Tuesday, November 29, 2022

11.29.2022 November (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday November 29th, 2022

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Psalm 136:1,26 ESV English Standard Version

His Steadfast Love Endures Forever

136 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.

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Psalm 136:1 in all English translations

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Imagine Dragons - Bleeding Out (Lyric Video)

 

Do It Again (by Elevation Worship) | WorshipMob live with Cross Worship & Osby Berry

 

MercyMe - Even If (lyrics)

 

TobyMac (DC Talk)- Space (Lyrics)

 

Perfectly Loved- Rachael Lampa and TobyMac

 

Brooke Ligertwood - Honey in the Rock (with Brandon Lake) [Lyric Video]

 

Zach Williams - Plan For Me [Official Audio]

 

All My Hope - Crowder ft. Tauren Wells

 

 


Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Lord when I said wake me up early if you have something for me to say today.  Seriously I did not mean 2am.  Yes, in the past I would be up all hours of the night and the inspiration at just a song or word that someone would say had free flowing mind dumps all over the place.   I did not get up because these past few days have been challenging.   I wish I really know exactly why, but they are maybe it’s just everything.  Loss of loved one’s that are no longer available to hang out with and just vibe and talk for hours.   The weariness of non-stopping and on-going changes and knowing I can’t do this on my own.   Yet, even with all I raise up I have a hard time asking for me.  Maybe because after coming out of the desert and feeling the blessing that made me soar only to be left out on that cliff looking around and really seeing the world is the same everywhere and so are the people within it.  Family, Friends, loved one’s and strangers in the night.   We are all purposing for something and me yeah; no matter how much I stay until you say move.   It does not stop that dreaming wide awake.

 

That Love and appreciation you hold for people, places, and things and one day the scales come off and you realize no matter if it is work, people, or all / any things.   You still no matter how much you know you are loved and in love.   You find yourself wandering to the human side with hopes of that satisfaction of only what Jesus allows to come to life.     There is not enough fame or fortune that can fill the voids that only God knows to how to fill.  

 

Unfortunately, when we connect, we realize too late that even those who speak and preach the gospels in this world today have those human tendencies to be more human than spirit filled.     When you are in church, and someone openly talks about others.      Remember who surrounds you, don’t be the person that leaves the imprint in a visitor to Gods house hear you being no different than the world.  

Crazy how I can be, so spirit fed yet getting robbed at the same time.

And what about the emotional overload I feel lately with family sometimes.    Wanting the best for their wellbeing and just being me.   Yet somethings I have no control over just stick with me.  Even when I pray about them and ask for you to take it from me.

 

Crazy this holiday spirit is here but it feels a billion miles away sometimes.

 

You have never failed me yet Jesus!   That is without a doubt; even when I don’t see the change.    Your will be done, my sweet soul king beyond all time and space!     I don’t know if any would ever understand that knowledge of what you fill this soul with even in the moments.

 

You are and will forever be enough.  Even when I do not see the purpose in the pain.    Still in your hands, blessed beyond all deserving, all measure even if, even when.    Recently being overwhelmed in situations that took me back to that young girl who felt so unworthy to be on this planet.      It had been years since that had consumed me.   A child trying to find life in a world so alone.     Conversations, and actions with somehow sent me back there waking up in the ER with my stomach being pumped and filled with IV and just not understanding what my purpose in life then was to be.   No, I won’t ever do that again; not on God’s life when he bled out so I could have mine. 

But the lessons in life sometimes come back to remind you just how strong over time we are really are.    I won’t ever lie.   I miss my broken heart strings that are no longer here.   The fact this world and all of us are on a crash course to what many may never recover from.     The fact so many including my children may never have that one-on-one relationship with you Jesus.    The fact it sucks losing friends, family and precious moments to things that should have never been in the first place.

This is the first year in a lifetime, so it seems that space is so empty some days more than others and the love of those we deeply care for are just being sucked through this vortex as Gods angel army and all his children here and now are holding on to the door jams and fighting harder than they have to be.     

 

This too shall pass, just as it written out in history of the Psalms to looking back on the other side of that riverbank when we never thought we could make it through the storm of the night; yet here we are with miles of treacherous grounds covered and fully protected and loved by God himself.

Lord there are so many sufferings, so many that live and breathe all you call them to be, and those that do not even know you.     May they stay strong in you?   May they get back up and find the light that will ignite who you created them to be once again?  Will you do the same for me?

 

Some days I wish I could openly write out that romance novel that some may spend their entire lives dreaming about.  But let’s face it; you showed me how to ignore that little white picket fence to start by building my white lattice fence to later want more bold mind-blowing colors of each day that will never fade.    When you look into someone’s soul and see just how beautiful they are on any given day is just as beautiful as the impact to those empty souls that send shivers down your spine and know all you can do is get away as fast as possible and pray without ceasing.

You Jesus you hear all the unspoken, all the tears, all the screams and sufferings of the innocence being violated in so many ways of this world.    May we stop looking the other way.  May we stop being performers and be held accountable.     May we light the path and trust in all that unseen faith knowing how sweet you are Jesus?

 

We are awake

There is no doubt that Father God.    Heal this land, heal this craziness.   Bring us back to your gates at the foot of the cross where morals mattered, and science meant something in line with all you are.

You have a plan for all of us; not just me.   Even though I am so too many times lately going through the motions.

 

You are and forever will always be.  Here and now and throughout eternity.   Thank you, Jesus, for this journey.  You did not have to allow me any of it.   Be with all of us who sometimes forget the broken pieces are your beautiful mosaic imprint even if we feel like we got swallowed up by some huge sticky bun of life and keep grasping tightly when we should just keep our hands and eyes lifted high.  Allowing the jagged edges of life to cut deeper than we will ever understand.

These moments may come and go, and I may beat the crap out of myself for what I count as failures.  But you are the lamp to my heart, my soul, and every broken piece of me allowed to transpire.    All my hope is in you Jesus.   For all I am and will be.  For all my connections not just those blood ties I came in the world having.

Your will   You got this not me; yet I pray your favor for all that is good, pure, and everlasting with and through you.  

Lift the heaviness not just from me, but all who call upon your name Father.    May I never reflect what you are not.   Human I may be but the choices to act, react, speak or stay silent are mine. For this I am grateful to be allowed to choose each day you get me back up.

 

Hold me and all I will ever be tight to you.   Thank you for this day and any others on the horizons!

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