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Date: Tuesday February 15th
Meditation Opportunities coming from
Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse
34 “A new command I give you:
Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35 By this everyone will know that
you are my disciples, if you love one another.”
Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com
Ryan Stevenson -
When We Fall Apart (Lyrics)
for King &
Country - RELATE (Lyrics)
Tauren Wells, Jenn
Johnson - Famous For (I Believe) [Official Lyric Video]
Lauren Daigle - Still Rolling Stones (Lyrics)
Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow
Wow 38 years ago just barely
out of my teens I gave birth to a beautiful.
A beautiful blessing that gave me more challenges out of my comfort
zones and changes every single day since.
Happy birthday kiddo. May you always know you are loved and more
beautiful inside out and have so much going for you without the worry or
anxiety of trying to keep up with this crazy world.
Bittersweet as our family is riding
the roller coaster of the cycle of life.
Where pops is now in a long-term care facility and mom has to move away.
Both giving up all they know or have known for their lifetime. Where
people are coming in like steam rollers and clearing out and posting out and
see what they can work out and take with them.
Life is not fair. I remember the day I came home after two
years living in my home and all the contents of the neighbor house dumped in
the driveway and like swarms of bugs people coming out of no where to pick
through someone’s life.
Shortly after that helping a
dear friend sort, file, pack another friends life as they had moved out of this
world all that meant something to them was nothing but piles of stuff to be managed.
So, no matter if it is abrupt,
long term or planned. Nothing we have in
this world matters when we have to survive and live whatever life we are given
left.
Yeah, super cool when we have
it all. But once you are gone, they
will come to take, or fight for taking whatever is left. Family that has not given your existence the
time of day to those that are close in the circle fighting over stuff and
forgetting what it really meant to love.
There is always room and
chance to really see the other side of people.
Those that you adore and respect when it comes to the cycle of living
and what they are trying to do reflects who they really are in the end.
No matter how they dress, walk,
or talk in the big screen. The real
them always shows forth and slips out.
Prayerfully no one gets hurt in the midst of the storms we will all go through. Prayerfully we won’t just quit losing the
ability to hold tight to truth and the deep joy that only Christ can bring.
As I am feeling the pain and
sorrow for such distasteful endings to even if not perfect the perfect as they
knew it. Of my own family and the broken
pieces poking and cutting the many that truly care.
With limited ability to have
walked away for a month and go take care of things the way maybe I could of or
should have stepped in to help.
Knowing the right path was taken and things will work out. Although it bites when that which has
controls of your heart strings and the feeling that overwhelms you to see life
so discarded and the vulnerable and the choices, they make to bite hard in the
end.
Life is until its not~ No tomorrows
are ever promised. Just choices and
results of those we do. Attitudes are contagious
and sometimes those results of our own or others weigh heavily to determine what
next.
Thankful someone could and
even for those who never did that are trying now.
We never really know but you
do Jesus!
Remembering sitting across from
the man who was my biological father as an adult and me asking why you walked
out on us. Why did you not keep in touch
with your children? And all he did was shrug
his shoulders and say I don’t know. Later
in his 70s to commit suicide when he was unable to fulfil and be the person, he
was with the person he gave up his family for to be something else with them.
For me to be given the rosery
beads he had in his pocket at the time he left.
Only you know God why the
world calls for us to be unified later to rip us apart in bittersweet things we
call life.
Anyway, I can sit and think
back over my life and the moments I was so broken that the love of my life was
all a lie or talk about how I fell in
love with a man named Jesus and all he stood for and filled this soul with so
much hope. I can write about all the
broken pieces of the cycle of life and how humanity is truly unkind or talk
about how God knows why. And we just
have to believe and keep getting back up as long as we can.
Not holding on to the pretenders
or broken things that hurt and take our breath.
We can be thankful for those
who dive in and do their best all the time loving people for who they are and
not what they can get from them. Even
love those who you step in as a job to help and they never pay you for the jobs
done. But you know you made a great
impact even briefly.
Prayers we all seek God in
the house from the time we wake until the time we lay back down.
At least for me and what I
believe. Blessed beyond all the craziness
and broken pieces.
This too shall pass if only
we cling to the light shining on the other side and one step closer to the eternal
door.
God, you got me. Cause this world and humanity in it is so
unfair at times and I don’t want to be like that. May I never stop fighting to rise back up and
never let any of this stuff change my love to the beloved you have given me.
May any connections have the blessing
to see you Jesus. Really showing up and
let them choose now who they will serve.
Change hearts, change hurts,
change habits. Change the darkness
into your beauty and grace and when the smoke clears may the diamonds shine brighter
in your image.
Your will be done for all that
I am. Love hard or not at all its not
about me. So when these feelings make their way give me logic, give them hope,
give me all you want me to be even when nothing is everything for all.
Even on this day 38 years ago
I lay for almost 2 days in hard labor alone giving birth to what I thought love
looked like. Fighting every day forward
since to live the responsibility I was given love. Thank you then even when it hurt. Thank you now beyond blessed still hurting for
those you gave to love.
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