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Date: Friday, February 19, 2021
“Strong
God”, “F.A.V.O.R.”, “Hosanna” (50th Dove Awards) @Kirk Franklin
Amen (Reborn)
@for KING & COUNTRY [feat. Lecrae & The WRLDFMS Tony Williams]
Help Is On The
Way (Maybe Midnight) @TobyMac
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Sometimes we need to be completely
empty before we find out just how full of blessings we really are. I guess a
different way we have heard that is we have to hit rock bottom before finding
our way back up.
That
can mean allot of different things in both statements to each and every soul
who feels it, sees it or even says it.
I
so know deep down in everything I am I need a strong God. Cause each time I look around, each time I
fall face planting spiritually or in the world because I take off running and
don’t pay attention. Slamming into a
wall too close or tripping up in flight on flat ground or stairs I am
climb. I need more than I am to just
keep going.
I
so wish I could have that one significant other that would be, do it for
me. I wish more than ever with all this
strength everyone tells me how strong I am.
Well, I wish I were.
I
wish that no matter how deep the love is, how something so connected is but yet
we will never really have it. I wish all
those feelings at times were what was got or gets me back up.
I
wish at times that all the education I made it through be it secular and the
school of hard knocks. I wish I could
really say that is what carries me through.
But
I know it is God alone that has given me the air in my lungs, the healing in
the broken bones, the healing in this broken heart that sometimes hurts so much
I feel like I just want to go under and disappear.
Had
anyone asked me through out my youth even when as a 10-year-old kid I got on
some bus that road around the neighborhoods in Jacksonville Florida and went to
a church sitting amongst strangers and walking forward not even knowing a thing. But just asking and being accepted and becoming
an immersed believer. Even then having
no clue what it meant and totally forgetting it until later in life.
I
do know at some point we all want something or someone that we cannot have or should
not. We all look past what should be
and is good for us as we allow ourselves blinded by what drives us at that
moment in time.
Who
we are and what we do or don’t do, matters!
Living
years just going through the motions of what was thought to be how we do life. How it was supposed to be because there was
never anyone there to say anything different.
Oh,
through the woods, broken home, battles to survive from health of my own or
just at the hands of all we believe in only to know. Most times they don’t believe in who they
really are or were created to be. So,
they use you up or take their hurts out on whatever and whoever is in arms
reach.
Doing
what ever they can to get that rush that takes away all they just do want to
deal with or feel.
The
world and life and all in it.
Matters! Every single individual
soul matters. We are all created out of
love and God’s great hope we would find peace and everlasting love with him.
Yet
here we are today still living in our own definition of what love is. For some love is what someone does for us,
what someone makes us feel, what we feel like when we do things to make our own
beings more appealing, more of the same.
Love
is everything and nothing at all!
To
be filled with an abundant peace no matter what is or is not happening with and
for someone.
Love
is Jesus, love is everything we make it and never forgetting when everything we
made changes and feels empty.
There
is nothing in this world that we can do, be or say that fills the void we all
seek for that rush of deep lasting joy, love, peace. Only Jesus can be that glue, that light,
that illuminates every second of every breath.
If
we do not have Him deep in our spirit and soul. We miss so much while we wait, while we
chase. While we just are.
I
wish but not as much as I believe.
That same deep root that lives within for those I care for. No matter what they are or turn out not to
be. For all those right in front of
me. For all those I have yet to see their
glow.
Life
is what it is until it is not. We can
hold on to whatever turns out rob us from any hope and peace and stay down
letting the world walk all over us. Or
we can reach up and out for Jesus to please show us the way.
He
is the only one who can wash us clean no matter what rut we are stuck in.
Boundaries
Funny
I once taught a session on them. Right
from wrong, setting ourselves up for failure. Even as simple as not going in
places that put you at risk and doing things we just should not be doing.
From
social media, to being alone for any length of time and you get too close with
that brother or sister. Craziness. But life.
We
all have the ability to choose our thoughts, our words spoken and our
actions. Yet even the most committed and
dignified soul. Sometimes falters losing
grip not so much of God’s word and 10 commandments; but of self and finds themselves
wanting and falling into something so temporary for the good and layered up
with scars from the worldly judgment.
What
really matters is who are you? Who are
you deep inside? Not what you do, certainly
not what you have or ability to get. That
is all temporary, everything changes and if it hasn’t it will.
But
who are you inside? What is your spirit
craving for? Exactly right here right
now?
Have
you found yourself in that so very empty place and realized just how much and
blessed you really are? Have you given
thanks?
I
won’t deny my spirit sours when I am surrounded in events or part of what feeds
my soul. Even some humans in this earth,
that I cannot explain why but just everything about them has a glow that you
just want to rub off and stick on me.
Yes, even those that the mare thought takes me to places I need to run
like hell from.
Then
what about those that your gut feeling is so strong and so haunting that
something is not right about them you have to flee and if you do not. You look back and have that hindsight and healing
if you allow it of what was will never be again.
It
is and can be crazy. If you allow your
mind and your spirit to be overwhelmed while you are consuming what is in this
world. It can and will drive you mad;
robbing you of any peace and everlasting joy that was intended for your very
being.
It
is not easy. Every single day we have
to give it to God through his son Jesus Christ.
Every
day we have to choose and purpose forward dying to ourselves for all that we
think we want like collectors that we become.
We like something or someone and give all we are away for it. Later to find the appeal is gone once the
challenge is met or we have it.
Our
choices matter.
Every
single choice we make has a lifetime in this world of tsunami waves impacting
what next and everyone we are connected in the path.
Why
do we make our lives so hard and painful?
Why
do we not make a difference and lesson the statics of the 15-year-old girl in and
out of foster care and facing attempted murder charges here in 2021, still
happen.
Why
does the uncle fight with if he wants to be bi-sexual or just gay with a lifetime
of energy wasted trying to find himself?
Yet only speaks of how he use to be the support system for a beautiful niece,
but she became too much to handle and left it for the system to deal with? What happened to the parents and the support
system? What happen to family?
Yes,
we can pick apart every single portion of the real-life scenarios given. And if you want to get all biblical there is
so very much wrong with every single aspect of it.
IT
in every ounce is beyond broken.
How
we react or respond matters. Do we condemn
because life is not as it has been written it should be? Do we condone and just say well it is not me,
so not my problem?
Right
or wrong
My
response in a very deep conversation last night was. Not even talking about sexuality first of
all. Stop giving yourself away. Stop giving pieces of your very being to the
world. When you are ready for a real relationship
be committed. And be your authentic
self. As for the niece, it is heart breaking to
know that even with all the help, with all the opportunities in this
world. That baby girl has time to
change the outcome but is destroying any chance of life she has. And what about her support system, It
cannot be just part time. It has to be
affirming and morally supportive.
Most
of all we should always be praying for those lost. Even if we do not agree with what is and
what should be.
Don’t
get it all twisted up. We all have
demons in our closet. Infidelity, urges, cravings, foul mouth, hidden secrets,
hurts, habits and extreme hang-ups.
A
lie is a lie no matter how big or small.
Being
wealthy only allows you to roast faster in the luxury furnace. When you have nothing, you chase getting
everything that you set yourself up easily believing in all those you listen
and surround yourself with.
Life
and choices are never easy and whatever is in the world the good, the bad is
all temporal.
So
why not fight forward with the creator of all the universe. Why not meet Jesus right where you are and put
as much energy in even five minutes a day with him and get to know him, lean on
him, and grow with him. It does not
mean you still won’t be caught up and want or think you need of this world.
But
it absolutely will give you a peace beyond understanding and will change your
heart when you are touched by the fires that burn uncontrollably around you.
Find
His like and make His light your light and beacon for any remaining days on
your personal journey.
Thank
you, Jesus! You will always be so far
better than I ever can be.
May
you hear the whispers of my heart and all the names that are yours. Lead me with strong hands and show me when
to stay down, and when to get back up.
Show
all I am connected what it feels like to have your abundant peace, guidance, protection,
and Love and how to reflect all you are back out in their days to come.
Heal
the broken and confused or the so very lost being consumed by the darkness in
this world.
Show
me how to make anything I do count and reflect you. When they think of us, Jesus may they always think
and know you.
May I never stop loving people for who they
are and not what they do. In your
precious name that had me long before I ever came to be.
Thank
you for this day.
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the
Day
1 John 4:11-12 (NIRV)
11 Dear friends,
since God loved us this much, we should also love one another. 12 No one has ever seen God.
But if we love one another, God lives in us. His love is made complete in us.
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
Exodus 3:14
God said to Moses, “ I AM WHO I
AM. This is what you are to say to the
Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”
Psalm 63:2
Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory.
Habakkuk 3:17-19
Though the fig tree does not bud and there is no grapes on
the vines, though the olive crop fails,
and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no
cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD. I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he
enables me to go on the heights.
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