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Date: Sunday, January 17, 2021
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(Biblegateway.com) Bible Verse of the Day
14 Do
everything without grumbling or arguing, 15 so that you may become
blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and
crooked generation.”[a] Then
you will shine among them like stars in the sky 16 as you hold firmly to the word of life.
And then I will be able to boast on the day of Christ that I did not
run or labor in vain.
Meditation Opportunities
(@Jesus Calling 365 Devotions with
Real-Life Stories @Sarah Young)
Psalm 118:24
This is the day the Lord has made; let us
rejoice and be glad in it.
Philippians 4:19
And my God will meet
all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7 NASB
Be anxious for
nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let
your requests be made know to God. And
the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and
your minds in Christ Jesus.
Daily Journal/Thoughts/ Prayers (my perspectives and/or feelings):
Thank you, Lord,
for the blessings you allow and one which is allowing me back up this day.
As the thoughts
came this as they always do. I have to
ask AM I/Are We living up to our full potential.
Do we really have
faith, drive and/or ambition to believe enough to get back up and go for it?
Do we really believe there is a higher power
that has breathed into existence long before science, long before political agendas,
long before riots and wars a humanity meant for more than selfish or
self-gratifying ambitions?
The Bible I
believe and not absolute because I am not a theologian which is why I learn
from those who study, teach, and continually learn.
The Bible written
in the Old Testament about 1200 and 165 BC.
With many
different variations of rewritten versions and even people living out what they
think it means since then.
But long before
anyone I know was ever in existence.
Yet its story, its direction, its bibliographical history remains the
same.
We can all get
into debates and argue out the big bang theories or any other theory as to the
how’s or whys of evolution, revolution, or even spontaneous combustion from all
the populations of time and humanity of this world.
I choose to
believe in God, I choose to believe in Jesus Christ, and I choose to believe
His spirit lives within each and every soul in the here and now that calls upon
Him daily and invites him in to live, to teach, to love, to direct, to help, to
heal, to live.
In my time and my
journey has had so many twists and turns from a child up to my yesterday’s. There are many reasons why I should have
failed or even been dead out of this world long ago.
At the hands of others,
at the broken pieces of my own choices all throughout my life.
As a girl growing
up with a strong Irish Catholic background and family ties. I always knew there was a God; But never in
my youth did I ever really get what that meant. I just knew I had to go to church, and I
would drag any of my friends along with me no matter if I was out partying the
night before or it was a holiday.
Somehow, I always
prayed or would just sit and talk even as a teen and predict my future. Knowing
at 14 If I did not change my ways and find purpose, I would be dead before my 20s
and knowing if I did not have a purpose if I did not have reason to live; would
certainly die. It was the motto that if
we did not live dangerous back then we were not living.
I had already
survived severe illness before I was 10; I had already survived severe injury
before I was 10. I had already been fed
to the demons and fighting for my life the only way I knew how and under the
influence from ages 10 through 15.
I was already condemned
by the same bloodline that was called family of who I was; yet no one had ever
asked why I was. I was already pumped
out from suicide attempts before I had even become 16, picked off the ground of
a van flipping off the highway rolling from going around an exit too fast and the
driver losing control. That night surly
when there was a boat motor in the back of the van could have so easily taken
us out. Instead, I flew through a
windshield. That vehicle I should have
never been in. Or what about years prior
when that drunk driver ran my family off the road and me, my brother and sister
with our mother were in the car and I hit that dashboard. Was that just the start of understanding how
painful life could be.
I believe in
Jesus Christ because I have always known there is a God of this universe. But it was not until I came to learn more
about Jesus and fell in love that I really started finding life and purpose and
understood all of those moments when I should have never found my way back out
of the woods when a stranger took me.
Those moments when for years I would wake fighting in my sleep for life,
to breathe as I would awake and realize it was all the nightmare living over
and over again of that same friend my mother was connected that she trusted had
taken the very part of my soul that for many years later would have never been
healed without knowing who Jesus is.
All those same
pains of wanting so much more in life for our very own and making wrong choices
and fighting our way through. Those same
pains of watching our child or children in harms way and doing everything we
can to prevent anything; all the while knowing we cannot change what they set
into motion if they do not want to allow it to change.
My addictions of
a child that once masked all the shame all the pains all the hurts all the
habits all the hang-ups all the wishing, and wanting filled with broken
choices, broken pieces. Turned into proving everyone wrong. Proving I mattered, proving I had worth. Learning all my life I chased just
wanting someone to really love me for me.
Some to love and trust. While
even though I would get back up I could not do it for myself.
It took the
blessings of two children to drive me to prove to them what we do, who we are
matters. It took Jesus Christ to show
me no matter who we are and what we do it will never be enough for the
world. But through Him, with HIM there
would never be anything anyone could ever do, say, or take as He already took
every bit of shame and pain to the cross.
I won’t say I
stopped proving to anyone of this world.
I know that I will never be good enough or even just enough. Yes, loved and appreciated. But I know that only to the God who allowed
me to come to this earth. The one who
put the stars in the sky and knows every hair on my head. The one that says do it for me and when you
are on the other side look back and see that was not so bad. In fact, look at the blessings you have in
me; with me and for me to light the way on the paths you decide to walk.
Life has never
been promised to be easy and there is not one thing free in the world. Everything has a cost. That sweet treat you are eating does things
to your health; that medication fixing one thing is breaking something else;
that love interest well what are you giving up and do you really know why.
God has given you
freedom of choices, freedom of will. You
can believe and do whatever you set your mind and physical being to. But is it in harmony with the life and love He
created humanity for in the first place?
If you are in a
broken anything; change it! You get to
choose. Even if someone is holding a
gun to your head; You get to choose.
Children, babies,
handicapped, elderly; they do not get to choose. But every single soul has freedom of choice
until they are physically too young, or
too old, or emotional damaged enough or too much to no be able to.
You, Me we are
all worth far too much for the cost Jesus Christ paid on that cross to have
life to not understand we all get to choose what we will do with the results
impacting us from other choices, or even what we will do when the choices of
our own ripple that tsunami wave of good or bad results out onto those we are
connected.
Am I living up to
my full potential? Doubtful. I am good, I am better than some, but not as
much as others. However, none of that matters. What matters is we all know why we are doing
what we do; what matters is owning the end result no matter if it goes our way
or not.
What matters is giving
thanks for being allowed back up another day and showing loyalty, respect for
the vessel that we were given. Showing love and respect for those we are blessed
to connect. To be and to do because it
matters; not because we think we will get something in the end.
As there is no
amount of prayer, good works, or payments we here in humanity can do or give
that will get us in the good graces of God.
Only that
personal day to day relationship and purposing to pick up that moral compass
and seeking his lighted path knowing He, Jesus Christ is the cornerstone and
the rock when everything around us makes no sense, hurts so bad, or is just
sinking.
I can only tell
you my story, my journey all the rights, all the wrongs all the awesome beauty
and all the fires that have left deep scars in this being that some how I know
filled with a peace I cannot describe but just is and it all came because Jesus
first loved me, and I finally got it. I
was never alone in this world even though it seemed like it.
He is and always
will be carrying me when I can no longer walk.
He is the air in these lungs, Jesus is the reason why I am allowed back
up.
Thank you, Lord,
for the blessings of life and the scars that became steps to find you.
Please direct my
path and show me how to love like you love each day I am allowed back up, until
the day I die.
Be with every
connection I have had or will have.
You know my heart, you are my soul, you are everything! Be everything for all whom I know.
God I cannot
explain, I cannot make reason of any of this life; only you can do this. Only you give me strength, that Joy, that
Peace, that Mercy and Grace.
Please heal us!
Please heal this land!
Please heal
minds, bodies, and spirits! Fill us up
Jesus.
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