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NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion
Translation)
Date: Sunday October 24, 2021
Meditation Opportunities
Biblegateway.com Daily Verse
Proverbs 9:10 (AMP) Amplified Bible
The [reverent] fear of the Lord [that is, worshiping Him and
regarding Him as truly awesome] is the beginning and the
preeminent part of wisdom [its starting point and its essence],
And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding and spiritual
insight.
Movers Motivations
& Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)
Another
In The Fire (Live) - Hillsong UNITED
TobyMac
- Til The Day I Die ft. NF
for
KING & COUNTRY - TOGETHER (feat. Kirk Franklin & Tori Kelly)
Zach
Williams and Dolly Parton ~ There Was Jesus
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out loud)
10/22 @Jesus Calling @Sarah Young No matter what your circumstances
maybe you can find joy in My presence.
ON somedays, Joy is generously strewn along your life-path, glistening
in the sunlight…
10/23 @Jesus Calling @ Sarah Young As you turn your attention to Me, feel the
light of My Prescence shining upon you… Open your mind and heart to receive My
heavenly smile of approval.
10/24 - @New Life Christian Church Spring Hill https://youtu.be/tEdkm4l_9QA
Despite all the fractured broken pieces, God is and always will be there
waiting all of us to turn our attention to Him. No matter the circumstances, no matter your
beliefs of yesterday. What matters is do
you know, and do you believe in His son Jesus Christ and all he was or ever
will be today?
Just some thoughts to pander as you allow endless thoughts to wander aimlessly
for things that will no longer be at some point.
Life is what it is until it is not~ that is a fact no one can
change. You can say life is what we
make it but truth remains. Despite our
best efforts not all things turn out according to the plans we foresee. In fact, we are even in our suffering right where we should
be in a time of need, darkness or hour or change there to call out to all Jesus
wants from us and if and when things are not working. Take it up with him to step in and guide,
lead, carry us to where we need to be to prosper and grow in faith, in health
and always in love.
Maybe I lost my mind when I think how bad some situations are for many
or even where I have been and where I may be going. The facts for me remain I know whose got
me. Even if those I wish that had,
never showed up or pulled through on what the world deems as empty promises.
God will never give us what does not belong to be freely given. And though in some cases those who take when
its not theirs to take. Call it karma,
call it payback, call it Jesus’ justice.
Payment will be collected.
It no longer surprises me to learn the goodness of one’s souls are
tainted and before it is realized dirtied and sometimes forever lost.
Unfortunately, that will never make it hurt any less. No matter who or when.
I personally am my own worse enemy and see the error my ways often. But it was not until recently when I was
finally able to step out of the box and just breathe that I realized I have allowed
myself to fall apart no one else.
I am not talking about emotionally.
Although yes, my anxiety over those I love and so much I could not
control, getting the best of me. These
past two years have been tough on everyone.
No doubt the sudden losses, leaving us to reach for the impossible and
sometimes believing in what was to be for the good and helpful only turning out
to be a game that in the end the players that started the game lost the most.
Pieces of me all over the place is no big surprise as I and fully aware about owning our choices
and the results that come after.
This year though I find myself seeking change. Change of who I am again, and sometimes
that calls for where I am at in this very moment.
About three months ago maybe now.
The day came that I was crushed knowing despite being all in for Jesus and
serving a much greater God than I could ever come to really understand. Being robbed from the moments when service
fed not my soul and what was once a rush to get there and just see and feel God
show up. Suddenly being turned into a
performance with critics everywhere. All
the while being my own worse enemy and knowing I would never be what I once
was. Shredded my abilities, shredded
who I was and again changed me forever.
So much so that I was at the point of walking away and finding somewhere
new to start over and be fed with that abundant hunger and desire of all that
Jesus is and does for me.
The world is cold without a doubt.
The more I thought about what I was going through with all the layers of
so many different winds blowing in and through me. Knowing that no matter where I am God is
always there. No matter where I move onto,
I had to remember I don’t show up for the people of this world. I show up for something much bigger.
That does not mean at some point God is not allowing me to ready for
change. But it does mean all though I
respect and love those I connect; and I would love to have that same love and
respect back; until God says move, I am here to learn and grow into this big puzzle called life just like the
all the other souls allowed to journey this planet.
Same but different! I could
never be as evil as some but on the flip side I could never love like some
others do either.
Knowing this and knowing I am going through some healing moments in this
season and know there are things to be done and they will get there. Well, it has been making it hard to just
right.
We all need that motivation. Some
hear the rain pour down and it washes through them live running rivers. Others here music and the harmonies just
blend and play out freely to their own souls.
I long for the days when I would hear a word and it would trigger so
much beautiful inspiration. Or a song
and love washed through me with abundant need for more.
What really happened to this heart Jesus that now I have to pause before
posting that once inspirational artist or melody that leaves me wondering are
they all just actors and stealing words and places from other people and their journeys
and turning it all into just temporal money making. What about this crazy battle of why does it
even matter? Why should I care what
others do for their 15minutes or 15 years of fame? Yet here I am wishing and wanting the world
to shine bright in truth always.
I wondered what would happen when the music stopped and it did not for a
long time, until the opportunities were taken away because here and now is more
about performance and what brings in the highest money and acknowledgement and rarely
is any of its truth.
Then here I am just jotting out this mind maze running over and what
makes it any different for me even if
this is my release and sanity. Wishing at
times anything I shared was never made public and other times knowing if my
journey could help just one soul get back up.
more importantly meet Jesus.
This year has been extremely woke!
I am ready and cannot wait for the change for whatever that will be to
start kicking in and praying desperately I do not lose myself any deeper than it
has already got me.
No more bad news although life happens.
No more psycho people on my property at 2 in the morning hiding out
waiting to wake up my family. No more
bad news of choices or health and well being from the choices that were made by
humanity and destroyed billions across the globe.
No, I will never stop dreaming.
But as for the dreams that shake me awake and have me reach out to those
I am connected, and bad things happen. I
can do without; as for wishing bad karma on anyone. Well,
I don’t have to. Just like me anyone and
everyone I am crossing paths with well, we all do enough bad to ourselves and
sometimes it just takes awhile for us to wake up and see it. Prayerfully it won’t be too late to turn to
you Jesus and work on forgiveness and changing our purpose and selfish
ambitions.
Wash me and all I am clean Jesus.
Forgive me for what I make it or when I do not make anything at all. Purify me, cleanse, and heal me back to
that hungry girl that cannot get enough of all
you are. Be it directly in you or
through those you put in my path. Lead
me as I am leading others by example. May
it be the words you allow to flow; may it be my leadership with littles or
others along side and with me. Jesus,
I need you, Heal all that is left for this journey to reflect all you are.
None of us are getting out of here alive Jesus. May we realize we do so much better together
leaning, balancing, and helping each other.
Not using, taking, breaking, respect, loyalty or truth.
I get it my truth; my perspective is not that of the world! But yours is Father God. We will rise up, yet I pray it is not to
just plummet into the burn.
May your abundance flow through us all Jesus! Be with me as I cannot steady myself without you. I touched the sky for a few brief moments in
time and now I am just stuck like that parachutist stuck in a tree unable to
break free of the entanglement.
Make me, take me but more importantly Show me what has meaning and not
allow me to waste not even a second in anything less.
I want it all Jesus there is no doubt.
Be what I cannot seem to grasp.
For me, for all I am or ever will be.
Thank you for this day and all the opportunities I have had and any that
will be for perhaps a new tomorrow. So
close yet so far away as I seek to turn the page for another day.
Lord there is only Jesus, no friends around and all those times I think
I have it… I am barely holding on to that thread but tight enough to know you
are the gorilla glue that holds this life together. Taking all the pain and stripes for the
world over and over. May I never forget
who you are in and for me.
Thank you for allowing this heart to know you. Thank you for allowing this soul to feel
you.
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