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Date: Monday, January 4, 2021
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com
I
Need A Savior @AmongTheThirsty
Healing
Begins @TenthAvenueNorth
No
Matter What @Ryan Stevenson
With
Lifted Hands @Ryan Stevenson
(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day
8 No, he has told you what he wants, and this is all
it is: to be fair, just, merciful, and to walk humbly with your God.
Meditation Opportunities
(Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with
Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
Psalm
63:2
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Isaiah
40:10-11
See, the Sovereign Lord comes with
power, and his arm rules for him. See,
his reward is with him, and his recompense accompanies him. He tends his flock like a shepherd: he gathers
the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently
leads those that have young.
Psalm
139:7-10
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I
make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the
sea, even there your hand will guide me, you right hand will hold me fast.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
No, I did not
sleep last night. Between new allergy
meds and just the heaviness on this heart for my Aunt, my Uncle. Not knowing if they have ever really met you
Jesus. Not knowing if it matters in
times like this as we all will see you for our own judgement day.
Yet never wanting
to see such beautiful souls suffer even if they have not. Please have mercy and healing on them and
all my family Jesus.
Feeling the
burdens this night knowing I am the only immersed believer in a long line of
family and friends. And I am no better;
I just have this great peace within.
However, each
time it gets closer to me it hurts not knowing or really knowing at times that
once they are gone or I am never will we be connected again. Trying to bury myself back in work today and
it has been a long day.
Blessed even if,
even when.
May I never
forget no matter how tired, how forgetful, how busy, or how I may or may not be
surrounded by those of the world. That
you are with me in every moment, every situation no matter what. May I not forget that all that I am is
yours and that includes every connection, everyone blood line I am tied to.
Thankful Lord for
this day. Thankful for the moments and
the simple blessings of employment, a bed to sleep in, roof over my head and
all that goes with taking on this mission.
Moments like
these looking back and knowing the love you feel and the helplessness and
inability to help anyone but just pray.
And even that questioning is it being prayed correctly, or at the right
time.
Stupid things that should never be thought
of. Knowing you hear every heart, every
tear, every prayer.
I don’t know
really what 2021 has in store for us Lord.
But I know you are in control.
Please be with my bloodline. All
of them as we are all going through something.
Health and well
being from choices when we go down from brokenness.
Health and wellness just from serving our
country and all that emotionally and physically they go through.
Depression and
anxieties and bad choices fighting forward May parents step up and be parents, may
children step in and help the elderly. May you heal this land in general Father
God.
Lead me as I have
taken the hard path all my life as it was the only one, I know. Show me the way for whatever may come next.
Be with my
friends, my connections. It is not for
me about not enough or too much. It is
about balancing and not taking the easy way just because its available or looks
good. I give when I can, I work as
often as I can. Yet lately I myself
with the weight of what surrounds all I see; all I hear all I love.
Then just picking
up the pieces for those I tried to care for, but the cost was far to high and the
caring only mattered in my imagination.
Lord You have
this; you have me. There is nothing
that will change that. The healing began
with me, for me the day I met you.
Yes, it is a lifetime
process. But in your time not my own.
So, as I feel
sadness that the unseen is damaging and may even take-out beautiful souls I
care for. As I remember my 3-mile walks
just to get away and have sanity and have tea and just talk.
Times have
changed for sure. Nothing will ever be
the same. The hurting does not get any easier as time
goes on. But the strength to cling to
you Jesus does.
Thank you for
this day. You know all things. From the sweetness of that love beyond space
and time. Hear this heart, feel this
soul. Wake me up Lord and show me what
next. Lead Me!
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