09.02.2021_September(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Thursday – September 2, 2021

“We can’t change what we have experienced, but we can choose how the experiences change us.” #Lysa Terkeurst #Forgiving What You Can’t Forget

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse / Meditation Moments

Psalm 119:64 (TPT) The Passion Translation

⁶⁴ Give me more revelation of your ways, for I see your love and tender care everywhere.

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

You say Lord when we are with you redemption is free and judgement is yours!   Yet here we are from before time began having feelings and wondering why we do what we do and fight for love that never is.

Rippling statistics, labels, and almost brainwashed actions.   People fear to step out of the mold to dare to be with you unless someone else is bringing them some sort of tangible evidence.

You say through out the book of life our value that we just cannot see.    Priceless!   As you paid the cost that no one or nothing will ever be able to buy out.

 

One thing is for sure.   I personally need you now and every second you have given me to get back up.

Knowing me, knowing you I shake my head and wonder looking back at this journey you have allowed.    Knowing it is you that sanctify all things beautiful.  Breathing life and love into these heart and lungs.   Even when my own emotions get the best of me, even when I see too much darkness on the days, I am still allowed light.  

Never will there be enough gratitude, good stewardship or even love to repay your blessings. Yet you love me anyway.   Waking this morning so overwhelmed by innocence suffering.  All I could do is think only Jesus.   As I started pouring out the emotions flowing deeper than some of the flooding that is taking the world by surprise.       Just not knowing realizing when my system crashed, and I lost all that was tapped out.   It is not for me to dwell on.   It is for me to keep believing in the beauty and life and greatness only you provide.

 

You are the God of every city washed away, the God of all things.  So even when it hurts and cripples us or takes such beauty and just buries it underneath life itself.    Jesus you are and always will be the truth and life.

So often I ask for you to come heal this land, wash over us.   Maybe that with all these storms and flooding is a reminder of what you did in the beginning if we did not start purposing for purity and truth for all that is good.  Not just what can be good for us in the seconds we are allowed to be here.

No one is exempt from your passion, your judgement, your compassion and the mercy and grace you allow your believers to live in peace with.

I can change who I am all day long but nowhere, does it change, who I or we are to you Father God.

May we know our worth in you here and now.  May we unify in your abundance of life and love.   May we know how, where, and when.     May the heaviness that wakes me leaving me sorrowful wondering why and what next be filled with your will and purpose not my own understanding.

You are the God of this universe not just our cities and towns.  

Jesus help us stop this madness showing us the way and your will and what we are meant to be and do in your heart, mind and will.   May we learn to be the light when we cannot find one.

May we learn to speak life in all things even when it hurts or makes no sense.

If we are drowning in this life, may we cling to Jesus who gave his life to eternally be our life raft and savior.

I so do not get half of what spins around me and Jesus you know my very heartbeat getting up days and really feeling all the unknown and pain and sorrow many are going through.   Yet you remind me where I have been and no matter what you will always hold us for, we are your precious.      May we see the unity in your name where not just during disaster and sorrowful moments but learn to live in your love always.

Thank you for this day and all those that have come to pass.

Same but different and no one is exempt from your love or wrath.   May we cling to you in all we choose for any next steps.     Jesus please be with the disabled being consumed by the storms, please be with all the innocence.    May our suffering not be forgotten but be brief.   But if we are meant to carry on with whatever you give us.  May we cling to all you are and all you want us to be.   All the wars, all the hurt, all the anger, all of that which did not deserve harm.   Lord neither did you deserve it, even if you could stop it; you blessed the universe with freedoms that we have so wrongly taken for granted.     Forgive us; forgive me!

Give us strength, give us truth.   Give us our purpose and direction. Then, now and always.

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

The Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling Lyrics

The Black Eyed Peas - Where Is The Love?

TobyMac - Irene

Peter Frampton, Show Me the Way

Lauren Daigle - You Say

for King & Country - Priceless

Sidewalk Prophets - You Love Me Anyway

Casting Crowns - Only Jesus

God Of This City - Chris Tomlin

TobyMac - Speak Life

Meditation Opportunities Daily Devotion

 @Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young

“Living in dependence on Me is a glorious adventure.  Most people scurry around busily, trying to accomplish things through their own strength and ability.  Some succeed enormously; others fail miserably.  But both groups miss what life is meant to be:  When you depend on Me continually, your whole perspective changes.”       Sarah Young has the gift directly from God and in the moments of darkness the best place I find myself is diving into not just snippets of her reminders but all her writings and all the beautiful reminders where to set our focus.  I am beyond thankful for all His chosen who step out into the light and help lead us through it all in daily life.

2 Corinthians 12:910  But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me… For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Acts 17:28   For in him we live and move and have our being.

Colossians 2:6-7  So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthen in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

John 14:20   “On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you.”

 

09.01.2021_September(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Wednesday – September 1, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse / Meditation Moments

Proverbs 22:6 (NLV)   

⁶ Bring up a child by teaching him the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn away from it.

Proverbs 22:6 (MSG)   

⁶ Point your kids in the right direction— when they’re old they won’t be lost.

Proverbs 22:6 (AMP)   

⁶ Train up a child in the way he should go [teaching him to seek God’s wisdom and will for his abilities and talents],
Even when he is old he will not depart from it.

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Pearl Jam - Lightning Bolt

Fleetwood Mac - Dreams

Kutless - "Even If"

TobyMac - The Real You

Dido - White Flag

I Surrender - Hillsong Worship

Nathaniel Bassey - Hungry For You

Disturbed - A Reason To Fight

Third Day - Cry Out To Jesus

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Our choices are our own!   Not even God will hold you back from making a choice you just cannot let go of. Be it those dreams, or just irrational behaviors that come back to strike you like lightning bolts.     You may find yourself surviving but scarred, burnt, and sometimes barely holding on like tree limbs cracked, burnt but just not letting go yet.

Jesus may redeem us, may lead us in his will when we purpose to allow him in.  However, the key is we have to purpose daily to want him within our so-called lives.   You will know when you have.   Our lives change forever and the unexplainable peace even during the darkest moments knowing he has got us and knowing even if we cannot explain it.  That we want to be a better person, we want to live in harmony, we want to spread that peace, love, and deep joy even if we cannot put anything physically tangible on it as the world says we must do to mean something.

I remember my early walk and the hunger I started having, then almost like the twilight zone one day I woke up and I could not find that old me.

And yes, I mention this or that but no I was not a terrible person.  But growing up I made allot of mistakes, I was fortunate to not be consumed by the darkness at the hands of the many I had to trust in.    Growing up in a single parent more no parent home and always alone.   I can tell you someone somewhere is always watching and waiting for their chance to take what is not theirs.   Yes, it is no big secret I was scarred at a very early part of my life.   No big secret that it is true abuse and bad things can come from those closest to your family.    No big secret it is by the grace of God that I did not end up on the news as one of those statistics being tossed into a dumpster or dead at the hands of those who are consumed by darkness.

Surprising even myself as I fought and still today sometimes find myself fighting forward to just be a better human being than anything that has ever transpired in this journey.    To lead by example even if it is to just get back up.

Yes, I can laugh at times where in my past I had been known to wake up when I did sleep fighting to get away and actually hurting my significant other at the time… Okay ex-husband… 

Although that is not why we split.

That thing about being balanced, evenly yoked was not even a consideration.   But just even a balance became more one sided where some take way more than they give all the while they never had intentions of forever.     Life just is what it is.   Until it’s not!

 

Thankfully when I came to know Jesus Christ and wanted to know more and more of him.  That light sleeper where I think for years, I slept with one eye open jumping up at the sound of the wind blowing.  Now when I crash, I actually sleep.   All those dreams that caused me to wake up fighting for air thankfully the good Lord took away.

It doesn’t stop the dreaming but at least the nightmares that haunted me most of my life have come to terms with who is in control.

Anyway, safe all that for another story, just like being blonde by choice we all get to choose what we will dive into or make a priority to reflect who we are on the outside and who we will let in on the inside.

I truly believe even if someone is holding a gun to your head, we all get to choose what we will do next.   And those choices matter even if, even when.

Even if the healing for me doesn’t come, even if my deepest desires, dreams, or imaginary visions go nowhere.   I am blessed and grateful that God never gave up on ways to let me know I matter.   He never turned his back even if years I could not hear him in all the static and that one day, I was able to meet Jesus’ right where I was.   

It does not matter what or how I came to invite Jesus into my life.   It does not matter what the triggers, needs or wants were that I learned what it meant to be first by being last, and gave up my selfish ambitions and truly care more about others so much at time I put myself at risk.

I know that is not what God intended.   Finding the truth, the way and staying balanced in this crazy merry-go-round ride called life and all the clowns and side shows that we get caught up in.  Wanting to just feel and really know we are loved by someone we can spend life with.

Well sometimes we look to hard or want things before they are meant to be.   Sometimes we have it, and something changes because of life chipping away at us.  

Knowing Jesus will never leave us and his goal of filling us up with all that is perfect and good full of mercy and grace; never to take away or just be a bandage to those wounds we carry for a lifetime.   Be it our own doing, or that which is ripped from us.    He reminds us of nothing here is forever.   That everything we are, everything we have is on loan and we are called to be our best selves and stewards  with what time, life and all that comes within.

Filling all those voids with an abundance of indescribable peace even when all we are is so broken and torn down, we never know if we can get back up to see the light to survive.

Surrender to Him, not to the world.  You need not hang any white flag to go down feeling defeated.  Call upon his name and invite him in your very being and purpose every day to know him better than anything else you will ever do, be or have.

Never have I never went down without a fight.    Unfortunately, my fights were just not always something that should have been.   I remember in high school I use to doodle, and the Image one day scribbled out of me just floating out in the middle of no where on a life raft.  Back then I never knew what that meant.   Maybe my inner self just wanting to be saved.  Lord knows I as a young girl believed every verb and syllable those who would convince me they were my prince going to rescue me and they loved me.    Only to take the scars and turn them into steps to keep climbing out and forward.   Even if I took me awhile to learn who I was and I did not need anyone to be loved or make it in life.

WE all do not get delt a winning hand.   Life is unfair, people places, and things break or break us.    We really need to stop worrying what the neighbor down the street or even our wives, husbands, live ins whatever we find most important person would do before we take it; whatever IT may be.  To the Lord through Christ Jesus first.    And if you have to pray every day for 8 hours straight, do it.     But do it from the depths of your soul.   For all that is good and all that we need to be rescued from.   Yes, our people will have some great advice most times.    But what works for me may not be what you need.    When it comes to worldly healing.   

Not everyone responds to medication the same way.   Healing can start with our own being from music, activities, medication when necessary and so many other things.    And Yes, we need those with educated historical knowledge to make a difference when we are learning and growing.  

 But when it comes to your value and what you need for deep spiritual, and meaningful life that will last eternally.   Only God can give you what you need and to meet him you must personally know his son Jesus Christ.

We all get to choose; we all believe in something.  Just because you do not believe in what your friends or neighbors believe in does not mean you have to cut them off or shut them out.  Unless of course they are into what brings more darkness to this already overshadowed world.

Bottom line I can get on my soap box and go on and on getting into the details or nitty gritty of my life story and prove where God has been and is for me.

But every single soul needs to choose for themselves.    And the sad part is not many will come to realize having Jesus as a friend and living within until it is too late.

None of us are getting out of this world alive and day by daytime is running shorter.    The storms will keep coming, the pandemics and viral mutation of the minds and care for humanity will rage with wars coming right into our own back yards.

Faith of over fear is a must and so hard to keep in that order on any given day.   No matter what the outcome and when.   We are called to live our best lives here and now for each moment we are given.   

No matter who hates on you do not let your response be hateful.   Even if you have to go bury yourself in a closet and scream, cry or whatever it takes.  

 Shine brighter than the darkness that thinks it has you right where it wants you.  Dare to be the change.   Yes, I am always that one that may end up going right even if you said the easiest way to get there is taking that left.    

Yes, I am the one that I think will always keep trying to work and be smarter.   But often times make work for me.  And as long as the God allows me up to do so.  I am beyond blessed.  Even when it hurts, even when I am emotionally or physically tired and weary.

It beats the alternative to just quit and let everything go and wait to just disappear altogether from this planet.

Blessed in all the big or little messes I find myself and given the opportunity to find messages of hope and light to be or share or even nourish from.  

Step up, step in  and own right where you are.  Mind, Body, spirit.  If you do not like something.  Change it!  Don’t blame, point fingers, and feel sorry for yourself.      There are babies left to slaughter, men and women that never did anything wrong in their lives but just exist and are being hunted and tormented like wild animals.    People suffering and starving and just so much more I don’t even want to imagine to life.

 

When you have a roof over you head, food on your table, running water and showers, clothing, employment, gifted opportunities be it someone is helping you or your talents are abundant.

Be respectful, be thankful, be honorable in repaying it forward with kindness even if only a smile and holding a door.

Just because you do not have much does not mean you and your life is not priceless.  Just because you have everything at your fingertips.  Does not make you exempt from being a good human and helping others in need.

Stop lying to yourself and others and be the real you.   For you!

 

There will always be a reason to keep fighting forward even if we do not see it.  And although my prayer is that you come to know who Jesus is personally.   Don’t give up, don’t give into this world full of the demons turning the world into one giant sandbox and everyone is getting dirty if at all surviving.      Live life to more than just popping something that will numb what you cannot handle and no one else understands.

You are worth more than anything this world will give or take.  Anything that will leave you bleeding out or scarred for life.    Anyone that ever says its free, its easy is lying.   There is nothing easy about living and being your authentic self.     But you do the choosing and own it.   No matter how it turns out and when you seek rest in your soul.   Seek Jesus soon before its too late and you miss out on eternal blessings in spirituality, in mentality, in physicality.

 

Don’t believe me, learn firsthand for yourself.

For all of us that just keep wasting time and life for things that really do not matter. For all those scrambling and hiding trying to just stay alive.    Lord be with us all.  Light up your children to shine bright and lead in hope and love.     Your will Lord!   Heal this land. No matter what that looks like.

 

 

08.31.2021_August(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

Music pulled from https://www.youtube.com/ and are free for public consumption**** Bible Verses pulled from https://www.biblegateway.com/ unless noted otherwise and are free for public consumption****   (NIV -New International Version, NKJV-New King James Version, AMP -Amplified Version, TPT-The Passion Translation)

Date: Tuesday - August 31, 2021

 

Biblegateway.com Daily Verse / Meditation Moments

Psalm 95:6-7 (NLV)   

⁶ Come, let us bow down in worship. Let us get down on our knees before the Lord Who made us. ⁷ For He is our God. And we are the people of His field, and the sheep of His hand. If you hear His voice today,

Psalm 95:6-7  (MSG)   

^6-7 So come, let us worship: bow before him,
    on your knees before God, who made us!
Oh yes, he’s our God,
    and we’re the people he pastures, the flock he feeds.

^7-11 Drop everything and listen, listen as he speaks:
    “Don’t turn a deaf ear as in the Bitter Uprising,
As on the day of the Wilderness Test,
    when your ancestors turned and put me to the test.
For forty years they watched me at work among them,
    as over and over they tried my patience.
And I was provoked—oh, was I provoked!
    ‘Can’t they keep their minds on God for five minutes?
    Do they simply refuse to walk down my road?’
Exasperated, I exploded,
    ‘They’ll never get where they’re headed,
    never be able to sit down and rest.’

Psalm 95:6-7 (AMP)   

⁶ O come, let us worship and bow down,
Let us kneel before the Lord our Maker [in reverent praise and prayer].
⁷ For He is our God
And we are the people of His pasture and the sheep of His hand.
Today, if you will hear His voice,

 

 

Motivation Movers & Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)

Do You Trust God Is Enough? | Steven Furtick

Jeremy Camp - Steady Me

Jireh (You Are Enough) - Justin Bieber & Chandler Moore

Paul Baloche - Offering

Tasha Layton // Look What You've Done

Ryan Stevenson - Speak Life

 

 

 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Integral steadfast abundance knowing to whom we belong.    Not what we can do, not what we can acquire, not what we look like, dress like, talk that great game like.      Forever enough to be, to achieve, to overcome, to get back up, to shine, to lift others, to be.

From zero to ninety seconds in a flash looking back wondering what happened or what was that.    To never forgetting the journey, you traveled to here today and not worry about what is gone tomorrow.

Control is the illusion of good intentions gone bad when we lock on and think all there is; will be all we will ever have.

Wondering this morning what offering I have to give back for all I have been allowed to come to know in Christ Jesus.   Realizing how often we point out what we or others have done.

Robbing from healing or any potential for your heart to beat in perfect harmony with the blessing of enduring integral morality knowing we are okay even when everything around us is not okay.     Offering me is all I have to give.  Freedoms of choice, freedoms of will forever blessed to all.   So often we choose, and things do not turn out as our expectations planned out and we take a fall.  Falling into what we think was, should of, would of if only I could of.   All the while we mend from the consequential output and hopefully learn to grow up and be strong.

Yet so caught up in the world chasing paper, chasing wind, chasing blindly we miss the opportunity to give thanks or admit if we are ever wrong.

My problems, my issues, my remedies are mine and Gods alone; yet my prayers is when he sees fit, I no longer have to journey on my own.

My judgement my own worse critic yet too tired at points and turns to care.    Looking around knowing I am blessed beyond compare.     There is everything in nothingness, besides when balance is tilted it does not matter what you have to share, if the truth, the way, and Jesus is not in everyone you surround with your still left empty at times or filled with dismay.

 

Look what you have done

By your actions or lack of

By your acceptance or lack of

By your words or lack of

Are you speaking life even if just to you?

What feeds into or off of your mind, body, soul?

 

Where does you hope bubble up from?   Do you demand, expect, get angry when things don’t go as you plan and take it out all around you.   Do you dive in face down and give it all back to God and seek understanding and how or what next?

I wish I could say I myself turned to Jesus ever single time something works out or doesn’t.  In fact, I get on that hamster wheel most days either running for what can be next or running from as fast as I can trying to shake off all that I don’t understand or what hurts like crazy.  All those deep choices that realizing I was blindsided seeing what I wanted to see.   Not even that it gets too hard, the good Lord knows I fight to the end.    But when reality slaps us in the face it slaps hard.   Even then I try to not run to God for wants, needs, when I sometimes cannot even put him in my day even though I try I miss the mark even for thankfulness of allowing me one more moment to just breathe.

Crazy this white river rapid canoe ride of life.   Never will I deny truth when it shows up; praying I can be a whole lot more like the grace like Jesus.     And perhaps I am in ways; I always get accused of allowing my heart to be too big.     Wishing and wanting to just only see the best parts of all I am blessed to connect.   Yet, free falling when the dark rough edges sometimes cut so deep to everything they are and are doing; I find myself bleeding out.

God is, God was, God will forever be.      Thankfully so.   Maybe we are in the beginning of the end.  Maybe we ended and just have not see our beginning.    We are never alone.   One of the most profound abilities I learned was knowing that God is!    He is looking over my shoulder as I am typing, he is looking directly at me, he is watching me as I sleep, he is holding me tight because I would, I am in a billion pieces without Jesus.    He knows this about me, and you.

Even in these dark times that may be the beginning to an end of what was and perhaps our tomorrows end now; or go on a million more minutes plus.    

In all the mud, muck, ashes, and broken pieces prove the world who you are in Christ alone.   If you are blessed to rebuild in the freedom, he gives do it in his glory. Do it for him lighting the way with even basics.   What that looks like for anyone; I can only think being your best self in Christ diving into the Bible and all that allows us to grow in his will and not our own.   How to get there, everyone is different.     Find that song that triggers your heart in love, that speaker with a message so real for you it’s absolutely from above, those teachings and teachers, movies that leave you craving wanting more of all that is beautiful, all that fills you up, all that leaves you aware and loved from the inside out.    Not faultless, blameless or anything above.   But that pure peace soul depth harmony and love.     Where you want that to never end and want to share it with each day to begin straight through to the end.

I will never be enough for the world; although there will be many that find it easy to play out the game trying to take what I have got and not once work for themselves or understand what happens to people who play in Satan’s sandbox and what will happen if they do not stop.  Unfortunately, our choices are a domino effect.    Cursing the generations to come until someone takes a stand to change the path of what was to what is truth and in the end best.

I don’t expect anyone to understand even half anything I write as this maze overflows at times.   I just know I am blessed another day by the great divine and with this wondering about integrity, steadfast what next for me.   Wondering what I can truly do or be that would quantify the gratitude for all the Lord himself has done for me.  

The closest thing that will ever be is never stop believing in Jesus for all the things he has been, has done and even those I will never see.

For this alone knowing where I come from, knowing where I have been, knowing how blessed even in the brokenness to be allowed to continue life and get up over and over again.    

Lord thank you for this day, for this need of you no matter what else ever comes.    Fill all I am connected with your peace, undeserving mercy, and grace.   Heal us Lord showing us where to put all the pieces that are so out of place.

I will never understand but that is not part of your plan for me to do so.   Hear my heart, as you have my soul.     I am right here waiting anticipating your lead for what next and where to go.