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Date: Sunday, January 3, 2021
Soul Vibes and Starters (YouTube.Com)
01/03/2021 New Life Christian Church 10am services
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Battle Is Yours @Paul Wilbur
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A Beautiful Name, Miracles, Fill Me Up @WorshipMob live @Cross Worship
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Blessing @Kari Jobe & Cody Carnes |@Elevation Worship | One-Hour Worship
Daily
Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thoughts haunting me from last night when I
received the notice that a good man that has served his country, came back, and
did the right thing fighting forward for his wife, for his family is laying in
ICU in some hospital in Virginia last night and this day. My Uncle. You know you have those that just are. Their spirit, their love, their no
judgement. Where they just love you for
you.
I was blessed this
weekend to be part of the praise team and what a great message was given. Last night and again today. You can catch the live from today up above. Last nights well it was good as well, but my
camera and the user setting it up was distracted or something and you have to
stand your phone on its side for it to play up right.
How many of us
really do know why we do what we do?
How many of us
really are 100% with who we serve daily, why we serve that or this?
Now I am partial
to military and the men and women that go off to fight for a country and people
in and rarely will get acknowledged much less shown love and respect. But they do it anyway. I had three uncles that served, and my
Uncle Howard is our last man standing from my line of brothers my mom has. I cannot explain the love and respect I
have for him.
I would like to say he
will make it out of ICU, but the facts are only God knows. Uncle fought many battles of survival in
life and when he came home from Vietnam it was the battle of survival of all
that took place over there and all that was needed to keep living.
Only God knows.
I could say my
love and respect for some lead me back to Jesus. As I think about just how he could have been
like anyone in this world today 2000 years ago. When His father commissioned him and gave
him the task of why he came to the world and what he had to do. Well Jesus could have said he did not believe
in the world enough or didn’t want to listen to the Father. He could have even said nope I am going to
be neutral with everything you put in front of me.
From what my gender classification is, and I
think I want to be; to stepping up and caring at all.
Our world from
2000 years ago to now is so jacked up and few stand up for anything and stick
with it. Much less something at all.
Yet there are
those who do. Those who step up and
fight for us even when we do not deserve it or ever acknowledge the freedom we
have to speak, walk around, breathe, and choose how to live. None of it is free.
The cost bled out
on that cross because Jesus chose to take on all the sin from the humans
created for the punishment that had to be reconciled. So that humanity could choose to live for the
creator and do their best to live.
Why do our military
men and women choose to serve? Far past
it’s a good paycheck and if you make it back you can have opportunities to help
you grow forward.
I am thankful for
them, even if I do not understand. I
am beyond thankful for those I have come to know, those who are part of my
bloodline, and those who put all they are in the hands and mercy and grace of
Jesus to protect freedoms. Even when we
never acknowledge them unless they stand right next to us.
I am beyond
thankful for Jesus and that he was not like anyone in this world.
Without Him I would not be here nor would anyone that
would be reading any of what flows out of this mind maze.
There is no doubt
I am growing weary and I am beyond blessed to be spiritually fed by my brothers
and sisters in Christ. Blessed that
even when I do not ask, they keep me in prayer.
I am blessed with
the reminders and facts nothing last forever.
And although that is the process it does not hurt any less.
My thoughts
posted last night are below and I have to resonate on them again today.
I am not here to
condemn or condone anyone and their beliefs.
I can say for me long before walking with God. I was blessed to know that if it is anything
that can take control of your life that you are given to stay as far away as
possible.
Also noting even
in my wildest days, I would not think twice of having someone move on down the
line out of my space if they thought they could sugar coat anything and get nonsense
past me. Friends, family or even my
kids.
Been there done
that. No excuses! Bad, harmful behaviors are all choices. How we react to things not turning out the
way we prayed for, planned, worked hard for.
It all matters and it is the blessing we have been given.
We all have freedom of will and choice. So even though what keeps getting me back
up each day, even though I am filled with a peace and knowledge of abundant
love even when I cannot physically put my hands on or see it.
Knowing where I
have been and where I am going and finally at some time in my journey being
blessed to know who I am and to who I belong. I choose to openly admit you can call me a
Jesus Freak and I love everything thing that cross, and the truth of the Bible
teaches us.
I am beyond
thankful for men and women who step up and step out to protect their country for
freedoms that many other places still does not have. Even in parts of the U.S. we have radicals that try to stop God from
living amongst humanity. Yet we are
still free to choose what we want to believe, more so how we want to live.
It has made me
think how many really know their worth and what are they going to do about it
and live for the creator as he lived, died, and will live again in spirit and
truth if we allow him in.
I will never deny
my desires to be loved from the outside in as I have the love of Jesus that loves
and lives deep within this soul from the inside out.
I pray even when
I am old and delirious, I never stop feeling His love or who I am to Him.
Moreover, I pray
everyone I am connected builds their life with Jesus inviting Him in. We have been created for and in relationship
with God.
To get to Him we
must know intimately His son Jesus Christ.
We are meant to love, and never be alone. But for things so much deeper than just our
physical needs, wants or happenstances.
I don’t know
anyone’s relationship with Jesus but my own.
Every day I am allowed up I pray I am growing closer through and with
Him. It is sometimes hard sometimes
easy. But always a work in progress.
Hearing this news
of beautiful family members. I am
seeking God’s will, healing. None of us
deserve anything in this world. No
matter what our talents are if we are not using them for the better and growth
of what is good. We will have them
taken away.
This mind maze
right here right now heavy, feeling the impacts of how this world really has
changed. And even though this pandemic is a historical
event. Our losses and what we do next is
no different than any country where humanity is trying to survive warfare,
hands of evil, and even unspoken illnesses.
This world needs
healing. This world needs prayer.
But as I was
thinking last night this came to me and I believe my heart aches much more this
day knowing there is much I do not know for those I love and have been blessed with. Jesus, we deserve nothing as you gave your
everything. You are the God of miracles.
Please show us the way to heal and be more
for you and your will than that of our own.
Please comfort those hurting through your love and will and peace.
Give us strength and courage to get back up
and honor those who sacrificed for us. Be with all my family, all my friends, all
my connections. With me. As I feel the heaviness and the layers from
all the years that have come to pass and the pain of all that is so close, yet
I am so far away and unable to touch or do anything for in their times of
need. Show us how to live Father!
Overwhelming thoughts
posted on Facebook 1/2/2021 evening.
Everyone
is going through something or close to someone who is. 2021 is not going to
just wash away 2020.
However,
Perspective can bring you peace, or the greatest anxiety ever.
Life
has been impacted across the world. My family, your family. All of us Gods
family.
I
welcome prayers from all faith believers. I accept prayers from everyone, but
if you have no relationship with the God who has created all things, If you
have no belief in Jesus why would you pretend to pray.
Oh no
I am not judging anyone and their beliefs.
Me I
am far from perfect. In fact, I could point out lots of things that I can find
wrong with me myself. Much less the long list that others find annoying.
None
of that really counts towards a hill of beans in the middle of the ocean now
does it.
My
word for 2020 was Clarity and it turned out to show me things I never want to
imagine.
All while leaving me watching and waiting and
seeing clear as mud with the way the world has spun.
One
thing for me is I think the worse part of this whole pandemic is the everlasting
scars and depth of loss that not everyone even today still really grasps.
We
cannot stop what we cannot see; we cannot just stop living either.
But we can do our best to stay healthy and
practice safety around everyone.
Where
am I going with this?
I believe in Jesus Christ and the only way to
get to the Father is you having your own personal relationship with Jesus right
where you are.
No
one can do that for you. Only you can.
We
can practice kindness, love, and honor, picking up our moral compasses and
learn what loyalty and respect mean and not just to team up and hustle someone
or take advantage.
In my
lifetime I have seen too many beautiful souls leave this planet far too soon. I
have seen family and friends some I will never stop hurting when I think of the
loss and others just wondering how they made it as long as they did.
Our
choices matter. Yes, even a soul who has never smoked or done anything in their
life can end up with cancer.
It’s
not fair for sure. I can harp on the facts the Flu, Cancer, Aids, heart disease
or all the other billions of diseases are taking us out one by one. And this
latest Covid. It’s not exempt.
The
collateral damage from all the negative in 2020 is suffocating. Anger, hate,
suicide, drugs, heartbreak.
I
believe we need to stand up and fight even what we cannot see. Fight for those
who cannot fight for themselves, fight for our own blessings.
Yes,
we are all blessed. Every living soul in mankind was created in the image of
God.
You
don't have to agree with what I believe it's your choice. You don't like what I
write, say or do. It is what it is!
One
thing for sure that is clearer than ever...
Is
None of us know when our last moments will be. We need to get it right with our
souls and our lives that are still here and now. Yesterday!
Tonight,
as I was blessed to be going up on stage and praise the God I belong to. I
learned my uncle and family are impacted by Covid. The sad reality of what so
many ignore have hit beautiful members of my family, my friends, my loved one's
and their loved ones.
No
one is exempt. And knowing where I came from, knowing where I stand today.
Knowing the love and blessings I am given. I would not be keeping it real if I
did not speak out and ask every single soul if you do not know and have a
personal relationship with Jesus Christ. To stop what you are doing and start
right here right now and invite him into your life. If you are a believer renew
your faith and call on him to guide and protect you and your family.
No
matter what you have or have not; everything in this world is temporary. Our
looks, our minds, our health. Every material thing we can work our life away
for or to. God is eternal.
I ask
for prayers for all of my family, friends, and every connection I have and all
of you have. I ask if nothing else in your choices of any days you are given
next. You find out what really matters and now how important your choices are
and can be.
How important one single word or action can
be. How important to invest in the right things that give life and not waste
your own for what may be gone in a blink of an eye.
Thanks
for reading this long-winded message that I could have just simply said. Jesus
matters. Meet HIM right where you are and if not be your best self in respect,
morality and loyalty knowing why you do what you do. Stay blessed all.
Many
prayers for all suffering. My word for 2021 - HOPE
Hope
in all that is good, and pure in His will, His Promises, His eternal mercy, grace,
and abundant love.
Thank you, Father God, for
allowing me this day.
Bible Verse
of the Day (Biblegateway.com)
Titus 2:11-12 (TLB)
11 For the free gift
of eternal salvation is now being offered to everyone; 12 and along with this
gift comes the realization that God wants us to turn from godless living and
sinful pleasures and to live good, God-fearing lives day after day,
Meditation Opportunities
(Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with
Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
Psalm
31:19-20 (NASB)
How Great is Your goodness, which
You have stored up for those who fear You, which you have wrought for those who
take refuge in you, before the sons of men!
You hide them in the secret place of Your presence from conspiracies of
man; You keep them secretly in a shelter from the strife of tongues.
John
16:33 (AMP)
“I have told you these things, so
that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials
and distress and frustration; but be of
good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have
deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]”
