01.05.2021_January(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

 

Date: Tuesday, January 5, 2021

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com

 

All God's Children @Tauren Wells 

Still Rolling Stones @Lauren Daigle 

Even When Your Running @Casting Crowns 

Back To God @Reba McEntire & Lauren Daigle

Rise Up(Lazarus) @CAIN

Be A Light @Thomas Rhett ft. Keith Urban, Chris Tomlin, Reba McEntire, Hillary Scott 

 Greatness Of Our God @The Newsboys

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

Isaiah 1:16-17 (TLB)

¹⁶ Oh, wash yourselves! Be clean! Let me no longer see you doing all these wicked things; quit your evil ways. ¹⁷ Learn to do good, to be fair, and to help the poor, the fatherless, and widows.

 

 Meditation Opportunities  

(Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

Psalms 34:17-18

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.  The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crusted in spirit.

 

2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV
For we walk by faith, not by sight.

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

Thank you for this new day 5  of this new year Lord.

As I looked up in the early dawn seeing the stars and partial moon bright and just hanging there.   Knowing you are so much bigger than all things this world has going on.

No matter what is or what is not.  What hurts or what is beyond ecstatic and happy.   You Lord are bigger than all things. 

May we rise up

May I not change who I am in you

May the abundance and reality of you shine bold and bright washing away all that is slowly suffocating this world

May we rise up like Lazarus

We want yet we do not fully dedicate and work for it

We hear only what we want to really listen to

We give what is not going to be missed

We take whatever we can get away with

We tolerate instead of letting our children figure it out on their own then we break when they fall hard

Stepping in, stepping up sometimes for all good intention’s others just for our own gratification

The how, the why, when  only matters with you Lord.    

Where are you now, where is your strength of encouragement that makes humanity want to be the light

So many unanswered and not even necessary questions.

We are not go just go through the motions

We are not to chase all that is worldly

We are to seek that balance of all that is good, moral, and human

Loving unconditionally while not worrying about if we are being loved or cared for back

It is far easier to pick up that moral compass and turn your back on what will destroy us than that of understanding just exactly what it should be

 

Taking the focus off of self and trying to balance works for long time until it doesn’t.   But then sometimes that one day’s pop up and you realize you too are part of that equation to be love and be loved.  

That one day pops up and you realize how beautiful that dream would be, or that if it were ever true could grow into something beyond beautiful.

 

It is so much easier staying in the desert and being the hands and feet than to think about if only.

Walking the walk and fighting every day given to hold on to that moral compass and keep doing our best  is real.

Sure, some will say they have never had an issue, but if everyone were to evaluate their life and why they do what they do.    Many will have to admit that deep truth and relationship with Jesus truly is missing.

Being Christian does not put me above anyone in fact it makes this mind and body work towards goals of respect and obedience daily.     It makes me want truth and it opens me up to be flattened more times than not no matter how street smart I grew up to be.

It is not easy but anything worth having forever is worth the fight.   Being I am after eternity I know God has won this war and my battle is whatever I allow within my reach or choose to chase after.

 

Temptation be it all my life or 20 years.   When it comes to wanting to be loved sometimes, we fall harder than others and sometimes we don’t fall at all

My goal regardless is to set my eyes on all that is unseen, on the God above as I look in the early morning skies or afternoon sun.

Seeking all that is pure, all that is merciful, all that is love.

As I fight the demons of worldly trust as I keep climbing over the wall of scars formed long before meeting you Jesus.

The great thing is.  It is not about me!    No matter what is or is not.  It is not about me.     Even if it does not make it hurt any less for those you grow to love and adore.

However, my God is greater than all that I will never understand, want or anything in-between.   For this I am blessed!

 The best thing we can start doing is be a light.   Have confidence in who we are and that we are created in the image of God.   And encourage and be the confidence and the light to help our children, our youth, our broken just how beautiful and needed they really are in this world.

Know your value outside of haves or have nots!

Plant the seeds of positivity and watering and feeding wherever or whenever you can.   Know that God will do the rest. 

We are not just a piece of meat for the world to use up for their own desires or temporal fantasy.     The mind, the cells, the lamina that bind each and every vessel together creating who we are is beyond science or the goals of those who will never feed their demons enough.     Protect your virtue, protect our future, protect our children.

 

Wake us up Lord.

Be with my family as with the deep sorrow we pray for Aunt Mary to make it through Covid and that Uncle Howard now RIP.

Crazy how the layers pile up yet somehow we peal them back one by one and keep going.  

2020 was so bittersweet here fighting hoping 2021 was going to be easier more real than ever before.   Yet here I am laying awake hurting fir my family and a great soul lost.   Angry in a sense people have not fully grasped how real Covid is until it hits there family. For me so far 6 with one fatality.  

I hate saying goodbye no matter how or why.  I guess that’s why I stay distant. 

I hate really caring deeply for anyone and it’s not enough. 

So what do we do.   Tap it out as I lay wide awake in the middle of the night. 

Blessed absolutely 210% blessed and I know it.  It’s not easy living but every day you are allowed to get back up. Fight forward and give thanks to Jesus.  

My uncle could have had long suffering but God allowed it to be quick.  

It may not sound anything but crazy to anyone who really doesn’t know Him or his son. 

Maybe I am.  It’s okay I will be that Hippy Jesus Freak and  just keep trying just keep believing in His living spirit and all that is written while trying to learn everyday allowed 

I would like fir once in the here and now for that  forever to really show up.   For once in this journey to really mean something for me to just be me.  

As I know it’s tone to stop beating myself up over what I can’t control and start finding me for me.   You know just dance and stop worrying about everything else ir who could be watching.  Life is way too short.  

I’m not strong.   I am a survivor trying to lead the way and help others know they matter.   Stability trying to give kids a chance for a future while not breaking because the world could really care less  

Loving hoping needing wanting all Jesus has blessed for me   

My connections are part of me   So whatever it takes whatever Jesus says just do it  

Stop listen meditate find the music and dance