Friday, January 29, 2021

01.29.2021_January(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Friday, January 29, 2021

 

(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day

Mark 9:35 (NIV)

35 Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, “Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all.”

 Meditation Opportunities  

(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)

Psalm 8:5

You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor.

 

Genesis 1:26-27
Then God said, “ Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over the all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”  So, God created man in his own image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

 

2 Corinthians 10:5  
We demolish arguments and ever pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

 

Isaiah 26:3 AMP  
You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to you, leans on you, and hopes confidently in You.

 

Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com

Gone @Elevation Worship 

Peace @Bethel Worship feat We The Kingdom 

Peace Be Still @Hope Darst 

Battle Belongs @Phil Whickham 

Every Step Of The Way @Cade Thompson

 

Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):

WOW

Starting the day

Knowing I am blessed another day as I get up.  Yet feeling a little rushed.  Or stressed, I guess.

Trying to do my daily devotionals but immediately issues with my not so acting smart phone.   That new update fighting me to be installed. 

Logging on to work and update that must be done before I can start and yes that dreaded must change password across multiple systems and oh guess what the synchronization for the security updates did not work.  Not only did I get locked out of multiple desktops, but the work phone and even logging into the network for a period in general.

Busy finally after an hour on the phone with the helpdesk was able to get into the local sites but then now that my headquarters is totally different, we cannot get into the main page where applications I need to run are out of reach.

Finally working through it with the help of some very patient help desk techs and willing to work through the issue without one grumble so early in the morning.  

Everything is good.  At least until the next system update or security requirement needs to be met.

I wish I could have said my focus was purposed and directly on you.  Although I am blessed to not have let something out of my control take over my entire day and make it something bad or something that just really turns out to be irrelevant in the grand scheme of things.

Even if I could not get in until I could.  What would it do for me by getting all freaked out?

Yes, in the past you could here me starting my day when things were not as my mind thought they should be getting loud with something like “Are you freaking kidding me?”    Then generally the layers of what was not working at the moment would just start layering up and then if someone was in ear range and felt the need to chime in and give their feedback; well, anything was possible to happen.

Oh yes, I can assure you that my “oh Fudge” “Freaking”, or even when I come out with “Oh Snapple” were all replacement words I deferred to; or worked hard over the years after having kids to replace those absolute not so nice things.

Nope never do I say I am perfect.    I do my best to be a better human and break bad habits.   Starting life and forced to grow up fast and long before even being an adult.  I used to swear like a sailor, snap with anger like a winter branch quick and useless.  

 Not to mention I am guessing if I think long enough, I could find out some other bad habits that age, and the grace of God has taught me how to manage better.   Even when those unexpected things jump into a routine are totally distracted or derailed.

Panic, oh yeah most times I was in reactive mode was because I was panicking that I lost control or never had it over something going on in my life.

And yes, I do still panic at times.  Sometimes more that not actually even when I know in the end who has this and where it all ends up on the other side of this here and now. 

Usually, I am reeling back things like what just naturally flows out of my mouth when asking someone who reached out to me for help to fix something; because someone else makes changes on a computer system that should absolutely have extremely limited user access; except for those that manage the programs each week.

But nope new programs, new people come in make their updates, make changes to the systems, and never once write down or communicate to the main team and now something is broken.   Fortunately, it was fixable; however, me and my thinking outload as I do was who gave them permission and I will certainly speak to so and so making sure they need to be aware a process is needed.   Otherwise, we end up right back where we were a year ago.

Why should I care; when I walk in a building and go to run technology and the house is got 100-400 people sitting in anticipation and technology does not work.  All those heads spin around and who do you think they point at to have created an issue.

Yes, crazy I know talking in technology.  

God has blessed me over the years as in the past when that would happen because you are looking at a program the first time and running it, yet someone made changes that you are unaware of and disruptions take place.    That overwhelming rush of anxiety with the perfectionist in me coming out.  How do I fix this fast without any knowledge of what was done to break it?

Or this morning; how do I get this issue resolved and get into all my systems without losing any downtime or messing up any meetings I need to host?

I can assure you this morning I was not panicking, although I had to start planning what if’s in my head.  Very thankful for the tech support knowing what they were doing.

Then remembering when it was all done; God is still in control!

Before computers ever came to be and long after they are just something in some kind of historical museum and the future of 3030 tells stories about how life once was on a place called earth.

How the craziness of what we did not understand or think we could deal with would send so many over the edge the world went mad.

Where some figured it out that no matter what the situation it does not and will not help in any positive manner by flipping out and reacting to it.

 

Adding fuel to a fire be it simple tech or even what others are tied to.   Feeding the demons, freaking, stressing any of that does no good to anyone.   It only robs us from peace and harmony.

Robs us from health and wellbeing, robs us from seeing the best no matter what isn’t working right at that time.  It ruins relationships, opportunities and I am sure the list could go on and on.

I am thankful I could see past what I had no control over, and the resolution did come and things are working as they should be.     More importantly I am thankful that even if things are going so far south there is no recovery.  I am able to call upon the Lord and seek guidance from Him or anyone that he allows in my path.   Be it for helpdesk calls, or life in general.

Working through hurdles, roadblocks, messes be it they are ours or we find ourselves in them.  It is all the same.   Where or what are we focused in or on?

Be it our day to day, our relationships, our goals, dreams, aspirations.

Are we putting too much confidence and agendas on people? Only to be let down when they too are human and in most cases are more selfish than selfless.

Are we  putting too much expectation into places and things only to be let down?

Even in relationships with those unexpected twists and turns where that forever turns out to be someone violating a promise and commitment or that someone was never who you believed in them to be to start.

We are all human and speaking for myself no matter how hard I try, no matter how close I grow to learning who Jesus really is.  Although I am fully aware of my blessings and serve where and when I can without expectations.

I still mess up.

I still say things without thinking.

I still get into things I maybe should not.

I still hold others with a certain amount of expectation even when I know it’s not my place.

It does not make me any less of a person unless I choose to beat myself down.  It makes me human and if I were to just walk around boldly and not care.   That would be one thing.   But choosing to be my better self and cling even tighter to God and know I belong to Jesus and my worth far outweighs anything this world gives or takes.

Makes me beyond deserving and unable to ever give enough thanks for each new day I am allowed up.

Thankful that no matter what is distracting me on my focus to tap into my morning devotionals and feed my positive spirit.  No matter what keeps trying to get me to do or be something I will not, cannot.  No matter what the chaos.  There is great freedom knowing everything in this world is temporary.  No matter what the pain point, confusion is its all temporary and if we fix our eyes on the truth that has been with us since the beginning of time and really know we are made for more, we are made in the image of the God who created all things.

Knowing we were and are made for more.  Allowing Jesus to live within and fill us with an indescribable peace that is beyond every lasting or what we know as forever in this world.   I do not know how far eternity is; but I am working at getting there and while I am here, doing my best to give it all back to the one who give me breath, hope in His promises and life here and now.

 

Knowing we were and are made for more.  Allowing Jesus to live within and fill us with an indescribable peace that is beyond every lasting or what we know as forever in this world.   I do not know how far eternity is; but I am working at getting there and while I am here, doing my best to give it all back to the one who give me breath, hope in His promises and life here and now.

 

 

Lord as we learn to find ourselves, as we learn to validate ourselves for who we are and not what others make us or can make us.  As we learn to check our ego at the door and know; it’s okay to not be okay!

Lead us Lord for who you purposed to be and not what we become for what others give us. 

Thank you, Jesus, for this new day.   You know every single thing, every single need, every single tear.    Hear us Lord, Heal us Lord.    Show me and all I am connected your truth.

 

 

 


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