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Date: Friday – October 15, 2021
Meditation Opportunities
Biblegateway.com Daily Verse
2
Samuel 7:22 (NIV) New International Version
22 “How great you
are, Sovereign Lord! There is no one like you,
and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.
Movers Motivations
& Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)
Another in the
Fire - Hillsong UNITED
TobyMac, Cory
Asbury - I just need U. (Tide Electric Remix/Audio)
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out loud)
Question in one of my daily devotionals this morning. What is your story, are you living someone else’s
life? Have you stopped or not even
started doing what God created you to do, because you are building this image
of being or doing something for others?
The example was in the story of Agnes this morning where she was trying
to be the perfect Pastor’s wife all the while she gave up her dreams of writing
and being creative and artsy. Falling into depression and a road of obedience
of the role she was filling but not living her best life.
God calls us and gifts us with special talents to live the life we are
given with and for him. Maybe this
resonates with me because I have always scribbled and written my entire
life. Nothing fancy just thoughts and
sometimes release that help keep me from having all that stuff over the years
that jumbles up and gets in the way twist the wires a little tighter forgetting
who, what, where and even why.
Sure, as time progresses it will happen anyway. But some people smoke, I use to for years back
in the day. Some drink, I find my
release even if I don’t tap out the flesh side of me. In meditation, motivation and sharing back
my spirit being fed to release.
There is no secret over the years I have had to realign my boundaries
and learn I have always been a people pleaser and jump into rescue, help, or
just want more of others because the help me feel a certain way. Even in my own marriage absorbing and being a
certain way just to feel wanted. Not discarded
like that throw away kid I was all my life.
Growing up in a single parent no parent family. You
get into allot of stuff with no one around to tell you not to. You also know what it is like to have self-image
issues along with survival. My sister
did the best she could being there for us until she married out early in
life.
But that is what happens when your mother gets married at 15 has a kid
at 16 another at 18 and you at 20.
She was never a kid herself.
But that is an entirely different chapter. She came from a big family of multiple brothers
and sisters and my grandparents although together ended up divorced and gram
was just there taking care of the tribe until she died. Her robe catching on fire while cooking
breakfast for my 4-year-old cousin while my aunt who was the mother who just
had a baby two weeks old jumped up to help put it out and well, we lost them
both.
Tragedy impacts families differently and, in most cases, it brings out
the worse. My cousins grew up without a
mother, my uncle lost his wife and best friend and the family turned on him while
he turned to the drinking that numbed his pain. Those two sisters I don’t think even talk to
each other even though the same family member took them in. Life just is what it is.
Who is it that you are chasing, spinning and being for all the while you
are ignoring or giving up who Christ died for you to be?
In the insight biblically you cand reflect back on David’s story in
Psalm 37:1-7 Where violence, deceit never
wins in the end. It may seem so during
the process but at some point, it consumes you by the very dark powers that it
gives you.
Faith over fear! My goal as the
unknown or imaginary moments what could happen take place. Whenever I forget to just keep talking to
God in my head, out loud…. Everywhere, every day.
I really do not know where I am going even at this stage. I stopped planning a long time ago; maybe
when all the work and wasted efforts and best laid plans turned out where I was
not even thinking. Good, bad,
indifferent. I just remain obedient and
work hard to appreciate all I am given and prayerfully not melt down as things
get hard or fall apart. Most of all just
keep getting back up.
As I was reminded this past week who God really is I prayerfully seek I
never forget all he has created me to be.
Most importantly if it is my calling to be that helper and remind others
who he created them to be in their best selves for him, with him. I will do my best in just the little things
as I am given steps along this journey.
Obedience is owning the moral value of who you we given to be. Respect, loyalty and having faith in all
the unseen and not selling out your soul trying to take on all the material
things that will be gone in the blink of an eye or give away pieces of who you
are to never ever get them back.
It does take a building, it doesn’t take some religious innuendos, it
does not take a cult or commune to know who Jesus Christ is.
It helps if you find a good bible-based church to help you learn and decipher
some of what has been and always will be truth. It helps to surround yourself up with
those who fear God and love all that Jesus Christ is and want to know
Jesus. But the sacrifice is your
willing heart and obedience to love who you were created to be and value you
the temple you are given here and now not filling it up with what will rob your
peace just to chase paper to pay the debts we are responsible for because we
thought and acted here and now.
I am no authority; far from it.
I can tell you all relationships take work of every soul who connect and make promises spoken or unspoken
to each other no matter if it is work, family, just life. I can tell you that although many things
will bring you a sense of comfort and awe at times. Everything on this planet is temporary.
We as individuals must take a stand for what we believe, and I get the
fact that no everyone will ever believe Jesus lives within them if we call upon
him daily. Just as many don’t care
what happens to the future of this planet we were given. The
spin will be what it is until it is not. But only each one of us can break the cycles
where they lead into what many feel as curses.
My granddaughter was proud to announce she broke the teen pregnancy curse. Generations of women in my family on all
sides all having kids before getting out of the teen years. And she made it. I was the first in my family to graduate
and go to college even though it was a hard
long road especially being a young parent having two kids by the time I was 22.
But I proudly did it. None of
it defined me to who I am today. It
helped me make choices and feed my family along the way. But this world does not define us unless we
let it. Sometimes we get so caught up
we miss the ability to hear God’s angels showing us the way, or we think we are
all alone and try to fill that empty space with people, places, and things for
all the wrong reasons.
What are the right reasons…? You would need to seek that for your being
gifted and what your time and talent is and should be. I am far from being the patient person
that has all these wonderful crafty ideas on the fly. I am not talented and gifted in any exact
special way with a big voice or instrumental ability at this stage. However, I have been blessed to be able to
harmonize and technically support many different agendas.
I have been told my heart is too big and I am strong. Well don’t ever let strength make you think
you don’t crumble to the floor weeping just wishing for once someone would be
there to pick you up and just hold you tight and never let you go. I never picked this dream, but I live out
what I am blessed with and work hard to make sure those connected in my heart
strings are guided the best way I know.
All the while trying to keep growing forward. But recently I had to break free and find
myself again. My flesh wanting so much
more than what surrounded me, all the while thriving trying to dive in deeper
and know who Jesus was and wants me to be.
I allowed my big heart believe in the unseen of those who talked the
talked but never showed up to walk.
Without expectations so I thought; all the while with just he deep hope they
would just show up and be authentic and real.
I own and stay fully responsible for any choices I make and fight the
good fight to not become consumed by the darkness that seem to freely broadcast
across the horizons without even trying.
To love at all times even when it hurts.
We are created for more than the adversity that the world and all the
spirits clashing together bring us through.
We were never meant to constantly
judge, fight, and destroy each other.
We were meant to stand side by side and lift up each other and build a
future together shining a light and being that hope with a handout pulling
those who fall off the edge back up when it happens.
All the money, all the glitter and gold and recognition of the world can
be wonderful. But not eternal or
filling of one’s soul.
Our image well be your best self and not worry about what the world
thinks. That is hard right, we were
not meant to be alone, so perception is everything as everyone judges the books
by the covers without diving in to really know the story.
And for those who thought that had it worked out and teamed up and that
team member changed their plans leaving us out there on our own with broken
pieces. Just always remember that Jesus
has always been and always will be with us.
He has always been in the fire, in the water, in every breath we are given
to take.
As the days grow sometimes heavy watching good people be consumed,
seeing those you believed to be what they prove not, when you see people placing
their lives into all they surround themselves and build up be washed away by
the gates of flood waters bursting forth.
I know come what may even if I cry out in my own pain and sorrow; you
Jesus will always be with me here and on the other side when that time comes to
be.
May I continue to love like you love, even if my heart is too big or not
enough. May I be consumed by all you
created me to be. Loving from a distance
or in person just loving and being loved with all I got.
Relevance is in the soul of each beholder… May my soul be consumed with you? May all I am connected be blessed by all you
shine life into. Be it everything may
it be yours? Be it nothing may it be
everything and still yours~
May we always be grounded in all you have created and never take
anything or anyone for granted. Yet, if
we are taken for granted may the justice be swift and fully yours Jesus! You did not hang on that cross to be any
other way. Thank you, Jesus, for
allowing me to call you my friend, keeper of all I am. Even when nothing else makes sense, and the
hardships from choices we make take us outside of who we are meant to be. Thank you, Father God, for the sacrifice just
to allow the creation of humanity. May
all that I ever will be never forget who you are Jesus. May the love I hold deep within these
veins flow beyond the here and now and always know what was will forever be in
and through you. Be with all I am
connected suffering great adversaries and loss this day. Be with your children lead us in your will.
I need you Jesus I am so far from perfect. I need you for the relationships you allow
and the direction they are to be. I need
you to shine your will not my own. I
need you to remind me I am never alone.
I need you to show me how to be more like you and less like me. Every day I am given breath.
Be with your children in this journey
for your will and not their own.
Thank you for this day, thank you for this journey and thank you for all
allow me be it tapped out riddles, trips or relationships that forever become
part of me. Good, bad, or
indifferent! Thank you
Proverbs
17:17 (MSG) The Message
One Who Knows Much Says Little
17 Friends love through all kinds of weather, and families stick
together in all kinds of trouble.
Proverbs
17:17 (Living Bible (TLB)
17 A true friend is always loyal, and a brother is
born to help in time of need.
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