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Date: Tuesday July 13th , 2021
Meditation
Opportunities - Biblegateway.com Daily Verse
Philippians
2:9-11 (EXB - EXPANDED BIBLE)
9 So God ·raised [exalted] him to the highest place.
God
·made his name [or gave
him the name] ·greater than [far above] every
other name
10 so
that every knee will bow to the name of Jesus— everyone in heaven, on earth, and under the
earth. 11 And
·everyone [L every tongue] will
confess that Jesus Christ is Lord
and
bring glory to God the Father.
Motivation Movers
& Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)
Help Is On The Way
by Unspoken
Tauren Wells, Gary
LeVox - Until Grace (Lyrics) | Until grace called my name
Michael Ketterer,
Influence Music - Spirit Lead Me
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out
loud)
I wish it were just that easy.
Easier said then done is beyond words when we are facing the giants of
life. Be it layers of so many things
that like to just keep going on and on.
Layers of sadness of those you lost, those you are losing, those you
figured out you never really had and the twinge of betrayal that cuts you over
and over.
Get back up echoing in your head as you try to bury yourself
deeper out of sight out of mind; not wanting because you have nothing left that
can do or give what that which is now gone once made you feel.
The ripples of the ocean tide will never stop for any length of
time.
Which is why it is beyond anything else in this world then to
find where your hope, courage, strength, and ability to get back up comes from.
It cannot come from your buddy, your family, your sister,
brother, cousin or even bestie. It
cannot come from what you pour into your body, your veins to numb or accelerate
what you are feeling.
Not if you want it to last.
I was an angry, bitter soul who took everything anyone had ever
done to me, through me out on my own me.
For a very long time in my youth.
I did not care if I lived or died.
In fact, the crowd I ran with would tell you you’re not living unless
your living dangerous.
The sad thing about it is, most of my living all happened before
I even became legal age according to the standards of the world.
Times are different from then to now. Because me and the crew that ran together
ventured out, and now everything comes right where you are.
Parents watch your children!
Know who they are!
Know what they are doing and who they are doing it with!
Know who is on the other side of the gaming control. For that matter if you let your children out
on social media at all. Do everything
you can to control the security and privacy.
For those that think their kids are okay hanging out. Someone is always watching and just
waiting for their opportunity. And not
for nothing; when my kid hangs out wherever
and runs into your kid hanging out getting into things wherever.
When something happens; well,
we cannot control anyone. But we damn
sure can be educating our children on choices and the results and impacts that
happen by the choices made.
It is hard, I worked two jobs while going to school and raised two
kids. I refused to become a statistic
in the world’s factors. But somehow, I
did anyway. Because even though I was
doing for the better. My kids were
still living in a broken home and being bought and not taught or sheltered by
anyone that would step up and teach when I could not.
My kids turned out to be beautiful souls and human beings. With both raised up knowing mamma hates drama
and you better know the choices you make matter, and they belong to you when
the result does not turn out the way you anticipated.
Well one thrives and one I swear fights self-infliction and
gives up more than tries. One dares to
challenge and learn, while the other believes everything everyone says and then
when it turns out totally unexpected.
They quit and the self-infliction makes a mamma want to do more than
cry.
Not just in our homes but all around us. Do you know who and why you serve and do whatever
it is you do? From your actions or
lack of at home to maybe you just walk past that homeless person or ignore the
cries for help of the beaten and battered family up the street.
Maybe you think you have come to far and you are too beyond
reaching down to help anyone up with kindness. Maybe you do and maybe it is just those in
your chosen circle. And you feel
justified.
Like the slow drip of honey from the honeycomb; the worlds poison
is slowly drowning the promises of new life without purposed change.
I wish it were that easy to just smile and wave and believe everything
those who keep tapping in trying to tangle up your heart strings even when they
do not know they are doing it. Or what
about the repeat offender. Those you have
helped over and over, and they keep saying next time or soon it will be
different. Yet the only difference is
you finally had to shut the doors and windows and put blockades up so that you
can make the change for them.
Who said life was easy?
No where in the bible did it ever say that, for sure. In fact, even in John 16:33 it says there will
be trouble. “I told you these
things so that you can have peace in me. In this world you will have ·trouble [persecution; suffering], but ·be brave [take courage/heart]! I have ·defeated [victory over; conquered; overcome] the world.”
I have had my fair share. I have given my fair share. Which is why I continue to fight forward and
want something better and ever lasting and real.
You know the need
for the maybe homeless dude sitting on a curb by a drive through in 90-degree heat just to get a can filled while
he plays his guitar. May or may not really
be in need for a home. But the need is
there even if it is his way of collecting money for his next fix.
Who are we to judge? Yes, I have taken homeless people into a restraint
with me and sat them down and made the eat a meal with me. And yes, I have sat there praying I don’t catch
anything as they were so dirty afraid of critters. I have also given unknowns money at traffic lights,
online, and even argued when taking food to people at intersections that really
did not want food, they said they needed on their signs but wanted the money
instead.
But no matter if
its change out of your pocket or your savings out of an account. What and
why we serve or do what we do with what we have been given. Just as much what matters is having no
agenda or expectation when things turn out differently or harshly because when
you thought you were helping you were only enabling bad behaviors that that
soul in question already had full throttle running in the wrong direction.
From experience
the best thing and only thing you can really do for them. Is pray!
We all believe in
something. Even a person who says they
are an atheist believes enough in a God to not want to get to know his son
Jesus or make the choice to believe in what they want and not what is written
for the will of God.
Me I have never
not believed in a higher power, a God that owned and controlled all things. I just never had the opportunity until 95
to start my journey in meeting Christ until then.
With that I learn
more each day and nothing is ever the same.
Sure, the issues still rise up and man when my own were full blown how
it made me crazy, sick, and bitter.
Somethings are
still true. I will always have a little
something of crazy that comes to life.
But the peace that filled up all the voids of a lifetime of hurts, habits,
and hang-ups. Or even the new one’s
that come along like when I found out at age 50 my father was not really my only
father and all the pieces fell into place as to why I ended up being a throw away kid
myself.
Yeah, be careful
what you choose to do and what you get into.
It will haunt you even for a little while. My choice during big ancestry and my heritage
phase and wanting to know what I was really made of and turning my family onto
it. Well although I cannot change me,
truth is not always what is in front of us.
Sometimes what is not being said or not showing up is really never what we have always believed. Everything I was mad at all my life,
hurt over all my life and suffered at the hands of others in my childhood could
have been avoided. If only people owned
their choices. I spent a lifetime
of setting myself up knowing the answers in the end and hating those who were
never there for me when parents should have been.
It is what it is
until it is not.
Have I learned
knowing what I know now from all that once was? I wish I could say yes for me. My eyes are still bigger than my stomach always
ordering more food than I can eat in one serving or the fact my heart is still
way to easily fooled to believe there is good reason or good in every soul that
I have been connected and when they tell me to trust them even though I don’t. I stand too close too long to allow some of
the collateral damage to chip away at what should not be.
Flawed…WE are all
filled with beautiful flaws. So, what
will we do with them? So much the same
even though so different. Yet all
created for one purpose to love and be loved.
Until you find
the means and truth to love yourself for whom God created you to be and be freed
by Christ Jesus. None of what we do
really does anything but giving and taking away without any rhyme or reason.
Crazy yeah! Maybe not so much. But the fact remains this is pieces of me
over time and I recall those days I felt so judged and no matter what I did,
what I made, what I earned. None of it
mattered when it came down to my own self destruction worrying about living up
to a world full of expectations that change every chance someone thinks long
enough.
Until I heard grace
calling my name like all that I see spinning around in every direction. Now I just pray more of who I am blessed to
connect with, to or for. Nothing is
ever wasted when I let the spirit lead me.
So, no matter
what title, or anything for that matter that anyone takes from you to make their
own. You alone are unique and beautifully
made and have so much more to grow forward and contribute. Despite flaws or the imperfections of time
that we will never have enough of.
When all hope is
gone, or even if you think you alone control what is. Control is an illusion and hope comes from
the one who has allowed you up each day.
Christ Jesus who was given eternal life and blessings on the day of
calvary and the cross that poured out all he would have been so we could be!
Just get back
up. Prove them wrong. Be who God created you to be for HIM not
the world.
As I remind
myself as well. Even though I too want
to just be, all I dream or just bury myself deep under that which I no longer
need to believe in anything to get by.
Or better yet prove anything to maintain.
I know it is what
it is until its not and when its not I have been chosen to be more than just a
number, just a girl, just a statistic, just a mother, aunt, sister, cousin,
wife, divorcee, teacher, leader, IT professional, project manager, lover, hater
and on and on. I am as every soul
created are created and chosen to be life and abundance for the creator who
gave more than just looks, sounds, talents or gifts.
Created for eternal
love and ever after life. Prayerfully able
to meet all we are in love with and for in our next lives on the other
side. Yet, until then just keep being our
best self’s and really holding true to all that is good, beautiful, and surrendering
to all that can be. Just praying for
all that you are Jesus!
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