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Date: Saturday, February 20, 2021
Soul Vibes / Motivation Movers (YouTube.Com
Fires (Lyric
Video) @Jordan St. Cyr
Don't Lose Hope
@Cochran & Co.
I'm Leaning On
You @ Crowder ft. Riley Clemmons
Jesus Lover Of
My Soul @Awakening Music (Lyrics)
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Walking through these fires of everyday
life. Sometimes feels like the freezing
cold that invades our homes, our hearts, our minds, and spirit.
Sometimes is the pain of loss of those we
never thought would see leave us, those we gave everything for and just cannot
live without. That brokenness of all
our guts pouring out all over the place and our emotions shattered and cutting
everywhere we go.
Or just that simple accident
leaving us with injured pride and hiding
because someone sees we are human. Those
mistakes of choices made that leave lasting marks. Some like a rubber band too tight on the
wrist and others deeper than the abyss that will be with us forever.
Do we not remember what has been
done for us from the one who promises eternal life in the land of milk and
honey with beyond everlasting love never to feel shame, pain, sorrow, guild or that
insignificance that well allow the here and now make us believe?
Yes, we get to choose. But even the strongest souls on earth cannot carry
the weight of feeling so alone, cannot feel the weight of sometimes just the
results they did not expect of their choices. Sometimes the one that cannot pick up
and move out of their own way because they just do not have strength and
courage to get back up have more power, more strength than they will ever know.
Just because we love the one who
allows us to exist; does not mean we will not feel the shards of broken pieces
flying everywhere we go. Sometimes
getting deep within our vein’s others straight to the heart.
I can only hold onto hope and pray
daily that Help is on the way long before midnight.
Help Is On The
Way (Maybe Midnight) @TobyMac
Help heal this world, this nation,
this very being Heal This Land (Lyric Video) @Kari Jobe I am so broken wide open. Lay It Down
@Jordan St. Cyr
There is no doubt just because we
do our best walking doing our best to live holding that moral compass, we do
not feel the pains and the shame of the world.
There is no doubt that the brokenness and let downs of expectations even
when not planned cut away at you when the choices you make even with the red
flags have allowed you to feel the stupidity of that though maybe just once you
could be wrong. Yet that sledgehammer
crushes down and now smashing how you can even look at what you love sometimes
dearly.
Left wondering when something is
so close feeling so real you could almost taste it. That maybe even when you could see the result
ahead you try to dig in and hope for something just once is different.
Lord what a mess sometimes reality
can make us feel life is. Sometimes no
matter who we are we all have to face the stories we never talk about. Sometimes we allow feelings to invade us allowing
hurt, distrust, and shards to dig deeper.
Knowing it is who ever acts upon the bad behaviors in their own choices to,
with our around you.
When we believe in others far more
than we believe in our own selves and they let us down because the image we
paint in our minds is shattered. Lord
heal our way of thinking.
Knowing boundaries does not mean
anyone else does. Just because we do
our best intentions with pure thoughts does not mean when we allow others in
for whatever the reasons, that we will not get our hands and even at times our
heart dirty. Even broken.
Forgive yourselves, say what you
have to say and forgive them, forgive yourself and more importantly give it all
to the one who sustains your very life.
Even when times are so ridiculously
hard, scary, and unknown. Even when
the storms freeze us out, the floods wash us away. We are really good souls and have never
purposed to hurt, harm, or do any wrong to anyone. Yet we are held to the fire that is burning
us up from the inside out or freezing us into darkness from the outside in.
Being woken in the middle of the
night in the winter as the roof of the brownstone you live in collapsed from
the weight of snow and ice. Just
getting back on your feet when you flee from the one who you said would be
forever and took vows. But to live you
have to let go. Being blessed to remember
how many times as a child the God of the universe saved you from the darkness
that haunted you for years.
Living as a child with no heat,
hot water in the middle of the great north and going to school to get food and hope
just maybe. Being kept alive when
you just wanted to leave because all those layers got the best of you when you
are barely even a teenager. Sliding
down the pavement in the middle of the night as the van wheels spin like some
kind of move.
So many have stories.
So many have lost hope then, and
even now during a harsh world full of cruel reality and even more joy vampires
and even dark soldiers. Sucking the life
out of so many unsuspecting, undeserving beings. Many will retaliate, many will be lost in
the system, many will be lost and consumed forever chasing ways to make everyone
pay for what someone, one soul did.
But many more will hear the call
of Jesus and maybe not understand why, or what the purpose is for. But they will open the door and breathe in
the peace and brighter light of hope there is so much more waiting.
To get back up and know the hurt
will come, the brokenness will impact every soul we come to connect. Yet God the Father calls upon us, to learn
what his peace is. Even when we will
never be able to fully understand it.
Even when we still will be human and falter face planting and sharing
pieces of ourselves with those who really have their own agenda’s.
All I want is to just know your
heart Jesus! Keep me here with the
blessings in all the messes I see, I hear, I make, I allow myself to step over
the boundary lines and get into. All
that I am all that I am connected is your maker and creator of all the heavens
and earth.
Nothing else can or will if it is
not of and with you.
Wash through all I touch, all I
see, all I am allowed to tap out. Heal,
fill, show the way and let all I am connected to know Help is on the way, help
is with you.
Jesus keeper of my soul who allows
me to just know. Allow me the ability
of some so deep within this being.
Even when, Even if. Until the very end Lord of Lord, God of all
Gods. Jesus King of Kings. Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Shine through me with all the crazy
antics, big hearted kindness. Take all
that I am, all I am connected and change us, change this world.
May we shine brighter than any
darkness could ever come close to.
And if this is it. Thank you!
If there is more. Thank you!
If there are more lessons. Thank you!
If there are more times I am to
fight to get back up. Thank you!
Jesus just guide me, show me. Lead me.
If you choose not to. Forgive
me!
Forgive those I am connected that
violate, harm, and just make a mess of things sending pieces flying. We are all cursed in a world of death,
destruction, decay. Many will participate
just because they think that is what will fill them. Yet in the end the truth prevails; and you Father
God, Jesus Christ, Son of God, and your Holy Spirit are the only Hope and true
peace that is deeper than any ocean in a world drowning.
I need you, for me, for my
children, my family, my friends and all my connections. Come Jesus! Please come and fill us all.
Meditation Opportunities
(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the
Day
Proverbs 17:9 (NIRV)
9 Whoever wants to
show love forgives a wrong. But those who
talk about it separate close friends.
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
1 Thessalonians 5:23
May God himself, the God of peace,
sanctify you through and through. May
your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord
Jesus Christ.
Colossians 3:15
Let the peace of Christ rule in
your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.
Colossians 1:27
To them God has chosen to make known among the
Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope
of glory.
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