
Friends forever but I take everything with more than that grain of salt. Yes, as we grow up for those of us who make it. We have a special bond and love for all our friends we grew with along the way. But there is something that will last forever and that is to be evenly yoked means life or death in this world.
We were all even back in the day; many of us never made it; many recently even within days of this moment lost the battle forever lost. While some still out there trying to cling to anyone or anything to make it through whatever is left.
Dear Jesus, be with all of those souls. Please may they all come to know; life is between you and them; no one can fill the gap.
I guess knowing who I am in your father Jesus makes the world of difference; knowing I cannot save myself most days absolutely makes me aware I cannot save anyone else. Lord knows I have tried on so many occasions.
Lessons learned as I was growing by trying to save others; the good Lord actually allowed me to learn how to save myself. Although sometime the scars from falling along that climb trying to remain me while giving what I have away. The abundance within is all yours Jesus not that of my own.
It has been only the sustenance of you God. The only one who stops the bleeding that my soul pours out and allows all the broken pieces to come back together in something more beautiful with glimmers of shine and promise that only Gods angels and Jesus can call their own.
As they shined and buffed each broken piece from the mistakes of our journey we acquired; filled with the breath of God and kisses of love, endurance, mercy and grace. They placed strategically exactly where they need to go allowing the brilliance of all the eternal tomorrows in the father washing away all regrets, pain and sorrows.
No matter how smart, sleek, powerful, strong, ahead, in control; or even lacking, doubtful, weak falling behind in the world’s games, or all over the place filled with anxiety because you just do not know why, how or what. Yes, there is some mighty players in this world game of chess; that hold that straight poker face while they are devouring all the bits and pieces of good within us for their own personal gains.
The fact remains we should never forget or ever doubt our Creator. It will be His timing and His plans how he deals with the choices we make or that are made for us.
It is up to each of us individually how we walk our journey; no one else can do it for us.
Being real and remaining transparent, not being something, we truly are not normally when others are not watching.
Well that can be a painful walk; Oh how those good at the game especially when they circle up with team members and you think you are out there totally alone can hurt when you receive the crushing blows or realism that even those you sometime know a lifetime are not who you think they are at all.
Even those who you grow to admire and out in the public eye have this beautiful façade painted all around them, yet they are just mere mortals with broken pieces that direct their energies in sucking the life out of those unsuspecting pawns in this game of chess. Oh, how bittersweet the game sometimes can be until you are positioned to say checkmate!
We may not win any prize physically in the end; as there are no winners when we play games with other people, with lives of other people or even fool ourselves and our own.
However, in the news flash God always wins. He and his angel armies are in control and the healing for those pawns always take place in abundance for when we believe and call out “God, Turn It Around” https://youtu.be/3Fwp-YDo90o @Jon Riddick
Though love never fails and God is love and when we believe it is truly “Only Kindness Matters” https://youtu.be/AfsS3pIDBfw @Jewel
So, thank you to all those players that have mastered the game of life far better than me. I know I play with my heart on my sleeve with clean hands, pure heart and absolutely slip of the tongue often when feelings sneak out. It matters not; as the lessons of life have been bold; brilliant and oh so painful at times. I am and always will be thankful for the “Scars” https://youtu.be/OqjGT9BSyJA @I AM THEY
“Waiting with hope is very difficult, but true patience is expressed when we must even wait for hope. I will have reached the point of greatest strength once I have learned to wait for hope” – George Matheson
Psalm 31:24 (NKJV) Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the LORD.
It is when I am the lowest valley’s in life the strength of you carries me through the storms.
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Date: October 10, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Proverbs 19:20-21 (NIV) Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Psalms 37:3-6 (NIV) 3 Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. 4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: 6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun.
Philippians 4:19 (NKJV) 19 And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
Hebrews 13:20-21 (NIV) Benediction and Final Greetings
20 Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, 21 equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Father God, for this new day and the unspoken blessings of each new day you have allowed me to get up.
Please be with those I work with that will start their chemo treatments tomorrow.
May they come to know the peace in comfort in you no matter what the storms of this life bring Jesus!
Please be with their families during this season as I pray, they truly know you long before this wave of misfortune has come to be in their up and coming days.
No matter what days are ahead, identified as one of your children, Thank you! I made up my mind and I am “Never Going Back” https://youtu.be/PWKux2gYn00 @ United Pursuit (ft. Brock Human)
There is so much I could write about this morning from the ups-and-downs and the almost that really do not count.
You the “King of the World” https://youtu.be/UOVuhQ7akTg @Natalie Grant were the one that found me and have sustained me holding me tighter than I will ever know daily. For this, I am beyond grateful despite any physical or emotional challenges I encounter.
I wish I could explain it, to be able to share with everyone I come in contact with however I can only share pieces of me over time and those who knew me back then and know me now realize just how changed I have been blessed to be.
Even this morning on the drive in where we are all running seventy plus miles an hour and have to suddenly without warning come to a screeching halt. It could have been bad; yet you got the multitude of cars through including myself without incident.
I am thankful for the awareness in life and sudden changes I must have, as I am beyond thankful for all of those who are aware around me.
So on this day no matter how I falter, no matter what I am to some or what I am not. Lord God of all the heavens and universe. Thank you for letting me know in this life what it means to be “Held” https://youtu.be/jJhsexd8Qqg @Natalie Grant
Despite any brokenness in this world; when we truly come to know you, when we truly allow ourselves to fall in love with your son Jesus; is a love greater than any other, to be loved from the inside out. Yes, you will allow those to flow in and out of our journey. Just as sometimes, the test of times seems to be far more than anyone human can withstand. Nevertheless “It’s You” https://youtu.be/MGukMchIcDE @TobyMac at the end of any given moment in time.
So Father, forgive me for all the ill feelings I have towards some for their actions or lack of. Forgive me for I internally throw my temper tantrums, which is better than I use to be but not what it could be. So thank you; as “You Never Let Go” https://youtu.be/y83-vMeWc9E @Matt Redman When I have thrown in my towel long ago.
I will never be able to explain many things; but I pray any soul that I ever come in connection with comes to know you Jesus and those they know the blessings that only you and each of us individually can acknowledge. Please bring salvation to my family, friends and loved ones. Please be with our nation; please be with my church and all who enter the doors.
Thank you for this day. May I never forget who you are Jesus as the days will come, I forget this world. Most importantly thank you for that day long ago that you allowed me to find myself and who I truly meant to be.
My prayers always for all I Love ”I Hope You Dance” https://youtu.be/RV-Z1YwaOiw @Lee Ann Womack
I personally may be haunted never to know who my biological father was, or the true story about the man who tossed us out. I know I no longer have to live within the scars that branded me so very young. Nor I may never find that what I chased throughout my childhood and young adult life. But you Jesus have shown me love from the inside out and I am forever grateful for what I have been given.
What I do know is that you Jesus have also restored me “Piece By Piece” https://youtu.be/tuunqfdz388 @Kelly Clarkson
The feelings that wash over me every time I remember when you let me know I will “Never Be Alone” https://youtu.be/-8bYgVEfAUo @Capital Kings Thank you Lord for filling me up again and reminding me you have and always be what guides this soul.
May my light never dim when it comes to reflecting your promise Jesus to always know just looking up and “I’ll Find You” https://youtu.be/Jv8IqJm6q7w @Lecrae (Ft. Tori Kelly)
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Date: October 9, 2019
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Deuteronomy 13:4 (NIV) It is the Lord your God you must follow, and him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey him; serve him and hold fast to him.
Psalms 16:8-9, 11 (NIV) 8 I keep my eyes always on the Lord.
With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken 9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, 11 You make known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Jeremiah 31:25 (NIV) 25 I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint.”
Philippians 2:14-15 (NIV) 14 Do everything without grumbling or arguing, 15 so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.”[a] Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky
James 1:2 (ESV) Testing of Your Faith 2 Count it all joy, my brothers,[a] when you meet trials of various kinds,
Psalms 25:5 (NIV) 5 Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
Habakkuk 2:2 (ESV) The Righteous Shall Live by His Faith
2 And the Lord answered me: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it.
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Little under the weather yesterday but very thankful the good Lord still gets me up. Yes, Monday I started out good later in the morning to feel like I was run over by a Mack truck. By afternoon, I was freezing for the rest of the day; right on into Tuesday only Tuesday I woke with bronchitis starting.
Feeling much better but it is not over yet. It is all good we all go through stuff, big and small. If he keeps getting you up; there is a reason other than walking around adding unfortunate gloom and doom to this already over run world full of negativity.
I am far from perfect and sometimes those ticked off thoughts of how I feel sometimes towards those who are out there sucking the life out of people. Well they just slip out; but that is never the intent for sure. Something I work on daily with the good Lord and myself.
So here we are October already, time flying by and I think this time last year I was on cloud 9 life was going well and I had been communicating with a friend and really just excitement was everywhere. Then it was somewhere around June of this year I found that my so-called friend really was not at all. They had been playing me out and honestly, I do not even know if anything of an almost yearlong communication ever said was true. It was my bad because I never look past who people really are, my thought process as long as they do no harm no foul to me it is all good right. Trying not to place expectations or anyone in a box.
Well I always try to see the good in everyone; but I think the most valuable lesson in life is, and maybe because I am so transparent. That you can never get time back. Be it five seconds or five years. Choose wisely what and whom you spend any of your time with or on.
Yes, sometimes we just do not know what to expect or our expectations go terribly south. Even with family and close friends etc. Nevertheless, we get through it and keep pressing forward, which is what we should do.
However, when you find yourself to where people flat out lie to you, friends, family, children, acquaintances there is absolutely no need to go any further. It does not matter what their intentions are.
Once the trust is broken, the action can be forgiven but the trust will never be replenished. I give kudos to married couples who work through their infidelities and continue to fight to stay in union as that journey is never an easy one.
Relationships of all kinds take so much work and effort of all parties no matter who or what type.
Especially when you just stop talking to each other and then start taking your conversations to others. Fight your way back to the reason you got together in the first place. My theory anyway. Sometimes people change sometimes we grow apart; I get that firsthand.
I even sympathize with those who step out on their partners because they think they really need something now or they are getting even for the hurt someone caused them.
However, if you are married you need to hold true with God 24/7 and regardless unless you are being abused. Not give up or give in to the flesh.
Hard heck yes, I can honestly say there has been one time in my entire existence I got even and stepped out. Back then, I was in my twenties and so over the life that was happening. Long before, I actually started my walk with God. No, it did not make me feel any better by far I lost my partner because of their own actions but also a very dear friend at the time.
I wish I could tell you how or why I am writing on this subject; but nothing I say is ever scripted. It is just what is put on my heart and mind at the time. Lord knows it is certainly not to cast judgement on anyone. That is up to the good Lord himself.
For me this stuff just flows; I guess it kind brings reality back around as to the fact I will never be who I was in my twenties even if I put too much faith in people I do not know and refuse to put any in those I once did.
So, where does that leave someone like me? I wish I knew; but it is okay that I do not, because I know just like everyone else God has great plans for my future and me.
We, I serve a “Good Good Father” https://youtu.be/-ak0OoFBw3c @Chris Tomlin
For this I am blessed, and no matter what or “When We Fall Apart” https://youtu.be/xUPgzd3nwMo @ Ryan’s Music @Ryan Stevenson or when I fall apart I will slowly pick the broken pieces back up and know that God is my glue until the day I can no longer get up and do so.
For I am “In The Arms” https://youtu.be/1dxOdCsK-ac @Terrian In the arms of my Jesus that holds and directs my path.
I know “One Day” https://youtu.be/So94m-Lp6Pw @Cochren and Co and all that I go through, feel or write about really will be something to smile about as the good Lord heals all the brokenness of this world.
So, what if I am a dreamer to the harshness of this world. If it does not happen on this side of eternity, it will absolutely on the other side.
With that today I am thankful for no matter what lessons I learn at the hand’s others or of my foolish heart.
We all go through stuff; we all make mistakes and we all have choices to keep on keeping on and grow forward even if it is one baby step at a time.
Anyway, thanks for reading this mind maze dump this morning; prayers for all going through it! I get it I do. In more ways than I care to admit.
Have a blessed day or evening.
Always remember there is always someone watching; always someone invested in what you do and tied to what you do. Always own your own journey. Always keep God first and everything else in the appropriate hierarchy when it comes to what matters most. You may be feeling defeated in many different areas of your life right now; but every day the good Lord gets you up; there is promise and hope of new opportunity awaiting you. Be your best self that you are created to be.
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Date: October 8, 2019 Tuesday
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
Isaiah 43:11-12 (NIV) I, even I, am the Lord, and apart from me there is no savior. I have revealed and saved and proclaimed— I, and not some foreign god among you. You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “that I am God.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
Jeremiah 31:3 (NIV) 3 The Lord appeared to us in the past,[a] saying: I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Exodus 15:13 (NIV) 13 In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed.
In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.
Hebrews 13:8 (NIV) 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Cruising with Kelly 10/08/2019
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2485397811552700/
