02.17.2022 February (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***    

Date: Thursday February 17^h 

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

Romans 8:35,37

³⁵ Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

Read full chapter

Romans 8:35 in all English translations

 

 Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

Death Where Is Your Sting (Official Lyric Video)

Even When It Hurts (Praise Song) Live - Hillsong UNITED

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Death is Never Dignified!

Although it proves we wait to long to love those we have when we have them and brings out all the fondness of who or what someone’s character really reflected in life.   The bittersweet pain always stings most for those who left a positive impact in our journey when they leave.

We lost a great man yesterday. My pops the one and only that was more of a human father figure to me all my life than any other soul in this world.    Looking at the impact he made on me and my family I was blown away that his friends from the local fire/rescue he worked with more than 38 years those chiming in referred to him as a legend.

One thing is for sure he left a positive impact for all the littles that will know his name to come in the future.

He loved without condition

He gave just as much to everyone and anyone that needed help

He encouraged everyone no matter what was happening he always pointed out the good in us and gave us that fuel to believe in ourselves and the moments we were in.

He was one of those guys that you did not have to say anything, but he got it!

He was a man in the world and seen and delt with so much but never hardened.

And even allowed me at times to drag him to church when he would travel 1500 miles to visit and relax.   Without hesitation he would even go see what I had to be part of.

No one really knows what someone’s relationship with God is.   No matter if they show up in a building of people worshipping or not.  

I pray God has him wrapped up tight right now telling him well done.

I know for sure he was one of those not famous guys doing anything special that everyone knew.  Where he could be in another state, and he would run into someone who knew him well.

He was that memorable in all he said, all he did or even didn’t do.

As our family feels the break of this now forever missing piece in our lives.  I pray for strength and continued courage for every one of us.

That we not let the yesterdays and misunderstandings make us forget to love today.   That we don’t allow others to teach us how to hate someone that we never ever get to know or have reason to even dislike.

The season is so hard right now as winter is truly set in and so much change in just one breath is about to spin so differently for a wife that has only known the life her husband shared with her.   That the many who wished they were closer try to shake off what they will forever miss.

That the hurt that wells up inside each time I think and smile of a memory that has taught us how to fight forward.

Yes, I said I was raised up in a single parent no parent home.   The damage was done to the children long before adult life transpired.    Then somewhere in my young adult life mom took that chance on love and they stuck it out ever since.   It does not take a rocket scientist to know all it takes is one good seed to be planted and everything can change.

Love without condition for who someone is; not anything in between or anything they have or can do.   It will be as it is the best blessing in life you will ever be allowed to hold on to when they have to leave this universe before you are ready to see them go.

 

Thank you for even this day Jesus and allowing me back up.   Even though I have not slept much these past couple days. And life well you already know.    Thank you for allowing me a journey and looking back on the past 38 years into so many fond moments that cost nothing but being real.

Father as I get ready to challenge the unknown and do this whatever this is next.  Protect, guide, and allow your will to be done for every connection I have in this life.

02.15.2022 February (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***    

Date: Tuesday February 15^th 

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

John 13:34-35

³⁴ “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. ³⁵ By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

Read full chapter

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Ryan Stevenson - When We Fall Apart (Lyrics)

for King & Country - RELATE (Lyrics)

Tauren Wells, Jenn Johnson - Famous For (I Believe) [Official Lyric Video]

Crowder - In The House

Lauren Daigle - Still Rolling Stones (Lyrics)

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Wow 38 years ago just barely out of my teens I gave birth to a beautiful.   A beautiful blessing that gave me more challenges out of my comfort zones and changes every single day since.

Happy birthday kiddo.   May you always know you are loved and more beautiful inside out and have so much going for you without the worry or anxiety of trying to keep up with this crazy world.

Bittersweet as our family is riding the roller coaster of the cycle of life.    Where pops is now in a long-term care facility and mom has to move away. Both giving up all they know or have known for their lifetime.    Where people are coming in like steam rollers and clearing out and posting out and see what they can work out and take with them.  

Life is not fair.  I remember the day I came home after two years living in my home and all the contents of the neighbor house dumped in the driveway and like swarms of bugs people coming out of no where to pick through someone’s life.

Shortly after that helping a dear friend sort, file, pack another friends life as they had moved out of this world all that meant something to them was nothing but piles of stuff to be managed.

 

So, no matter if it is abrupt, long term or planned.  Nothing we have in this world matters when we have to survive and live whatever life we are given left.

 

Yeah, super cool when we have it all.   But once you are gone, they will come to take, or fight for taking whatever is left.   Family that has not given your existence the time of day to those that are close in the circle fighting over stuff and forgetting what it really meant to love.

There is always room and chance to really see the other side of people.  Those that you adore and respect when it comes to the cycle of living and what they are trying to do reflects who they really are in the end.  

No matter how they dress, walk, or talk in the big screen.   The real them always shows forth and slips out.   Prayerfully no one gets hurt in the midst of the storms we will all go through.  Prayerfully we won’t just quit losing the ability to hold tight to truth and the deep joy that only Christ can bring.

As I am feeling the pain and sorrow for such distasteful endings to even if not perfect the perfect as they knew it.  Of my own family and the broken pieces poking and cutting the many that truly care.

With limited ability to have walked away for a month and go take care of things the way maybe I could of or should have stepped in to help.    Knowing the right path was taken and things will work out.  Although it bites when that which has controls of your heart strings and the feeling that overwhelms you to see life so discarded and the vulnerable and the choices, they make to bite hard in the end.

Life is until its not~ No tomorrows are ever promised.   Just choices and results of those we do.    Attitudes are contagious and sometimes those results of our own or others weigh heavily to determine what next.

Thankful someone could and even for those who never did that are trying now.

We never really know but you do Jesus!

Remembering sitting across from the man who was my biological father as an adult and me asking why you walked out on us.  Why did you not keep in touch with your children?  And all he did was shrug his shoulders and say I don’t know.   Later in his 70s to commit suicide when he was unable to fulfil and be the person, he was with the person he gave up his family for to be something else with them.

For me to be given the rosery beads he had in his pocket at the time he left. 

Only you know God why the world calls for us to be unified later to rip us apart in bittersweet things we call life.

Anyway, I can sit and think back over my life and the moments I was so broken that the love of my life was all a lie  or talk about how I fell in love with a man named Jesus and all he stood for and filled this soul with so much hope.  I can write about all the broken pieces of the cycle of life and how humanity is truly unkind or talk about how God knows why.  And we just have to believe and keep getting back up as long as we can.

Not holding on to the pretenders or broken things that hurt and take our breath.

We can be thankful for those who dive in and do their best all the time loving people for who they are and not what they can get from them.  Even love those who you step in as a job to help and they never pay you for the jobs done.   But you know you made a great impact even briefly.

Prayers we all seek God in the house from the time we wake until the time we lay back down.

At least for me and what I believe.   Blessed beyond all the craziness and broken pieces.

This too shall pass if only we cling to the light shining on the other side and one step closer to the eternal door.

God, you got me.   Cause this world and humanity in it is so unfair at times and I don’t want to be like that.  May I never stop fighting to rise back up and never let any of this stuff change my love to the beloved you have given me.

May any connections have the blessing to see you Jesus.   Really showing up and let them choose now who they will serve.

Change hearts, change hurts, change habits.    Change the darkness into your beauty and grace and when the smoke clears may the diamonds shine brighter in your image.

Your will be done for all that I am.   Love hard or not at all its not about me. So when these feelings make their way give me logic, give them hope, give me all you want me to be even when nothing is everything for all.

 

Even on this day 38 years ago I lay for almost 2 days in hard labor alone giving birth to what I thought love looked like.  Fighting every day forward since to live the responsibility I was given love.   Thank you then even when it hurt.  Thank you now beyond blessed still hurting for those you gave to love.

02.14.2022 February (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***    

Date: Monday February 14^th  (Happy Valentines Day)

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

John 13:34-35

³⁴ “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. ³⁵ By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

Read full chapter

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Love - We Are Messengers (Lyrics)

I Can’t Get Away & Downpour - Melissa Helser, feat. Naomi Raine

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

It is Valentine’s day 2022 and what a day to look at the reminders of what Love really should be in 1 Corinthians 13:4.   But before we do; Is your definition of Love your own or aligned with God’s and what is written of what he showed and given us?

Me personally is not about gifts or what others have to prove to me.   I can buy myself pretty much whatever I want.  Sometimes I just have to work a little harder or longer to save up to do so.  But its about that authenticity for all that is unseen in trust, respect and loyalty for no other reason but for who someone is.      1 Corinthians 13:4 ⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   Read full chapter      1 Corinthians 13:4 in all English translations

 

What a beautiful place this world would be if we used God’s definition of love with everyone we connect or come in contact with.   So very well said Pastor Herbert Cooper in today’s Bible.com application verse of the day.

 

So, I don’t seem to find the drive to be out here seven days a week lately.  Being my work keeps me pretty busy all week long and once the weekend roles around I do not have it in me to sit in front of my screen.  Even if the thoughts are spinning in this mind maze 24/7.

What I can tell you is Valentine’s day today is pretty special and hard to forget being I was in labor for my youngest way back when and although I did not have them on this day the cool thing was it feel on President’s day the year.

Back when it was cool to recognize presidents’ day because then things really meant something and not just a political nasty battle against political parties but really at one point meant something for the people.    But hey that is an entirely different topic and just my thoughts.  

The world is a mess as we the people contribute to it daily.    Like love we all have our own definitions and/or thought process of what should or should not be and rarely does it look out and help teach those in / with love how to find their way to being better and living life well.   

Instead, and yes, I am American, but America is a greedy Nation.   To think in some countries just for education they get their degrees for a few hundred dollars, and we spend our lives working to pay off student loans.

Much less we classify our worth by what we flash and have in hand.  Where the poorest countries are the richest in love and true joy even with nothing having everything.     Yes, there are many that want out to have more and do whatever it takes to take from those that seem to have it.

But anyway; my perspectives like love we all decide what it really means to have it, be it or not.

Yes, I am in that grouping to.  Although not as materialistic as I was growing up.   I still find the beauty in nice things.   Even if later, I find I really did not need any of it to be really happy and full of life.

Anyway, it is what it is until its not!   These days I spend my time working more sometimes harder even if my goal was to limit that and work smarter.   But the first thing of working smarter is stop playing into everyone’s needs that reach out and burying oneself into their debt or misgivings because you want to see the good in them.

 

Doesn’t mean they do not have good about them.  Just means your poor planning should not be my problem.   Yet in the grand nature of who I have always been.  I here and there allow myself to take on other people’s stuff.   And I pay the price.

 So instead of retiring at the age of 30, 40, 60 or who knows even 70s I work harder to clean up the messiness that rubs off into my world because kindness is never free or clean.

But I would not be me or who God allowed this heart to be had I not grown through these life lessons.

Back to love

Ouch!  It can hurt when you love anyone for any reason.  Especially if their definition is only based on what you do for them or you can give them.    I wish everyone could learn God’s love and the sacrifice Jesus was, is and has lived on in love to be so much more for anyone who believes in all the good he was, he is and always will be.   

These days Love has been heavy for those you care deeply for or about that are going through life and the cycle that comes full circle in its own steps or paths.   Those coming to the end of life and how cruel the world seems with the brokenness and lack of love that takes over.

 

Be it quiet alone truths that haunt many or that where everyone in the world has your business on their tongues and always seem to have great advice even though they were never part of the journey all the way through because of their own inhibitors that blocked really loving someone for who they were and not what they could get.

Thanking Jesus for the strength, courage and hope to just keep getting back up or over those hurdles that sometimes we build ourselves or allow to derail, detour us.   I am no different for sure.  Thankful for another new day with all those heart strings that are double knotted sometimes feeling like the air is suffocating and I cannot find that one opening to dive in or through to just keep growing forward.  Even if; Even When!

Love well how well do we learn the truth in what God allowed creation for love to be in humanity?  How well do we really love our own selves?   Not just for what we can collect or have that will briefly entertain or fill a deficit?   How well do we love those we have been allowed to just be with, to, around, passing by or day to day of our journey allowed?

How well do you really know God and his son who shows us what Love is? You will never be able to outrun His love for you.  And you are loved for who you are.     All that love you for what you do is irrelevant in the end.     Love yourself for who you were created to be.  Love those you have been blessed. 

As for me, I am thankful for all I have been allowed to learn love from.  I am beyond grateful to have loved and lost than to never  been given the opportunity to have any type of love at all.  Most importantly I am beyond blessed to be in love with who Jesus Christ was, is and forever will be.  All the good, all the light, all the hope.   Will always be worth the breakthrough and all the seeds planted and growing along the way of this journey.

Love well, love while you have those in your life and love them for who they are; not what they can be, do or give.  Tomorrow’s never promised and you can never go back once you toss it aside because its not measuring up to your definitions or vision.

02.10.2022 February (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 ***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***    

Date: Thursday February 10th   

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

 

1 Corinthians 13:1-3

13 If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ² If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. ³ If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,^[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Read full chapter

Footnotes

1. 1 Corinthians 13:1 Or languages
2. 1 Corinthians 13:3 Some manuscripts body to the flames

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Keep Me In The Moment - Jeremy Camp (Lyrics)

Riley Clemmons - For The Good (Lyric Video)

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Be it the two second conversation of the one you wish you could hear the voice of.  Even if they misdialed briefly.  Or the long visit when the good old days were fully alive.

God knows all things for the good no matter what we wish, want, do, don’t.  How grateful I am for all the times he shows up keeping me in the moment of his love and undeserving mercy and grace.

So much unknown, so much disfunction in relationships, in life in any given day for any given soul.  WE ALL have a story no matter how we play it  out pretending to be all that is not.

None of us are better than the next.  Just some want and take even when its not theirs pretending to be all these things painting that abstract façade all the while starting to believe what they say and do is real.  

Realistic yes for each soul when they want so bad, they lose all sight of what they should be steady on that will carry the soul through.  Instead, so many living for hear and now and what they can touch and live not carrying the burn yet to come for all they do outside Christ will.

Steady up ahead in all you believe.  Watch closely and listen without making sure your voice is to be heard.

Life spinning and you know what you know and are aware of all that you do not know what you just do not know.  Yet when you dig deep to find, to learn, to want to be a better soul and contribute back the positive into this world of osmosis where so many just ride the waves of all that everyone projects.   Trying to be louder, seem smarter, seem worthy.  All the while the world proves our actions to truly be insignificant in the end.

While you feel the burn wishing, wanting to get nowhere.  Who is it; what is it, that you truly believe in and have hope for and with?

The fight for good and evil all around so many as lost loved one’s take their last breath.

The fight for good and evil as what we do last is what caused the last breath of true life for the many.  All the while we think who we are is what should matter.

Jesus we are such confused souls and people that you created for so much more love and promise of all that is good.

The mystery of life so good, so bad, so unknown driving the world to a paralytic state that triggers what next if anything.

Lost in you buried deep in the love that the soul knows no other. Held tightly wrapped in security of all that never will be able to touch.    In you alone wash us clean and purify pulling the diamonds of your eye for that crown in the end.

Love me while I am here and stop the madness of the almost gone battles humanity defaults.

For you are with those who call upon.  No matter what mistakes we have made, what was left undone.   Wishing wanting you to come home as you are already here.  So what really is left?   

Come show us what healing truly looks like in the flesh.  Come shake us up to hold us tight.

Never let me go; keeping us in the moment every breath we are given.

02.09.2022 February (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***    

Date: Wednesday February 9th   

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

 

2 Thessalonians 1:3

Thanksgiving and Prayer

³ We ought always to thank God for you, brothers and sisters,^[a] and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love all of you have for one another is increasing.

Read full chapter

Footnotes

2 Thessalonians 1:3 The Greek word for brothers and sisters (adelphoi) refers here to believers, both men and women, as part of God’s family; also in 2:1, 13, 15; 3:1, 6, 13.

2 Thessalonians 1:3 in all English translations

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Son of Suffering - David Funk, feat. Matt Redman

Here Again - Elevation Worship (Lyrics)

Until Grace - Tauren Wells

 

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

All those tiny imperfections that we spend our lives focused on are meaningless without the true foundations of life and gratitude for even the shallowest breath given.

 

Thank you, Jesus, for another day given. The one thing that weighs heavy on my heart is the suffering of those we love. Be it the believe in you walking the walk or not. So much suffering to those who have always been out there even in their own ignorance but doing so much good without question for others in need.

May we find healing, peace and suffering no more through you?

Peace for those who do not realize, peace for those who do!

02.08.2022 February (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 ***Music, and/or daily scripture, verses, motivational shares pulled from public domains, and made available for public consumption from public domains such as YouTube and/or BibleGateway, unless otherwise called out work of other Copywrites, Creators, Influences, Artists or Authors. ***    

Date: Tuesday February 8th   

Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

 

Matthew 5:43-45 

⁴³ “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor^[a] and hate your enemy.’ ⁴⁴ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, ⁴⁵ that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.

Read full chapter

Footnotes

Matthew 5:43 Lev. 19:18

 

Thought Movers, Motivations Touching to the Soul coming from YouTube.com

 

Love is in the house + Preach - Toby Mac

The Truth by India Arie with lyrics

"Trust In You"- Lauren Daigle (Lyrics)

Brooke Ligertwood - Nineveh (Live)

Help Is On The Way (Maybe Midnight) by TobyMac [Lyric Video]

for KING & COUNTRY - RELATE (R3HAB remix) (Lyrics)

 

 

Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

We can all relate to those moments when we can preach anything, because we get all fired up maybe passionate or maybe not but about things that we are bound and determined to make sure everyone gets a piece of and what you have to say to reflect that moment.

We all share moments that someone previously has had to walk, run, or crawl through.    And unless your heart is so hardened when the loss of loved one’s even if they are not standing next to you have something unfixable or final happen to them.  It hurts!

The cycle of life goes full circle and what we collect along the way to hold onto in all our next steps matter.

Waves over come us and depending on who we are surrounded by or just in general our temperament will determine how we respond walking around day to day.

Even those that play in Satan’s sandbox and have allowed the dark to dictate what they will do next still hurt.

Even if they refuse to let the light shine on them and want better without steam rolling over anyone else to get it.

Stuff happens every day.   Everyone has a story.

The question is what we do in our chapters of life to write ours.

Would of, Should of, Could of; really never mattered when it has consumed you and all you have left is I wish, I want instead of thanks and gratitude for even the smallest blessings to just be alive.

Be your best self and purpose to not be like the rest of the world.   Where we have all the answers or solutions, but never realize we were part of the problem just by waiting so long to step up and suggest or show you care and for the reasons that you do care.

It does not matter if it is everyone crawling out of the woodwork because they have gotten wind of a situation, like a lotto win or something less exciting that brings major adjustments.

If you have chosen to not be part of the day to day and now feel bad; Let it go!   Stop the madness and adding all the negative fuel to others lives.

Manage your own that you have been so focused on up until this opportunity to turn your misery into company for those you are supposed to care for.

It is not saying your worries are not relevant, but you cannot do anything about what is not in your immediate circle.

And darn sure don’t try to rush the circle and get in thinking you are going to gain anything.

You are wasting your life even if you win temporary.

Everything in this world is temporary and all the bad passes as does the  good.

Get your soul right with Jesus.  Do what is right for who you have left.  It is not about you or me to jump into other people’s business.

Thank you for speaking up.  Something I will never have anyone stop doing.  When you see something say something when it comes to the welfare and good of all others.

But once you say it and help is on the way.   Just breathe in Him!

He sees and knows everything already.    You want to help?  Pray for those in need.  Pray for strength to those who have been called to step up.  Pray for healing of not only the situation but of this world.   Pray for your own being and the impacts of just one word or action you have done or not done has left.

If anything, I have only hope and I hope anyone I ever connect relates to that shines brightest even in the darkest storms.

We are all the same but so very different.

For this day as I hold my tongue and wait face down in Christ alone, His will be done!