Though I may not know where I may end up before my time ends in this world; I shall never forget where I have been. Clearly knowing all the good things I have accomplished; yet always working to never repeat the mishaps I have been in or contributed to. Though I will never be perfect; but I will always do my best to hold fast to what is good and pure. Moving one step forward at a time. Thanking God for the love; the mercy and all my friends and family that give me strength to continue moving forward. Yet even this day the struggles some days to just give up and give in. I have always been like everyone else; yet so different. And again giving thanks for freedom of choice and the will to serve, and try doing what brings light around me. Instead of being consumed by the darkness of what is all so easy. The truth hurts at times and I personally have lived with many pains in this life. Pains I caused myself; pains that were just part of my childhood. Pains of those who I left behind when I came to Christ. But these pains allow me to grow daily, in Him and with my family and friends. Living; Learning; Loving.
Knowing this is all temporary. And I dare to work towards what is positive and good; and will struggle until my days end.
For I was blessed to come to this place called earth;
I was blessed to be what we call Human!
Though I may not know where I may end up before my time ends in this world; I shall never forget where I have been.
But I give all glory and thanks to the son Jesus Christ. Because I would be nothing if it were never for his sacrafice, Nothing if it were not for Him!
5-30-2010 kelly fairfield
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
2010 - Doing Time written by By Joe Murphy doing Time
DOING TIME
CLOSE YOUR EYES AND IMAGINE THIS.........
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE TIME DOESN'T EXIST.........
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOUR HEART AND SOUL ARE CONFINED.....
AND THE ONLY THING YOU DO.. IS TIME!
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOU HAD TO LEAVE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS BEHIND, AND YOU FEEL THE
REAL MEANING OF OUT OF SIGHT AND OUT OF MIND.....
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN ONLY BE MISSED, AND ONLY IN YOUR DREAMS CAN YOU GIVE THE ONE YOU LOVE A KISS.....
IMAGINE A PLACE WHRE YOU HOPE FOR A VISIT, AND PRAY FOR SOME MAIL; AND MONTHS PASS BY WITH NO AVAIL......
IMAGINE LOOING FOWARD TO THE END OF ANOTHER DAY; AND NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY; NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY....
IMAGINE A PLACE FULL OF SO MUCH VIOLANCE AND HATE, AND GOD ONLY KNOWS YOUR ONE TRUE FATE......
IMAGINE A PLACE SO DARK AND SO COLD, AND YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD.....
NOW IF YOU U CAN PICTURE ALL THIS IN YOUR MIND? THEN YOU MIGHT BE ABLE TO IMAGINE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE....
TO DO TIME.......4-13-2010 BY JOE MURPHY DOING TIME
Joseph Murphy U27740 B2
103L
3222 Doc Witfield Road
Wewachitchka Fl. 32465
CLOSE YOUR EYES AND IMAGINE THIS.........
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE TIME DOESN'T EXIST.........
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOUR HEART AND SOUL ARE CONFINED.....
AND THE ONLY THING YOU DO.. IS TIME!
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOU HAD TO LEAVE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS BEHIND, AND YOU FEEL THE
REAL MEANING OF OUT OF SIGHT AND OUT OF MIND.....
IMAGINE A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN ONLY BE MISSED, AND ONLY IN YOUR DREAMS CAN YOU GIVE THE ONE YOU LOVE A KISS.....
IMAGINE A PLACE WHRE YOU HOPE FOR A VISIT, AND PRAY FOR SOME MAIL; AND MONTHS PASS BY WITH NO AVAIL......
IMAGINE LOOING FOWARD TO THE END OF ANOTHER DAY; AND NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY; NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY....
IMAGINE A PLACE FULL OF SO MUCH VIOLANCE AND HATE, AND GOD ONLY KNOWS YOUR ONE TRUE FATE......
IMAGINE A PLACE SO DARK AND SO COLD, AND YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD.....
NOW IF YOU U CAN PICTURE ALL THIS IN YOUR MIND? THEN YOU MIGHT BE ABLE TO IMAGINE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE....
TO DO TIME.......4-13-2010 BY JOE MURPHY DOING TIME
Joseph Murphy U27740 B2
103L
3222 Doc Witfield Road
Wewachitchka Fl. 32465
Friday, May 7, 2010
2010-Never enough time! (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
There is never enough time for people you love and care about.
And as long as these lungs of mine, suck air to sustain my life.
It will never get easy to see family and friends for brief periods of time to then have to say good bye and not know if or when you will ever see them again.
I thank God daily for every opportunity I have, just as I know that people do not come into my life for no reason.
No matter if they are good, bad or just different.
There is always something to learn and use to build memories.
I guess this is why I relate to music so often. Every song has it’s own story.
While for the most part any good song touches those parts of the story that are the living experiences you have went through or are going through.
Taking them and putting good sound and instruments to them is passion to one’s soul.
Those that keep you moving;
Those that bring tears to your eyes;
Those that make you yearn to hold on to your loved one ever so tight.
Yet the ultimate are those that trigger the love of Jesus and all that he has carried you through, when you lost sight.
These past couple weeks have been indescribable.
My grandfather died 2 weeks before my 48th birthday. In which I flew back to NY for the funeral.
This opportunity allowed me to see aunts, uncles and cousins that I have not seen some in 20 plus years.
Allowed me time with my beloved son and meeting in person the love of his life.
What a beautiful young lady she is. The Lord has placed my heart at rest knowing he is not alone through any of the trials he is to walk through. That he has a delightful caring friend at his side.
Yet at the same time, feeling the heart break seeing the pain my mother was going through, losing her father. Triggering wonderment as to what will happen with my mother. As she has filled her life with stuff to not be alone, and her entire home is packed full of just stuff, that really has no meaning.
Triggering thoughts in my own life, of how long I filled my own life with just stuff, people and actions that really just were there to fill a void and had no meaning.
Until I gave my life over to God and was reborn did I ever gain peace of mind.
But that is an entire different story line.
These past two weeks, had they occurred 10 – 15 years ago. I would not have handled any of this well or in a supportive manner. I would have been stressed and masked everything with excuses and drinking or something.
Yet so melancholy life is what it is.
I must have truly lost my mind; where else does life just happen and gets little reaction from me these days.
Instead of being sucked in, I choose to continue to look for where I can hopefully assist and bless others. I am no saint.. Just never wanting to give up my peace of mind again.
So I came back from a week in NY with little sleep, went back to work and took two more days off.
One for dental work to finish up the crowns that were way over due.
The day after to go see my once best friend, lover and what became my project to help him through. Would get me through all of the failures I was enduring at that stage of my life. We had not see each other for 12 years because of life happening.
But when it happened back then it ripped me to pieces. I was torn, hurt, angry, worried and knew I would never see him again.
Yet 12 years later we crossed paths, for us both to find we are not who we once were.
He lost everything in his self – destructive mission. Although it didn’t start out that way.
He got caught up with that whole grass is greener on the other side, and once I realized I pushed him away as far as I possibly could.
In this process the struggles with addictions and habits turned full blown and he almost lost his life. He did loss contact with everyone and lived on the streets for 2 years. Yet somehow God spared him!
During the twelve years I went through my own life happens.
Drugs, alcohol, really bad relationships. The cycle went on for some time until one day I just had enough.
Remembering a few years prior I had given my life to the Lord but just never fully acted on it and it was time.
Once I made that admission my life changed forever and I have been living for all that is good and serving for Christ where I can.
And now 13 years later not only am I blessed to see people I love dearly. But something is happening.
I do not know how to explain it, but so many people I care about are hurting, sick, dying.
Yet they are being put in my path, to share all I have. Just a few moments of my day.
Be it for coffee, a ride, just a chat, a walk, or even a few words out online.
There never really seems to be enough time in my day to do all I want to do.
And most days I feel what little I do, or say doesn’t add up to much.
But like on my birthday this year. So many people I care for made sure to send me a message, a note, a call or even little surprises of just wishing me well and blessings.
Which to me meant more then anything I could ever fill my life with that will not go with me when it is my turn to go home.
I don’t know how I feel about these past couple of weeks? Happy, sad most importantly blessed and know I need to make every moment count. Even when there will never be enough time in any day.
And that I am very thankful for these moments that I have been given. Even if there are no words to say. I am thankful
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
And as long as these lungs of mine, suck air to sustain my life.
It will never get easy to see family and friends for brief periods of time to then have to say good bye and not know if or when you will ever see them again.
I thank God daily for every opportunity I have, just as I know that people do not come into my life for no reason.
No matter if they are good, bad or just different.
There is always something to learn and use to build memories.
I guess this is why I relate to music so often. Every song has it’s own story.
While for the most part any good song touches those parts of the story that are the living experiences you have went through or are going through.
Taking them and putting good sound and instruments to them is passion to one’s soul.
Those that keep you moving;
Those that bring tears to your eyes;
Those that make you yearn to hold on to your loved one ever so tight.
Yet the ultimate are those that trigger the love of Jesus and all that he has carried you through, when you lost sight.
These past couple weeks have been indescribable.
My grandfather died 2 weeks before my 48th birthday. In which I flew back to NY for the funeral.
This opportunity allowed me to see aunts, uncles and cousins that I have not seen some in 20 plus years.
Allowed me time with my beloved son and meeting in person the love of his life.
What a beautiful young lady she is. The Lord has placed my heart at rest knowing he is not alone through any of the trials he is to walk through. That he has a delightful caring friend at his side.
Yet at the same time, feeling the heart break seeing the pain my mother was going through, losing her father. Triggering wonderment as to what will happen with my mother. As she has filled her life with stuff to not be alone, and her entire home is packed full of just stuff, that really has no meaning.
Triggering thoughts in my own life, of how long I filled my own life with just stuff, people and actions that really just were there to fill a void and had no meaning.
Until I gave my life over to God and was reborn did I ever gain peace of mind.
But that is an entire different story line.
These past two weeks, had they occurred 10 – 15 years ago. I would not have handled any of this well or in a supportive manner. I would have been stressed and masked everything with excuses and drinking or something.
Yet so melancholy life is what it is.
I must have truly lost my mind; where else does life just happen and gets little reaction from me these days.
Instead of being sucked in, I choose to continue to look for where I can hopefully assist and bless others. I am no saint.. Just never wanting to give up my peace of mind again.
So I came back from a week in NY with little sleep, went back to work and took two more days off.
One for dental work to finish up the crowns that were way over due.
The day after to go see my once best friend, lover and what became my project to help him through. Would get me through all of the failures I was enduring at that stage of my life. We had not see each other for 12 years because of life happening.
But when it happened back then it ripped me to pieces. I was torn, hurt, angry, worried and knew I would never see him again.
Yet 12 years later we crossed paths, for us both to find we are not who we once were.
He lost everything in his self – destructive mission. Although it didn’t start out that way.
He got caught up with that whole grass is greener on the other side, and once I realized I pushed him away as far as I possibly could.
In this process the struggles with addictions and habits turned full blown and he almost lost his life. He did loss contact with everyone and lived on the streets for 2 years. Yet somehow God spared him!
During the twelve years I went through my own life happens.
Drugs, alcohol, really bad relationships. The cycle went on for some time until one day I just had enough.
Remembering a few years prior I had given my life to the Lord but just never fully acted on it and it was time.
Once I made that admission my life changed forever and I have been living for all that is good and serving for Christ where I can.
And now 13 years later not only am I blessed to see people I love dearly. But something is happening.
I do not know how to explain it, but so many people I care about are hurting, sick, dying.
Yet they are being put in my path, to share all I have. Just a few moments of my day.
Be it for coffee, a ride, just a chat, a walk, or even a few words out online.
There never really seems to be enough time in my day to do all I want to do.
And most days I feel what little I do, or say doesn’t add up to much.
But like on my birthday this year. So many people I care for made sure to send me a message, a note, a call or even little surprises of just wishing me well and blessings.
Which to me meant more then anything I could ever fill my life with that will not go with me when it is my turn to go home.
I don’t know how I feel about these past couple of weeks? Happy, sad most importantly blessed and know I need to make every moment count. Even when there will never be enough time in any day.
And that I am very thankful for these moments that I have been given. Even if there are no words to say. I am thankful
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Thursday, May 6, 2010
2010-Alcohol and Drug Abuse Hurts Everyone (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Dependence on alcohol and drugs is our most
serious national public health problem. It is
prevalent among rich and poor, in all regions of
the country, and all ethnic and social groups.
Millions of Americans misuse or are dependent
on alcohol or drugs. Most of them have families
who suffer the consequences, often serious, of
living with this illness. If there is alcohol or drug
dependence in your family, remember you are
not alone.
Most individuals who abuse alcohol or drugs
have jobs and are productive members of society
creating a false hope in the family that “it’s not
that bad.”
The problem is that addiction tends to worsen
over time, hurting both the addicted person and
all the family members. It is especially damaging
to young children and adolescents.
People with this illness really may believe that
they drink normally or that “everyone” takes
drugs. These false beliefs are called denial; this
denial is a part of the illness.
It Doesn’t Have to be That Way
Drug or alcohol dependence disorders are
medical conditions that can be effectively
treated. Millions of Americans and their families
are in healthy recovery from this disease.
If someone close to you misuses alcohol or
drugs, the first step is to be honest about the
problem and to seek help for yourself, your
family, and your loved one.
Treatment can occur in a variety of settings, in
many different forms, and for different lengths
of time. Stopping the alcohol or drug use is the
first step to recovery, and most people need help
to stop. Often a person with alcohol or drug
dependence will need treatment provided by
professionals just as with other diseases. Your
doctor may be able to guide you.
“What is Substance Abuse
Treatment? A Booklet for
Families” - was written especially
for family members and is available
through SAMHSA’s National
Helpline 1-800-662-HELP.
Family Intervention Can Start the Healing
Getting a loved one to agree to accept help, and
finding support services for all family members
are the first steps toward healing for the addicted
person and the entire family.
When an addicted person is reluctant to seek
help, sometimes family members, friends, and
associates come together out of concern and
love, to confront the problem drinker. They
strongly urge the person to enter treatment and
list the serious consequences of not doing so,
such as family breakup or job loss.
This is called “intervention.” When carefully
prepared and done with the guidance of a
competent, trained specialist, the family, friends
and associates are usually able to convince their
loved one – in a firm and loving manner – that
the only choice is to accept help and begin the
road to recovery.
People with alcohol or drug dependence
problems can and do recover. Intervention is
often the first step.
serious national public health problem. It is
prevalent among rich and poor, in all regions of
the country, and all ethnic and social groups.
Millions of Americans misuse or are dependent
on alcohol or drugs. Most of them have families
who suffer the consequences, often serious, of
living with this illness. If there is alcohol or drug
dependence in your family, remember you are
not alone.
Most individuals who abuse alcohol or drugs
have jobs and are productive members of society
creating a false hope in the family that “it’s not
that bad.”
The problem is that addiction tends to worsen
over time, hurting both the addicted person and
all the family members. It is especially damaging
to young children and adolescents.
People with this illness really may believe that
they drink normally or that “everyone” takes
drugs. These false beliefs are called denial; this
denial is a part of the illness.
It Doesn’t Have to be That Way
Drug or alcohol dependence disorders are
medical conditions that can be effectively
treated. Millions of Americans and their families
are in healthy recovery from this disease.
If someone close to you misuses alcohol or
drugs, the first step is to be honest about the
problem and to seek help for yourself, your
family, and your loved one.
Treatment can occur in a variety of settings, in
many different forms, and for different lengths
of time. Stopping the alcohol or drug use is the
first step to recovery, and most people need help
to stop. Often a person with alcohol or drug
dependence will need treatment provided by
professionals just as with other diseases. Your
doctor may be able to guide you.
“What is Substance Abuse
Treatment? A Booklet for
Families” - was written especially
for family members and is available
through SAMHSA’s National
Helpline 1-800-662-HELP.
Family Intervention Can Start the Healing
Getting a loved one to agree to accept help, and
finding support services for all family members
are the first steps toward healing for the addicted
person and the entire family.
When an addicted person is reluctant to seek
help, sometimes family members, friends, and
associates come together out of concern and
love, to confront the problem drinker. They
strongly urge the person to enter treatment and
list the serious consequences of not doing so,
such as family breakup or job loss.
This is called “intervention.” When carefully
prepared and done with the guidance of a
competent, trained specialist, the family, friends
and associates are usually able to convince their
loved one – in a firm and loving manner – that
the only choice is to accept help and begin the
road to recovery.
People with alcohol or drug dependence
problems can and do recover. Intervention is
often the first step.
2010-Children Need Help Too!(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Children in families experiencing alcohol
or drug abuse need attention, guidance and
support. They may be growing up in homes in
which the problems are either denied or
covered up.
These children need to have their experiences
validated. They also need safe, reliable adults
in whom to confide and who will support
them, reassure them, and provide them with
appropriate help for their age. They need to
have fun and just be kids.
Families with alcohol and drug problems usually
have high levels of stress and confusion. High
stress family environments are a risk factor for
early and dangerous substance use, as well as
mental and physical health problems.
It is important to talk honestly with children
about what is happening in the family and to
help them express their concerns and feelings.
Children need to trust the adults in their lives
and to believe that they will support them.
Children living with alcohol or drug abuse in
the family can benefit from participating in
educational support groups in their school
student assistance programs. Those age 11
and older can join Alateen groups, which meet
in community settings and provide healthy
connections with others coping with similar
issues. Being associated with the activities of a
faith community can also help.
Resources for Information and Help
There is help available in your local community.
Look in the Yellow Pages under Alcoholism
for treatment programs and self-help groups.
Call your county health department and ask
for licensed treatment programs in your
community. Keep trying until you find the
right help for your loved one, yourself and your
family. Ask a family therapist for a referral to a
trained interventionist or, call the Intervention
Resource Center at 1-888-421-4321.
Self-Help Groups
Al-Anon Family Groups
www.al-anon.org
Alateen
www.alateen.org
Alcoholics Anonymous
www.aa.org
Adult Children of Alcoholics
www.adultchildren.org
For a pastoral counseling center in your
community, visit www.aapc.org
For More Information
SAMHSA’s National Helpline
1-800-662-HELP
www.findtreatment.samhsa.gov
National Association for Children
of Alcoholics
www.nacoa.org
National Council on Alcoholism and
Drug Dependence
www.ncadd.org
Alcohol and
Drug Addiction
Happens in the
Best of Families
…and It Hurts
It doesn’t have to be that way
or drug abuse need attention, guidance and
support. They may be growing up in homes in
which the problems are either denied or
covered up.
These children need to have their experiences
validated. They also need safe, reliable adults
in whom to confide and who will support
them, reassure them, and provide them with
appropriate help for their age. They need to
have fun and just be kids.
Families with alcohol and drug problems usually
have high levels of stress and confusion. High
stress family environments are a risk factor for
early and dangerous substance use, as well as
mental and physical health problems.
It is important to talk honestly with children
about what is happening in the family and to
help them express their concerns and feelings.
Children need to trust the adults in their lives
and to believe that they will support them.
Children living with alcohol or drug abuse in
the family can benefit from participating in
educational support groups in their school
student assistance programs. Those age 11
and older can join Alateen groups, which meet
in community settings and provide healthy
connections with others coping with similar
issues. Being associated with the activities of a
faith community can also help.
Resources for Information and Help
There is help available in your local community.
Look in the Yellow Pages under Alcoholism
for treatment programs and self-help groups.
Call your county health department and ask
for licensed treatment programs in your
community. Keep trying until you find the
right help for your loved one, yourself and your
family. Ask a family therapist for a referral to a
trained interventionist or, call the Intervention
Resource Center at 1-888-421-4321.
Self-Help Groups
Al-Anon Family Groups
www.al-anon.org
Alateen
www.alateen.org
Alcoholics Anonymous
www.aa.org
Adult Children of Alcoholics
www.adultchildren.org
For a pastoral counseling center in your
community, visit www.aapc.org
For More Information
SAMHSA’s National Helpline
1-800-662-HELP
www.findtreatment.samhsa.gov
National Association for Children
of Alcoholics
www.nacoa.org
National Council on Alcoholism and
Drug Dependence
www.ncadd.org
Alcohol and
Drug Addiction
Happens in the
Best of Families
…and It Hurts
It doesn’t have to be that way
2010-We All Need a Savior (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Everyone who know's me, knows I have a huge heart when it comes to service or those in need.
First of all I Thank Jesus every day and especially yesterday for the outpouring of birthday wishes from the many family and friends, as I wish I could have been with each and everyone of them. I am blessed beyond more then words can ever describe. And for this I can never give enough priase or service in His our precious Fathers name.
On the same token; God allows me to know, see and be touched by people from all walks of life. I had no originating big plans to do a road trip on Wednesday to Cocoa beach. Yet about a week out, it just started turning out that way.
I was blessed with seeing people I knew for years and cared deeply about after almost 13 years of losing touch.
But I was also blessed by seeing first hand how many people truly need prayer and peace in their lives. Cocoa Beach is absolutely beautiful, yet surrounded by many that are homeless and living in, on and around the beach.
The way of life in and around the beach are these people trying to find a $1.00 not for food, but to go to one of the many local bars, because this is all they have.
I talked to many of these people yesterday. As when you know people who live in the middle of such environments. They become part of a family looking out for each other. Kind of like Christians are supposed to look out for each other.
I can tell you, "They are people too, they started out one day or evening just as we do!" They have hearts, pains, joys love.
I don't know what happened along their travels. I just know my prayer and I ask prayer partners that you too lift up all who are down on their luck, all that are lost and needy.
I do have an issue when we fill our lives with drugs and/or alcohol. I have a problem we have so many lost and don't see that the drugs and alcohol is only what makes issues or makes them worse. I have an issue we have so many lost and needy people out in the world. And it is only going to continue to grow.
I ask for Prayer for that the will of God touches this community; and all others that are hit so hard in these economic times. Praying people see just how blessed they truly are and instead of giving their brother or sister a buck for a beer they somehow make a postive impact to help change this bleak situation.
I pray my brothers and sisters that have made it up and out. Know how loved and blessed they are and all they have to offer. They are worth more then anything material this world can bring.
I feel the joy I am blessed to know that we all fall down, yet with faith we hold tight and climb back out of the ruts this world throws us in.
Lord we all in this human race need a savior; and you know we need your mercy and grace to ever survive.
So as I placed this note out on the prayer list for fellow partners to pray.
And a friend noted this sounds more like a blog then a request.
I give it to you Father God; for all who read this know, we are all in need of a savior and forever continued prayers of your mercy and grace.
Thank you
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
First of all I Thank Jesus every day and especially yesterday for the outpouring of birthday wishes from the many family and friends, as I wish I could have been with each and everyone of them. I am blessed beyond more then words can ever describe. And for this I can never give enough priase or service in His our precious Fathers name.
On the same token; God allows me to know, see and be touched by people from all walks of life. I had no originating big plans to do a road trip on Wednesday to Cocoa beach. Yet about a week out, it just started turning out that way.
I was blessed with seeing people I knew for years and cared deeply about after almost 13 years of losing touch.
But I was also blessed by seeing first hand how many people truly need prayer and peace in their lives. Cocoa Beach is absolutely beautiful, yet surrounded by many that are homeless and living in, on and around the beach.
The way of life in and around the beach are these people trying to find a $1.00 not for food, but to go to one of the many local bars, because this is all they have.
I talked to many of these people yesterday. As when you know people who live in the middle of such environments. They become part of a family looking out for each other. Kind of like Christians are supposed to look out for each other.
I can tell you, "They are people too, they started out one day or evening just as we do!" They have hearts, pains, joys love.
I don't know what happened along their travels. I just know my prayer and I ask prayer partners that you too lift up all who are down on their luck, all that are lost and needy.
I do have an issue when we fill our lives with drugs and/or alcohol. I have a problem we have so many lost and don't see that the drugs and alcohol is only what makes issues or makes them worse. I have an issue we have so many lost and needy people out in the world. And it is only going to continue to grow.
I ask for Prayer for that the will of God touches this community; and all others that are hit so hard in these economic times. Praying people see just how blessed they truly are and instead of giving their brother or sister a buck for a beer they somehow make a postive impact to help change this bleak situation.
I pray my brothers and sisters that have made it up and out. Know how loved and blessed they are and all they have to offer. They are worth more then anything material this world can bring.
I feel the joy I am blessed to know that we all fall down, yet with faith we hold tight and climb back out of the ruts this world throws us in.
Lord we all in this human race need a savior; and you know we need your mercy and grace to ever survive.
So as I placed this note out on the prayer list for fellow partners to pray.
And a friend noted this sounds more like a blog then a request.
I give it to you Father God; for all who read this know, we are all in need of a savior and forever continued prayers of your mercy and grace.
Thank you
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Thursday, April 29, 2010
2010_This Life(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
I would never wish or act to change who I am this day!
Nor would I ever change any of the experiences or people I have been blessed with in this life.
I have laughed, cried, couldn't get enough, and wished at times I could die.
Loved so hard I thought I would; tried so hard never accepted when I could not.
Seen more before being a teen then most see their lifetime.
Avoided more mishaps and so many things that could have left me trapped.
Who knows why; for me for you. It doesn't really matter. As you are no judge of me, nor I of you in what you do.
I just know who I have to call out to.
I have to believe! I could go for hours and give you life stories why.
I have to believe! Because it has a far greater peace, then the drama, tears and lies.
I don't know where I am going. I do know where I have been.
Loving every soul time over time again. That will never change although we may never again meet.
You will forever be in my heart and a forever called my friend.
Life happens; For all of us it does. Noting you have to work to hold what is good, this is so true.
Sure I am not fool; I may not care of what was. But I do limit where I now actively become involved.
I am doing the best I can; with all I get to work with.
And I am so very okay with this. Because without all of it, the yesterdays, today's and notions for tomorrow.
I would have missed my blessings, my children, my life and never made it to being me; alwaysmeKelly!
And for this; I thank my maker; the passion of our Christ.
Who knows if it was that movie that forever changed my life.
I can only tell you. Each and everyone of us will find our own time when the peace comes in their life..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcGJb-mPMmg
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Nor would I ever change any of the experiences or people I have been blessed with in this life.
I have laughed, cried, couldn't get enough, and wished at times I could die.
Loved so hard I thought I would; tried so hard never accepted when I could not.
Seen more before being a teen then most see their lifetime.
Avoided more mishaps and so many things that could have left me trapped.
Who knows why; for me for you. It doesn't really matter. As you are no judge of me, nor I of you in what you do.
I just know who I have to call out to.
I have to believe! I could go for hours and give you life stories why.
I have to believe! Because it has a far greater peace, then the drama, tears and lies.
I don't know where I am going. I do know where I have been.
Loving every soul time over time again. That will never change although we may never again meet.
You will forever be in my heart and a forever called my friend.
Life happens; For all of us it does. Noting you have to work to hold what is good, this is so true.
Sure I am not fool; I may not care of what was. But I do limit where I now actively become involved.
I am doing the best I can; with all I get to work with.
And I am so very okay with this. Because without all of it, the yesterdays, today's and notions for tomorrow.
I would have missed my blessings, my children, my life and never made it to being me; alwaysmeKelly!
And for this; I thank my maker; the passion of our Christ.
Who knows if it was that movie that forever changed my life.
I can only tell you. Each and everyone of us will find our own time when the peace comes in their life..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcGJb-mPMmg
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Monday, April 12, 2010
2010 Passing Thought(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Who would have ever thought the things you put far behind you;
You realize were a blessing.
The waking screaming nightmare that woke the entire house.
Was the reality of the demons being set free that once tortured you as a child.
Yet years later you realize the person you were the most comfortable with.
as well as yourself just had too much going on to notice what was trying to be set free.
Thank you for loving me my father; God of the universe. For giving me life.
Good, bad; known and unknown.
There is so much I could write about. Desires of the future; lost loves of the past. Happiness of children; sadness when they are grown and you are all alone.
I can only say the joy comes in the morning. May I always remain strong and keep moving forward. No matter what is in the next dawn.
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
You realize were a blessing.
The waking screaming nightmare that woke the entire house.
Was the reality of the demons being set free that once tortured you as a child.
Yet years later you realize the person you were the most comfortable with.
as well as yourself just had too much going on to notice what was trying to be set free.
Thank you for loving me my father; God of the universe. For giving me life.
Good, bad; known and unknown.
There is so much I could write about. Desires of the future; lost loves of the past. Happiness of children; sadness when they are grown and you are all alone.
I can only say the joy comes in the morning. May I always remain strong and keep moving forward. No matter what is in the next dawn.
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Friday, March 26, 2010
2010-HOUSING CRISIS!(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
I refinanced my home of 10 years in 2006 - a fixed for 2 years then arm.
My plan was to refi to a fixed.
Noting all monies went back into the home, paid bills and supported my daughter and granddaughter.
In 2007 I had a major unexpected heart surgery. My entire life, finances were changed immediately. I tried for 2 years starting the same week I came home from the hospital, to get the mortgage company to just allow me to make payments every 2 weeks so I would have enough money to pay bills, buy my meds and pay for the continued doctors care I was under.
They told me if I wanted to change my payment I needed to be refinanced. with that I went everywhere including trying to be remodified for 2 years. Getting ripped off from the first company New Hope Modifications and the second company Save My Home USA although got very little out of me, must of also been a scam because they were shut down.
I went to local banks and did not qualify, my house was too upside down and no one would ever refinance it; much less now my credit with all the extra financial burdens my credit after years of fixing and protecting was shot!
When I fell behind because the loan now at an 11.25% subject to rise to 16% interest and Litton Loan Company would not accept the bi weekly payments even when they were getting more.
Well one day when I came home from work I found a stack of papers on my table, where my daughters friend who was visiting signed for them..Duh!!! What are you doing in my house signing for anything that does not pertain to you?
Well besides that shock, Litton Loan started the forclosure process on me September 2009.
I found myself slowly feeling the stress and pains of everything I worked for falling out from under me.
Issues of a 1974 built home continued to surface, from plumbing to electrical.
Pool issues; Oh how can I maintain, and pay and live? Why will the loan company not work with me. I have a good job, I am willing I just need a little assistance.
Well when I started feeling sick; and my health put me borderline of a heart attack I couldn't sleep, I was doing everything I could handle it. Yet internally the blessing of making it through major surgery to keep me alive would soon be a memory.
I couldn't take it anymore. I moved out 10-2009 of my home after 10 years of blood, sweat and tears and obtained a realtor that the Loan company was working with to do a short sale. Of course nothing is moving in today's environment.
There have been a handful of interested viewers, but no offers but the actual realitor offering cash. But Litton said that was far too low.
Here there are people that I know that have been living in their homes for 2+ years not paying a dime; and not once been served or made a payment.
And here I work 7 days a week, wanted to make my payments and was 3 months behind, with a stack full of medical documentation proving I was not just a dead beat and Litton is expediting the foreclosure or acquiring the place back on 3-29-2010 so they can sell it in foreclosure.
In the mean time my credit is trashed, my heart was broken; but I thank God daily for all that is temporary will mean nothing in the next life.
Although I no longer have the security I once felt. Knowing it doesn't matter what you really come from, or where you take your day to day.
If that wave of misfortune slams you. I pray you are strong enough to swim up.
Because our state and government will not be there to give you a hand and assist no matter your age, race, creed, culture or anything else they may judge with.
Did I mention yes I sent many letters to our local government officials over the 2 year process. I made phone calls sent letters, sent proof of all that I had gone through. To Litton, To congress, to home re-modification programs, to banks. And all they could do is refer me to a credit counseling center with apologies.it got me was wore out and the big fat SORRY. Well hello! I have no credit debt.. I have hospital, doctors, student loan, car and once a mortgage.
The moral of this story; Plan for all that could go wrong! Don't think you can handle thing, Or that our state and government will assist you in a crisis. Know that your friends and family and neighbors are also going through stuff. And can not be expected to bail you out of choices you made thinking you had everything under control.
But most importantly... If you don't have a relationship with Jesus; GET ONE! Because in the end Prayer, Faith and Hope is all there is to see you through day to day.
Thanks
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
My plan was to refi to a fixed.
Noting all monies went back into the home, paid bills and supported my daughter and granddaughter.
In 2007 I had a major unexpected heart surgery. My entire life, finances were changed immediately. I tried for 2 years starting the same week I came home from the hospital, to get the mortgage company to just allow me to make payments every 2 weeks so I would have enough money to pay bills, buy my meds and pay for the continued doctors care I was under.
They told me if I wanted to change my payment I needed to be refinanced. with that I went everywhere including trying to be remodified for 2 years. Getting ripped off from the first company New Hope Modifications and the second company Save My Home USA although got very little out of me, must of also been a scam because they were shut down.
I went to local banks and did not qualify, my house was too upside down and no one would ever refinance it; much less now my credit with all the extra financial burdens my credit after years of fixing and protecting was shot!
When I fell behind because the loan now at an 11.25% subject to rise to 16% interest and Litton Loan Company would not accept the bi weekly payments even when they were getting more.
Well one day when I came home from work I found a stack of papers on my table, where my daughters friend who was visiting signed for them..Duh!!! What are you doing in my house signing for anything that does not pertain to you?
Well besides that shock, Litton Loan started the forclosure process on me September 2009.
I found myself slowly feeling the stress and pains of everything I worked for falling out from under me.
Issues of a 1974 built home continued to surface, from plumbing to electrical.
Pool issues; Oh how can I maintain, and pay and live? Why will the loan company not work with me. I have a good job, I am willing I just need a little assistance.
Well when I started feeling sick; and my health put me borderline of a heart attack I couldn't sleep, I was doing everything I could handle it. Yet internally the blessing of making it through major surgery to keep me alive would soon be a memory.
I couldn't take it anymore. I moved out 10-2009 of my home after 10 years of blood, sweat and tears and obtained a realtor that the Loan company was working with to do a short sale. Of course nothing is moving in today's environment.
There have been a handful of interested viewers, but no offers but the actual realitor offering cash. But Litton said that was far too low.
Here there are people that I know that have been living in their homes for 2+ years not paying a dime; and not once been served or made a payment.
And here I work 7 days a week, wanted to make my payments and was 3 months behind, with a stack full of medical documentation proving I was not just a dead beat and Litton is expediting the foreclosure or acquiring the place back on 3-29-2010 so they can sell it in foreclosure.
In the mean time my credit is trashed, my heart was broken; but I thank God daily for all that is temporary will mean nothing in the next life.
Although I no longer have the security I once felt. Knowing it doesn't matter what you really come from, or where you take your day to day.
If that wave of misfortune slams you. I pray you are strong enough to swim up.
Because our state and government will not be there to give you a hand and assist no matter your age, race, creed, culture or anything else they may judge with.
Did I mention yes I sent many letters to our local government officials over the 2 year process. I made phone calls sent letters, sent proof of all that I had gone through. To Litton, To congress, to home re-modification programs, to banks. And all they could do is refer me to a credit counseling center with apologies.it got me was wore out and the big fat SORRY. Well hello! I have no credit debt.. I have hospital, doctors, student loan, car and once a mortgage.
The moral of this story; Plan for all that could go wrong! Don't think you can handle thing, Or that our state and government will assist you in a crisis. Know that your friends and family and neighbors are also going through stuff. And can not be expected to bail you out of choices you made thinking you had everything under control.
But most importantly... If you don't have a relationship with Jesus; GET ONE! Because in the end Prayer, Faith and Hope is all there is to see you through day to day.
Thanks
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Sunday, January 3, 2010
2009-2010-Acknowledgments of the Heart (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Over the past few days coming towards the end of the year.
I looked around feeling the pains of all those things I thought I could do on my own.
That turned out all wrong.
Tears in my eyes so much more often then I ever wanted I won't lie.
Filthy rich according to foreign standards and a beautiful job that exercises the mind.
Yet financially destroyed after so many labored hours, because alone I did not ask for his guidance. Instead me cruising that highway bitter sweet yet striving.
For what in the end. I ask myself now holding on to God's hand.
For I am loved at a distance but without Him.
I have nothing, no one who really knows or cares who I am.
The last few days of 2009, So often the tricks of the mind almost broke me.
Wondering how I got stuck in this lie.
Digging deeper the pains feeling the failures of parent hood that had rose.
Two beautiful children one can not hold on to the need of a future, staying on that long dark road. The other I hardly see, yet conversations state he is holding his own.
Remembering when I thought I would die time and time again.
And how I would pray to Our God to just let me see that they are grown.
Then one day my prayers change to the grandchild that has come along.
Blessings from above all children are. They never ask to be here. Yet our loneliness, selfishness, need to live are given the right.
No one can ever tell you exactly what the blessing brings. As it is only from above, something so out of reach so out of sight.
I never planned my life would be where it is today.
Sure I have it going on; the surface allows me to vent all my desires all my needs.
Giving back to anyone in God's needs.
Or at least so I try to please.
Staying so busy so I don't have to think.
Yet when you are in love with someone so far out of reach.
There is nothing more you can do. But emotionally bleed.
Cut's so deep, the love just oozes in a slow painful smolder.
Just knowing they will never be your crying shoulder.
The Lord has blessed me in this life. Walking me out of darkness so many times, leaving me to choose that great divide.
I love my Lord, Jesus Christ the Father, Son and Holy Ghost.
He has my soul and will never let go.
Yet although I finally got it after so many test trials.
I go down with the best of them. Feeling what is missed in the flesh. Feeling all those things I take so personal, such as choices a child makes. Thinking about the healing and giving of life, cervical cancer, four hour heart surgery. How does my God know what to do, how does he know what is like. When will I gain is full purpose for my life. I think how stupid I have been a time or two. Knowing he has me right where I should be at least how I convince myself from loneliness blues.
I love life more then myself at times.
I love people all colors, all sizes all personalities even in these times.
I love that special someone, a man after Gods own heart. Yet to say he even notices me is truly the horse before the cart.
My family, my friends when I walk out these doors.
I can't wait for heaven where there will not even be walls anymore.
I don't know where or what tomorrow will bring.
I do know I make efforts to never let go of those whom I have been blessed with in the yesterdays, todays or even tonight's.
No matter where their heart is wrong or right.
My prayers are daily they may soon all see through God's eyes.
So no matter how sad I feel alone in time.
No matter how many tears I can't hold back when those people I love move over to the promise land. I pray as the song my strength that comes from him truly will allow me to Rise when he calls my name. That I may never give up or in; to what is temporary. No matter what it is that I am missing.
May I continue to love at a distance. And be given the spirit to acknowledge if my time is ever given. I recognize the signs so I do not miss him again.
So prayerfully I share the goodbyes to 2009. Opening to 2010 my heart, my arms and eyes.
Prayers for those who are close and so sick and I know are soon to die.
Prayers for those thinking they can get a piece of what I have in this ride, knowing it is their own fools game, wondering why they even try.
Prayers for those that are new sharing their journeys to my eyes. May their experiences bless more then a passing moment in their life.
Prayers who continually tell me to keep getting that religion. When they are so far off, may they sometime feel the peace in my relationship with Him I have been given.
Prayers for those Lord who lost what they seem to be their entire life. They partners, their careers, their everything it's just not right. May they be blessed with your new love.
May I continue to be your child Lord Jesus Christ. May I learn to accept the blessings of your beacon of light.
May I share all that is good. May Lord my hearts desires be fully handled by your site.
May you accept my thanks for all I have been blessed with and to do, for others seeing the joy on their face. May that joy expand to more then just my heart's place.
Crazy I am, I was, I will always be. Be it 2009 or 2010 I am always just me.
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
I looked around feeling the pains of all those things I thought I could do on my own.
That turned out all wrong.
Tears in my eyes so much more often then I ever wanted I won't lie.
Filthy rich according to foreign standards and a beautiful job that exercises the mind.
Yet financially destroyed after so many labored hours, because alone I did not ask for his guidance. Instead me cruising that highway bitter sweet yet striving.
For what in the end. I ask myself now holding on to God's hand.
For I am loved at a distance but without Him.
I have nothing, no one who really knows or cares who I am.
The last few days of 2009, So often the tricks of the mind almost broke me.
Wondering how I got stuck in this lie.
Digging deeper the pains feeling the failures of parent hood that had rose.
Two beautiful children one can not hold on to the need of a future, staying on that long dark road. The other I hardly see, yet conversations state he is holding his own.
Remembering when I thought I would die time and time again.
And how I would pray to Our God to just let me see that they are grown.
Then one day my prayers change to the grandchild that has come along.
Blessings from above all children are. They never ask to be here. Yet our loneliness, selfishness, need to live are given the right.
No one can ever tell you exactly what the blessing brings. As it is only from above, something so out of reach so out of sight.
I never planned my life would be where it is today.
Sure I have it going on; the surface allows me to vent all my desires all my needs.
Giving back to anyone in God's needs.
Or at least so I try to please.
Staying so busy so I don't have to think.
Yet when you are in love with someone so far out of reach.
There is nothing more you can do. But emotionally bleed.
Cut's so deep, the love just oozes in a slow painful smolder.
Just knowing they will never be your crying shoulder.
The Lord has blessed me in this life. Walking me out of darkness so many times, leaving me to choose that great divide.
I love my Lord, Jesus Christ the Father, Son and Holy Ghost.
He has my soul and will never let go.
Yet although I finally got it after so many test trials.
I go down with the best of them. Feeling what is missed in the flesh. Feeling all those things I take so personal, such as choices a child makes. Thinking about the healing and giving of life, cervical cancer, four hour heart surgery. How does my God know what to do, how does he know what is like. When will I gain is full purpose for my life. I think how stupid I have been a time or two. Knowing he has me right where I should be at least how I convince myself from loneliness blues.
I love life more then myself at times.
I love people all colors, all sizes all personalities even in these times.
I love that special someone, a man after Gods own heart. Yet to say he even notices me is truly the horse before the cart.
My family, my friends when I walk out these doors.
I can't wait for heaven where there will not even be walls anymore.
I don't know where or what tomorrow will bring.
I do know I make efforts to never let go of those whom I have been blessed with in the yesterdays, todays or even tonight's.
No matter where their heart is wrong or right.
My prayers are daily they may soon all see through God's eyes.
So no matter how sad I feel alone in time.
No matter how many tears I can't hold back when those people I love move over to the promise land. I pray as the song my strength that comes from him truly will allow me to Rise when he calls my name. That I may never give up or in; to what is temporary. No matter what it is that I am missing.
May I continue to love at a distance. And be given the spirit to acknowledge if my time is ever given. I recognize the signs so I do not miss him again.
So prayerfully I share the goodbyes to 2009. Opening to 2010 my heart, my arms and eyes.
Prayers for those who are close and so sick and I know are soon to die.
Prayers for those thinking they can get a piece of what I have in this ride, knowing it is their own fools game, wondering why they even try.
Prayers for those that are new sharing their journeys to my eyes. May their experiences bless more then a passing moment in their life.
Prayers who continually tell me to keep getting that religion. When they are so far off, may they sometime feel the peace in my relationship with Him I have been given.
Prayers for those Lord who lost what they seem to be their entire life. They partners, their careers, their everything it's just not right. May they be blessed with your new love.
May I continue to be your child Lord Jesus Christ. May I learn to accept the blessings of your beacon of light.
May I share all that is good. May Lord my hearts desires be fully handled by your site.
May you accept my thanks for all I have been blessed with and to do, for others seeing the joy on their face. May that joy expand to more then just my heart's place.
Crazy I am, I was, I will always be. Be it 2009 or 2010 I am always just me.
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
2010_FRIENDS HANDBOOK
This is some good stuff....
HANDBOOK 2010
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about, I just did.
HANDBOOK 2010
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40. Please Forward this to everyone you care about, I just did.
Monday, December 14, 2009
2009-IT IS OKAY(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
It Is Okay
It is Okay right now
you always get what you want.
you always get what you need.
you get what you see if you need or want something
you want you get to and it is not fair to me.
Written by Jalexus V 10-2009 for her second grade music class assignment
It is Okay right now
you always get what you want.
you always get what you need.
you get what you see if you need or want something
you want you get to and it is not fair to me.
Written by Jalexus V 10-2009 for her second grade music class assignment
2009-Happy Birthday Jesus(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
We often pray for our family, friends and loved ones. Praying for those who are sick, injured or going through some crises.
We pray for end results, or a fix to something that is turning our lives upside down.
Praying for material things, or love from the unknown. Do we pray more at Christmas time? Do we expect more?
As we go through the lacking efforts of just acknowledging and putting Christ every part of every one of our days.
We raise concerns that we are taking IN GOD WE TRUST out of the public eye. We raise concerns that someone wants to be different and make it a law we can not have CHRISTMAS during the CHRISTMAS season. But everything is now a holiday.
Yet do we really step out and acknowledge that “Jesus is the reason for every season!”
Sure we all believe in something. I am not here to judge you; I know what I believe and what works for me.
I am no authority; but I know what has worked for me.
So why can’t we have:
Prayers for our father that May He never get tired of our human lacking ways and inabilities.
Prayers for those who judge and determine they have all the answers and quickly condemn or have something better for the people, places and things they encounter on a daily basis.
Prayers for all our care givers, and care takers. May God's strength and will continue to fill their lives, allowing all of us the blessings of their services at one time or another.
Prayers for those with addictions that they feel so out of touch they have to numb themselves from all they deal with on a daily basis.
Prayers for our Service Men and Women; away from the comforts of home, in the middle of all that will be forever imprinted on their hearts and minds.
Prayers for the throw away parents, May God teach you abstinence, and/or ways to protect the blessings you are just not ready to accept.
Prayers for the evil minds; that God has mercy on your souls, and warms your hearts to stop all the harmful sick things you are doing.
Prayers for the cheaters, liars, and thieves may God give you strength, courage and will to want to do what is right.
Prayers for the takers, which must continually use up what others have, yet can not get out and do for themselves or show they can do for others.
That doesn’t mean I don’t believe in prayers for all that are in need, desperate, hurting, sick, dying.
Prayers for the husband or wife who has been together for years and one will now suffer loneliness as the other has gone ahead.
Prayers for the children, who are beaten, broken, tormented and tortured, left to cry in the dark if they are even able to make a sound at all.
Prayers for the people who are suffering issues with mental illness; afraid and alone in the world of their own.
Prayers for the person unemployed, not knowing how they will feed or house their family, feeling so strapped they just can not go on.
Prayers for all that can never see past the darkness this world sometimes over whelms us with.
Thank you Lord for protecting our nations; thank you for allowing we mere specs in the grand scheme of things to even one ability of your life and wisdom.
Not only on this day; but every day you allow us life and freedom of choice.
For I will never be a scholar when it comes to knowing even a sliver of what you really have done for me or anyone else of this world.
But I know I have been blessed in more ways then I can ever repay.
I will still want things I should not have, I will still do things I should have never done.
And in the end I know despite even my best efforts on my best days. I or anyone I know could never deserve your blessings.
Yet you have and continue to bless me and my family and friends and people I may never know. THANK YOU
Happy Birthday Jesus
During this CHRISTmas season and every day~
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
We pray for end results, or a fix to something that is turning our lives upside down.
Praying for material things, or love from the unknown. Do we pray more at Christmas time? Do we expect more?
As we go through the lacking efforts of just acknowledging and putting Christ every part of every one of our days.
We raise concerns that we are taking IN GOD WE TRUST out of the public eye. We raise concerns that someone wants to be different and make it a law we can not have CHRISTMAS during the CHRISTMAS season. But everything is now a holiday.
Yet do we really step out and acknowledge that “Jesus is the reason for every season!”
Sure we all believe in something. I am not here to judge you; I know what I believe and what works for me.
I am no authority; but I know what has worked for me.
So why can’t we have:
Prayers for our father that May He never get tired of our human lacking ways and inabilities.
Prayers for those who judge and determine they have all the answers and quickly condemn or have something better for the people, places and things they encounter on a daily basis.
Prayers for all our care givers, and care takers. May God's strength and will continue to fill their lives, allowing all of us the blessings of their services at one time or another.
Prayers for those with addictions that they feel so out of touch they have to numb themselves from all they deal with on a daily basis.
Prayers for our Service Men and Women; away from the comforts of home, in the middle of all that will be forever imprinted on their hearts and minds.
Prayers for the throw away parents, May God teach you abstinence, and/or ways to protect the blessings you are just not ready to accept.
Prayers for the evil minds; that God has mercy on your souls, and warms your hearts to stop all the harmful sick things you are doing.
Prayers for the cheaters, liars, and thieves may God give you strength, courage and will to want to do what is right.
Prayers for the takers, which must continually use up what others have, yet can not get out and do for themselves or show they can do for others.
That doesn’t mean I don’t believe in prayers for all that are in need, desperate, hurting, sick, dying.
Prayers for the husband or wife who has been together for years and one will now suffer loneliness as the other has gone ahead.
Prayers for the children, who are beaten, broken, tormented and tortured, left to cry in the dark if they are even able to make a sound at all.
Prayers for the people who are suffering issues with mental illness; afraid and alone in the world of their own.
Prayers for the person unemployed, not knowing how they will feed or house their family, feeling so strapped they just can not go on.
Prayers for all that can never see past the darkness this world sometimes over whelms us with.
Thank you Lord for protecting our nations; thank you for allowing we mere specs in the grand scheme of things to even one ability of your life and wisdom.
Not only on this day; but every day you allow us life and freedom of choice.
For I will never be a scholar when it comes to knowing even a sliver of what you really have done for me or anyone else of this world.
But I know I have been blessed in more ways then I can ever repay.
I will still want things I should not have, I will still do things I should have never done.
And in the end I know despite even my best efforts on my best days. I or anyone I know could never deserve your blessings.
Yet you have and continue to bless me and my family and friends and people I may never know. THANK YOU
Happy Birthday Jesus
During this CHRISTmas season and every day~
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
Saturday, November 14, 2009
2009-THOUGHT FOR THE DAY(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Thought for the day
Though I am always running around doing work or trying to play. In Him I rest, for now there is no other way. For all that is here, is only temporary. As life moves forward this too shall pass. I can only hope my faith is true; and I am worthy enough for His eternal grace. Because I just can't wait for that tropical island, with the music playing around, and nothing but smiles on everyone's face.
With no room for sorrow; no room for hate.
No regrets or pain of hurt in any state.
To share the love, even when at once it was thought to be lost.
Life will be grand, as Jesus has already gauranteed that, when he paid the cost.
Though I am always running around doing work or trying to play. In Him I rest, for now there is no other way. For all that is here, is only temporary. As life moves forward this too shall pass. I can only hope my faith is true; and I am worthy enough for His eternal grace. Because I just can't wait for that tropical island, with the music playing around, and nothing but smiles on everyone's face.
With no room for sorrow; no room for hate.
No regrets or pain of hurt in any state.
To share the love, even when at once it was thought to be lost.
Life will be grand, as Jesus has already gauranteed that, when he paid the cost.
Monday, November 2, 2009
2009-I can't reach her!(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
The most painful times in life are when you watch those you love; die a slow death at others hands.
And they just won't take stock in the truth they are worth so much and have been giving so many precious un-replacable blessings. That once they are gone; a light goes out making this world an even darker place to reside.
I pray our God can protect and hold the innocent dear. While we are lost and just don't see the dangers, because of or co-dependency of needing to be controlled, loved, and wanted.
Even when it is by all the wrong things of this life!
Title Blog Entry
The most painful times in life are when you watch those you love; die a slow death at others hands.
And they just won't take stock in the truth they are worth so much and have been giving so many precious un-replacable blessings. That once they are gone; a light goes out making this world an even darker place to reside.
I pray our God can protect and hold the innocent dear. While we are lost and just don't see the dangers, because of or co-dependency of needing to be controlled, loved, and wanted.
Even when it is by all the wrong
And they just won't take stock in the truth they are worth so much and have been giving so many precious un-replacable blessings. That once they are gone; a light goes out making this world an even darker place to reside.
I pray our God can protect and hold the innocent dear. While we are lost and just don't see the dangers, because of or co-dependency of needing to be controlled, loved, and wanted.
Even when it is by all the wrong things of this life!
Title Blog Entry
The most painful times in life are when you watch those you love; die a slow death at others hands.
And they just won't take stock in the truth they are worth so much and have been giving so many precious un-replacable blessings. That once they are gone; a light goes out making this world an even darker place to reside.
I pray our God can protect and hold the innocent dear. While we are lost and just don't see the dangers, because of or co-dependency of needing to be controlled, loved, and wanted.
Even when it is by all the wrong
Thursday, October 22, 2009
2009-To everything there is a season(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
"To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven." Ecclesiastes 3:15
Autumn leaves are falling -- a beautiful sight, but to many people a sad one too, because it means that summer's blooms and brightness will soon be replaced by winter's barrenness and darkness.
But why be sad? Scripture tells us that every season has its beauty and its purpose. Think about the special beauties of winter that we can look forward to: The glow of a warm fire…sunlight sparkling on ice-covered branches or moonlight shining on snow… the way we can see further without leaves on the trees…and of course the magical and holy time of Christmas. And think about the purpose of winter: Nature rests and renews itself for new growth. In the same way we can renew ourselves, by using the extra time we must spend indoors for prayer and study of God's Word.
At OurPrayer.org, one thing that is common to every season is the faithfulness of our volunteers in lifting up to the Lord every prayer request we receive. When you entrust your deepest concerns to us we are honored to pray for you by name and need. May God bless you in this and every season of your life.
Autumn leaves are falling -- a beautiful sight, but to many people a sad one too, because it means that summer's blooms and brightness will soon be replaced by winter's barrenness and darkness.
But why be sad? Scripture tells us that every season has its beauty and its purpose. Think about the special beauties of winter that we can look forward to: The glow of a warm fire…sunlight sparkling on ice-covered branches or moonlight shining on snow… the way we can see further without leaves on the trees…and of course the magical and holy time of Christmas. And think about the purpose of winter: Nature rests and renews itself for new growth. In the same way we can renew ourselves, by using the extra time we must spend indoors for prayer and study of God's Word.
At OurPrayer.org, one thing that is common to every season is the faithfulness of our volunteers in lifting up to the Lord every prayer request we receive. When you entrust your deepest concerns to us we are honored to pray for you by name and need. May God bless you in this and every season of your life.
2009-If I kept a diary(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
If I kept a diary it may read something like this.
Dear Lord
Today is such and such a day. Nothing out of the unusual on this day.
As you know before it even occurs; my life is always a whirlwind.
My alarm went off at 4am, as I lay there and try to think of worthy words to say to you. The only thing I could get out was giving thanks for another day, asking forgiveness on all the things that I just don't get, or miss. And protection and your will for myself, my family and all those who can not protect themselves.
On this day in particular; how tired am I from the emotional, physical changes continually going on. The stress of worry for my daughter and her daughter and all that has transpired. The endless thoughts of could I have done anything different to make it turn out differently.
To the peace I have with you, knowing without the trials in life; I would not be the person I am today.
So I never picked my life in a sense. I never planned on being awaken at 10 years old from a sound sleep being raped, by my mothers friend who she entrusted me with. Losing a period of time in my life I honestly never really want to get back. I never planned being so wasted with drugs and alcohol from ages 10-16 and living through so many injuries, accidents and willful attempts to just die due to loneliness abandonment. Where everything or everyone I got close to just went away.
With much empathy Lord for all those who have been so lost in this life.
Yet on the same token. I give thanks for although years later I got it. It was you that kept me alive.
Through being abused by strangers, fed full of drugs, reckless deadly accidents, several attempts on my life. You never hardened my heart.
On this day like many others I climbed out of bed by 4:15 wandering around taking care of my pets, and pulling myself together to drive that hour ride into a place of employment. Which so many no longer have, pets that make me crazy because I only really took on 2 myself and have a houseful due to rescue efforts of others to me. Yet I am saddened because one of the 2 I raised for 13 years was let out in a brand new neighborhood and never found her way back home.
I am use to it by now I think. You know Lord something’s are just engrained in us. But the pains of things we love and care for going away no longer throws me into a self destruct mode.
Oh how foolish I was as a child, but then again what did I know. No father, and a mother always pre – occupied and gone to be working.
Living in a home in a New York State Winter with no heat, no hot water, and our favorite meals were eggs, beans and spaghetti.
How badly we thought we had it back then, and we make it our life goal to keep our own children from experiencing any of what we went through.
Yet what that does is just enable them to not appreciate and facilitate positive motivated goals for their own future.
Dear Lord on this day I felt the need to write again. As the tiredness of life has kept my head in a dust cloud the past couple days, from that whirlwind of life’s events.
So much so that I stupidly rush off in a hurry to no where, and get myself a citation for speeding. Although I am still trying to figure out how the person in front of me got pulled over too. And they were told they were going 55 and yet I was doing 60 directly behind them.
Life is so convoluted. Trust me when I say I deserve a ticket, because just the day before again I raced off to no where just because I was exhausted and needed to get home and work. Not rest but work.
Well you know how I am.
Lord I could be referring this to dear diary. But I really have no bond with a diary.
You know I have sometimes really planned things out and made choices and felt good, and some have turned out really great. When others just about destroyed me.
I wish I knew what you have in store for me. I wish I knew why as a young girl before the age of 10 I would sit in my room with records playing full blast and sing my heart out. Dreaming of someday I would have a husband, family, and a cottage with the little white picket fence.
Yet instead I have been single more then not, even though divorced twice. Giving it my best shot with those so un matched. And eventually with my home put up the white lattice fencing myself.
I am still lonely Lord. But you fill my heart and soul with your mercy, grace ,peace and love.
I have been blessed with my biological brother and sister. And your kingdom filled with beautiful people.
Where I day dream at times what it would be like to be married to a Godly man. And then I realize I need to just leave things be.
If you want me with someone you will have that person take a stand.
That although I don’t know where I am going. I know where I have been. And you have carried me through so many obstacles.
Thank you for allowing me to be your child, sister and friend.
Lord if I wrote a diary I am not sure it would be any different with the words I say day to day.
But for now thank you with all I am for your guidance, wisdom and ability to pray.
So with that bless all and keep them from dismay.
Until next time I write I will see you some day.
Dear Lord
Today is such and such a day. Nothing out of the unusual on this day.
As you know before it even occurs; my life is always a whirlwind.
My alarm went off at 4am, as I lay there and try to think of worthy words to say to you. The only thing I could get out was giving thanks for another day, asking forgiveness on all the things that I just don't get, or miss. And protection and your will for myself, my family and all those who can not protect themselves.
On this day in particular; how tired am I from the emotional, physical changes continually going on. The stress of worry for my daughter and her daughter and all that has transpired. The endless thoughts of could I have done anything different to make it turn out differently.
To the peace I have with you, knowing without the trials in life; I would not be the person I am today.
So I never picked my life in a sense. I never planned on being awaken at 10 years old from a sound sleep being raped, by my mothers friend who she entrusted me with. Losing a period of time in my life I honestly never really want to get back. I never planned being so wasted with drugs and alcohol from ages 10-16 and living through so many injuries, accidents and willful attempts to just die due to loneliness abandonment. Where everything or everyone I got close to just went away.
With much empathy Lord for all those who have been so lost in this life.
Yet on the same token. I give thanks for although years later I got it. It was you that kept me alive.
Through being abused by strangers, fed full of drugs, reckless deadly accidents, several attempts on my life. You never hardened my heart.
On this day like many others I climbed out of bed by 4:15 wandering around taking care of my pets, and pulling myself together to drive that hour ride into a place of employment. Which so many no longer have, pets that make me crazy because I only really took on 2 myself and have a houseful due to rescue efforts of others to me. Yet I am saddened because one of the 2 I raised for 13 years was let out in a brand new neighborhood and never found her way back home.
I am use to it by now I think. You know Lord something’s are just engrained in us. But the pains of things we love and care for going away no longer throws me into a self destruct mode.
Oh how foolish I was as a child, but then again what did I know. No father, and a mother always pre – occupied and gone to be working.
Living in a home in a New York State Winter with no heat, no hot water, and our favorite meals were eggs, beans and spaghetti.
How badly we thought we had it back then, and we make it our life goal to keep our own children from experiencing any of what we went through.
Yet what that does is just enable them to not appreciate and facilitate positive motivated goals for their own future.
Dear Lord on this day I felt the need to write again. As the tiredness of life has kept my head in a dust cloud the past couple days, from that whirlwind of life’s events.
So much so that I stupidly rush off in a hurry to no where, and get myself a citation for speeding. Although I am still trying to figure out how the person in front of me got pulled over too. And they were told they were going 55 and yet I was doing 60 directly behind them.
Life is so convoluted. Trust me when I say I deserve a ticket, because just the day before again I raced off to no where just because I was exhausted and needed to get home and work. Not rest but work.
Well you know how I am.
Lord I could be referring this to dear diary. But I really have no bond with a diary.
You know I have sometimes really planned things out and made choices and felt good, and some have turned out really great. When others just about destroyed me.
I wish I knew what you have in store for me. I wish I knew why as a young girl before the age of 10 I would sit in my room with records playing full blast and sing my heart out. Dreaming of someday I would have a husband, family, and a cottage with the little white picket fence.
Yet instead I have been single more then not, even though divorced twice. Giving it my best shot with those so un matched. And eventually with my home put up the white lattice fencing myself.
I am still lonely Lord. But you fill my heart and soul with your mercy, grace ,peace and love.
I have been blessed with my biological brother and sister. And your kingdom filled with beautiful people.
Where I day dream at times what it would be like to be married to a Godly man. And then I realize I need to just leave things be.
If you want me with someone you will have that person take a stand.
That although I don’t know where I am going. I know where I have been. And you have carried me through so many obstacles.
Thank you for allowing me to be your child, sister and friend.
Lord if I wrote a diary I am not sure it would be any different with the words I say day to day.
But for now thank you with all I am for your guidance, wisdom and ability to pray.
So with that bless all and keep them from dismay.
Until next time I write I will see you some day.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
2009-Life Is Poetic(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Colorful and Dark
Some in our life will fill us with purpose.
Some just with noise, or nerve- breaking-drama,
Clearly never good for us.
So as our Father of the Heavens
Gives us our desires; be it beautiful skylines
Or the sun set on fire.
Always remember the TRUTH
No matter how good the words sound
Reach for what is real
As a lie will always be a lie
As will Satan be a liar!
Some in our life will fill us with purpose.
Some just with noise, or nerve- breaking-drama,
Clearly never good for us.
So as our Father of the Heavens
Gives us our desires; be it beautiful skylines
Or the sun set on fire.
Always remember the TRUTH
No matter how good the words sound
Reach for what is real
As a lie will always be a lie
As will Satan be a liar!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
2009-The Vine(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
The Saturday night Vine Done Differently service came to a close 9-26-2009.
It has been a most uplifting journey.
Sharing and caring with what are like family and in my heart always my friends.
What started out as just doing; turned into a fulfilling God filled adventure.
To give is always better then to receive. Many of us know we can never get time back.
But for me and the others that pulled together to make things happen; just showing up willing to serve was the ultimate gift of all.
I personally could not have done my part; without all those who dedicated their time
To Speak
To worship
To sing’
To play in the band
To light candles
And to come and be fed or to just be themselves
I have many thanks to all; and to my God above for this door he opened and allowed me to walk through during the Vine Service / Vine Café cycle.
I can not imagine where I would have been, if I was not able to grow during this time with everyone who pulled this together. Thank you all; Thank you Jesus!
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
The Vine and the Branches
1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. 11I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. 14You are my friends if you do what I command. 15I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17This is my command: Love each other
It has been a most uplifting journey.
Sharing and caring with what are like family and in my heart always my friends.
What started out as just doing; turned into a fulfilling God filled adventure.
To give is always better then to receive. Many of us know we can never get time back.
But for me and the others that pulled together to make things happen; just showing up willing to serve was the ultimate gift of all.
I personally could not have done my part; without all those who dedicated their time
To Speak
To worship
To sing’
To play in the band
To light candles
And to come and be fed or to just be themselves
I have many thanks to all; and to my God above for this door he opened and allowed me to walk through during the Vine Service / Vine Café cycle.
I can not imagine where I would have been, if I was not able to grow during this time with everyone who pulled this together. Thank you all; Thank you Jesus!
With all that I am, All that I was always then, always now, always me Kelly
The Vine and the Branches
1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. 11I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. 14You are my friends if you do what I command. 15I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17This is my command: Love each other
Monday, September 28, 2009
2009-Everything Comes Full Circle; Pray about your Choices(PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)
Do you ever feel like you don’t know whether to just quit or continue the battle?
Where you are not one to give up or give in.
But you have to accept defeat in some situations, because there is no way to win.
Do you ever feel the pains of choices once made?
Kind of like when you've lost an important race.
No matter what you do, no matter what you say.
Things just won’t get back on track and the garbage just won’t go away.
I have to refer a song.
Where I may stumble; I may fall down; but I will not be moved!
I have made mistakes; and have faced heartaches but I will not be moved!
I know we all have demons in our closet.
No matter how badly we try to get it right.
It just never disappears from our sight.
Perhaps not anything terrible to most
But to us they leave us feeling as a surrogate host.
You know they are always out there even if they really are not your own.
Which leaves second guessing, always testing always looking for new ways to make something not broken better.
What is that; if it is not broken; don’t mess with it; don’t fix it.
So why do we constantly strive to make things as good as the next guy?
Leaving us in a vicious circle
Of self inflicted wounds; guilt from lack of knowledge
Anger at yourself so that there is no room for others to point out
Sometimes our choices make us look like fools.
It is not the end; there is no doom and gloom
But for crying out loud will the next time around be prayerfully thought out
And that there is nothing so important in life that must by pass prayerful thoughts or be rushed.
Where you are not one to give up or give in.
But you have to accept defeat in some situations, because there is no way to win.
Do you ever feel the pains of choices once made?
Kind of like when you've lost an important race.
No matter what you do, no matter what you say.
Things just won’t get back on track and the garbage just won’t go away.
I have to refer a song.
Where I may stumble; I may fall down; but I will not be moved!
I have made mistakes; and have faced heartaches but I will not be moved!
I know we all have demons in our closet.
No matter how badly we try to get it right.
It just never disappears from our sight.
Perhaps not anything terrible to most
But to us they leave us feeling as a surrogate host.
You know they are always out there even if they really are not your own.
Which leaves second guessing, always testing always looking for new ways to make something not broken better.
What is that; if it is not broken; don’t mess with it; don’t fix it.
So why do we constantly strive to make things as good as the next guy?
Leaving us in a vicious circle
Of self inflicted wounds; guilt from lack of knowledge
Anger at yourself so that there is no room for others to point out
Sometimes our choices make us look like fools.
It is not the end; there is no doom and gloom
But for crying out loud will the next time around be prayerfully thought out
And that there is nothing so important in life that must by pass prayerful thoughts or be rushed.
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