06.23.2021_June(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Wednesday- June 23, 2021   

Meditation Opportunities - Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Isaiah 40:31(ERV)

³¹ But those who trust in the Lord will become strong again.  They will be like eagles that grow new feathers.^[a]  They will run and not get weak.   They will walk and not get tired…

 

Isaiah 40:31(EXB - EXPANDED BIBLE)

¹ But the people who ·trust [hope in; wait on] the Lord will become strong again.
They will rise up ·as an eagle in the sky [^Lwith wings like eagles]; they will run and not ·need rest [grow weary]; they will walk and not ·become tired [^Tfaint].  

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Meditation Opportunities Daily Devotion @Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)      “Thank Me for the very things that are troubling you.  You are on the brink of rebellion, precariously close to shaking your fist in My Face.  You are tempted to indulge in just a little complaining about My treatment of you.”

Psalm 116:17 NKJV    I will offer to you the sacrifice of thanksgiving and will call upon the name of the Lord.

Philippians 4:4-6 Rejoice in the Lord always.  I will say it again:  Rejoice!  Let your gentleness be evident to all.  The Lord is near.  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Psalm 100:2 NKJV  Serve the Lord with gladness; come before His presence with singing.

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 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

May I never forget to run to you Father; when this mind grows weary, and I remember no more that which surrounds me.   No matter what I may always know you are with us always.

 

Making me new each day you allow me back up and the feet hit the floor and the routines kick in.  No matter what was yesterday, each day given is a new day.   Pour into me and let all you are overflow out and touch everything you send me or allow me to journey.

There are somethings that many will never get; but money just cannot buy.   There are many who pretend to be what they are not just thinking it will get them somewhere and acquire what does not belong to them be it gifts or so-called earned.

 

It is you Jesus that with pure hands, clean heart we swing wide and see even through the glazed over aged out vision we are blessed with.

 

Not half full, not half empty.   With you perfect in a love that takes us beyond time and space.

My Sweet Soul King that gives new tunes, new melodies new life out of all the darkness.

I do not think I will ever stop learning to let go.  That switch within this mind, this being I want it all yet the walls of Jericho that are in the depths of this being from all the scar tissue just cannot fall enough for the world to ease through without your daily bread Jesus.

If I let it go and get God; well, it is the  only way I can let go and let it hurt and let it heal.  Pulling me up each day I have to get off the floor for all that surrounds me.

 

For all the hurt I and the words that flow, or actions even of my own nonintentional ways to all that and those who purpose out of selfish ambitions.

May the depths of passion that pour out onto the earth surface each step, each breath you are given.  Be filled with thanks, and abundant kindness and purpose to know that Jesus is the reason any of us exist.

 

I will never be enough in or for this world.  No matter how many well-deserved accolades or long noted hard working hours put forth.

The blessings of life are a gift and from the creator of all the stars, moon, heavens, and earth.  The ability to study, learn become named as musicians, physicists, doctors, nurses, vets, heavy equipment operators, project managers, or whatever else this world has labeled.  Is because you, we are given life with freedom to choose, and will get back up and go forward.

 

Every soul created was created with purpose, need, desire, and in the image of God.

When we are going through those moments that we are so tired, so broken, so lonely, so hurt.

Know there is beauty in the ashes of whatever is burning us up inside.

 

Do not give up, do not given in because someone or something of this world says that is how it should be.   Know you are priceless and irreplaceable and no matter what flattery, stories, material items try to convince you that is what you deserve, that is your worth, that is what you are supposed to be or look like.       Put the hand up and stop and own the fact you are a priceless child of God and no matter what path you choose to take nothing will ever change that.

 

Though your choices matter in your final destination after you leave this planet.  As long as you are allowed back up; it is never too late to dive into the Basic Instructions Before Leaving This Earth.

 

Yes, that is right the bible and all you can learn about God and what it means to know His Son Jesus the only entrée way to the Father. 

 

For all who believe.  And yes, I am far from knowing the facts myself until I get to the other side.  However, I can tell you the many blessings and miracles or reasons that lead me back to the father as to why I am still here today. 

 

I can tell you things of where I have been, things that have happened to me and things that I have done.   I can tell you that no one is deserving of anything in this world.  Yet our cultural beliefs in the world say we are all entitled and that we have raised up a generation that thinks they can just take what they want and be what they want will no payment or repercussions of the good, bad, or indifferent behaviors and what they do to others.

We are all going to believe or not believe in what we want.    We are all great pretenders wearing the masks we expect the world to see and sometimes some deep hidden agenda for all that is wrong towards or with others.   Or maybe hidden agendas of hope and promise and all that could be good with others.

 

In any case we all have to pick and choose what demons we will allow to drive us and pick and choose what we act upon for anything we believe.

I believe in God the Father; that Jesus is alive now more than ever for all those who raise up and meet him right where they are every single day.

That there is nothing in this world that can be given or taken from you than that is worth more than the very life Jesus gives in his sacrifice on that cross.

 

Anyway, that is my story and what pours out of this mind maze today.   A love so great with peace that you can never explain all the while we crave to know what that feels like from the outside in as it bursts from the inside out in hope, in life, in strength to get back up one more time. 

 

Beyond thankful and so ready to find the beauty deeper, greater, and more consuming than ever before.

Thank you for this new day and all that will ever come to be. 

 

 

 

06.22.2021_June(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Tuesday - June 22, 2021   

Meditation Opportunities - Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Psalm 121:7-8 (NIRV)

⁷ The Lord will keep you from every kind of harm.      He will watch over your life.
⁸ The Lord will watch over your life no matter where you go, both now and forever.

Because I wanted to really know what they were saying here as we know in life harm does come even for those who believe and walk with Him.   

Psalm 121:7-8 (NLV)

⁷ The Lord will keep you from all that is sinful. He will watch over your soul. ⁸ The Lord will watch over your coming and going, now and forever.

Psalm 121:7-8 (AMP)

⁷ The Lord will protect you from all evil; He will keep your life.
⁸ The Lord will guard your going out and your coming in [everything that you do]
From this time forth and forever.

As in life so many things can be misread; what I have come to the conclusion of is that no matter what the Lord is always with his children.   He will always guard your soul when that freedom of will takes over and you choose the worlds ways over Him.    As he will never take away the freedom of will and choice, he has blessed us with.  And He will always be with us for those who faithfully believe even in or errors and will lead, heal, and comfort us wherever we need to go.

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 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

I do not make up the daily verse or rewrite it.  I simply during my morning devotionals try to understand what it is saying, and it feed my spirit to grow forward in a positive way that will help me flicker a light of hope, good that will be shared.

Not everyone will agree, in fact many will agree to disagree.  But we all get to choose!

We get to choose what we want to here, see, consume, or spew out.   We all get to live our best lives and hopefully know.  What my best life is many be something horribly for you or vice versa.

 

We are all made in the image of God, we all have been blessed with freedom of choice and will.  However, we are all uniquely designed and although so many of us will go through like experiences that are good, bad, indifferent, and sometimes horrifying.

 

Our perception for what we want, what we do and what we think we want the world to see us as is our own individual choices.

 

Yes, when we go to school to be nurses, doctors, lawyers, technicians, project managers and so on.  We are gearing our minds to be more alike as we have known when the body comes together greater good or greater bad can happen.

 

Even that with the body of Christ followers and believers.    Unfortunately, that is how cults come to life.  Becoming anti this anti that; sacrifice this sacrifice that.   Legalistic rules and regulations led by man and not just the gathering of good learning and challenging the teacher to understand what that really means.

No, I am not here to jump on any bandwagon or challenge what the bible says or even call out buildings called churches or people who teach the doctrine in the morning while living in Satan’s sandbox in any afternoon.

Right is right, wrong is wrong period.    I am a believer if you decide you are going to do something illegal or to harm others no matter what your status, title or background is.  Well, if you do the crime do the time.  No matter what that looks like.

 

I have spent my life surrounded by the best and worse of people and have been truly blessed that I have always had the will and want to fight forward to be my own.   Even if I do things for my own co-dependencies my choices are my own.  Just as every single soul on this earth.  Unless you are disabled or a child.

But we know even toddlers know right from wrong and know when we say No, they get to choose to keep going back or not.

So, looking into today’s daily verse when I first read it.  It just challenged me to think harder what this means.   And perhaps I am way off in what I noted above.   So I have to keep going and stick with it.  Psalm 121 (ERV) A song for going up to the Temple.

121 I look up to the hills, but where will my help really come from?
² My help will come from the Lord, the Creator of heaven and earth.
³ He will not let you fall.  Your Protector will not fall asleep.
⁴ Israel’s Protector does not get tired.  He never sleeps.  ⁵ The Lord is your Protector.
    The Lord stands by your side, shading and protecting you.  ⁶ The sun cannot harm you during the day, and the moon cannot harm you at night.  ⁷ The Lord will protect you from every danger.  He will protect your soul.  ⁸ The Lord will protect you as you come and go,^[a]
    both now and forever!

 

To me it still leads back to choices and the fact is that no matter what we choose He is always with His chosen and all who call upon His name daily.     Not just in the minute of a hasty decision leaving us in turmoil, harm, or destruction.  Not that which storms of life and getting caught up just by existing.   He is with all who believe and call upon him doing their best day and night they are given and will always keep their soul and protect and guide them.

I am far from scholarly, and no way am I theologian.   You have to have reason and logic coming together for that and trust me even at this age although I believe in allot and want to believe and grasp on to all that is good and helps grow me and not take from me.   I still have that squirrel syndrome that spins me sometimes making me question and many times making the wrong choices.

What I do know is fact though is never have I ever purposely done anything for my own selfishness or self-gratification at the expense of anyone else.

 

Sometimes it takes me a little longer to figure things out, but eventually I do and when I cannot I call out for help if it is really something of importance.  Or important to me and something in my life.

 

Anyway, I don’t know about you; but I love it when I am called to dive deeper in and learn more.  I am a question person anyway.   I have to know the whole picture and the whys of how any certain piece of the puzzle will fit in.   almost 30 years in Quality Assurance pushing buttons and trying to find ways of making it not fit.    Keeps this mind working to where logic is not always the best reason.

The impact of what the outcome is should be the first requirements of anything we are trying to achieve laid out before we get started.

It does not mean that theory cannot be put into place with our relationships, our day to day or our day of business wherever or whatever that is.    Hopefully, whatever you are doing, wherever you are going.  You are thinking with the end in mind and being a good human and even if not shining for anyone else in this world.  You are not burning up everything in your path as you blaze your way ahead on the journey you are trying to make.

Hopefully, the choices you make your own, and you are giving something back even if no one ever gave you anything in your time here on earth.

 

No one deserves anything, and none of us are really entitled even if; even when.

It does not take much to live simply or simply live!      It is a blessing just to be given a new day full of opportunity and air in our lungs.   One many will not get.   To be blessed with abundance because of hard work, or just dumb luck.  Well, that is a plus.    I just pray I or no one I am tied to ever takes advantage of those blessings when they come.  And they always realize anything, and everything will and can be gone in a blink of an eye.   We are not promised tomorrow, and we are not defined by the world we have been given to live; at least not unless we choose to allow it and live up to what the world says we are.

 

Be it we want to be remembered for that 15 minute of fame for something we do or our lifetime career and goals.   Or just remembered period will depend on the legacy you leave.

For those who do horrible things now names forgotten but images in some family’s nightmares.   They may be written down somewhere in some archives but will relive their deeds in hell over and over again never to rest from the pain and torment they cause others.

A lie is a lie, harm is harm, we all reap what we sow.  I am a true believer in Karma!    I am a true believer in Jesus Christ and all he lived, suffered, and died for.   I am proof of blessings and going full circle when you work to be your best human self even when it sounds at times, I am weary and worn out.

 

I do believe we can live, love, and laugh together when we choose to.    I do believe when you want something bad enough, you find away to make it happen.

What is it that you believe?    Are you caught up in thinking you have the right to judge others for what hey look like, what they have, what they choose to call themselves or what they do???

 

You want to get on the bandwagon and call out the nonsense do it; that is your choice.   I personally think it’s a waste of time that the world has gone mad when we are trying to cancel what has been medically and biblically ordained.      I think it is a failure of moral values and truth that parents do not stand their ground and teach to their best ability right from wrong and that no matter what we all get to choose.  But the choices we make belong to those who make them and sometimes the results will not be  so pretty or harmless.

 

I believe we can all choose and be what we want but no where at any time will it ever change the facts of what has already been created to be.

And at no time should we hate someone else for their choices.     We should hate the choice and the outcome and do our best to help prevent it.   But we cannot force anyone to be or do what we would be or do.  

We can force our will upon our children until a certain age.    A bully or madman can force their will with brut force and harm against many, but it will never change who those they force are.   Even in the worse scenario the persons on the other end are still the same persons God created them to be.

 

Getting mad, getting even getting anything because we do not understand the laws of freedom of will and choice.   Only layers up our own walls and paths we need to travel.       If only we believed in all that is good, all that is pure, and all that God created us as individuals to be and learned how to hold on loosely and walk with no agenda but to be our best selves and enjoy every second of every blessing we are given.  

Even me on some days where I get caught up in the spin and allow it to weight me down.   Or I am running so fast I forget to jump off the spin.

 

Father God thank you!  For this day and any days, I am given.   Thank you for allowing me to dig into what I do not fully understand and thank you for in your time showing me how to let go while holding on.   Thank you for allowing me to get back up when my spirit is crushed for what I want, I need, I believe for myself and those I care deeply for and about.

 

Be with this mind, this spirit, this being you call me to be.   Be with all I am connected through the good, bad, or indifferent.    Even if they do not believe and call upon your name Jesus.   Be with them in peace giving harmony and the want to grow forward with mercy, grace, and abundant love.

 

May all I am come to know, want, and chase you Jesus.   Fill us up, protecting and healing us from ourselves and all others that bring any harm for one second or a lifetime. 

Lord as long as I can face it with you forever throughout eternity; my shelter my forever lover of all I am.   Surround and consume all I am or ever will be.

 

Meditation Opportunities Daily Devotion @Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)      “I look for persistence---rather than perfection---in your walk with Me.”

Psalm 52:8    But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God’s unfailing love for ever and ever.

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid or terrified because of them,  for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave your or forsake you.

Ephesians 4:30  And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.

06.21.2021_June(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Date: Monday - June 21, 2021   

Meditation Opportunities - Biblegateway.com Daily Verse

Psalm 91:1 (NIRV)

¹ Whoever rests in the shadow of the Most High God will be kept safe by the Mighty One.

 

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 Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (Thinking out loud)

Who would have known that last week would have been so out there?   Stressful, quirky and just boundary level-setting.    Started I think on Tuesday when the brand-new floor unit put out in the 12x24 building someday to be a workshop, office, workout; something other than the storage and flop area for my grown kid.  Something other than what it is that three-month-old AC had to be returned to the store it was purchased.

 

It seems there is always something.   No big deal we will take it back and just get a different one.    Then out of the blue my kid decides they will help and takes it back  and for three days with mamma ready to just burst finally has enough because it took that long for the new AC to show back up on the property.

Even then that is not a big deal; but during that time the kid decides they are just not going to spend much time at home.     So not only do we now have an open exposed area in the building that a few years got renovated and now is subject to be destroyed by the elements.  

 

But we also have some really big questions about some behavior that when we are a parent should never be up in the air.

 

It is no big secret my family lives in this house I am buying so they can have stability, because in the world we live.  Life is just hard if you do not have someone.   It takes more than a village to help keep positive growth going.  It is also no big secret in todays world; at least 8 times out of 10.    People will chop the hand that feeds them off and take advantage of others kindness and slack on their own responsibilities.

Be it they use their past as a crutch and excuse to not move forward or they truly need to attend some really good counseling to help them find the path to next steps.

As a mamma and knowing the elements in the world and knowing just how so many would rather avoid life then hitting it head on.    Tensions and worry were high.

 

But just as I am beyond grateful the good Lord allowed me up this new day.   He also allowed whatever normalcy to somewhat return.  

 

In the process of this time and doing my day to day I have conclude it is time to cut ties.

 

Done with the lies.   From those that have the same blood that runs through their veins as myself or those that have been chatting me up for more than a year and are trying to pretend to be something and someone they are not.

 

It is no big secret that there is not a soul in this universe that I do not meet and cannot talk to if I choose.  And most times they are not a stranger.    That is a blessing and a curse.

 

However, I am a very transparent soul.    There is never any reason anyone needs to lie to me; especially if they choose to want an on-going conversation and someday real relationship of trust and love.

Now before you get thinking love how that come into to play?   Love is a verb.  It can be actions, it can be intimate relationship, it can be just pure unconditional agape day to day  for all that it is worth.

 

Just like new cars or real estate.   Relationships and the value of them depreciates each moment you steal from someone for your own untruths and selfish ambitions.    Just like when you drive your vehicle off the lot; it has already lost a quarter of its value.   Or when you do not take care of your property and suddenly it becomes worthless.

 

Each time you refuse to be real, and you refuse to honor, and respect relationships you try to pretend and maybe even convince yourself are of value.   Yet you forget the one main ingredient of truth and loyalty.  Well for every lie you cast, no matter what words, actions or deeds you are putting into it.   I lie is a lie and always will be.

 

There is no big secret agenda on my horizon.   Or in my rearview.     I love what I love, work harder than anyone else for what I need or want.  And because I want to believe in everyone, I have pretty much sacrificed everything a time or two to help those who have come to me seeking only later to be reminded it is not my place and I was played the fools card in this life game of chess or poker.

 

It is no big secret that wanting to believe in LOVE and people from the scars of my childhood just wanting it to my ex’s finally needing to flee it.    Love and the lies of who and what people say and do has broke me physically, and financially.    

 

It is not secret that God is, was and always will be what has pulled me back up off that floor and allowed me to be put back together and keep caring and keeping moving forward.

Opening my eyes and ways to share and give from a distance or in safer methods that even in kindness you find in this world that greed still takes over and there will be those that play you out while pocketing what you give them for the needy.     There is no shame in my game that I have donated my savings away to find out not everyone was on the up and up.   The heart-breaking thing for that.  Is those really in need, will never get the assistance they need.

It is no shame in this foolish heart to admit that even as an adult I waste time listening to the chatter of the world when I should have just remained focused on the cause.

 

Be it you give yourself away volunteering for causes that eventually server their own personal desires.  Or individuals that you think you know.   In the end anything in the darkness always comes to light.  

There will always be those smarter, more together, with more or less that will do their best to dictate the path you should go.    Their demands or story will be so convincing that if you do not stand on the freedom of will and truth that God himself embedded in your own being.    You will easily be dupped.

Now with all these thoughts and craziness of what pours out.    As a person just because people cannot be straight with you.  Does not mean they are not good people.   They are just as lost as you are; with their own motives of next steps, they are taking forward.

Just because our kids have kids and cannot get out of their own way and don’t make the choices, we want them to, or they need to make.  Does not make them any less lovable or in need of prayers.   More importantly knowing that no matter what they do, they need your unconditional love as God has given each one of us when he sent his only son to the cross to die for all the foolish games in this world we would get played out with or be the master game player ourselves.

 

Did I mention the weirdness of this past week?   At 3:45am on Friday the 18^th how my phone was going off and as I try to reach for it and see who it was almost falling out of bed. Which was pretty funny but would have hurt being I am just getting my back to relax after pulling it.

 

Thinking who calls me at that time unless it was an emergency, and it is an unknown caller on WhatsApp.    Are you freaking kidding me?

I forgot I even had that application on my phone, and here someone is calling me not once but over and over to where at one point when trying to turn my phone off I think I answered and hung up.      Wanting to scream at whoever was on the other end.  Being not only was I not sleeping well as normal.  But once the dogs heard me up; I would have to get up for the day.

The anxiety just consumed me.   Ticked off was an understatement as it was not until Sunday thinks with family finally worked themselves out here, I have some unknowns now tapping in.

 

Anyway, life is what it is until its not.    I believe in you until you prove me differently and although my kindness may linger for a period of time.  I am no fool to know its not my place or job to be a rescue ranger for anyone.   I have no intentions of wasting time on half-truths, or fakes trying to fulfill any selfish ambitions.

 

I have never been out here looking.  In fact, I know my faults and the fact I want to believe in the best of everyone and want to love on the best parts of who your inner being is and to do that I believe in you until you take that away from me.

How do you take it away?    Lies, corruptions, expectations in thinking someone other than your own self should be working for what you want.   Not working towards the hustle of what you can get.

It only takes one lie to break a lifetime of trust.  I learned that the hard way.   Just because you know someone all your life does not mean you know them at all.

 

I do what I do because I am blessed, and I care.    It does not matter if you are a family member, friend, troll, or my favorite Christian artist.   Burn the bridge and as I sail off on with life to my unknown journeys using the scars and bandages for the sails to pick up speed and keep fighting to grow forward.       You will be left to do whatever life you are given after what next on your own.

 

I am not perfect, I am broken and flawed but more importantly I am a child of the most high creator.   If I let you in my life, it was not because I needed anything.   If I keep doing what I am doing to help give you stability and sustain you.  It is because the Good Lord has blessed me to do so.     But when you even strike that match at some point instead of burning.    I am full sails ahead.

 

 I wish you all the best in finding who you really are; finding who you really want to be known for.    With great hopes and prayers that you find whom you belong to and that you were created for more than what this world will give or take from you; or what you will give or take from those into his world.

 

I am not into games; I don’t play in the sandbox and have not for years. I do not know how to play unless it is for keeps, or for value in giving back and never just taking.

 

   I am not about to start now.  And for the blood of my blood.  Well, all that I am or am connected is on loan.   When God wants it back; he will take it!

 

Thank you, Lord, for this new day given and for allowing me to make it through all the unspoken and the crazy that does not have to be.     Consume all that I am and ever will connect Jesus.  For your good and pure intentions.   May the time for true rest and nourishment be within you Jesus.  

 

 

Meditation Opportunities Daily Devotion @Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)      “I Am, I Always will be.  Though you are a time-bound creature, seek to meet Me in my timelessness.  As you focus on My Presence, the demands of time and tasks will diminish.”

Micah 7:7    But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.

Revelation 1:8 “I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “ who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.”

Ecclesiastes 3:1  There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.

Numbers 6:24-26 “The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”