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Date: Thursday November – 11th
Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com
TobyMac - Til The
Day I Die (Lyric Video) ft. NF
Casting Crowns -
God of All My Days
Help Is On The Way
(Maybe Midnight) -TobyMac// Faith Moves//Christian Dance Fitness
Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow
Thank
you to all the Veterans out here in the world who have given up everything
willingly to protect the freedoms of our Nation. For all who will never be known, the many
who will never truly have gratitude for such sacrifices and freedom we are
allowed. Even if we look like we are
throwing it all away.
Thank you, Jesus, for your willingness to go
to the cross and believe in humanity.
Thank you to all the souls given and fighting even right here right now
who stand in honor to defend our gift of life.
Man, I
am reading today’s daily verse shared below and I have to say it is even hard
to read and know we should die to ourselves and live for the graces we are
given.
Wanting
to fulfill the desires that sometimes get the better of us. Wanting all the latest and greatest and go
places and see things.
Then
we look around; well, some of us anyway and see just how much the love for
fame, fortune, and having so much that replaces our own being we become stuck
chasing and holding onto what we have made idols and left with no regards for
human life at all. We think we are too
important or above all else because of the status the demons have carried us
to; all the while they were sucking the life of who we really are out and not
just what we do or have.
It is
a fine line to want love so badly we chase it and end up in wrong relationships
that we didn’t see because we were so blinded by our wants. Yes, not everyone does. But there is no shame in my game. Growing up without that family unit from a
very young age I had just wanted to be really loved and be able to love back. That put me in dire situations used, broken
and bitter. But also, if I think about
it also made me a fighter to keep fighting forward for something better.
I
might have held allot of anger for years in general at users and abusers as
well as even myself for being so gullible too often.
But
when I realized I was never alone or never had been it was like a light into a
whole new world went off.
I wish I could blame my choices on my
circumstances or even choices of others.
I mean
let’s face it for every soul that was always out there ready to condemn and
tell me what right I had to live a certain way or even when I was a young
mother of a 5-year-old at 22 and pregnant to have my second. Being condemned and questioned by those who were
supposed to help encourage, but instead condemn me for wanting to keep the second
child I was going to have and still being unmarried. That I would never amount to anything and
what life would that be for my children.
Yeah; 22 broken, sick, and ready
to have another child and the man of my dreams like the first 5 years before
not interested in a life relationship; they were just having fun.
Well
then being I pretty much raised myself and had to fight my way all my existence
just allowed me to use it to prove them wrong.
Not
only to make something of myself they did not see, but also like the ladder of
you can do anything when you believe.
Stepping
on all those let downs and broken hopes I put in to obtain from others as steps.
What
all those naysayers never realized that I had nothing to live for until I had
my children.
I knew
by age 16 if I did not have purpose, I would die very young. From drug overdose to cruelty at the hands of
others to having guns put to my head, to being pulled out of the bottom of a
pool or just finding my way back out of the woods.
My
journey changed before I was even old enough to know what life could be.
Human
trafficking was just starting out back in my day and it was not so much
trafficking it was just sick twisted minds taking and forcing themselves on
children who believed in them.
Cowardly at that; not all offenders are
straight forward most will wait until you are sleeping or in a situation that
they have you where you cannot freely escape.
What does not kill you only makes you stronger and if your wise enough
to see the choices that can be made you find and count your blessings. And my thoughts even those sick minds that
have to team up with people to steal young life and use and abuse them. Well, they are just cowards and unable to acknowledge
they were made for so much more and not be controlled by the demons that feed
them. Oh well that is an entirely
different days conversation; but I can say this.
Parents,
guardians, and all who have taken the roll to raise up a child. Never let them out of your sight because
someone is always watching waiting to rip their lives apart and leave them for
the vultures. And if there is anything
left, prayerfully they won’t become part of what has happened to them or absorbed
into the world of masking and never seeing their full potential.
In
today’s world anyone with a heart for humanity. If you see something say something. Even so-called parents are using and abusing
the gift of life from the children they were blessed to have.
Anyway,
soon after my grandmother dying when I was 9, she was cooking breakfast for my
Aunt visiting with my newborn cousin and my other cousin and my Uncle when her
robe caught on fire. She died that day.
My Aunt lived a couple weeks to a month with
95% of her body being burned as she jumped up and tried to put my grandmother
out and they both ended up in the tub.
I
cannot imagine the pain they had immediately from fright and just the
situation.
I know
the pain my Aunt had as I was able to visit her in the hospital once.
Somewhat
knowing the pain of losing or never having parents.
My one
cousin never knew her mother, the other did.
Which is a greater loss?
That I
will never know.
I know I never had a father until I met
Jesus. Even though my mother and father
were married. Mom married at 15 having
my sister at 16 my brother at 18 and me at 20.
However, they were done by the time I came to the world. I got it years later when at age 50 I
learned life changing information as I always wondered why my mother and father
always kept distant with me.
Then
when they split my mother had a break down; a kid losing the love of her life
and well there were three kids left to learn how to grow up.
I
could go into the details of the many reasons I could have become a statistic.
The many reasons I could have hated humans or
even justify any reasons by the worlds standards why I could do things to get
even with the world and all those who cast judgement or tried to convince me to
not think for myself.
The
bottom line is, as many times as I tried to check out in my youth and teen
years and maybe even in early adulthood.
God made it clear it was not my time.
It was
not my time when I should have never made it home as a kid in the many
situations that others consumed by demons tried to consume me.
Soon I
need to get back on and finish and publish Blonde By Choice.
There
is just as much if not more here and now that allows me to look back into that
fishbowl and realize just who was and always will be in control. I don’t believe in luck.
Happenstance
yeah! Sometimes and even fate. But I
cannot explain any other way of how I have always been able to get back up and
keep fighting forward and never losing my ability to love others. Yes, Hell yes! I’m guarded and within
reason dismissive.
But
even now as I watch the world spin around me, as my little hamster ball of life
spins within. I know that Jesus is the
only reason that I am allowed to still see the beauty on the other side of the
storms.
Just
having the conversation, the other day with my child, and talking about the
gutter mouth they have. And me openly
reminding them we have to purpose to change.
That I too use to have horrible language when people got me fired up. And I reminded them I am far from
perfect. Still today especially
driving and situations occur I still seek forgiveness.
But I
am trying. I purpose to care about not
exposing littles around me with garbage spewing. I care to always respect myself around
others.
We
have to want it and I get it. I am sure
that if I were put in the middle of the pit I would easily know how to fight
and manage my way back out. It does
not make it right; it does not make it easy.
It makes it choices we get to either sink or swim. We get to fight or fly. Either away or with whatever or whoever we
circle up with.
We are
all out there making choices and sometimes thinking them through, others
not. Sometimes they have positive growth
and results; sometimes they knock us down and we have to get back up. Sometimes we are blessed and sometimes we
feel like we are just never going to win.
All
the time if he has allowed you back up another day. You are blessed and Christ Jesus is waiting
for you to call upon Him to walk within your spirit with you.
When
you do life changes, and all things are possible on the other side of any
storm.
I can
assure you although there is never ending stories of what should have never been.
The
one factor that remains is we all get to choose until the day comes, we are no
longer allowed back up. At that point it
is far too late.
Biblically
speaking; you need to make the choice today where your soul will end up.
You
need to live it out for whatever remaining time you have left. And let’s face it. If I am wrong and there is no heaven where my
soul will be. Then I live as a kindhearted
clean forgiving work in progress in all the days I had on this earth. Nothing is lost because I have lived in the
best and worse situations, and I could have more but more gives me nothing but
more trying to take what they are too lazy to work for.
If I
am right and everything in the book written 2000 plus years ago is true, that
Jesus my friend, my father, my brother my life sustaining breath in each exhale. Then me anticipating the beauty of heaven
now and all the minor glimpses on the way is so worth it; much less the
abundant indescribable peace that fills me and allows me to keep putting one
foot in front of the other knowing so much more is on its way. Well either way I have already won.
Anyway,
we all want something better, be it our physical or material desires. Or at least I hope anyone I connect with
do. Just as I pray, I always have humble
real authenticity in any relationships and the balance of when to hold on and
when to let go.
Lord,
hear the hearts and prayers and cries of those lifting their babies up. Those who their babies made it to think for
themselves and were lost to the demons that consumed them. Lead all I am, all I am connected to
you. Guide, protect and show us your
way and the light till the day we die.
Beyond
all space and time there is no boundaries you will not take us. Heal this world, wake us up. Feed us all that is good, all that is pure
all that has meaning in you.
Thank
you for all that I have been or will be.
Right or wrong, Thank you!
Meditation
Opportunities coming
from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse
1
John 2:15-16 (AMP) Amplified Bible
Do Not Love the World
15 Do not love the world [of sin that
opposes God and His precepts], nor the things that are in the world. If anyone
loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For
all that is in the world—the lust and sensual craving of the
flesh and the lust and longing of the eyes and the boastful
pride of life [pretentious confidence in one’s resources or in the stability of
earthly things]—these do not come from the Father but are from the world.
1
John 2:15-16 (MSG) The Message
15-17 Don’t love the world’s ways. Don’t
love the world’s goods. Love of the world squeezes out love for the Father.
Practically everything that goes on in the world—wanting your own way, wanting
everything for yourself, wanting to appear important—has nothing to do with the
Father. It just isolates you from him. The world and all its wanting, wanting,
wanting is on the way out—but whoever does what God wants is set for eternity.
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