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Date: Wednesday – September 1, 2021
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Daily Verse / Meditation Moments
6 Bring up a child by teaching him the way he should
go, and when he is old he will not turn away from it.
6 Point your kids
in the right direction— when they’re old
they won’t be lost.
6 Train up a child
in the way he should go [teaching him to seek God’s wisdom and will for his
abilities and talents],
Even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Motivation Movers
& Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)
I Surrender -
Hillsong Worship
Nathaniel Bassey -
Hungry For You
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out
loud)
Our choices are our own!
Not even God will hold you back from making a choice you just cannot let
go of. Be it those dreams, or just irrational behaviors that come back to strike
you like lightning bolts. You may
find yourself surviving but scarred, burnt, and sometimes barely holding on
like tree limbs cracked, burnt but just not letting go yet.
Jesus may redeem us, may lead us in his will when we purpose
to allow him in. However, the key is we
have to purpose daily to want him within our so-called lives. You will know when you have. Our lives change forever and the
unexplainable peace even during the darkest moments knowing he has got us and
knowing even if we cannot explain it.
That we want to be a better person, we want to live in harmony, we want
to spread that peace, love, and deep joy even if we cannot put anything
physically tangible on it as the world says we must do to mean something.
I remember my early walk and the hunger I started having,
then almost like the twilight zone one day I woke up and I could not find that
old me.
And yes, I mention this or that but no I was not a terrible
person. But growing up I made allot of
mistakes, I was fortunate to not be consumed by the darkness at the hands of the
many I had to trust in. Growing up in
a single parent more no parent home and always alone. I can tell you someone somewhere is always
watching and waiting for their chance to take what is not theirs. Yes, it is no big secret I was scarred at a
very early part of my life. No big
secret that it is true abuse and bad things can come from those closest to your
family. No big secret it is by the grace
of God that I did not end up on the news as one of those statistics being
tossed into a dumpster or dead at the hands of those who are consumed by
darkness.
Surprising even myself as I fought and still today sometimes
find myself fighting forward to just be a better human being than anything that
has ever transpired in this journey.
To lead by example even if it is to just get back up.
Yes, I can laugh at times where in my past I had been known
to wake up when I did sleep fighting to get away and actually hurting my significant
other at the time… Okay ex-husband…
Although that is not why we split.
That thing about being balanced, evenly yoked was not even a
consideration. But just even a balance became
more one sided where some take way more than they give all the while they never
had intentions of forever. Life just
is what it is. Until it’s not!
Thankfully when I came to know Jesus Christ and wanted to
know more and more of him. That light
sleeper where I think for years, I slept with one eye open jumping up at the sound
of the wind blowing. Now when I crash, I
actually sleep. All those dreams that
caused me to wake up fighting for air thankfully the good Lord took away.
It doesn’t stop the dreaming but at least the nightmares that
haunted me most of my life have come to terms with who is in control.
Anyway, safe all that for another story, just like being
blonde by choice we all get to choose what we will dive into or make a priority
to reflect who we are on the outside and who we will let in on the inside.
I truly believe even if someone is holding a gun to your
head, we all get to choose what we will do next. And those choices matter even if, even when.
Even if the healing for me doesn’t come, even if my deepest
desires, dreams, or imaginary visions go nowhere. I am blessed and grateful that God never
gave up on ways to let me know I matter.
He never turned his back even if years I could not hear him in all the static
and that one day, I was able to meet Jesus’ right where I was.
It does not matter what or how I came to invite Jesus into my
life. It does not matter what the triggers, needs or
wants were that I learned what it meant to be first by being last, and gave up my
selfish ambitions and truly care more about others so much at time I put myself
at risk.
I know that is not what God intended. Finding the truth, the way and staying
balanced in this crazy merry-go-round ride called life and all the clowns and side
shows that we get caught up in. Wanting
to just feel and really know we are loved by someone we can spend life with.
Well sometimes we look to hard or want things before they are
meant to be. Sometimes we have it, and
something changes because of life chipping away at us.
Knowing Jesus will never leave us and his goal of filling us
up with all that is perfect and good full of mercy and grace; never to take away
or just be a bandage to those wounds we carry for a lifetime. Be it our own doing, or that which is ripped
from us. He reminds us of nothing here
is forever. That everything we are,
everything we have is on loan and we are called to be our best selves and
stewards with what time, life and all that
comes within.
Filling all those voids with an abundance of indescribable
peace even when all we are is so broken and torn down, we never know if we can
get back up to see the light to survive.
Surrender to Him, not to the world. You need not hang any white flag to go down feeling
defeated. Call upon his name and invite
him in your very being and purpose every day to know him better than anything
else you will ever do, be or have.
Never have I never went down without a fight. Unfortunately, my fights were just not
always something that should have been.
I remember in high school I use to doodle, and the Image one day
scribbled out of me just floating out in the middle of no where on a life
raft. Back then I never knew what that
meant. Maybe my inner self just wanting
to be saved. Lord knows I as a young
girl believed every verb and syllable those who would convince me they were my
prince going to rescue me and they loved me.
Only to take the scars and turn them into steps to keep climbing out and
forward. Even if I took me awhile to
learn who I was and I did not need anyone to be loved or make it in life.
WE all do not get delt a winning hand. Life is unfair, people places, and things
break or break us. We really need to
stop worrying what the neighbor down the street or even our wives, husbands,
live ins whatever we find most important person would do before we take it;
whatever IT may be. To the Lord through Christ
Jesus first. And if you have to pray
every day for 8 hours straight, do it.
But do it from the depths of your soul.
For all that is good and all that we need to be rescued from. Yes,
our people will have some great advice most times. But what works for me may not be what you
need. When it comes to worldly
healing.
Not everyone responds to medication the same way. Healing can start with our own being from
music, activities, medication when necessary and so many other things. And Yes, we need those with educated historical
knowledge to make a difference when we are learning and growing.
But when it comes to
your value and what you need for deep spiritual, and meaningful life that will
last eternally. Only God can give you
what you need and to meet him you must personally know his son Jesus Christ.
We all get to choose; we all believe in something. Just because you do not believe in what your
friends or neighbors believe in does not mean you have to cut them off or shut
them out. Unless of course they are into
what brings more darkness to this already overshadowed world.
Bottom line I can get on my soap box and go on and on getting
into the details or nitty gritty of my life story and prove where God has been
and is for me.
But every single soul needs to choose for themselves. And the sad part is not many will come to
realize having Jesus as a friend and living within until it is too late.
None of us are getting out of this world alive and day by daytime
is running shorter. The storms will
keep coming, the pandemics and viral mutation of the minds and care for humanity
will rage with wars coming right into our own back yards.
Faith of over fear is a must and so hard to keep in that
order on any given day. No matter what
the outcome and when. We are called to
live our best lives here and now for each moment we are given.
No matter who hates on you do not let your response be
hateful. Even if you have to go bury
yourself in a closet and scream, cry or whatever it takes.
Shine brighter than
the darkness that thinks it has you right where it wants you. Dare to be the change. Yes, I am always that one that may end up
going right even if you said the easiest way to get there is taking that left.
Yes, I am the one that I think will always keep trying to
work and be smarter. But often times
make work for me. And as long as the God
allows me up to do so. I am beyond
blessed. Even when it hurts, even when I
am emotionally or physically tired and weary.
It beats the alternative to just quit and let everything go
and wait to just disappear altogether from this planet.
Blessed in all the big or little messes I find myself and
given the opportunity to find messages of hope and light to be or share or even
nourish from.
Step up, step in and
own right where you are. Mind, Body,
spirit. If you do not like
something. Change it! Don’t blame, point fingers, and feel sorry for
yourself. There are babies left to
slaughter, men and women that never did anything wrong in their lives but just
exist and are being hunted and tormented like wild animals. People suffering and starving and just so much
more I don’t even want to imagine to life.
When you have a roof over you head, food on your table,
running water and showers, clothing, employment, gifted opportunities be it
someone is helping you or your talents are abundant.
Be respectful, be thankful, be honorable in repaying it
forward with kindness even if only a smile and holding a door.
Just because you do not have much does not mean you and your
life is not priceless. Just because you
have everything at your fingertips. Does
not make you exempt from being a good human and helping others in need.
Stop lying to yourself and others and be the real you. For you!
There will always be a reason to keep fighting forward even
if we do not see it. And although my
prayer is that you come to know who Jesus is personally. Don’t give up, don’t give into this world
full of the demons turning the world into one giant sandbox and everyone is
getting dirty if at all surviving.
Live life to more than just popping something that will numb what you
cannot handle and no one else understands.
You are worth more than anything this world will give or take. Anything that will leave you bleeding out or
scarred for life. Anyone that ever
says its free, its easy is lying. There
is nothing easy about living and being your authentic self. But you do the choosing and own it. No matter how it turns out and when you seek
rest in your soul. Seek Jesus soon before
its too late and you miss out on eternal blessings in spirituality, in
mentality, in physicality.
Don’t believe me, learn firsthand for yourself.
For all of us that just keep wasting time and life for things
that really do not matter. For all those scrambling and hiding trying to just
stay alive. Lord be with us all. Light up your children to shine bright and
lead in hope and love. Your will
Lord! Heal this land. No matter what
that looks like.
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