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Scripture from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise**** ****Music links and
reference pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ are free for public consumption**** (Disclosure – I am grammatically incorrect most any
day these words flow as a release of this mind maze which gives me my sanity
not to impress the critics or English majors (said with much love and respect)
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Date: 11/07/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/-T1CLlMjiTw
“He’s Got the Whole World in His hands” @ Life Tree Kids
https://youtu.be/vJ-YhvAQwEE
“The Lord is Boss” @
Dillon Loving
Verse of the
Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 Timothy 2:1-2 (NIV) ==== [ Instructions on Worship ] I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.
==== 1 Timothy 2:1-2 (NIV) ==== [ Instructions on Worship ] I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 29:2 (NIV) 2 Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name;
worship the Lord in the splendor of his[a] holiness.
==== Psalm 27:4==== (NIV) 4 One thing I ask
from the Lord,
this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his temple.
this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his temple.
==== Romans
3:23-25==== (NIV) 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely by his grace through the
redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25 God presented Christ as a sacrifice of
atonement,[a] through the shedding of his blood—to be received by faith.
He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had
left the sins committed beforehand unpunished—
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day of
opportunities
No matter what breaks, or family is in the
hospital, the weather is not what we prefer, the kids are not as neat and tidy
as we think they should be, the house is a mess, or we are struggling just to
get by physically, emotionally.
Lord you hold the whole world in your hands.
May those who do not know this come to know you; and those who are called yours
forever; never forget and just keep forging forward in you.
How or why I wake with the songs in my head or
what to be said; is all you Father. Later in the day when I have made it
through and really awake my emotions and life spill out.
But you Holy Spirit are what reminds me
how alive and present you are. Thank you for allowing me time and
care to start each day and end each night.
May all that comes to mind, word or deed, Father
God; be perfect and pleasing in your will. How I wish I could
fulfill that in abundance for all you have done for us here and now.
Yet you love me anyway; despite all the shortcomings
that will transpire. Thank you for the moments now and all that will be.
For now, I must serve what I am called; thank you Jesus.
Thank you, please be with all travel on these
roads this morning, and until I am back later or seeing you face to face Lord;
please hear all the prayers my heart is holding. Thank you for the
now!
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Oh
Lord, that sinking panic that consumed me for even a brief few moments today.
As
my security system triggered notifications; there is someone unrecognized in
the house and when I went to look to see four strangers walking in the front
door looking around.
I
still feel the pressure from my heart wanting to explode.
Beating
myself up lately for being so kindhearted and putting myself in a mess, I am
trying to clean up; having things falling apart all around me in this house I
am buying for family to have a place to live. My child
still sick in the hospital.
Trying
to manage work life balance and stay close to you every step of the way.
I know there is nothing I can do. I know you Lord are in control; even if
I do not understand these waves right now.
Nevertheless,
the feeling of been violated as I watch these people walk around my house
trying to trigger my alarm while calling 911.
Thank
you, Jesus, for having friends close by and the Sheriff there within minutes.
That
sinking feeling that my grandchild used bad judgement and allowed people in my
home without permission while they were changing.
Why
the camera did not pick her up as well; perhaps this was your way of teaching
lessons. I do not know; Thankful beyond anything I can
describe right now that it is a case of bad judgement and not thinking.
The
pressure is on even though I manage through you very well. I have
maxed out. I do not know how much more I can give away without it
taking me out.
My
generosity for family, friends and unknown leaving me empty and wanting to just
be alone has taking its toll father.
I
am thankful every day for all you allow me; but there must be some direction,
or purpose that must be exposed and utilized.
Reveal
to me, in me, through me what it is that this is all for.
So
much healing and direction is needed here Jesus; for my family, for me!
For all I am connected.
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Date: 11/06/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Maybe thinking of the holidays coming up and all I once was really close to; but you went ahead. Always with me still! Just knowing you on this mind first thing and that no matter who is or who isn’t I need to keep trying and growing forward. Even though I feel slighted and left behind because I was https://youtu.be/bCuhuePlP8o “Someone You Loved” @Lewis Capaldi
No matter what I will keep trying and growing forward in https://youtu.be/KA9kSBv1QrI “Confidence” @Sanctus Real
“Even Then” https://youtu.be/bR9UsXgIAjg?list=RDbR9UsXgIAjg @Micah Tyler
Because we are all made for so much more than what is given or taken from us in this world God; as I am standing on your promises I know in you we are all “Made To Love” https://youtu.be/3afrg0aI350 @TobyMac
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 1:9-10 (NIV) ==== he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== John 8:29==== (NIV) 29 The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him.”
==== Hebrews 11:5-6==== (NIV) 5 By faith Enoch was taken from this
life, so that he did not experience death: “He could not be found, because God
had taken him away.”[a]
For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6 And
without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him
must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
==== Psalm 37:4==== (NIV) 4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus,
Please be with all who are suffering this day in spirit and truth.
Be with me Jesus in all that I do; keeping me steadfast and on your path for all that is righteous and growing forward and remain accountable in all things.
A tall order request; and I deserve nothing; as there is nothing I can do or say to earn all you have sacrificed for this life alone or any that have left already.
It is you all my hope stands for without you I am nothing but a speck in this vast universe just waiting my turn when it will be my turn from this world.
You know my heart; you know my life; before, during and what will come after. Please be with all I care for; and as you never gave up on me; please never give up on them.
The world is vast; the oceans are wide, the currents movement waiting for life’s undertows that naturally just suck us in if we do not stay within your boundaries and remain steadfast caring and watching.
How heartbreaking it can be to what so many lost in the abyss of darkness that comes with life.
Yet your promise remains for all who cling to the saving-grace taking hold of Hope in my God as my Anchor that allows me to withstand all the storms and waves that will be.
Thank you for allowing me each day new opportunities and visions or views of how blessed I still am no matter what!
It was long ago I had no purpose; on those days of change and even still sometimes where I could feel the ability to unzip this vessel suite and step out into something greater more meaningful than what the surroundings or circumstance had me stuck in.
From the ignorant uneducated misconceptions; to the desperate trials of just having a life; to the good intentions that seem to always destroy something.
There is never a solid truth to anything if it does not come from you Jesus. This I have been able to learn through the life’s school of hard knocks.
The truth hurts all the time; be it, for loss, for love no longer, for joyful adoration, or just bitter misconception. However, in you Jesus, all the time with you, we without question, gratitude, or anticipation; are daily given breath of life; beating hearts and never-ending promise of all that will be not what could be. So why must we spin ourselves; chasing paper, people pleasing, chasing love just to mean something. Knowing even if, everything always changes. Everything but you Jesus!
One layer at a time Jesus; I pray you chisel away and mold me into all that you want me to be.
Just to be! Tearfully is that it means to love and not be loved; held and never feel you; blessed in the middle of the storm; or glowing from the beauty you alone formed. “Even If”
https://youtu.be/B6fA35Ved-Y @Mercy Me
As you take me deeper, I pray my feet may never fail as you hold me tighter than any unknown will ever touch me. “Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) https://youtu.be/FBJJJkiRukY @Hillsong United
Healing, finding that new normal no matter what; opportunity of growing forward in you Jesus.
The Key “This is key to forgiveness” https://youtu.be/sHoapBtEobM @Pastor Steven Furtick
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Date: 11/05/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Thank you, Holy Spirit, for allowing me to wake with this song in my heart. https://youtu.be/srGIp4LO-XM “Never Alone” @Tori Kelly
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 13:6 (NIV) ==== This is also why you pay taxes, for the authorities are God’s servants, who give their full time to governing.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Philippians 4:12==== (NIV) 12 I know what it is to be in
need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being
content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living
in plenty or in want.
==== Genesis 28:15 ==== (NIV) 15 I am with you and will watch
over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not
leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”
==== Philippians 4:19 ==== (NIV) 19 And my God will meet all your
needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
==== Romans 8:38-39==== (NIV) 38 For I am convinced that
neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the
future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything
else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is
in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
We all must continue that climb be it out of the pits we find ourselves feeling or those we have allowed our sight to be blinded by what should not have been.
We all must believe in something even that of nothingness if we say we do not.
If we fall it is our choice to cling tighter than ever before to you Jesus or just let go free falling into the depths of unknown and forever torment.
Thrashing and grasping for anything we can cling onto along the way.
This mind maze as I feel the heaviness of the unknown for my child, I sometimes wish I had that power and not that parental ability to try and steer them out of harm’s way. Sometimes the stubbornness and choices make the future what it is and others it is what you Lord allow what will be.
Always giving freedoms of choice and will how to push forward clinging and fighting in you.
You led me to the message about Babylon in Isaiah 21 this morning; and how this mind went from knowing I was at the top two years ago and finally slayed all the demons getting through with abundant hard work and all the right moves. With You God; absolutely always within.
To side stepping and misreading the messages and like everyone else taking something beautiful that you gave me and allowing myself to be consumed and in a blink of an eye remembering what it is like to stand in humility still very alone in this physical place.
As I watch circumstances of my own blood, of my own connections and those of a distance continue to swirl taking out what you created one by one.
Never for once did I not trust you Jesus; but it is more than just a few songs; a few positive words; a few hours of devotional time.
At what point did I stop talking to you 24/7? Spending too much time trying to make things real just to feel the love you have given me from the inside out into something I needed to what the world considers more tangible.
The depths of this soul and all that I am belong to you and you alone Jesus. If you choose to make me walk this world as I have; so be it. Though I pray you have favor on me and allow someone worthy of you to come walk beside me.
If you choose; Your will be done and your strength and courage for me to keep fighting forward no matter what the pain or tears that flow.
It is not a comparison of any who have come before me; or any in the here and now.
How can one say till the day I die, and your will be done 364 days and on the 365th when the world changes we need something different?
I will never be able to do this on my own; I am grateful for all you have put in my path to help me stay encouraged and given me strength. Grateful for all my brothers and sisters in Christ.
May we all see the signs and hear your loving guidance Jesus. When you say to put a watchman on the wall; may we dig deep to truly hear your meaning.
If we should stumble or fall off what we think we are to be; may you reveal all that is next for your will.
Please be with all that I am; all my connections healing and reflecting the truth and the way; today, and any tomorrows I am given.
Be it the saving grace on this day in 1980 when a lost soul came and held a gun to my head to rob the store I worked or my child laying in a hospital bed with the unknown ahead.
May I never forget who you are and your love for me and all you have created. Heal us Jesus, in your will and your way. Heal us all to grow forward in your will alone.
Cruising with Kelly 11/05/2019
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/pcb.743933679448113/2544801662278981/?type=3&ifg=1&__tn__=HH-R&eid=ARB9dT3oVP6mWLXUAJ9y1Sgglw6CDctTdSNwbktsXXPPy6OdiyoaMMelAQS6kijweYLhm27p6oe3SSSK
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Date: 11/04/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
This morning I
couldn’t get a new worship song to me out of my head so in light of all things
going on in my world it has to be the following https://youtu.be/osnhlrIX7bE “Gone” @Davide
Mutendji and Steven Furtick
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 2 Corinthians 3:6 (NIV)
==== He has made us competent as ministers
of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills,
but the Spirit gives life.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalms 102:1-12==== (NIV) A prayer of an
afflicted person who has grown weak and pours out a lament before the Lord.
1 Hear my prayer, Lord;
let my cry for help come to you.
2 Do not hide your face from me
when I am in distress.
Turn your ear to me;
when I call, answer me quickly.
let my cry for help come to you.
2 Do not hide your face from me
when I am in distress.
Turn your ear to me;
when I call, answer me quickly.
3 For my days vanish like smoke;
my bones burn like glowing embers.
4 My heart is blighted and withered like grass;
I forget to eat my food.
5 In my distress I groan aloud
and am reduced to skin and bones.
6 I am like a desert owl,
like an owl among the ruins.
7 I lie awake; I have become
like a bird alone on a roof.
8 All day long my enemies taunt me;
those who rail against me use my name as a curse.
9 For I eat ashes as my food
and mingle my drink with tears
10 because of your great wrath,
for you have taken me up and thrown me aside.
11 My days are like the evening shadow;
I wither away like grass.
my bones burn like glowing embers.
4 My heart is blighted and withered like grass;
I forget to eat my food.
5 In my distress I groan aloud
and am reduced to skin and bones.
6 I am like a desert owl,
like an owl among the ruins.
7 I lie awake; I have become
like a bird alone on a roof.
8 All day long my enemies taunt me;
those who rail against me use my name as a curse.
9 For I eat ashes as my food
and mingle my drink with tears
10 because of your great wrath,
for you have taken me up and thrown me aside.
11 My days are like the evening shadow;
I wither away like grass.
12 But you, Lord,
sit enthroned forever;
your renown endures through all generations.
your renown endures through all generations.
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Exodus 33:14==== (NIV) 14 The Lord replied, “My Presence will go with
you, and I will give you rest.”
==== Deuteronomy 32:25==== (NIV) 25 In the street the sword will make them childless;
in their homes terror will reign. The young men and young women will perish, the infants and those with gray hair.
in their homes terror will reign. The young men and young women will perish, the infants and those with gray hair.
==== Hebrews 13:20-21==== (NIV) Benediction and Final Greetings
20 Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the
eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd
of the sheep, 21 equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may
he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory
for ever and ever. Amen.
====
Psalm 29:11==== (NIV) 11 The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
No one is promised tomorrow; and for the today’s we encounter no one is
promised they will be free problems and or heartache. Be it
health, wealth, loss, our own self infliction or that at the hands of others.
Life is not fair, which is why so many clings onto so many things to cope.
Much can come and go; many can be your best caring friend or loved one today
and tomorrow when they are done are just gone.
We are all dealing with things!
Some hang tough all the way through; others can barely hold the weight of
their own and must let go to deal with life when it comes to our own.
While others are only there to rob the joy in your soul, or anything materially they can until they realize life is even for you with limitations; they then run and hide looking for the next one to suck whatever they can get out of.
Our choices are our own.
Much can come and go; we can choose to hold onto the memories that remain,
forging onward.
We can mask it by filling out the days or nights with the things everyone tells us will help.
Or even spin in that that cycle of all the advice we are given. Good
intentions of take it easy, do you know what you are doing, you need to take a
break; you better be careful; you have too much at stake. Do you really
know what you’re doing? Do this; do that; over here, over there.
It is so easy to spin; stall or get paralyzed. Even
blame others when things just do not feel good in life.
In the end it is only Jesus that can take away the pain and lifts those
burdens off our plate.
Broken flesh, broken bones, broken hearts. Dare I name all the scars.
Facing a bullet or a bully; a knife or ice pick. Violations of a
stranger or even those you were raised up with your family trusted placing you
in the hands of danger.
Pulled from harm left every day to find purpose through all those scars.
If only you gave up everything you believed. If only those you looked
up to really had faith in God too and maybe those things would have never
happened to me or to you.
The here and now; for yesterday’s gone. Jesus pulled you from
the chasm, he pulled you from the desert plains.
He pulled you from the mess so you could share what he has to say. He
pulled you out because there is not maybe; He is reflecting that everyone can
be saved; in Him alone all healing can take place.
No matter if these words are just for you; or
someone out there in time in space.
Keep fighting forward every day, every night in
and with Jesus Christ.
Oh, this journey can be very hard to where you
just can't one more thing; and even more lonely. Critics everywhere,
vampires sucking the life out of you when all you want to do is care. The
burdens are great but His peace, His love is never late.
Some will chastise, some say keep it to yourself,
while others have all the advice in the world even if they cannot get out of
their own living hell.
It says we were not meant to do this life on our
own; yet it is those in the world that sometimes cause the pains and sorrows
that torment us. What do we do? Crawl up and wait for
our time; I do not think so.
Life we know; gives and takes away but our
Sovereign Lord and Savior is forever here unchanged to stay.
No matter how good, bad, educated or lost we are; we must keep getting up
and pushing to grow forward.
So, no matter what messages you receive; additional
cuts you start bleed from. Labels and chains that try to hold you down and
suffocate you until you give up give in and start to drown.
Our God has the power to move mountains, heal the
sick and the lame. He is here for you and I through all things
which is why He paid the ultimate price. His name alone who saves us no
matter what we are given or what is taken from. His name above all
names is Jesus Christ.
No matter who we look up to, cling to, dream or
desire. No matter if life is going well or burning down around you on
fire. No matter if who you thought was really what they
illuminate or in reckless abandonment you deal with it in the world’s ways or
whims.
Gain peace now for whatever time is left put all
your hopes, all your faith not in what you can get but what, and why; in Jesus
and his calling; in what he did; so we can live even when we no longer exist.
Thank you, Lord, for another new day of
opportunities. Thank you for the ability and the need to keep getting
back up no matter how heavy the loads become. You know all things
Lord before they even transpire.
You know the hurt and pains a parent feels when
their child is lost; when those we love are broken and we cannot fix them.
When they say they know you and refuse obedience and walk with you.
When the pains of our own and those we care can
be felt around the world. Lord we are all your son’s and daughters and
there is no greater pain than that of what you feel each time you have to
sacrifice another child.
May we gain your strength, your courage, your
purpose. Your hand as we are getting back up just that once more.
May we praise you Father God on the mountains, or in the abyss of storms.
May it be only you that sees us through in the
daily new kind of norms.
Hear my unspoken prayers and all that are
praying for me and my family Jesus. Your will be done.
Peace for these children; healing for their mom. Healing for
all; emotionally, physically, financially. In all things may
your will right the wrongs.
Thank you, Father God. For it is always
just me; Kelly with this love, these burdens, these words and stories of all
that has been righted throughout so much that was wrong. Thank you!
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Date: 11/03/2019
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Verse of the
Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Romans 13:1 (NIV) ==== [ Submission
to Governing Authorities
] Let everyone be subject to the governing authorities, for there is no
authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist
have been established by God.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Colossians 4:2==== (NIV) Further Instructions
2 Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.
====
Philippians 3:7-8==== (NIV) 7 But
whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8 What
is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing
Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them
garbage, that I may gain Christ
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank
You for this new day of opportunities Jesus!
Thank
you for allowing me to believe in you; as we all believe in something no matter
if we fight it, deny it, or openly acknowledge it.
Thank
you for allowing freedom in life; thank you for allowing freedom of
choice. Thank you for allowing me to not run; but dig in and do what I
must to keep holding to you and the blessings you give.
Thank
you for the strength and either stupidity or courage. I guess some days
it depends on what it is I am trying to do. Thank you
for allowing me discipline even when I start to waver. May I never forget
you are with me. For I know the temptations and trials will never stop
coming.
May
I know for all I have lost it is you alone I have gained worth more than any
priceless temporal artifact or antique find of this world.
May
that alone be the love and peace I need to continue the days you allow.
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Thank you, Lord, for a spirit
filled morning serving at worship. We can never get enough messages
on guarding our hearts or taming our tongues.
I am guilty at times of being
hurt, and angry and saying things thinking what I feel at that time really
matters. But we know it only really matters to you.
Despite what anyone says or does
to or against us. In the end if we are not reflecting the
love of God, we are not walking with you. No matter what the bitter
truth sometimes can be.
As I was driving home today hearing this the song today and it triggered how I was kinda getting use to someone that mattered. And how after a year the truth was, I did not matter at all. I let my guard down and, in the end, forgot who I was in Christ when I spoke out about wasted time and just the hurt. Knowing I am that person that respects truth over everything else in life.
When you tell someone to go F themselves that is far from being where one
needs to be in Christ.
Now I will say in truth; I am far from perfect. I may be that person
that loves with all I got, and I will do everything I can for those I step up
for. Serve the Lord as much as I can.
But when something or someone hurts me; well I go into fight mode and
try to get as far away as possible. Problem is when your heart
strings are hanging on by the last thread and the last soul you thought you
would be the one who would make you want to hate them when you
cannot. Well Taming the Tongue was not even a thought.
I have no time for drama, I have no time for other people’s lying nonsense.
I believe in you until you make it known that I cannot. Although my
name is written in the book in Lamb’s blood. I do not consider myself as
a saint. I just love everything about what Jesus is, was and
forever will be. Purposing daily in obedience with that moral compass in hand.
Do I fall short; yes always. But it is never going to stop me
from getting back up and continuing to try in you Jesus.
Derailed in thinking about somethings too much at times and not enough in
others yes. Better than I was yesterday but a long way to go for
any tomorrow’s I have left.
Lord, thank you for this weekend’s message and thank you allowing me life to
learn and grow.
You know my heart Father. You know all the unspoken prayers for myself
and family and even all my connections.
Please Lord help me with all I am; to be in and with you. Guard
my tongue, my heart, direction. I will never be able to do this on
my own. I need you more today than ever before.
Be with all who are broken Jesus; even those who do not want you, to
be; show up in a mighty way.
May your children find peace as they continue to walk through the valleys of
this world or celebrate reaching the top of their mountains.
In the end truly only your love and kindness matters. Forgive me
for all I have offended; as I have forgiven all have done me wrong.
I do not know what words I could ever say or do; but I know you Lord can heal
all that is broken for your will and use.
Jesus, I need you yesterday, today and any days you allow me to come.
None of us can save those we love, no matter how much we try. Only you
prove what is really meant to be.
In the in-between give Us strength to just be where we are supposed to be
during the process of life. Be with our children or granddaughter and all
those whose parents forgot.
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Weekend Services: @New Life Christian Church
Sunday 9:45 am service 11/03/2019 we are doing
the book of James and the message on Taming the Tongue
We do not own rights to the worship we are
covering but hope you are blessed by the service
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Date: 11/02/2019 Saturday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
https://youtu.be/CdjRmM0Q0qs “By
Your Side” @ Tenth Avenue North
Verse of the Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== 1 Peter 2:9 (NIV) ==== But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Psalm 116:5-7 (NIV) ==== 5 The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. 6 The Lord protects the unwary; when I was brought low, he saved me. 7 Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.
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Ephesians 5:20 (NIV 20 always
giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus
Christ.
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Isaiah 30:15 (NIV) ==== 15 This is what the
Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of
Israel, says: “In repentance and rest is your salvation, in
quietness and trust is your strength,
but you would have none of it.”
but you would have none of it.”
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Joel 1:13 (NIV) ==== [ A Call to Lamentation
] Put on sackcloth, you priests, and mourn; wail, you who minister before the
altar. Come, spend the night in sackcloth, you who minister before my God; for
the grain offerings and drink offerings are withheld from the house of your
God.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Abba, Lord, Jesus, Yahweh! Your name goes on and on; but
only those who truly give themselves to you and hold onto the ride of their
lives will ever come to know the love and peace only you bless us with from
beginning to end.
Thank you for every second of every day you allow me up to find purpose and
new opportunities despite all my shortcomings.
We are truly blessed as there are 24 hours everyone gets in any one
day. Breaking that down there are 60 minutes in each hour and 60 seconds
in each minute. Giving us 86,400 seconds of opportunity in any given day
we are allowed up.
For those given a full year of 365 days that is 3,15,36,000 seconds we are
allowed air in our lungs, and abilities to be, see you and all you have made us
in you to be Jesus.
It does not take someone super smart to find the answers in you or how to
find how many seconds we are given each day you allow us up.
You give us what we need, if we can only believe and those who believe hold
on through all the hills and valleys that this life roller coaster takes us on.
Yet most days we forget and lose who we are as we walk this journey.
We become entangled chasing the idols that others make; or running and hiding
while accepting and living as the labels the world says we must own.
Be it we never really knew who we were supposed to be because we were molded
and scarred before every having our own chance to really find ourselves in you;
or what we choose and started out as meaningful and good; that eventually
consumes us.
What once was that shining light of hope full of energy and passion to share
the goodness of what our God has allowed us to understand finding the light out
of what many will only see as darkness.
Sometimes, even that light meant to shine boldly allowing it to lead us and
others along the way.
Sometimes even it gets to be so bright and we lose sight and what once
was once beautiful and healing; turns into that fire burning us out; burning us
up.
It does not matter where we come from; God loves us all right where we
are; right where we once were and always, even when we do not hold tight to him
and his promises. Even when we stumble or are trying to find our own way
yet are trapped in the world we were spawned.
No matter, how often many find themselves trying to escape from life. No
matter how often or who you step up to help when they ask; it just wears you
down when they just keep going back and ending up repeating the same
unfortunate sickness, choices, or sickness because of choices.
Lord not everyone can handle this life; many purposely hide behind a mask;
be it true anxiety and fear because they won’t commit to you or just what
started out as a bad choice and now the demon’s habit has taken over.
It’s not about sometimes things just happen.
Please be with those who cannot even be for themselves; I know they must ask
you Jesus; hear these unspoken prayers for all in need including that of my
blood line.
Even for what was once a blessing for some that has turned into what they
feel as a luxury furnace slowly suffocating and burning up.
Or others who were scarred long before they were able to walk always trying
something and fighting for direction or that helping hand to God.
Life can be filled with so much; sometimes we forget or never even give it
thought as we go forward or just stuck spinning in the same vicious
cycle; Even those who have been blessed that struggle as they too
try to step up and step out leading the way for others seeking something
better through Christ. We are all leading by example; be it
we choose, or we just do. For every sound that comes out of our
mouths, every person, place, thing or lifestyle we allow our littles to be
exposed to or withheld from. We are all leading by example.
Sometimes many will not even acknowledge they are leading the way.
However, that never changes the fact that someone is always watching.
Someone is always looking up wanting to be like who is in the
lead.
While others just want to keep it simple and breathe; fighting to find a way
while trapped within the world they know; Never knowing what they feel, even
when they are filled with love; they just to be themselves and not wanting to
deal with reality or to disappoint those that have done their best before them.
Be it fighting the way out or fighting the way in the reality of how harsh
this journey can be.
All of us are out here in this vast world trying to make it somewhere!
We all have something that drives us. However, few will choose God to
be the ultimate leader; some will choose too late while even those who have
walked with Him all their lives will be consumed by what the world says we need
to be, do or say. Worse yet, those that fall to the whispers
of Satan and the masks he puts in front of us that somehow make us think we can
do this world, and, in the end, it ultimately does us.
Never for any is it ever been written or promised to be easy, free of
trials, torment or what the world sees as tragedy.
We all have been given the ability to choose.
Even if we do not choose the right path and it ultimately brings hurt,
habits and hang-ups that rob us from who God ultimately wants us to be.
We are all blessed by the seconds we are given. What we do
with the choice we make is up to us; even the bad ones that do not take us
out. The results like a tsunami always comes; good or bad; there is
always consequences and results.
Even for me, be it when we are blessed through the messes; we make of life
with choices; blessings beyond more than I can describe. Or
falling miles short of those sometimes our best intentions and big heart that
leads us directly into destruction or realization with that one more lesson or
message to share from a mess made. Let’s face it
sometimes we just do not know; what we do not know! Other times we
know exactly maybe a little late, but we know of everyone who knew and was
part.
This life is so full of riddles; Oh, how God is in control of everything and
we have to know our limitations, our boundaries. Yet even when we know
them; we forget and take off in live like we got this.
At what point should we get that electric shock from the invisible collar
from God; to remind us here are earth and especially without him; we are not
invincible.
When we play with Satan’s toys in his sandbox; there is no promise
you will make it out alive, out without eternal suffering, or out at all.
Even those that wait too late and suffer for years before they are taken.
What about those who suffer for those suffering?
I have seen so many beautiful souls lost over my time and even these past
two years. Lost at the hands of evil brutally tortured and
destroyed taking the life they were given and burned alive.
Lost to that one more fix as Satan played with their mind convincing them
they had nothing so just do it.
Lost with no agenda of bad feelings; just trying to escape a world they no
longer felt was their own and they were just trying to find that one place of
euphoria to allow them to forget what they did not know how to handle.
Lost at the hands of Satan because they were out there trying to find a
love; they just never were given, so they gave themselves away over and over
trying to be filled up with only that which God could provide.
Staying obedient, staying positive forging forward; trying to hold onto that
moral compass that many now days do not even know what it is.
Trying to maintain respect and loyalty.
What is this place we call the world we live in?
Where some sell their babies for their fix and they end up in dumpsters
never allowed a life that God wanted for all.
Who are we?
We who make and chase the idols of this world. We who think they need
more to matter.
Robbing ourselves by all that is temporary; robbing others because we steal
their lives by forcing them to be idols. Yes, it is a
choice and risk when we step out into this world. Yes, we all have our
own choices.
At what point do we continue to force and take from others who are blessed
to shine for us?
What happens for those who have it all yet have nothing?
How many are smiling on the outside yet broken and screaming inside?
How many have to go before us; sharing their laughter and smile and all they
are until one day they have nothing left and we read about them in the
news?
We all have demons we fight with on the inside; be it wanting just to
breathe, to live, to feel, to be loved, to matter, to not feel so broken and
sad while still being able to make everyone around them think they are
okay.
How many really do know to whom they belong?
How many truly know and want to know Jesus is real; and died so we could be
with him and live?
How many truly have that fake smile on the outside while Satan whispers
every step of the way and they know they are good; and will take so many with
them?
How many more will be lost unknowingly; that have stepped into Satan’s den
and will be exposed to the living hell only God can heal and take away?
How many are crying for God to close pandora’s box and redirect all that we
now crave, dream or desire?
Does it matter of the numbers; for even just one soul lost is one too many!
We are all going through something in this world.
As life in the here and now; well it is, what it is until it is not!
Perspective is everything with every second we are given.
No one can make our choices for us; no one can fix us; no one can close that
cover or door to the box we allow to open; No one but God!
We can take allot of detours, picking up those thinking and going through
similar circumstances in this walk. Or we can jump on their
bandwagon and try to believe someone in this world has all the answers that
will make us feel what we are missing. We can thrive by giving all we got
to help those who playing ourselves out. Because no matter how much we
care or want to be acknowledged for our caring. Only God is the one that
can really make a difference.
We can say, do, sacrifice; live and even die for someone in this world; and
it is all lost for the nothingness that was never supposed to be.
It is only God that can help us; if we allow him and believe!
Only God can help us back up and help push pandora’s
door closed. Allowing us healing, strength and
courage. He already knows what we are running to or running from.
He knows the deception you have allowed yourself or used towards or with
others.
There is no favoritism in this war. Be it that friend you
grew up with and married; or your child; even a stranger you pass or the person
you sit next to you every day.
Only God knows who they are! This world has many path’s; and
many choices to survive; to fully live. Perspective is different
for every soul. Before you start looking weirdly around you and
judging or trying to understand what or why something is happening.
Ask the question, how well do you really know yourself?
Not what your talents have made you to be; not anything you personally have
made; not the clothes on your back; not the beautiful being on your arm you
call your husband or wife, boyfriend or girlfriend; not even the children you
were blessed to procreate.
Not the comfortable, first-class trips to unbelievable scenic places; or
even that of those in shanty shacks and dirt floors.
Not the chemicals you consume to numb the pain you want no one to see; not
the risqué behavior that gives you that thrill allowing you that brief moment
of euphoria. Not taking a husband, or wife and sneaking
around behind them when they are not present. Not the
enjoyment you find in playing your favorite instrument or playing out another
human being.
All of which and so much more of this world that is temporary.
It is only God, that gives truth of love from the inside out, strength to
keep fighting forward and an indescribable peace in all the storms of this
life. The God who gave his only son Jesus Christ to come live;
suffer; hang on the sacrificial cross so we all could have life in and with
him.
This world will someday be gone and all that is within it.
Only God knows the day we are to be born and the day we will pass to the next
realm. As only He knows when he is coming back. Even if some of us
want him now.
Only God knows you and if you will spend eternity in the heavens waiting for
all of us.
Or if anyone of us will be cast out or lose ourselves here in this world,
before we truly see him face to face.
We all have to believe in something; be it we do our best and stay with God
every one of those seconds we are given; or those who mock and play in the
world.
Just remember even Satan was an angel before he was cast out into the pit of
hell torture and torment forever. Even Satan among many
were once saints and servants to God’s kingdom. Before they
choose to rebel and were cast out and are now among the fallen angels.
There will always be even those, who even after God sent his only Son to
give us life; Jesus Christ that will fall and be cast out even today.
My question; despite all the temptations and mistakes we will make in this
journey. Knowing in the end that only God has the final judgement.
Only God knows when, where, or how he will take us and where we will end up.
If we know this, and we know what Hell on earth can be Why
would we not continue to fight the good fight forward; purposing to know Jesus
closer?
Hoping and believing even if we are wrong in this world but finding
peace and love in Him now. Why would we give up, why would we risk where
we spend eternity?
This mind! I have to believe. We all believe in something.
Are you aware just by those few seconds or moments you come and go when
talking to your life partners, your children, your friends, your family; that
all could be at any given time struggling with the demons within?
Some truly do not feel loved, welcomed, like they really should be a part of
having everything; like they need to get out of the nothingness they were born
into.
Some may not have choices and they think it just is what it
is. Be it the good or bad behavior or what our perspective is of
what is acceptable or not.
Even those who may never know they too have choices to meet Jesus right
where they are.
Everyone has that opportunity any day they are allowed up to change
everything forever.
Just as those who have known Jesus their entire life that grew weak and
weary and may have opened pandora’s box no longer able fight the cravings and
the choices that consumed them.
Those prideful unable to ask for help from those who can lift us up; or
really help guide us making the difference of life or death. Those
who suffer in silence because they do not anyone to find out and see them as
human and truly in need of our savior right where they are.
Lord I will never understand myself; for what I get into or why so
much goes into the depths of this soul to come out for others to read. I
am confident only you God knows, and I believe you have a plan for even me; no
matter what today looks like or yesterday was or was not.
For we all are given our seconds and we all have freedom of choice for each
one given.
We all have the ability to be present and make a difference and
sometimes we all will suffer because no matter what we tried to save them; God
had other plans.
We all have love and adoration for someone or something; that breaks our
hearts or even consumes us. We all have greater purpose
on this earth through all that is or is not!
For sure, all of us are meant for more by the creator of the heavens; all of
us are meant for that human contact and ability to grow forward.
Everyone has a story; everyone; everyone has perspective gives or has been
given a worldly label. In this game of life what we all must know
when all is said and done on this earth; none of us are getting out alive!
No matter where our hearts are entangled; no matter on top of the mountain
or deep in the valley’s. At the time designated by the great
author; we will stand before Jesus for eternal love and redemption or to be
cast into the pits of hell.
It does not matter if we are really serving the God of all the heavens here
and now with what we are blessed here and now. It does not matter
that we are really good at the games being something in the light but once
walking behind closed doors showing the true colors of the heart that beats us
into life.
None of us start out lost; but we do start out headstrong and stubborn;
pushing our limits for our own freedom of will, that has been
given.
We learn young, how to get what we want; mask or react to all that hurts us;
when we think we deserve something and think we are entitled.
Even those who have blessed to really know God for themselves and not just
because it was something we have to do in honor of our families if we have
family; in honor of that special friend we do not want to lose.
Even those at any given point forget with the heaviness of this
world of what really matters and just how wonderfully and temporary we are
made; and what we are made for by our great God.
That same God that created the universe that knows everything about us; the
same God that wants us to come to Him faithfully and wants us to know him
closer and deeper than anything that can or will ever transpire in this
world. Allows us that freedom of will and choice to run away or run
towards Him.
We all bleed the same; even when we have our own perspectives or reactions
to life that happens. We all hurt and are angered about
things we will never take time to fully let go or understand.
We all so easily can find ourselves not hearing those silent whispers that
draw us to what masks the hidden battles within. Until the howls of
brokenness bringing us back to reality make us realize life is changed forever.
Before we give up with the false limitations as we can do all things through
Christ our king.
Before we become part of the Lamentations story and hear the howls of
brokenness.
We All regardless of our choices belong to God and can choose at any given
time to cry out to Jesus right where we are. Or walk in the shadows
the rest of the days given in this world.
Judge not; we all believe in something and we all must do what it takes to
survive and protect our own that was given temporarily. In the end
God wins; because we all belong to Him anyway.
I do not know what is next in this life roller coaster that sometimes leaves
me hanging too long I start bleeding out from my soul.
I do dare you always to be your own person and go face down and cling to the
creator of all the heavens, stars and moon. All of who we are and
can be. When life is hard; seek God praying harder through Jesus.
Know the temptations will always come; Pandora’s box opened for one scheme
closed later will turn into another and another. Sure, you
can say life is short it is okay to do what is wrong; or that you can forge
your way through; your way on your own.
We were never made to do this life on our own.
Sometimes we are in a place in the here and now we are not surrounded
by God’s chosen; we are not surrounded by those we can truly trust, or it is
not our time yet.
Just do not settle just because; do not give in or give up
Do not settle for what is temporary; it is hard I know this firsthand; I try
not to judge or cut people out of my life; but sometimes we have to in order to
stay close when we truly know where our help comes from.
We are all broken, and all fall short! Only Jesus can help us
through when time stands still, and we are still here breathing.
When you realize that your mind has strayed away from God; do not be
surprised as this world has massive distractions and even more empty promises.
When you know you are present with the father; through the storms and the
blessings. Give thanks and fight the good fight to never let go.
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Date: 11/01/2019 Friday
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com):
Verse of the
Day (Biblegateway.com):
==== Ephesians 1:18 (NIV) ==== I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,
Meditation Moment Opportunities (Biblegateway.com):
==== Philippians 4:19 (NIV) ==== And my God will meet all your needs according to
his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
==== Romans 8:33-34 (NIV)==== 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has
chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one
who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to
life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.
==== Hebrews 4:14-16 (NIV)
==== Jesus the Great High Priest
14 Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has
ascended into heaven,[a] Jesus the Son of
God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15 For
we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses,
but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did
not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace
with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our
time of need.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Jesus, and for this new day; for this
new month ahead and all the opportunities for life ahead.
None of us are promised tomorrow.
However, it is the today’s that you acknowledge each moment we progress towards
and with you. You are fully aware of all our shortcomings and all those demons
or skeletons in the closet that we all put on those brave faces smiling
sometimes and sometimes not. When we take that deep breath before
we go present in front of a crowd or just stepping out each day.
You are fully aware when we are distracted, hurting, or spending even a second
with you. To you it all matters, and the victory is when we realize
and triumph in even the little victories with you Jesus.
This world was designed in a way that there will
always be issues, hurdles and distractions. There will always be those in
love and desire to walk with you Father God; and then there will always be
those the world sucks in.
Then you have those that have gotten entangled in
the messes and distractions of the world; Those who were just trying to find
that get away and were consumed by the hurts that became habits and lost their
physical being here and now. You have those who think
they do not believe in anything and have their own weird anomalies and Hang-ups
how they deal with the day to day in this world.
Then you have those for whatever reason you can
look right through their eyes and there is no soul. Those that find great
pleasure in all the negative harmful things this world can conjure up; those
who mock and slander all you are Jesus.
You Love them all Father God. This is
true. You love each and every one of the souls you allowed to come
alive in this world; even when we all get so lost and paralyzed at times and
cannot love ourselves.
You Abba, know who and what we are all made of
even when we do not know ourselves. Just as you love every second
of any moment, we find our way to you as you pray for us to cling to you
through all the trials.
Jesus, we do not need to pray for what you already
know out of expectations. But out of that in what is pure truth,
faith and hope knowing regardless you are with us!
We are all the broken puzzle pieces of this worlds
puzzle. What we do daily becomes that giant chess game with the Kings,
Queens, Rooks and Knights and so many pawns.
Playing out on one universal sticky
bun. Dealing with the bitter and sweet moves and how to get to the
next place holder, rank or even ultimate check mate.
Many are far better at the games than others; many
will never play and some just find themselves playing at the wrong time.
Yet you Jesus are the ultimate game changer!
Nothing touches anyone of your children without
passing through your hands first. ==== Isaiah 64:8 (NIV) ==== Yet you, Lord,
are our Father. We are the clay; you are the potter; we are all the work
of your hand.
You already know our moments of weakness, the
howls of a broken heart when loss is so heavy, we crumble to the
floor. You already know who will be in the front lines and who will
be tormented by those trying to break them. You already know who will
shine and reflect your love and who will be tested the most breaking
beautifully in the hands that bore the nails.
In our weakness Lord may we know you are the only
saving grace; may we never stop seeing ourselves being held by you alone.
May all the dreams of your children shine brightly
and reflect in all the blessings you allow them; no matter what Jesus may it be
your will that matters and not of this world. Yes, we must follow
the rules and walk in morality, dignity and love ourselves as you intended for
us; just as we must love all who we connect.
Father God, if you bring us through it; lead us in
your will how to shine so others may find their way to you.
Forgive me Jesus, for my inequities and all that I
lack in my own abilities; forgive me for ever thinking you have forgotten me;
as each and every piece of shattered pieces of this life that you have given me
back have meaning. Forgive me in my weakness and thinking I
deserve something more; when in the end none of us deserve a thing.
Show me who you want me to be; reveal who you want
me to be with; guide all my words, actions and deeds in your will.
Forgive me for all I have been hurt and angered by wishing and wanting
justice. Show me my way through the waves that will always come and the
direction necessary to remain moral, responsible and not grow tired giving up
in this place I am.
Please forgive others have done me wrong by
accident or intentional. Your will be done in all situations.
May the love you fill me with never stop running
over onto all I connect; may those I hold deep within this soul truly know your
blessings. No matter what transpires; may the Love of God and
all that was created shine in Jesus perfect will.
Thank you for this day of new promises, new
perspectives and new life. For me, my blood, my friends, and all my
connections.
Lord one last thought and awareness. We make
idols they do not make themselves. We turn those who are doing your good
works into idols stealing their life and stealing their peace.
Love and relationships of all kinds
is so very hard. But is there not a way to show the love and
respect without stealing one's life?
For my children and grandchildren and all those
that look up to me. None of us are perfect we all have weaknesses, and
all make mistakes. But always do your best and think about the
choices you are going to make. Just doing what your friends and connections
are doing to be part of something that later will cost you everything can never
be undone.
For that you release of
wild thoughts, immoral behavior and just carefree disregard; unleashing such
thoughts for a brief moment of what you think is fun as the devil whispers in
your ear making it so appealing. Go ahead it's okay, no one will find
out, it’s just this once; it will be okay. Just know once
released; the life will be sucked out of you as you know it and never be the
same. That is the truth. (@AlwaysMeKelly)
====1 Corinthians==== But you must be careful so that your freedom does not cause others with a weaker conscience to stumble.
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Springhill Saturday 6pm service 11/02/2019; we are doing the book of James and
the message on Taming Tongue. We do not
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