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Date: Monday - June 21, 2021
Meditation
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1 Whoever rests in the shadow of the
Most High God will be kept safe by the Mighty One.
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Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out
loud)
Who would have known
that last week would have been so out there?
Stressful, quirky and just boundary level-setting. Started I think on Tuesday when the brand-new
floor unit put out in the 12x24 building someday to be a workshop, office,
workout; something other than the storage and flop area for my grown kid. Something other than what it is that three-month-old
AC had to be returned to the store it was purchased.
It seems there is always
something. No big deal we will take it
back and just get a different one. Then out of the blue my kid decides they will
help and takes it back and for three
days with mamma ready to just burst finally has enough because it took that
long for the new AC to show back up on the property.
Even then that is not a
big deal; but during that time the kid decides they are just not going to spend
much time at home. So not only do we
now have an open exposed area in the building that a few years got renovated
and now is subject to be destroyed by the elements.
But we also have some
really big questions about some behavior that when we are a parent should never
be up in the air.
It is no big secret my
family lives in this house I am buying so they can have stability, because in
the world we live. Life is just hard if
you do not have someone. It takes more
than a village to help keep positive growth going. It is also no big secret in todays world; at
least 8 times out of 10. People will
chop the hand that feeds them off and take advantage of others kindness and slack
on their own responsibilities.
Be it they use their
past as a crutch and excuse to not move forward or they truly need to attend
some really good counseling to help them find the path to next steps.
As a mamma and knowing
the elements in the world and knowing just how so many would rather avoid life
then hitting it head on. Tensions and
worry were high.
But just as I am beyond
grateful the good Lord allowed me up this new day. He also allowed whatever normalcy to somewhat
return.
In the process of this
time and doing my day to day I have conclude it is time to cut ties.
Done with the
lies. From those that have the same
blood that runs through their veins as myself or those that have been chatting
me up for more than a year and are trying to pretend to be something and someone
they are not.
It is no big secret that
there is not a soul in this universe that I do not meet and cannot talk to if I
choose. And most times they are not a
stranger. That is a blessing and a
curse.
However, I am a very
transparent soul. There is never any
reason anyone needs to lie to me; especially if they choose to want an on-going
conversation and someday real relationship of trust and love.
Now before you get
thinking love how that come into to play?
Love is a verb. It can be
actions, it can be intimate relationship, it can be just pure unconditional
agape day to day for all that it is worth.
Just like new cars or
real estate. Relationships and the
value of them depreciates each moment you steal from someone for your own
untruths and selfish ambitions. Just
like when you drive your vehicle off the lot; it has already lost a quarter of
its value. Or when you do not take care
of your property and suddenly it becomes worthless.
Each time you refuse to
be real, and you refuse to honor, and respect relationships you try to pretend
and maybe even convince yourself are of value.
Yet you forget the one main ingredient of truth and loyalty. Well for every lie you cast, no matter what
words, actions or deeds you are putting into it. I lie is a lie and always will be.
There is no big secret agenda
on my horizon. Or in my rearview. I love what I love, work harder than anyone
else for what I need or want. And
because I want to believe in everyone, I have pretty much sacrificed everything
a time or two to help those who have come to me seeking only later to be
reminded it is not my place and I was played the fools card in this life game
of chess or poker.
It is no big secret
that wanting to believe in LOVE and people from the scars of my childhood just
wanting it to my ex’s finally needing to flee it. Love and the lies of who and what people
say and do has broke me physically, and financially.
It is not secret that
God is, was and always will be what has pulled me back up off that floor and
allowed me to be put back together and keep caring and keeping moving forward.
Opening my eyes and
ways to share and give from a distance or in safer methods that even in
kindness you find in this world that greed still takes over and there will be
those that play you out while pocketing what you give them for the needy. There is no shame in my game that I have
donated my savings away to find out not everyone was on the up and up. The heart-breaking thing for that. Is those really in need, will never get the
assistance they need.
It is no shame in this foolish
heart to admit that even as an adult I waste time listening to the chatter of
the world when I should have just remained focused on the cause.
Be it you give yourself
away volunteering for causes that eventually server their own personal desires. Or individuals that you think you know. In the end anything in the darkness always
comes to light.
There will always be
those smarter, more together, with more or less that will do their best to
dictate the path you should go. Their
demands or story will be so convincing that if you do not stand on the freedom
of will and truth that God himself embedded in your own being. You will easily be dupped.
Now with all these
thoughts and craziness of what pours out.
As a person just because people cannot be straight with you. Does not mean they are not good people. They are just as lost as you are; with their
own motives of next steps, they are taking forward.
Just because our kids
have kids and cannot get out of their own way and don’t make the choices, we want
them to, or they need to make. Does not
make them any less lovable or in need of prayers. More importantly knowing that no matter what
they do, they need your unconditional love as God has given each one of us when
he sent his only son to the cross to die for all the foolish games in this world
we would get played out with or be the master game player ourselves.
Did I mention the weirdness
of this past week? At 3:45am on Friday
the 18th how my phone was going off and as I try to reach for it and
see who it was almost falling out of bed. Which was pretty funny but would have
hurt being I am just getting my back to relax after pulling it.
Thinking who calls me
at that time unless it was an emergency, and it is an unknown caller on WhatsApp. Are you freaking kidding me?
I forgot I even had
that application on my phone, and here someone is calling me not once but over
and over to where at one point when trying to turn my phone off I think I
answered and hung up. Wanting to scream
at whoever was on the other end. Being
not only was I not sleeping well as normal.
But once the dogs heard me up; I would have to get up for the day.
The anxiety just
consumed me. Ticked off was an understatement
as it was not until Sunday thinks with family finally worked themselves out here,
I have some unknowns now tapping in.
Anyway, life is what it
is until its not. I believe in you
until you prove me differently and although my kindness may linger for a period
of time. I am no fool to know its not my
place or job to be a rescue ranger for anyone.
I have no intentions of wasting time on half-truths, or fakes trying to
fulfill any selfish ambitions.
I have never been out
here looking. In fact, I know my faults and
the fact I want to believe in the best of everyone and want to love on the best
parts of who your inner being is and to do that I believe in you until you take
that away from me.
How do you take it away? Lies, corruptions, expectations in thinking
someone other than your own self should be working for what you want. Not working towards the hustle of what you
can get.
It only takes one lie
to break a lifetime of trust. I learned
that the hard way. Just because you
know someone all your life does not mean you know them at all.
I do what I do because
I am blessed, and I care. It does not
matter if you are a family member, friend, troll, or my favorite Christian artist. Burn the bridge and as I sail off on with
life to my unknown journeys using the scars and bandages for the sails to pick
up speed and keep fighting to grow forward. You will be left to do whatever life you
are given after what next on your own.
I am not perfect, I am
broken and flawed but more importantly I am a child of the most high creator. If I let you in my life, it was not because I
needed anything. If I keep doing what I
am doing to help give you stability and sustain you. It is because the Good Lord has blessed me to
do so. But when you even strike that
match at some point instead of burning.
I am full sails ahead.
I wish you all the best in finding who you
really are; finding who you really want to be known for. With great hopes and prayers that you find
whom you belong to and that you were created for more than what this world will
give or take from you; or what you will give or take from those into his world.
I am not into games; I
don’t play in the sandbox and have not for years. I do not know how to play
unless it is for keeps, or for value in giving back and never just taking.
I am not about to start now. And for the blood of my blood. Well, all that I am or am connected is on
loan. When God wants it back; he will
take it!
Thank you, Lord, for
this new day given and for allowing me to make it through all the unspoken and the
crazy that does not have to be. Consume
all that I am and ever will connect Jesus.
For your good and pure intentions. May the time for true rest and nourishment be
within you Jesus.
Meditation
Opportunities Daily Devotion @Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life
Stories @Sarah Young) “I Am, I Always will be. Though you are a time-bound creature, seek to
meet Me in my timelessness. As you focus
on My Presence, the demands of time and tasks will diminish.”
Micah 7:7 But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I
wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.
Revelation 1:8 “I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “ who is, and who
was, and who is to come, the Almighty.”
Ecclesiastes 3:1 There is a time for everything, and a season
for every activity under heaven.
Numbers 6:24-26 “The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon
you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you
peace.”
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