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Every day you are up - Every day you inhale. Every day you have something to complain or be ecstatic about. Every day is a day to be thankful for something; we are all a work in progress. Every day is an opportunity to write your story! What will yours be?
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September 30, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Philippians 1:9-10 (NIV) And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ,
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Matthew 6:34 (NIV) 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
John 10:10 (NIV) 10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and have it to the full.
James 4:13-15 (NIV) Boasting About Tomorrow
13 Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” 14 Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15 Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day. As I am up and down all night with things churning wondering what it will take to heal some and thinking of those, I could never help and all the twists and turns the mind sometimes is filled by whispers in the dark.
Thinking of those who were so beautiful and talented yet lost forever; thinking of those near and even those far.
Praying for the souls of my own bloodline and that they find peace within the pureness of you which they hold. The faith within they cannot see; and watching them is like watching them drown because the refuse to swim.
For all the others, gone but never forgotten as we just learn to let go never understanding why those who have everything still entangle themselves and take the very thing that matters most from those who have little. Trust, respect hope in what is good. The collateral damages left behind in this world be it our polluted oceans from lack of humanity caring; to ravaged lands for natures anger to just those trying to shake off the latest violation of those they put their faith and beliefs in the most.
Addictions or loneliness that misleads the souls over time. That tsunami wave of results wiping out all in its path as they run ahead thinking they are burying that affair they had as they are paying off the demons that are in their head. Not caring of all they destroy along the way. Broken truths layer the souls riddled with choices. Where most times they cannot get out of their own way and only see the negativity filled with I Can’t while others sour past at the expense of the bloodied steps they climbed.
Looking out from within, you see victory every now and again. Jesus is prevailed in that one being knowing the strength and courage of climbing up and out is not about me or you; but the promise of fulfillment and that someday-eternal glory land.
The world and its temporal strife for the games people play realizing not the consequences in the end will truly be their downfall for all the misdeeds and pains they cause along the way. Yet until they feel the burn of yesterday’s gone by, all they have is what eats them alive as they stalk the darkness seeking a sign to know if the world has found out yet. As they know, playing games with other is nothing they will ever be able to forget. At least when they never started out with this purpose, but life sped off getting out of hand like a rocket or jet. They never had intended is the one sure bet!
Heartbreaking to want just a connection something pure be with everything or nothing. Knowing from the start you were never what would be.
Yet you play along until you run out of pieces to contribute and like a spoiled child they throw you and all that was broken, tossed out to the wind as if you never existed, their intentions for no one ever to find out or see. Their little posse full of misguided loyalties shall burn down with the flames of hell in the end truly.
For you the scars do come with living, as do the consequences of our choices. Like the seasons change you have no control of what next. You just ready for the storms knowing who has you in all things.
Unfortunately the broken pieces although beautifully blessed that they are back together; the wall and distortion for what humanity could have been is blocked and never to be seen the same way again.
The authority of survival, which must stand true to all you never planned but deep inside, just knew. As the seasons, change soon the winter snow will come and the frozen bonds of yesterday will all be but gone as you seek the warmth all you can do is cling to the God of hope mercy and grace. For yesterday’s will never be forgotten but never again be within your time or space.
Reminded to not worry about tomorrow forget the distractions future concerns or even the pain of those lost lessons of trust that you were burned. Remaining with all your energy focused on God as He alone will carry you through and train you up.
It will be the many; it will be the few; it will not matter if any do. You know what is real, what was they and who is you. Most importantly, you know “His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness” 2 Peter 1:3(NIV)
For today, you were given, so remember who is in charge and keep doing your best, keep on living. Prayers of redemption, love honor and reconciled forgiveness. No harm no foul in life they call it just business. All the while, you desire, wish, want just for purity to last for more than that split second or ten minutes.
Oh, this mind maze toils and foiled on daily grains; knowing who is in charge and you eventually will get past the sadness and pains. As it has never been about you no matter how broken you have become; no matter how stained. It is our Lord and Savior who ultimately has and will always carry your burdens and all the pain. So never stop looking up; there is beauty in everything. A word, a song even that misdeed. Give it all to the maker for He holds all powers to be. Stay close watch and see.
For reality came in the death and disbelief within humanity so for this the hardest part to let go for the final round. When you realized even those who play for the crowd are the greatest pretenders around fooling even themselves to what matters. Not when, not why. But just how.
Do what you must to save your soul; for in life you will forever bare that cross until it is rectified with Father God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost.
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Well September tis the end of the day and like many it has been a roller coaster ride making me realize and continually remember just how much I need Jesus in my life minute by minute.
It’s not just the hurts, habits or hang-ups that cause me to bleed out; or that of what I allow others to do to my spirit by trying to just be me and remain a good person. For I am far from perfect. I can go from zero to yup that mean person in 60 seconds or less. I am constantly wandering in this mind maze and yes even some days imagining how to line em up. All that have done me wrong.
I know life is what it is; as I know God will shake it all out. "I Choose to live by choice, not by chance; to make changes, not excuses; to be motivated, not manipulated; to be useful, not used; to excel not compete. I choose self-esteem, not self-pity. I choose to listen to my inner voice, no the random opinion of others." Author Unknown"
With that although my caring what happens to others with a living soul. Sure it gets me in over my head way too often. Sure, it breaks my heart daily and in some cases the scars will never heal. But I also know that the God above has made me for far more that what this world will ever give or take.
Sure, I have never looked at the world with rose color glasses; nor will I ever be able to look at some that I loved and admired for what seems to be a lifetime without pity. Will I take what they say or do towards me personally. To maintain safety absolutely. But life is more than anything about me and certainly far more than anything or others.
Life is Love, Honor, Respect for self and all others. So as third quarter comes to a close; its just business. File it all away; own and grow forward what can be; file what needs to be and keep pushing forward as God awaits the light to shine on.
Is it hard; oh, hell yes! Weary, broken, battered in this life does not even come close to describing what this world can do. Then watching others, you desperately love and care for and just want them to believe and succeed and they cannot get out of their own way.
Kind of leaves me really pissed off for when those who do have it together decide to chip pieces away with their deception. More so it's not just you they are doing this everywhere they go. So you cut the ties, report the lies, and give it all to the man upstairs and keep looking up high.
No, I have not lost my mind; my words my rhymes they are my lifeline. Most any day most any time.
For the Lord above knows why.
So, thank you for all these lessons in life and who not to believe in or why. Tomorrow starts brand new. It's a tough road ahead for many, for me for the one reading, yup you! But don't give up, don't give in.
Only God knows and if he gets you up tomorrow; all brand-new adventures await to start all over and do better with Him.
No words or deeds can come between; the God who saves and those who truly believe.
Unfortunately, no matter what; things in life come a dime a dozen and no matter how broken or annoyed I may get. I wish I could hate; but that is not what God has allowed my heart to participate.
Laughter, tears, lies or cheers are worth nothing if we do not feed them with time.
So here we go God; I have stumbled, falling hard, but I am up you know this. Brushed off and forever indebted to you Jesus. As I brush off taking a drink from your cup; it is you that will forever fill me up.
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September 29, 2019
09/29/2019 New Life Christian Church – Spring Hill 9/29/2019 9:45am service this weeks sermon is on the New Worldwide church. We do not own the rights to worship we are covering but I hope you enjoy it. Have a blessed Sunday and week ahead. https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2467971396628675/?t=11
Verse of the Day:
John 3:20-21 (NKJV)
For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.”
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Psalms 34:4-7 (NIV) 4 I
sought the Lord, and he answered
me; he delivered me from all my fears. 5 Those
who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with
shame. 6 This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all
his troubles. 7 The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.
2 Peter 1:16-17 (NIV) 16 For
we did not follow cleverly devised stories when we told you about the coming of
our Lord Jesus Christ in power, but we were eyewitnesses of his majesty. 17 He
received honor and glory from God the Father when the voice came to him from
the Majestic Glory, saying, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well
pleased.”[a]
John 17:3 (NIV) 3 Now
this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ,
whom you have sent.
Psalms 139:14 (NIV) 14 I
praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful; I know that full well.
your works are wonderful; I know that full well.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Father God, for this day and all that has come to pass; I am blessed more than I could have ever imagined or dreamed so many years ago.
With life, with love, with laughter; it has not been easy by far.
In fact, I have learned so many lessons over this journey but one that has stuck for my life time; I will and I have never done life on my own.
I am nothing without you and see few and far between to know the truth when I do not walk with you. Yes, I have worked hard and achieved much even before I openly started walking with you Jesus. We all know it was because of your design that I was able to do so.
Just as those who have designed to care more than most with big hearts and layered up scars because we watch so much being taken advantage of; so many not believing in themselves; too many giving up and giving in to the negative dark things of the world.
Even those we know from the beginning are too good to be true but try to hold just a little piece of something real to make a difference. When in the end, well life just makes room for more to be allowed in while we forget the pains and the loss of what we could not make the difference for you Lord.
Yes, we all want something in return; love, kindness and that eternal connection to see things grow and spread like beautiful wildflowers in a vast meadow.
Realizing life is more like the desert with many cacti that continually stick us when we get too close.
So close that we cannot wrap our arms around it yet close enough so that once we know we are stuck we try back peddling yet are stuck as we bleed out while trying to heal from the poisons that seep into our veins.
Yet our Lord and Savior remind us of the beauty in all things of this world, just as the reminder that even some cactus produces beautiful flowers in the end.
So, what we must do is prayerfully give it back to you Lord and allow you to prune and eliminate or allow new buds to blossom and grow.
Walking with Jesus or without is a personal choice; knowing boundaries in people for your own expectations as well as theirs is a must. Do not allow yourself to stay in the desert so long you care not to leave your safe place. All the same do not allow yourself to believe half of what anyone tells you.
It is proven with historical movies, and writings there are even those that where the cloth to reflect God violate the very innocence of humanity as well as all that God stands for.
So why would a perfect stranger not satisfy and say what they want you to hear while they obtain what they selfishly seek after. For the same reasons even those we may have known since childhood would do the same to those who are family and /or love.
We all fall short by the glory of God and all His intended purpose and direction of a promise land.
Perhaps that is why those who really walk with Christ practicing obedience and doing their best will see all that is golden on the other side of forever in eternity.
It is our Sovereign Lord that is and always will be the same today, tomorrow and ever after. We here on earth go through so many mood swings and treat people based on how we feel 24/7. Sadly, how we feel depends on what we are seeking and receiving and / or when we are unable to; or worse yet when we are on the other end of someone forcing their expectations on us and discarding what is left of those used like trash.
But in life it happens; so, despite if you have been treated well or not. Do not sweat the small stuff; because there is always something bigger coming around the corner.
If you have set yourself up to what looks like a failure or failing point; know Gods got this.
Things may be harder than you think you deserve to downright not sure what you will do to survive. Believe in his forgiving abundant mercy and grace and pray for justices to be served on those who wronged you. Better yet we should be praying for everyone no matter what.
Giving thanks in all the storms no matter how easy or hard.
How we should all try remembering if you cannot be good stewards of little; if you cannot appreciate even the air you breathe. Why would anyone deserve something more?
Sure, I have had my fill where I have done great things and wiped any blessings out with the push of a button; or the belief in a soul I was connected.
That does not mean the good Lord cares any more or any less of me. In fact, He draws me closer as he knows I need Him more than I need anything of this world and even thou I walk in the valley on any given day. I am only here by His grace and prayerfully he will allow me to keep walking it through until my babies are grown. But if not, I know paradise awaits.
My family hates when I talk about the fact I have seen much in this world; not the best of everything I am sure. But the good and bad in much; people are people; and we all fall short.
For me each day you Jesus allow me up; I will continue to try and grow forward. For the days I am unable I pray you have mercy on my soul.
Please be with me to lead those who are always watching; please guard my heart, lead my steps and hold my tongue. For I know what easily could change someone forever. I am a product of those who cared not.
Despite it all; blessed never surrendering never giving up. Even now as I am weary some days more than others.
It is your will I must continue towards in hope and prayer someone will eventually be waiting on the other side when it is time to pick me up.
Thank you for all I have been; all I will be and all I am. Just me Kelly beautifully broken and fully aware of how blessed I truly am. Knowing how many will never get a chance to know you and never deserved anything that transpired evil towards them. Thank you for this awareness, thank you for this day and this life.
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September 28, 2019
Verse of the Day:
1 Corinthians 2:14 (NIV) The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Truly humility does cure worldliness when you are a believer you so tire easily of all the noise or static that is meaningless. So much so that if you do not stay focused you lump every poor soul you connect with in the same unforgiving bucket.
So reminded in my late night where again at almost dawn I found myself capturing things and then devotional mediation times this morning again.
As these past couple months give me great awareness, I had been so caught up not paying attention in the blessings that I had been given for me to continue to shine on; I allowed 2019 to take a turn south. Now yes, I have no control over life events and let’s just say is how I have a tendency to bury me in helping others when life gets heavy.
Feeling the heaviness and loss of family, friends, and pets to age, circumstance and just they gave up on themselves so long ago they never had a chance to find their way back. Watching people, you love hurting and there is nothing you can do. Seems to be something I have seen too often over the years causing me to just keep trying to make a difference somewhere.
Yes, when you walk or connect with the least of these you become venerable even if you think you have it together. One of the reasons you are warned to stay in the light with clean hands and pure hearts.
No, I have not slipped and given anything to Satan except may be continual prayers in the battlefield for protection and guidance of what do I do next and protection for all I love and care for.
But I did make my life much hotter than it needs to be allowing myself to stay in one place helping a little too long. Believing in someone and something that really was not.
Causing reality and humility hitting so hard, like a sledge hammer that reminds us none are exempt when we think we can handle it even with prayers, signs we must have boundaries and someone to physically keep us accountable not to be sucked in by others schemes lies or ploys.
Foolish hearts no matter what you feel or see; each and every one of us should be responsible, accountable for our own steps to heal and get through reconciling the results of choices we make.
Be it the marriage that you forgot to stay connected and communicate and one of you or both stepped out to someone else; the drugs you take to sustain and get you through your grueling days so you can continue to have people look at you like an idol while you know God is the only thing anyone should see. Or even the great hustles you get caught up in to line your own pockets because you are too selfish to get up and really appreciate what it means to work for what you have. What about those who foolishly believe they are making a difference for those who really matter.
Misguided, misaligned good intentions gone wrong plague this world and allow the army of darkness to invade you and your space and you never even realize they are there until you are connected, and the damage is under way.
Knowing what it is like to just want to matter, God reveals His is the truth, the light and the only way that matters. Though we should not turn our backs to the world we need to walk that tight rope. Balancing all that Jesus stands for with what should we really be saying, doing or being in this world.
When we slip; what happens next is within the hands of God. No fancy trips will make it go away where we get to run off into the wilderness and try to be something we are not; pretending what is was not and what is not is.
No meltdowns you know those adult tantrums or bullying trying to force your need is greater than mine to have life will do.
Knowing how good the words were there are no expectations just pure factual truths; even if you really wanted to believe everything was really going to make a difference. Yet that day really did come you could no longer willingly serve the purpose they were using you for and they for the first time spoke the truth how they used what was once their friends, their status and the brokenness of their minds while using you to feed their addictions and wave of bad choices.
That is what we do in this world right; use people, places and things up and keep trading them in for the next version to feed whatever it is that has you hungry.
Me feeding the need to help others to make my ego rest and feel worth something; knowing it is what it is until it is not. However right wrong or indifferent, I will never go down without a fight or that white flag above my door. “White Flag” https://youtu.be/j-fWDrZSiZs @Dido
Yes, being the bride of Christ for longer than I even knew; I am forever in love and what is in this soul belongs to the keeper of all things not me.
Walking with God and the moral compass reflects a must to continue to do the best I can for what is right. If that means making sure no harm comes to anyone else it is for God himself to align the justices and for me to hold tight, true and keep getting up every moment I am blessed.
Though it is hard when you have all or nothing mentality; where humility is the only humbling growth for what is good. You never stop praying; for those immediately near your heart and all others. No matter what you see, no matter who they think they really are, but you know they are no better or worse than anyone in this universe. They just have not yet been exposed for the sins they walk with; while your transparency is bleeding out all over the path of righteousness in loss, bittersweet yesterday’s flogging no better tomorrows.
For the same God who holds the universe owns the outcome so it is not about doubts what will come next; it is when, or why.
While all the beauty that rises with the sun fills your days with second by second new opportunity you pray your way through; thankful for the mercy and grace no one deserves however, you are allowed to #GrowForward all the while you scurry to put all the collaterals back into place be it damaged or not. You give them all back to God and pray your turn is finally here for pure Agape love. That love that silences all the noise of what was, all the noise of wants or thoughtful would of, should of and even could of. If only!
Jesus reminds you always as he softly whispers “Lean On Me” https://youtu.be/7Cj5uYlwp6o @Kirk Franklin
The best we can do is live through Jesus as today will be our last day and love every single thing along the way; praying that He shakes out all that is dark, and unjust giving us strength along the way. Knowing we are all in Him and He in us as we think we are finished for those who hold on realize we are just “Gracefully Broken” https://youtu.be/FP9FYyYso8o @Tasha Cobbs Leonard
It will never be who has the most; in fact, God uses the least of these more often than not with true meaning. You cannot serve money and fame and serve the God who parts the seas giving us life every moment you are allowed up.
Be accountable in redemption, correction and love. Know your boundaries for all that are good and never think you can fix anyone else or it is your job to fix any of their needs.
First they will never stand on their own they will continue to use up everyone that comes along; but they will also never be healed for what has gotten them there if they do not stand in and cleanse their own shadows to reflect the bright and bold beauty they truly are meant to be.
"Maybe Its Okay" https://youtu.be/hl5GcRrJLyw @we Are Messengers; You know it is okay to not be okay in Him; as with everything in this world is temporary and this too shall pass.
For there is nothing people, places or things can give you that define your worth and what you are truly meant to be. I know “Who You Say I Am” https://youtu.be/IcC1Bp13n_4 @HillSong
I know I am “No Angel” https://youtu.be/BEP_dPN3Haw @Gregg Allman
However, I also know I belong to something greater than I will ever see or be here in earth.
Reminded no matter what fails it is only Jesus who can do all things and will.
“Only Jesus Can” https://youtu.be/iBVzcN894tY @Vertical Worship
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
“Resist the devil in My Name, and he will slink away from you. Draw near to Me, and My Presence will envelop you in Love”. @Jesus Calling-Sarah Young
Ephesians 3:16-19 (NIV) 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Hebrews 4:14-16 (NIV) Jesus the Great High Priest
14 Therefore, since we
have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven,[a]
Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15 For
we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses,
but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did
not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace
with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our
time of need.
John 8:44 (NIV) 44 You
belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s
desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for
there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he
is a liar and the father of lies.
James 4:7-8 (NKJV) Humility Cures Worldliness
7 Therefore submit to God. Resist
the devil and he will flee from you. 8 Draw near to God
and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners;
and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
09/28/2019 New Life Christian Church – Spring Hill
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September 27, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Matthew 6:33 (NIV) But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Father God, thank you for never giving up on me, more importantly thank you for allowing me to recognize my need for you.
I cannot imagine who I would be or where I would be or even if I would; if not for your loving kindness and abundant grace.
Oh, this foolish heart and constant dreams of mine.
Always trying to plant something or do something better that I have no business even looking at.
Always having my eyes close and seeing from within that which is so much better than it truly is in this world. Coming out on the other side with more and more layers of blocks to be put up and dumping humanity into one bucket when it comes to truth.
Why is it that I can go years without being consumed and with one slip Pandora’s Box is wide open and I am once again trying to get out of the race that consumes this mind of mine.
I have always been so blinded to see the truth in people even when I can see right through them.
I would be nothing and am nothing without you Jesus. For as many times as you have pulled me from harm or directed me back to what really matters in this life. I am beyond grateful in which no words or deeds will ever be enough to repay all that you allow when each day I am given air in these lungs.
Please guide me in the way that means most to your will Father God. Not my own; as I am one step short of just giving in and burying all that you want from me. Lord for all that I am may I know what I do has meaning for you.
Life is full of harsh realities in which sometimes we lose focus worrying about things that should not really matter. Guide and direct my steps and my voice in your will.
I seek refuge for me and all that wish to be connected to you Jesus. I seek protection from all who do not for all who fill this heart of mine.
Allow me to be consumed by your beauty Father God and nothing more of this world. For a while now I have made other things a bit more important and as you know the depths of this soul. Please guide and direct all that is to be.
Thank you for this day. In your perfect in precious name please hear all that is unsaid.
Prayers for all struggling with addictions including those who are hiding it well with the help of others. May they be healed Father before it is too late and use all they have experienced in humility to grow your kingdom.
So many feel as they are trapped in the furnace that was given as a blessing; the vey vessels they walk within is the same they try to hide and peel away. Guide and protect all in your kingdom Father.
Give strength, courage and wisdom for all that is next; let your children who are trying not to be consumed.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Deuteronomy 33:27 (NIV)
27 The eternal God is your
refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.
He will drive out your enemies before you, saying, ‘Destroy them!’
He will drive out your enemies before you, saying, ‘Destroy them!’
Psalms 27:13-14 (NIV)
13 I remain confident of
this: I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
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September 26, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Hebrews 10:30-31 (NIV) For we know him who said, “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” and again, “The Lord will judge his people.” It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you, Jesus, for this new day even if I could barely make myself wake up today. Normally I am fighting for sleep; last night you took me places out of this world and barely found my way back to wake up. Thank you for the opportunity of this new day and all that may transpire.
Oh how I wish I got up to write all that was flowing out of this mind when I did wake; of course now I have already been up six hours and been zipping along at lightning speed in and out of various tasks and conversations that transpire out of my long days. For this mind is swirling today and so very tired of circling the wagon trying to regroup and figure things out. However always being one to say what is swirling; first I must say knowing one thing for sure; we never really know what tomorrow will bring.
Along with the fact, yes, we should help our brothers and sisters in Christ when they are falling short of moral values in themselves, or others doing things that lead to damaging the future of anyone or anything. Especially if it is affecting anyone directly.
However, if someone misleads us causing harm directly that is the business between you, him or her and whatever the proper channel to correct any fallout from the damage needing correction. Of course, do your best for prevention but then let go and let God.
For me I seek the best in everyone; I care not of who they are or where they come from; Generally, do not expect anything but not to be misled in word or deed. However, I have found over time in this world blessed to be in.
People just seem to be what feed the needs at the time and become something else driven if you will once they successfully get or even when they cannot get what they are chasing.
Sad but true I have been on the receiving end of others selfish ambitions. Moreover, no I will never say I too have not been a selfish person and throwing my fits along the way when things do not turn out how I desire.
Yet at no time have I ever before or during my walk with God have I purposely sought to not work for what I desire; or deceive anyone to get there. I am always me. Take it or leave it; I have nothing to impress anyone but the good Lord above.
If I am not good enough to where someone has to lie, cheat, steal or anything else to be connected. Then it should never be. We reap what we sow; I believe in karma his name is JESUS!
I may rarely get it right in my own mind’s eye or that of God. Nevertheless, for sure I do my best with what I have to work with. I am forever out there believing too much in people and always stepping up and stepping in to help or even at times trying to save something. All the while, I buried myself in a slow death of weighted down deceptions and lack of the boundaries I have taught others that they should always have.
I get it without any doubt. The walls of scars it has created over the years are abundant and some that seem they will never be removed. I have faith and hope in the one that has created the same moon and stars that just sit up above us without anything seen to hold them; is the same creator that holds my future and me.
No matter what I reflect to you; no matter what you reflect to me the only one that it will ever matter in the end is God.
Will your deception influence any future with me, why of course! Life is far too short to walk in the darkness forever when I am seeking the light now and for eternity.
If for whatever reason you cannot hold yourself with such respect and allow the contempt roll out like that tsunami wave to everything and everyone you encounter I wish to remain in my own little island and do what I can when I can wherever I can with God at the wheel.
Where does that leave me, some days very alone, yet not without busyness of cleaning up all the lessons that allowed me to find my way here.
Prayerfully I wish the best full of love to everyone and far be it for me to be considered a saint. I too with my foolish heart have made stupid choices that rippled through the wind with lasting impacts. It will never stop me from dreaming.
Where that ends up depends on faith, hope, love and whatever the good Lord allows. For today, the same God that holds the moon over the earth is the same God who holds the keys to all that I am heart and soul.
So, no matter if it is five seconds or one hundred years, five cents or one hundred thousand there will never be enough time or places to hide for the repayment that washes deceit away.
Whatever is in the dark eventually will stumble trying to hide the shadow that follows and once Gods good grace and light shines upon it; the redemption will begin be it we want it to or not.
So, for all who are deceived know this; we may feel the guilt and shame for our kindness or belief in those who truly matter. Or even that of what we have caused. God knows all things and His purpose and our hearts just as He knows all who play in Satan's sandbox in the dark and shine boldly in the light.
Forgive and let go and just live your best life you were given, learning from every step you were derailed. If the good Lord got you up and you have air in your lungs; there is so much more for you to do. Guard your hearts, hold your tongue and know the battle has already been won. If you are a child of God, you already have victory.
Know this; you are loved and valued more than you will ever know; you need not expect it from anything or anyone on this earth. If you find a trusting companion that believes in the good Lord and truly walks the walks and does not talk out both sides of their mouth. Give thanks and praise daily and honor what you have been given.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Isaiah 50:4 (NIV) 4 The
Sovereign Lord has given me a
well-instructed tongue,
to know the word that
sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning,
wakens my ear to listen
like one being instructed.
Isaiah 55:2-3 (NIV) 2 Why
spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not
satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and you
will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me;
listen, that you may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my
faithful love promised to David.
John 19:30 (NIV) 30 When
he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.” With that, he bowed
his head and gave up his spirit.
Matthew 27:50-51 (NIV) 50 And
when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his
spirit. 51 At that moment the curtain of the
temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook, the rocks split
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September 25, 2019
Verse of the Day:
1 John 2-1 (NIV) My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
As I am readying this morning to go do service representing my place of employment, I realize how blessed I am. Thankful for this day and all the other days in wonderment as in silence watching it unfold.
Knowing Jesus is not now in charge but has always been in charge. The Grandmaster with every second of every day; knowing your obedience truth and love all comes from and through Him and is the only way.
As it always has been and will again Father God, he will be the one who is bringing the curtain down. The game of life finally showing the timing beginning; you realize how each of us are a unique blend of temperament, with gifts and talents. Yet all do not serve the same values in life or within our souls. Even you are lost in time for the things you try so hard to prevent or save others from; you find you’re very self-entangled in the misfortunes of caring too much.
Blessed as you no longer ignore, run or hide rather just stand firm as you pull yourself back up. This time knowing it never was and never will be your place to try and save anyone of this earth again.
For the sting of death of those lost; the pains of brokenness that have torn your heart are all given to the very one who created your being in the first place.
Baby steps or giant leaps; brush off get up; do your best to not be hardened by the pretense of this world. Focus all your attention on the path ahead forget all others. If they are worthy the Lord will never put truth that is constant trying to impress others as His desires for you. Humanly it is so hard not to judge call out or just give up.
However, you know this battle may impede the physical world; it is already in the works spiritually. For this you know God has already won; it is up to you to just believe and never blowout the candle of hope you hold within.
For now, you run with the day never looking back doing all you can to hold on to all that matters knowing He has got you from before you were born to the end of your stay. For this you have to believe as there is no other way.
Knowing whatever will be; will be. For justice of humanity and all the violations or indiscretions; well the decisions are yet to come we just have to wait and see.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Psalm 23:4 (NIV) 4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Matthew 7:1-2 (NIV) Judging Others
7 “Do not judge, or you too will be
judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will
be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
Proverbs 29:25 (NIV)
25 Fear of man will prove
to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord
is kept safe.
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September 24, 2019
09/24/2019 Cruising with Kelly:
https://www.facebook.com/alwaysJustmeKelly/videos/2457746680984480/
Verse of the Day:
Hebrews 10:35-36 (NIV) So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Father thank you for allowing me up another day; thank you for the blessings and acknowledgement of what we do, who we do it with, or for and how we do things be it for people, places or things; that it all matters.
In a world full of judgment chasing material everything; we forget so often just, what our own worth is within your eyes.
May we all learn not to be collectors for what is important right at that second but treat all we care about with the love and appreciation that you created us to be and the worth in your eyes that we truly have.
Please be with those who are weary walking with you Father God; please lead us in your will and hear all who are reaching out and lead those walking for you to help others come to find you.
In Jesus Mighty name; thank you for we deserve nothing in this world. Amen
May we do the best you have made us for Jesus for “It’s Your Life” https://youtu.be/WuIvs3oc0X8 @ Francesca Battistelli
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Psalms 89:15-16(NIV) 15 Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you,
who walk in the light of your presence, Lord. 16 They rejoice in your name all day long;
they celebrate your righteousness.
Psalms 16:8 (NIV) 8 I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
2 Peter 1:2 (NIV) 2 Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Ignoring the deeper questions will never solve the issue; we hold on and become addicted to what we love because of feelings of failure and what happens when that love really was not real.
To know love is to know love from the inside out that never goes away. We can choose to shut it off, put it away, fill our days and nights with everything to preoccupy the facts. But when puts the connection within no matter how many times you put the "Picture" away it never removes what is put in the soul https://youtu.be/rKFx0MMqb48@Kid Rock (feat. Sheryl Crow)
The best you can do is remain obedient and know whatever the reason why God allows you to care all I can do is stand here "With Lifted Hands" https://youtu.be/7drEyGsF-Vo @Ryan Stevenson
It’s all I have left and the only thing that this world or all of anyone could ever take from me. For even if I lose my limbs, I am yours Father. No matter who I will never be or who will never be true and reflect physically the love from the inside only you know what it means.
For this I am grateful to know and have.
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September 23, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans 5:3-4 (NIV) Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you for this new day Father God!
As I am so aware and openly admit, I am in way over my head in this life. That cycle or roller coaster ride where we are cruising along and all is grand then we forget and put our hands out just briefly and like a discarded net into the ocean we find ourselves trapped in that slow almost derailed grind.
Thankfully, I know the fighter in me to keep this moving is you Jesus. The fighter in me is only you; as I subconsciously crawled up into a ball in that corner over there and refuse to move so long ago. So tired of doing things on my own; I cannot as anything I had in me without you was taken away so very long ago.
Lack of common sense, or just too hopeful wishing, wanting even perhaps even that dreamer mentality that I was accused of having so many years ago.
Who knows; other than there are three sides to every story it is all in the perspective of things.
There is Love; there is Forgiveness and there is just our Choices. Perhaps because of the choices, we make; we love and absolutely forgive. None of it really matters if we do not have you at the core.
All three are like reading your word in the Bible all day every day repeatedly; but never hearing what you are saying. Never seeing the plan, never making a plan of what do you want us to do. We never stay and listen fully before we just take off running thinking I got this.
Instead we just wander this earth thinking we understand and manage with the choices we make leaving us wide open for those meek and mild with such beauty and charisma. Later to find we have put too much of ourselves into believing the humanity side touches every living soul on this earth. However, there may be no intent of being the sheep in wolves clothing. The actions and brokenness left behind from all that are pretending to be loyal to you Jesus.
Wolves in Sheep’s clothing that come a dime a dozen in this world. You need not go anywhere they find you like a magnet always there in their hours their choosing.
As a parent, a friend, a soul with wanting to see the good in all things and trying to lead by example. You do your best not to complain or carry on about the misdeeds that can occur in such a harsh universe. You want the best for all you love and would do anything as you have to allow them growth and stability.
For you know what it is like to feel the impact of falling and when you just do not know if they really are living in Christ or you know they are not the urgency is far greater to protect what is yours not to protect.
You do it out of the deep desire to just be physically loved and needed yourself; while on this earth, while you know the blessing love from the inside out and you pray that for all you connect.
While in the meantime not paying attention to what you are doing, you find yourself hurled into the world of chaos and uncertainty failing to believe God really has this for all he chooses. While you just want Him to choose what you feel.
The pains and sorrows of this world are real and harsh reality is what it is until it is not. No matter what good you see in anyone soul there is darkness upon their being of their own choices. Just as no matter what evil is within those who prey upon the goodness of those out there trying; though they were born with sin in their hearts they never planned to be where they are.
The vicious cycle of good and evil; the battle and war of spiritual and physical carnage ripping through the atmospheres; it is all real.
While you lay in that corner not knowing if you will really get back up this time; wondering how much more as you cry out to the Lord and Savior. Suddenly you reminded you are “Changed” https://youtu.be/lk1bstD4nY8 @Rascal Flatts
For this, you are forever grateful for ever indebted and thankful for being a chosen one to receive “Your Love Oh Lord” https://youtu.be/QEF7IoQ3eUk @Third Day
The fight within me is all yours Jesus, as I am and always have been way in over my head. Knowing this nothing else will do.
No matter what it is, my soul cries out or even screams for you Jesus.
No matter what my foolish misguided heart leads me through.
Jesus I need abundantly; for as thankful as I am it will never be enough for the sacrifice of you.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Psalms 68:19 (NIV) 19 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.
1 John 1:7-9 (NIV) 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all[a] sin.
8 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 4:18 (NIV) 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
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September 22, 2019
Verse of the Day:
Romans 15:7 (NIV) Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings)
Thank you for this day Father God. Although I was up and down all night to roll over when I woke to see it was much later than normal. As I enjoy the coolness of this morning sipping on coffee. I anticipate the blessings of this day ahead.
As the whispers in my ear to hold on to all the misguided fortunes at the hands of liars, thieves, heartless beings; perhaps watching to many historical shows reflecting even those who pretend to walk closely with you in the church think they can get by with harming innocence.
I see on any given day those who doing for the good and are obedient in suffering and struggling to just get through some days; while others seem to walk so far away from you even when they say they are Christian and fellow believers. Yet they are out spending more time doing what is wrong and hiding their sins able to get ahead and do nothing really for the kingdom.
I know just as the tiny ghost ants that invade our homes at times during seasons that we cannot see until there are many; the Lord’s Angel Armies for his chosen are with us always.
I know Lord the keeper of this soul; you are in charge; and my uphill climb to not put every
Soul in the same box is mine and yours alone.
Though I have seen far too much darkness of this world and many I have been connected. Your light outshines it all.
We know as it says in “Psalm 63:11 But the king will rejoice in God; all who swear by God will glory in him, while the mouths of liars will be silenced.”
Knowing in this world so many are misled and harmed by the actions of dark hearts; we know in the end where it reads in “Revelation 3:9 I will make those who are of the synagogue of Satan, who claim to be Jews though they are not, but are liars—I will make them come and fall down at your feet and acknowledge that I have loved you.”
So, as the days climbing the mountains in life may I never begrudge or harden my heart over what is around me. May I know you hold this hand as I climb every step of the way?
All I know as I am reminded in “Matthew 19:11 Jesus replied, “Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given.”
What I can do is continue to purpose daily in prayer and obedience for myself and all I love. Continued prayers of healing, guidance, salvation and long life for all I connect and for those who have went ahead; prayers their souls were held tightly in your love and promise of eternity.
Although, I may never understand this world I walk in; or what you have waiting for me. I ask for guidance and protection of my own to lead me Father God to your good works.
Lord as I am alone and empty climbing this mountain with you I pray surrender to you alone.
You know all things from the depths of this soul. Please bring justice to all who harm others; please reveal the truth and the way and the redemption and love only you can give or bring.
May I continue to be the vessel you wish me to be; thank you for this day and any that are yet to come.
Daily Devotions and/or Meditation Moments:
Exodus 15:2 (NIV)
2 “The Lord is my strength and my defense[a];
he has become my salvation.
He is my God, and I will praise him,
my father’s God, and I will exalt him.
2Corinthians 10:5 (NIV)
5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
Hebrews 10:23 (NIV) 23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.
