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Date: Saturday – September 4, 2021
“We can’t change
what we have experienced, but we can choose how the experiences change us.”
#Lysa Terkeurst #Forgiving What You Can’t Forget
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Daily Verse / Meditation Moments
2 Timothy 1:13-14 (TPT) The Passion Translation
13 Allow the healing
words you’ve heard from me to live in you and make them a model for life as
your faith and love for the Anointed One grows even more. 14 Guard well this
incomparable treasure by the Spirit of Holiness living within you.
2 Timothy 1:13-14 (MSG) The Message
13-14 So keep at your work, this faith and love rooted in Christ,
exactly as I set it out for you. It’s as sound as the day you first heard it
from me. Guard this precious thing placed in your custody by the Holy Spirit
who works in us.
Motivation Movers
& Touches to the Soul (YouTube.Com)
Finding Favour -
Cast My Cares
Mandisa ft.
TobyMac, Kirk Franklin - Bleed The Same
Ryan Stevenson -
With Lifted Hands
Danny Gokey -
Haven't Seen It Yet
Daily Journal/Thoughts/
Prayers (Thinking out
loud)
Do we ever just meet people where they are at and love them with
extended grace as God does for us each day, he allows us up?
We are all walking through the growing pains of what we believe,
what we chase, what we do.
Yes, some if not many have no conscious and even others do
some unspeakable evil dark things to those that come in their path. I am not talking about that which we prayerfully
all stay far away from and never get caught in the crossfires.
I am talking about the day to day and those you journey with,
past or through.
We all get to choose that is a God given right and blessing
of freedom of will and freedom of choice.
And yes, I truly believe every single living soul will be judged at the
gates of passing.
And although I would be the first one to run in the line of
fire when it comes to bullies and nasty people harming elderly, or children and
I despise harmful acts to innocence and what towards those who cannot protect
themselves.
I also sincerely believe that the Jesus never went to that cross
for us to just sit on the sidelines and watch it happen or even just join in
because we are afraid of what those immediately surrounding us may think.
Get over it. Every
moment you waste being selfish will never be gotten back. Yeah… you may collect allot of disposable
materialistic things along the way. You
may become a supermodel or get with one and give pieces of yourself away for
five minutes or five hours of what feels good. But in the end without all that what do you
have. Without that image you create or
let others create for you; Who are you?
We are all so much the same but so uniquely different. All the while in the end we all bleed out
red.
Get over it! Get over
whatever it is and cast your cares where they need to be. First of all, finding out who the real you
is. What demons are you battling? We all have some without a doubt, even if we
walk around hiding them way back in the closets of our souls.
God knows he made and allowed every single inch of us
together to come to life and choose.
No, we are not meant to do this life on our own and that is funny
to me. Because we always get so
confused of what does that mean right.
Does that mean we are all supposed to find that life mate and
live happily after; or be single sassy and satisfied with just being who we are?
By the way that Single, Sassy and Satisfied is a book title I
actually ran across some years back and red.
I used to think there was something wrong with me because I am
always so great being a best friend, helper, and even sometimes leader in the
circles I travel. Yet when it came to
that lifetime soulmate romantic happily ever after. It
seems I have no tolerance for just settling, or being played out, especially
when so many in this world do not know what the definition of commitment or monogamy
means. And fully aware I am a very
strong independent woman that never picked how life would go; but by the grace
of God have survived many wrong turns, wrong choices in the eyes of the world.
But just like that glass half full or half empty. Perhaps in the eyes of God the paths I have
traveled even when innocence was lost or in harms way was his way of allowing
me to find myself and who I did not want to become like.
Perhaps the ability to be scarred so young and lose all my
childhood and find my way on the other side of being buried in drugs deception
and darkness. He allowed me this for a
purpose.
There is never one moment wasted that he gives us; only if we
allow it to be. Every mess is a message,
and every test of time is a testimony to share for those barely holding on and
wanting so much more but down to one last breath because they are trapped by
the flood of the world and all it says we should be.
No matter what we are choosing; good, bad, or
indifferent. No matter what we believe. We must believe in something. I believe in the power of prayer and the
supernatural spiritual powers of good and evil and there is only one creator
who is still with us through his son Jesus Christ.
I believe in spiritual
connections just like when you walk up on someone and really feel the
connection with them. Be it right next
to you or across the miles. No matter
what it looks like we get to choose what will do with that which we feel.
Which is why so many sacrifice the very thing that gives them
purpose because they let feelings direct their path.
Or some may think because we don’t just go do what we want to
feel we are throwing life away.
That coin of emotional feeling that drives our day to day is
always up in the air spinning waiting to land without even our knowing we
tossed it to see what way we will go.
Some of us become such high maintenance that we cannot afford
our own beings much less connect long enough with anyone for who they are
because we are too busy chasing what they do or get for us. Then if others stop doing for us, that we
just discard them like old trash no longer needed.
Kind of a scary thought isn’t it if people would just be who
they were meant to be. If we truly went
back to the time where we could walk around naked in our authentic skin and not
worry about judgement, or dangerous predators. Its kind of funny in a way when I left
corporate for awhile because I was just burnt out and went and worked for a pest
control company and we would get calls to one of the housing developments what was
a I guess clothing optional development.
Think about it; this development had a couple of rental
properties so anyone that wanted to check it out to help decide before buying. Well, when the pest control company would
get calls to treat for bedbugs. Or even
that certain areas were being overrun by ants.
All I can think is nasty, how do you get bedbugs in a
building if you never where clothing? Yes,
that is my judgement coming out.
We can all stand in judgement, awe, and wonder. The thing is what drives you and what is it
that gives you authority to judge my mistakes or yours. Yes, we all have the right to choose to
dive in and get caught up or run as fast as we can and put whatever we have
left in that safe zone we think we have.
Or we can make it our business and think we can force change no matter
how good or bad the situation. Only
later to find out just how delusional we were as control is an illusion and
only God has the final say when it comes to other people’s lives.
What you find mercy, grace, or even favor in matters. What you look away from, or what you set
your sights directly through and on, all matters.
No matter all the wild hearts that never stop dreaming. Do stop fighting forward and wanting
more. Find who you are for you and not
what others swear you will be.
As the echoes still rumble in my mind where I grew up in the
single parent no parent family and my mother was divorced young right after I
came to be. But surrounded but a huge
family of fully dysfunctional judgmental brothers and sisters and that one
Kenny Rogers looking uncle that was always so superficial and had a lot of
great ideas in going places but always so critical and damning when it came to how
others should be, act, dress or even choose what would be for their own life; including
me. Don’t get me wrong. I absolutely at the time idolized for lack of
better terms my uncle. He was cool, and
always seemed to have it together and going places, buying up properties and
renting them out. Had a beautiful
family and on and on.
I love all my family good bad or indifferent. We learn as we get older that people are
just people and what they say or what they do is the choices they make. WE still need to love them for who they
are. Not any of the other stuff.
Low and behold in short,
be it family, friends, strangers, or self. We all have made choices that became
mistakes or actually were from the beginning and we made them anyway. The great thing is. If that was yesterday and you were given
today.
You were blessed to
learn from it and grow forward. If you
choose to repeat yesterday; well that’s on you!
Just because something didn’t work or just because someone
didn’t work out or into your life. Does
not mean you have to stop the love you feel for them. But don’t get stuck thinking that was life
and there is nothing more. Get back up
and keep fighting forward by loving yourself for who you were meant to be and dive
in with Jesus to the deep and see what your light color should be in the abyss of
this world.
I can tell you I am a hot mess. I had to stop even now for the past 15
minutes and take a breath as a dear family and friends of mine shared they need
more prayer. The entire family was hit
at one time or another with covid.
Daughter in law Kelly is hit the hardest and at 35 weeks had to have a C
section to deliver her baby. The baby
is doing fine with dad; but Kelly still even 2 weeks later was fighting for her
life and last night they had to intubate
her.
The world is so hard, life as we know it gives us new normal’s
every single day we have to work through, adapt to or just give up.
If we are not hit with our own personal tragedies; storms
come, if not caught in the storm, this unseen evil is consuming.
It is very hard not to cry every day.
I won’t lie, sometimes I cannot even get through a day
without streams flowing without a word.
I think about falling in love and here I am never once understanding why
I do so well single, very sassy and most days satisfied and not with that
soulmate. Then I am reminded that the
love I seek is as Jesus fills me from the inside out wanting that deep passion,
compassion, strength, and purity from the outside in. Its just not my time.
Feeling the suffering of so many losses and the unfortunate
gift of empathy that sometimes just comes to visual life shreds me.
Finding a little cabin in the woods and hiding from the world
use to sound great. But let’s face it. All God’s creations is something we have to
be aware of and I am too old to be living in the backwoods hunting gators,
snakes and killing spiders before they get to me. LOL
I cannot go find that perfect remote island because the
storms eventually come and wash it away.
Yes, I keep the news of 95% of my time each day given. There seems to rarely anything good that
comes of it. And even through social
media. We are all so ready to zoom in
on all that is bad. It has always been
this way. We can do 100 great things
that bring joy and happiness, and one mistake that brings some sort of
heaviness and the bad always plays harder on outweighing the good.
That does not even mention when others do things unjustly or
wrongly in pretense of gratifying their own selfish ambitions or even that
which pure darkness harms others in some way.
Life is what it is until it’s not.
I could go on and on with this mind maze and things that
trigger me. I can reminisce and think
about in my youth I took no prisoners or B.S. and never got caught up caring
for what others do. How my heart
changed when I met Jesus and started praying, I could see with his eyes and
feel with his heart.
That may make some say why would I want to have Jesus in my life
if you are saying now, you easily cry or feel pains of life that surround you in
the world we are given.
I say yes. The peace
and beauty that fills you up even during the storms, matters!
We all believe in something.
We all get to choose and like it or not we all will live with the consequences
of our choices and many times the consequences of other’s choices.
That tsunami wave of what happens next will always be washing
over and through us.
Don’t give up and given in because of what we missed or
cannot reach or cannot get the door open.
Find a new way grasping the strength and God given life and power the sacrifice
on the cross through Jesus Christ gives you and find you way up that mountain as
the beauty and life that awaits even when it hurts is beyond measure and
deserving.
Let your wild heart dream big and the strength and courage
through Jesus’ power and will take you to who you really are. Not what you can do in proving so many others
wrong along the way. But the real authentic
you.
Then look around and appreciate even though temporal the
beauty in the blessings of all those things that lift you up briefly will in
reality be just that because your soul is already flying so high with the love
outside in, inside out joining in perfect harmony that putting a handout to
help others, needful or not is a blessing that feeds your soul.
Jesus
Thank you for this new day and allowing me to be me. Your will to have that ever after or forever
missed is up to you. That does not
define who I am or what you say I can be or do.
The sorrows of yesterday, the pains of today. For all the losses and suffering will never
be justified. Not with you hanging on
that cross, or sweet dear friends and family going through the storms of unseen
or sudden tragedy.
I pray for every soul on the machines right now Jesus to be
healed and our first responders be given rest in you.
I pray the world does not suffer as it is; yet I also prayed
to wake us up and if this has not done it I do not know what would.
There is no greater love than the soul that lays down everything
for those that will never be known, never be grateful, never care.
The pain, sorrow, and fear of being alone in this world is
real, and overwhelming. The last
moments of anything and everything that crash in on us with or with out someone
to help balance and hold us tightly when they can not hold us up. Like the walls of those flooded apartment
buildings crashing in with rushing water and stealing everything we would have
ever thought that mattered. Making us
realize if we do not fight in faith, fight in prayer and fight with and for the
God that created us we are done.
Lord, I may be half baked, burnt, burnt out, thinking too
much, not thinking enough. In love yet
fighting to know what love from the outside in really means from all those who
talk the talk but never once show up. All
knowing yet so lost in not knowing a thing when it really comes to what next.
I could go on and on and like a giant puzzle with a billion pieces
tossed up in the air taking my resume, all my writings and every action or deed
and let people try to figure me out.
None of that matters Jesus.
Not with out you. It
was not the constructive criticism that gives me life. Though I fight hard to prove everyone wrong
then and even now. It is not the
promise of riches and all those glittery shiny things like the precious ring
that will sustain this life.
If I had every penny of investment I have loaned, given, or
even had stolen over the years. I could have
retired ten years ago. Yet, does it
really matter as I am still here with my arms wider open!
Yes, working smarter if not at all and be able to be sustained
and do great things does. But what would
those great things be? We could have
the world but if we do not have anyone to share it with, does it matter?
To have even a glimpse of love and lost, is a better life
then to have never known what love is at all.
With all that I am with lifted
hands and eyes wide open; even when I dream without your mercy Jesus, I am
nothing. If not today when does not
matter.
Alive in your spirit you allow the promise of all that will
be. Together alone, does not matter without truth. There is no escape only the choice to give
up or give in and I surrendered to all you are for me then now and always.
Heal us Jesus and if you cannot, give us the process, the purpose,
and the means how to take those next steps in whatever your will be done.
Wrap your arms tightly in love, in comfort with and for all
that you are and was sacrificed for Jesus.
May your love be the heartbeat of all that is yet to come
even when we will never deserve any of your grace. You will be done.
We are all on the brink of going down Lord. Work, life, balance, just to exist
overwhelmed by fear and what really matters.
May we seize the moments you give with and in you now and forever.
I have to hold tight to your light Lord. For all the days I have left must be lit up
by all that you are. I will never survive
the emptiness without you. Fill all I
am connected with all that you are.
Meditation Opportunities Daily
Devotion
@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young
“I designed you for close communication
with your Creator.” “When you commune
with Me in the garden of your heart, both you and I are blessed.”
Psalm 32:7 You are my hiding place; you will protect me
from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.
Romans 1:6 And you also are among those who are called to
belong to Jesus Christ.
Genesis 3:8-9 Then the man and his wife heard the sound o
the Lord God as he was walking in the garden and cool of the day, and they hid
from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man, “Where
are you?”
John 8:12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said,
“I am the light of the world. Whoever
follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
