Sunday, December 4, 2022

12-05-2022 December (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Sunday, December 4, 2022


Meditation Opportunities coming from Biblegateway.com The Daily Verse

John 8:12  ESV English Standard Version

I Am the Light of the World

12 Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

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Justin Timberlake - Say Something ft. Chris Stapleton (Lyrics)

 

Light of the World - [Lyric Video] Lauren Daigle

 

Chris Tomlin - Noel (Live) ft. Lauren Daigle

 

O Holy Night (Live) - The McClures | Christmas Morning

 

for KING & COUNTRY - Drummer Boy | The Live Christmas Special

 

Christmas This Year - TobyMac [Feat. Leigh Nash]

 

for KING & COUNTRY - God Only Knows (Lyrics)

 

Lauren Daigle - You Say (Official Music Video)

 

Micah Tyler - Different (Official Music Video)

 

TobyMac - Lights Shine Bright (JT Daly Remix/Audio) ft. Hollyn

 


Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Can you hear Glory to the light of the world?   Is the static of all that really matters not so loud we cannot not remember we to are created from the same dust that Christ blood poured down that tree into the ground for the dust to breathed to life.   We are one yet so broken allowing the cosmic darkness to intercede and consume what we think we are allowing to be pushed away so we do not have to deal with it.

Does not matter what vessel or gate we are traveling through.   At what point do we realize every little speck matters?

 

At what will you realize where you are in this universe and who created you allowing life each day you are allowed back up?

 

We all have a story

Mine may have many different broken pieces glued back together or just squeezed in at a different angle.    I am fully aware the air I am given in this vessel that carries me comes from the God who shines the stars in abundance.  As he allows his love to give us breath every moment, we are allowed more of the journey that someday will end in the form we know it and continue on either in abundance of Glory that only Jesus can shine through us or in complete darkness where the only awareness is the screams of pain and horror in the torment that will never go away.

We are all broken we need not live in it; we need not deny it.

The Prince of Peace is waiting for you to climb into his lap where your hope, your trust will hold you safely forevermore.

Just because you were someone yesterday; who are you today?   We all change, by our choices, by circumstances of other’s choices.   By what we do  or do not do. By and at the hands of others.   What we say or do next will always matter.

 

When we are running from violence and domestic situations of those within need to be separated.  It does not mean you don’t love that person who hurts you because you must love them through prayer and give it all over to God.   We; men or women are not Gods that we should be trying to change or fix anyone.   And we are not super humans that we can take others verbal, mental or physical abuse because they are broken.     When you get away stay away.

I won’t deny that it is the hardest thing you must ever do to think the love of your life turns into some monster and all you can think of is how you were making plans for eternity yet five minutes within the same wrong could cause you life as you know it.      You leave, you get as far away and never look back physically.    You give it over in prayer and move on and never ever make excuses for anyone’s inability to love themselves much less know the difference of what love is for anyone else.      Love is not control, love is not physical, verbal or any kind of manipulation or abuse ever.   Love is not accepting excuses for others bad behaviors or ability to make good choices.

GOD IS LOVE!

 

There can be allot of things that people you meet will say and do in your lifetime.  However, when you think fondly of them, know why if you are ever asked.     More importantly when you think so fondly of anyone do you acknowledge your own being with the same atonement?  Why or why not?

We must truly know ourselves and love ourselves and know who we are in the image of Jesus Christ’s son of God, Maker of all things.   All the dark, corky, hysterically moments of laughter and tears. 

The day you finally realize who you are and realize that you need no one, but when you choose to be involved it is a want.    How differently things become.    Sure, life goes on and the good, bad and indifferent will come in waves.     But you stop settling and accepting just for the moment.

 

Allot of emotion comes out during the holiday seasons.    The loss of people, places and things sometimes bring us so down we end up sickly ourselves.   Bringing out the agitation and uncalled for emotion of anger trying to hurt others like we carry around for something God took away a long time ago.

Working with littles on Wednesdays one of the things we do before getting outside time.   We all give one prayer or praise on the board and at the end we pray together.   For these children ages 1st through 5th to be praying for their parents or grandparents’ health or needing homes or even that their friends’ parents are getting divorced.   Or that they just have a good visit when they see their mom or dad.   Or those that are a little older who are withdrawn as they adjust to foster care because at 10-years old they are fully aware that their parents are heroin addicts and in prison.     The stories are on and on with the roads of shattered glass up ahead for who long only God will know.    My own family what would once be a son-in-law being beat to death and set on fire all while gangs’ video tapped it and sent it to people that knew him.    In the wrong place at the wrong time doing the wrong things.     Taking life from his family as if the evil performed on him alone was not enough.    To know his children were exposed to something that will never go away even though the evil took place in another country and is now done and over.   Will they ever heal?  Will those who were so dark ever come to justice?   Only God knows!   He knows every second before it even happens. Before the dreams, before the reality, before the laughter or the tears.   He knows it all.

I have seen and heard so much in this lifetime and how I am able to still get up with even the slightest bit of hope.   I am blessed.  Even on those days that I too become a little more vocal about how the world is going.  Or what about even driving down the highway and someone driving a fool on a busy highway.     It is not coincidence my life has me still here, still sometimes challenging my lack of trust and setting myself up for failure or those times when it is beyond believe I have to seek direction the duration from him.  I will as you will always be the owner of the highs and lows that you will need to work through.  That I will work through!    We have to believe in something.   I believe in God the Father; Jesus Christ his son and the Holy Spirit that has and does breathe life into even the most deflated debilitating moments in this thing I call life.

Often reminded the lack of trust I have carried all my life and with just cause.  For all those moments I plunged into thinking I had it all figured out with dreams playing out in this mind of how things would be only to have the screen ripped into and rudely awakened.   There is a different of taking that trust game with people who have your back and just plain lack of fear; compared to reasons and desires to want to live.

 

Along the way if you choose to grow and find who you are.  You learn to grow when the light shines down on you.  And the beauty of light in love is you cling to it and hold on with all you got.  And yes when you have an a light go out because you realize they too are human and struggling with what their journey and you yourself put way too much into what they gave by what they did and forget they too need to live.

 

Yeah,  the riddles of this mine speaking in fragments that have impacts like looking down from the top of that roller coaster ride and the flash of what if this would be bad until the thrill washes through and you are on the other side.    Riding the waves of life is the same way.  Just now so much harder to find that floatation device when you get so exhausted because the darkness and wars are so much closer.

The universe knows how dark it is!  No big surprise.   Sick, twisted spirits robbing innocence and breaking others in droves.    For no apparent reason it seemed but the fact they could at the time they did it.

Is darkness winning.    We need not forget about any of that; but we need to shine brighter through the darkness and not let it consume us.    God is the light, he is the breath, he is all that sustains us.   The one who opened his arms, and the sky was filled with bold beautiful universal stars to light the way.   Why is it so hard to keep shining?

Perhaps because we are clinging to that of this world and not of the one who allows it to be.  I am no expert; far from it.   I am just AlwaysMe!    As each day comes through and I am allowed another I find my tolerance to be limited for hate and the garbage that is temporal for the one spewing especially where you can clearly see it will have a lifetime impact to someone, somewhere.

For all of those who found Everything in nothing. Kudos!!!   For those still struggling and doing whatever it takes to make your mark, find your mark or be the mark others may remember for more than 15 seconds much less 15 minutes of fame.   The only way to found is lost.  You have to go to the maker and the only way to get to God is through Jesus Christ.   Daily, every second of every day you are given.  The journey is yours; you like me just impact all those you been blessed to connect along the way.    Someone is always watching.  Someone is always listening and waiting for their opportunity.    The choices of what you are chasing or allowing to go by are yours.   No matter what direction know only you can drive the change for you.   You cannot change anyone else and if you think they are changing you.  I it is because you are allowing them to do so.   The freedom and will and choice that God gave every one of us.   Need to be maintained just as much as our physical temples we are allowed to travel in.    Get back up, don’t give in to darkness.    Shine bright and know there will always be someone out there looking at misery needing company.   There will always be mean people who suck and always bullies taking and steam rolling over the beauty in your hearts garden.      Give it to God, pray for them, pray for change.      Pray for peace in their souls, even for the forgiveness we need ourselves.    Learn to forgive yourself with and through Jesus.    Let it Go; Let it Hurt; Let it Heal in and with Him!   

As I myself lift all those heartstrings up for healing, to be unknotted, to be straightened out, to be wrapped around and in abundant love, hope and the peace only Jesus can give.  You know all things, Father.   I need not call out names, or situations.   

Thank you for this day, thank you for this moment.   Your will forever be done throughout all I am or connect with.

 

Tuesday, November 29, 2022

11.29.2022 November (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Tuesday November 29th, 2022

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Psalm 136:1,26 ESV English Standard Version

His Steadfast Love Endures Forever

136 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good,
    for his steadfast love endures forever.

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Imagine Dragons - Bleeding Out (Lyric Video)

 

Do It Again (by Elevation Worship) | WorshipMob live with Cross Worship & Osby Berry

 

MercyMe - Even If (lyrics)

 

TobyMac (DC Talk)- Space (Lyrics)

 

Perfectly Loved- Rachael Lampa and TobyMac

 

Brooke Ligertwood - Honey in the Rock (with Brandon Lake) [Lyric Video]

 

Zach Williams - Plan For Me [Official Audio]

 

All My Hope - Crowder ft. Tauren Wells

 

 


Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

Lord when I said wake me up early if you have something for me to say today.  Seriously I did not mean 2am.  Yes, in the past I would be up all hours of the night and the inspiration at just a song or word that someone would say had free flowing mind dumps all over the place.   I did not get up because these past few days have been challenging.   I wish I really know exactly why, but they are maybe it’s just everything.  Loss of loved one’s that are no longer available to hang out with and just vibe and talk for hours.   The weariness of non-stopping and on-going changes and knowing I can’t do this on my own.   Yet, even with all I raise up I have a hard time asking for me.  Maybe because after coming out of the desert and feeling the blessing that made me soar only to be left out on that cliff looking around and really seeing the world is the same everywhere and so are the people within it.  Family, Friends, loved one’s and strangers in the night.   We are all purposing for something and me yeah; no matter how much I stay until you say move.   It does not stop that dreaming wide awake.

 

That Love and appreciation you hold for people, places, and things and one day the scales come off and you realize no matter if it is work, people, or all / any things.   You still no matter how much you know you are loved and in love.   You find yourself wandering to the human side with hopes of that satisfaction of only what Jesus allows to come to life.     There is not enough fame or fortune that can fill the voids that only God knows to how to fill.  

 

Unfortunately, when we connect, we realize too late that even those who speak and preach the gospels in this world today have those human tendencies to be more human than spirit filled.     When you are in church, and someone openly talks about others.      Remember who surrounds you, don’t be the person that leaves the imprint in a visitor to Gods house hear you being no different than the world.  

Crazy how I can be, so spirit fed yet getting robbed at the same time.

And what about the emotional overload I feel lately with family sometimes.    Wanting the best for their wellbeing and just being me.   Yet somethings I have no control over just stick with me.  Even when I pray about them and ask for you to take it from me.

 

Crazy this holiday spirit is here but it feels a billion miles away sometimes.

 

You have never failed me yet Jesus!   That is without a doubt; even when I don’t see the change.    Your will be done, my sweet soul king beyond all time and space!     I don’t know if any would ever understand that knowledge of what you fill this soul with even in the moments.

 

You are and will forever be enough.  Even when I do not see the purpose in the pain.    Still in your hands, blessed beyond all deserving, all measure even if, even when.    Recently being overwhelmed in situations that took me back to that young girl who felt so unworthy to be on this planet.      It had been years since that had consumed me.   A child trying to find life in a world so alone.     Conversations, and actions with somehow sent me back there waking up in the ER with my stomach being pumped and filled with IV and just not understanding what my purpose in life then was to be.   No, I won’t ever do that again; not on God’s life when he bled out so I could have mine. 

But the lessons in life sometimes come back to remind you just how strong over time we are really are.    I won’t ever lie.   I miss my broken heart strings that are no longer here.   The fact this world and all of us are on a crash course to what many may never recover from.     The fact so many including my children may never have that one-on-one relationship with you Jesus.    The fact it sucks losing friends, family and precious moments to things that should have never been in the first place.

This is the first year in a lifetime, so it seems that space is so empty some days more than others and the love of those we deeply care for are just being sucked through this vortex as Gods angel army and all his children here and now are holding on to the door jams and fighting harder than they have to be.     

 

This too shall pass, just as it written out in history of the Psalms to looking back on the other side of that riverbank when we never thought we could make it through the storm of the night; yet here we are with miles of treacherous grounds covered and fully protected and loved by God himself.

Lord there are so many sufferings, so many that live and breathe all you call them to be, and those that do not even know you.     May they stay strong in you?   May they get back up and find the light that will ignite who you created them to be once again?  Will you do the same for me?

 

Some days I wish I could openly write out that romance novel that some may spend their entire lives dreaming about.  But let’s face it; you showed me how to ignore that little white picket fence to start by building my white lattice fence to later want more bold mind-blowing colors of each day that will never fade.    When you look into someone’s soul and see just how beautiful they are on any given day is just as beautiful as the impact to those empty souls that send shivers down your spine and know all you can do is get away as fast as possible and pray without ceasing.

You Jesus you hear all the unspoken, all the tears, all the screams and sufferings of the innocence being violated in so many ways of this world.    May we stop looking the other way.  May we stop being performers and be held accountable.     May we light the path and trust in all that unseen faith knowing how sweet you are Jesus?

 

We are awake

There is no doubt that Father God.    Heal this land, heal this craziness.   Bring us back to your gates at the foot of the cross where morals mattered, and science meant something in line with all you are.

You have a plan for all of us; not just me.   Even though I am so too many times lately going through the motions.

 

You are and forever will always be.  Here and now and throughout eternity.   Thank you, Jesus, for this journey.  You did not have to allow me any of it.   Be with all of us who sometimes forget the broken pieces are your beautiful mosaic imprint even if we feel like we got swallowed up by some huge sticky bun of life and keep grasping tightly when we should just keep our hands and eyes lifted high.  Allowing the jagged edges of life to cut deeper than we will ever understand.

These moments may come and go, and I may beat the crap out of myself for what I count as failures.  But you are the lamp to my heart, my soul, and every broken piece of me allowed to transpire.    All my hope is in you Jesus.   For all I am and will be.  For all my connections not just those blood ties I came in the world having.

Your will   You got this not me; yet I pray your favor for all that is good, pure, and everlasting with and through you.  

Lift the heaviness not just from me, but all who call upon your name Father.    May I never reflect what you are not.   Human I may be but the choices to act, react, speak or stay silent are mine. For this I am grateful to be allowed to choose each day you get me back up.

 

Hold me and all I will ever be tight to you.   Thank you for this day and any others on the horizons!

Monday, November 21, 2022

11.21.2022 November (PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe_AlwaysMeKelly)

 

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Monday November 21st, 2022


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1 Corinthians 1:4-5 ESV English Standard Version

Thanksgiving

I give thanks to my God always for you because of the grace of God that was given you in Christ Jesus, that in every way you were enriched in him in all speech and all knowledge—

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dc Talk - My Will (Live At Palace Of Auburn Hills, Detroit, MI/1999)

 

Dee-1 - I'm Not Perfect (I'm A Christian) (Video)

 

Zauntee - Jesus Called My Name (Official Music Video)

 

Christian Rap - Justus - More Than Life ft. Sevin music video

 

Jon Reddick - In The Room (Live) [Official Music Video]

 

"Start Over" - FLAME feat. NF - Official Video

 

Casting Crowns - Only Jesus (Official Music Video)

 

Pat Barrett - The Way (New Horizon) (Lyric Video)

 

 


Thinking Out Loud – Journal Thoughts/Prayers / Mind Maze Overflow

I won’t like all these ads tied to every free song I can pull up drives me crazy.  Knowing the world is in a spin and for the most part yes between storms, tragedy, wars we need to be prepared.

However, there is nothing that will be enough if you do not realize that ONLY JESUS can bring you through either in this world or on the other side.

 

Talking to one of the young ladies that just was broken into again as a mother that their son doing well hung out with the wrong people and ended up violated.   When she told me she told him he better pray to God, because this time is a long time.      I told her today that praying to God is not enough.  It is clearly written the only way to God is through Jesus Christ.  So, he doesn’t need no church where he is at to start that relationship right then and now between him and Jesus.    Every single moment of every single day he has been given.  Every one of us!

 

Believe what you will, what you must.  But the point is we all own our own choices.   We tend to forget that there is always a result, outcome at the end of any choice.  And they are not all fun and laughter or no one will every know.    Someone is always watching.  Some is always, ready to do what it takes for their own misdeeds by throwing those so-called besties under the bus so they can be set free; or so they think.

Anyway, it is what it is until its not.  And I am beyond blessed and thankful to know my stupid choices in my youth did not destroy any chance of the days I have been given.  More importantly that He never stopped calling my name.  And that one day I finally heard His calling.

 

Crazy how we don’t think in our youth and during forced redemption sometimes we find out who we are really meant to be. While others we forget we can lead by example just for ourselves with Christ within.  All the while at times we get caught up think the people we surround ourselves with during what brings us laughs or temporary pleasure will be there when times get bad.  Man, our human path is so jacked up when it comes down to learning in this world without deep belief and conviction within the awareness of the blood that ran down that cross and poured into the earth allowing the same dust Jesus breathed on allows us what we call life.

 

The way, The Truth, The Life~ I believe in Jesus Christ and everything that he walked this earth, preached, suffered, and died in human for from and for!

My heart and prayers go out and man do I hurt allot when I think about the self-infliction of so many beautiful souls and talent with so much promise to shine in this world that left this world far too soon because of choices in people, places, and things. 

God has a plan; I know this.  What the purpose of everything that happens on any daily moment give.  I may never understand.  But I stopped chasing and trying to figure it out long ago.

 

Knowing I am loved and deeply in love with all that Jesus is.  I don’t know what else could.   Sure, all those wild hearts along that of my own.  That deep  passion and sometimes heartless compassion that we call lust.  Will chew us up and spit us out in a blink of an eye.

But when you finally hear and respond to Jesus calling your name.  Oh, what beauty in all things eyes wide open or shut.  As by then you are seeing with the beating heart that you were given.

When you accept Jesus is in the room with you and really turn to him first, there is no longer that empty space and time.  Only the awareness of the blessings in awe no matter how manic we become.  It all becomes more than life.  

Broken crayons still color, we all bleed red, I am always me; you are always you.   Creation in the very breath the God of this world created in the image of the man who came from Abrahams decent down from the heavens. Our kinship; our hope, our future.   Jesus given paying a debt we will never come close to ever being able to do so.

Why we cry out why me, I am a good person, yet are we good to the temples we have been given.  Are we steadfast in hope and every lasting light to shine bright for those coming up behind us.

So many stories, mine or yours doesn’t matter.  We are imperfect and perfectly placed right where he wants us.  What we do with it all or none matters most.

Rags to Riches or the least of these.  Know who you are and know who all that are blessing to be in your path either for a message or for a lesson.   Knowing true love will only be Gods to give, cause we would not know hot to honor what he meant anyway.

 

Old hymns are beautiful but so is truth and life is what we reflect in works, words, and actions every moment we are allowed back up.

Don’t change who you are because you were too kind and loving and others took your kindness for weakness.  Don’t change to be something others think you should be or things they want to see done but won’t do themselves. And even if they do question what is it going to do for you?  What will it bring me and who will be impacted and is that something I want to live with the rest of the life I am given on this earth?

 

God created you for you.  Self-inflicted suffering because you don’t want to listen to wise advice is your problem when you know in advance that what you are doing is wrong.   God doesn’t care what kind of sin you are in.  He cares that you have not chosen to live your best life and shine bright and share and plant for a harvest of all other live needing the blessings you have been gifted.

 

My rambling may never make sense or even do a thing for you.   For me the little pieces and moments given to flow out to harmonize and find that unbalance to get back up and keep growing forward.

Darkness is upon us; we have to be that light and start over and shine on.

Thanksgiving is upon us and no matter how hard it is.   It is more than just one day a year we need to look up and be thankful and start living for all the times you have been given that do over when you / we did not deserve it.   Sure, sometimes things won’t work the way we fight for.   But God’s got you and got this with you.   Learn to live, love, and laugh with clean hands pure hearts and more to give out of nothing than anyone could with the worldly everything.

My mind maze has me sounding like I am telling people what to do.   I can only suggest and share the blessings I have been given in this journey seeking purpose in a world that can be so painful because we dump all we are in to people that rarely acknowledge who they are meant to be much less who God intended us all to be~  

 

Many prayers, blessings, and love in abundance with God lift you up high while Jesus holds you closer than you will ever realize.  Healing for all who are still here every day we get back up and protection and guidance for all those caught in the storms of this world at the hand of darkness.   If you are comfortable where you are.  You are not walking close enough to Jesus! 

 

For all of those souls who left too soon.  You are missed, you are loved, and you will never be forgotten.  Those you left behind will always have that glimpse in our hearts with smiles at times and pain others.  May your spirit sour with Gods angel army as we here on earth need all of God’s people.  No matter how weird that sounds here and now.  Birthdays, Holidays, a song, a smell or just laughter so hard you cannot stop crying.  May your souls be flying high with Christ Jesus.   May you shine bright for us to wake us up and lead the way so we get back up when we stumble and walk forward to the promise of all Jesus is and ever will be!

Sunday 5-11-2025_PrayersThoughts_PiecesofMe (AlwaysMeKelly)

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